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Living Day to Day

Chapter twelve

"The deal's done Sam, it's over with, there's nothing we can do about it. And I'm not about to let you give up on life because of it." Dean was angry, but when he saw the pain in his brother's eyes he lowered his voice. "Sam if you give up on living then my death will be for nothing."

"You told me you couldn't live with me being dead….so how the hell am I suppose to live with you being dead?….. Dean….you're all I have left." Sam's voice cracked with emotion as he pulled away from his brother. He managed to take a few steps before falling his knees.

"Oh God!" He cried out in pain as his hands flew up to his temples.

"Sammy!" Dean dropped to the floor next to his brother. "Take it easy Sammy, take it easy….." He remembered the doctor's warning that he had to keep Sam calm. "Just take a couple of deep breaths…." He coached his brother. "Sam when did you last take the pills?"

"I'm not sure…a couple of hours ago I think……Oh God Dean…Oh God it hurts!" Sam looked at his brother and Dean could see the pain and fear in his eyes.

"I know it hurts Sam but you got to try and stay calm." Dean put Sam's arm over his shoulder and slowly stood up. "Just lean on me Sam…." He slowly started walking toward the door. "I got to get you to the hospital Sam….Just relax…just take it easy…"

He finally got Sam out to the car and into the passenger's seat. Dean then climbed in the driver's seat and sped toward the hospital.

"Dean…."

"It's gonna be alright Sam….it's gonna be alright…." Dean kept repeating, more to reassure himself then to reassure his brother.

"Dean….I'm sorry….I don't want the last thing I might do …is to be arguing with you." The pain was unbearable and Sam wished he could just die and get it over with.

"You're going to be fine Sam. The doc's going to patch you up and you'll be as good as new."

"But….but if they can't ….I just want you to know…I …I…." Sam suddenly gasped in pain and slumped down in his seat his head falling onto his brother's shoulder.

Dean put his arm around him and held him close to him.

"Sammy you hang in there….you hang tough. You hear me Sammy….you got to hang in there….I'm not losing you…not again…." He kept repeating over and over as he sped toward the hospital.

The hospital

Dean pulled into the emergency entrance and ran inside.

"Where's Dr. Mallery? I need Dr. Mallery!" He shouted to the emergency room nurse.

"We'll page him. What's the matter?" She asked as she paged the doctor.

"My brother…he's in the car…" Dean didn't even wait for help; he grabbed a litter and pushed it back to the car as the nurse followed him. "He has a blood clot on his brain and it needs to be removed."

Dean opened the door and Sam's body began to fall out. He quickly grabbed him before he hit the ground and pulled him up onto the litter then pushed it back into the ER just as the doctor came off the elevator.

"What happened?" He asked Dean as he hurried over to Sam.

"He got a really bad headache and then he passed out. I can't wake him up." Dean watched as the doctor examined his brother. "He'll be okay won't he?"

"When was the last time he took the pills?" The doctor asked as he opened Sam's eyes and shined a small penlight into them.

"I don't know…he thought a couple of hours ago…he wasn't sure."

"We got to get him up to the OR stat." He said to another doctor.

"He's gonna be okay isn't he?" Dean asked when he saw the worried look on the doctor's face.

"Sorry….I don't want to give you any false hope. The blood clot might have moved and if that happened….." The doctor shook his head sadly.

Dean felt like he had been struck by a truck. Was Sam going to die?

"You gotta save him doc….he's all I have." Dean said softly, his eyes welling up with tears.

"We'll do our best."

A horrible loneliness came over Dean as he watched them push Sam's body into the elevator and up to the OR.

TBC