Authors note:...um...I dont know...I don't own D. grey man. and please review...forget to add that all the time...
Komui was in his office on the phone with Tiedoll arguing with him over Allen's isolation. Allen being isolated wasn't doing him any good. As far as Komui could tell Allen wasn't crazy…just scared and confused. Allen was lost with no sense of which way was the right direction. And the guiding light in the darkness for Allen seemed to be Kanda. Komui knew that Allen could never hurt Kanda. Allen would clearly kill himself before ever even posing a real threat to Kanda. Tiedoll didn't seem to care about any of that. He was being a concerned father rather than a therapist right now which rather conflicting.
"And what if your wrong? You say that Allen could overpower Nea if Nea posed a threat to Kanda. Look at what Allen did to himself. Nea is much more violent than Allen… I can't risk it. Allen is my patient…but Yu is my son. I have to protect him over my patients." Tiedoll explained gripping the phone in his home office. Little did Tiedoll know said foster child was in the hall listening to his half of the conversation.
"I am telling you. Allen, Nea, will never hurt Yu. He is physically incapable. His heart won't let him. Not letting Allen see Yu to figure things out…you would be failing as a therapist. Allen needs help. And you are denying him the only thing that can save him from himself. If Allen manages to actually kill himself…you'll be a murderer." Komui stated.
"You are telling me how to do my job?" Tiedoll almost growled. "Yu is more important to me than Allen. As horrible as it is to say as I care a lot about Allen. I have lost patients before…but I have never lost a child nor do I intend to. Allen can get a new therapist…" Tiedoll was cut off by Kanda practically kicking in his door.
"Old man! You are not going to give up on him! Let me see him damn it! This is about him and me. So he and I should be discussing things! Not you!" Kanda growled slamming his hands down on Tiedoll's desk. Tiedoll stared up into Kanda's eyes. His eyes were very determined and Tiedoll knew there was no stopping Kanda.
"Yu….don't get mad at me…I just worry about you…" Tiedoll hadn't meant to upset Kanda with his words about Allen.
"I can fucking protect myself! He's fucking Moyashi! He can't hurt me! He's too damn weak and too damn caring. Now tell me where he is." Kanda demanded.
"Yu…." Tiedoll sighed. There really was no winning. He gave in telling Kanda where Allen was. Kanda was halfway out the office as Tiedoll told him where to find Allen. Kanda wasted no time getting to the hospital. The nurse in charge of Allen tried to stop Kanda from entering Allen's room.
"Get the fuck out of my way. I have fucking Tiedoll's permission to see Moyashi." Kanda growled softly but it still had its usual effect. The nurse froze standing between Kanda and the door to Allen's room.
"Let him through. Its okay." Komui called from behind Kanda. Kanda glared over his shoulder at Komui as the nurse slowly moved out of the way unsure. Kanda huffed softly before entering the room a little more calm than he was actually feeling. He stopped at the foot of the bed to see a pale sleeping Allen in the bed. It was painful to see Allen in such a state. Kanda walked slowly to the side of the bed reaching out to look at Allen's bandaged wrist that was closest to him. He unwrapped the bandage to see just how badly Allen had hurt himself. It really took Kanda by surprise just how bad it was. Allen was most definitely going to have two more scars. Even the best of surgeons couldn't prevent the deeps scars Allen was going to have when the wounds were completely healed. Slowly Kanda's hand trailed up to the cuff on Allen's arm. It really pissed Kanda off that Allen was restrained but he understood why he was.
"Don't. I feel safer with them on." Allen said softly unmoving as Kanda started to undo the cuff on the arm which Kanda had removed the bandage from. Kanda stared down at Allen as Allen slowly opened his eyes to look up at Kanda. He seemed so tired…worn out. Done. Allen was done. He had given up. Allen was done fighting.
"Moyashi…you need to get out of here. This place is depressing." Kanda said softly as he looked around the room avoiding looking at Allen. He couldn't stand to see Allen like this. So lifeless and weak. Allen laughed softly as he shook his head.
"I'm never getting out. After this I'm quite certain I'm going to be committed…I mean come on Kanda. Seriously? I tried to kill myself…I have split personality…I'm crazy…I need to be committed." Allen was trying not to laugh.
"Shut up. When the hell did you become so weak?" Kanda demanded glaring down at Allen who stared in return. "This really isn't you at all. You're just giving up like that? You're going to let Nea win just like that? When happened to the Allen that was starting to open up? Started to actually live again? Like a normal person."
"K-Kanda…" Allen stared up at Kanda unsure of what to say. What could he say? Allen blinked as tears threatened to escape his eyes. He was so tired of crying. Of being so weak. "K….Kanda… h-help me… I don't want to be weak anymore… I want to be normal…I want to be able to stand at your side and not be afraid of myself... I know I really have no right to ask you to…." Allen was cut off by something warm and soft pressing against his lips. Allen opened his eyes that he hadn't even realized he closed to see that what he was feeling was Kanda's lips pressed to his own. Kanda's eyes were closed so he didn't see the tears that fell from Allen's eyes as he closed his eyes again.
"I… love you Kanda…" Allen said softly into the kiss.
"Good. Cause I love you too Moyashi." Kanda smiled softly as he pulled away just a little to stare into Allen's eyes. "Ha. I found you Moyashi. I knew you were in there." Kanda smiled softly as he saw some of the life return to Allen's eyes. But with that life came confusion, fear and uncertainty. Kanda brushed Allen's bangs back as he placed a tender kiss on Allen's forehead.
"I'll help you. No matter what. I'll help you become strong. And for as long as you let me…I'll keep you by my side." Kanda promised. Allen let out a shaky breath as he closed his eyes again. He was…so happy…and so scared. But with Kanda at his side…Allen could believe that everything would be alright in the end.
"…..Would it be too much to ask you to say that again…?" Allen asked softly. Kanda stared at Allen trying to figure out what he needed to hear again. Kanda gently flicked Allen's forehead.
"Just this once I'll say it cause you asked. I love you Moyashi. So you're just gonna have to deal with me." Kanda teased making Allen laugh softly.
"Thank you Kanda." Allen smiled up at Kanda. Really in his own strange way Kanda was very caring. And Allen was very thankful to have been able to get to meet Kanda in person. Oh…that made Allen think of something. Something he needed to fix. "Kanda…could you do me a favor? I need to talk to Marian-san. Can you ask him to come to the hospital to see me? I haven't seen him since a little after I woke up here."
"Sure…I guess I can tell him you want to see him…" Kanda had a very displeased expression as he looked off to the side. Kanda and Cross really did not get along. Allen had no idea as to why that was, he just knew it was true.
"Thank you Kanda. For everything. You really are like a samurai…my samurai…" Allen smiled up at Kanda sleepily yet very happy. Kanda scoffed softly in slight amusement as he shook his head softly.