Chapter 11: Scrapbooks and appologies

"Bella... you said Babies. In plural. You're having... multiples?" He asked almost hesitantly. I nodded.

"Two little girls and a baby boy." I said proudly. Edward looked shocked. I couldn't blame him; how would you react if you found out you had impregnated someone under impossible circumstances?

"Who knows about this?"

I laughed. "Everyone. It's not easy hiding this belly, you know."

He asked more questions, all in that same careful voice. I answered in the same way, instinct telling me not to trust the father of my babies. He asked about the names, and I have them to him. He loved them, and I was glad. He had asked about everything; from how I found out to how different half-vampire pregnancy was from a human one. It wasn't much different, really, except for some pretty powerful kicks. These abies would be stronger than normal kids; no doubt.

"Can I...?" He asked finally, reaching towards my stomach. I smiled. Edward seemed excited about his... our babies.

I nodded. His cold hand suprised the kids growing inside me, and I felt them shift and kick.

"Oof," I complained, my hand shooting down to the little footprint showing through my tight shirt. That was a hard kick. Edward's eyes were wide with surprise. I guess his reaction to feeling his kids under my kin was the same as mine; a wake up call. A shout that this was all real. Was that fear in his eyes?

"You're going to be a great dad, Edward." I assured him. He gave me a half-hearted smile.

"You're going to be an even better mother." I smiled. I hoped so... Though I wasn't too sure. Parenthood. The word shot nervousness through me.

"If you are as scared of parenthood, as I am, I can't believe I put you through all of this." He joked.

"I am definitely just as scared. Maybe more. But you get used to it." I said matter-of-factly. "and than it just feels... amazing. Warm, almost."

He looked at me with awe. "You're definiely going to be the better parent" He decided. I laughed.

"Nah. I've just had time to let it sink in. Just wait for the shock to fade a bit." I teased.

"I can't believe I wasn't here..." There was genuine sadness in his voice.

"Truthfully," I said. "Neither can I. But there's no changing the past."

"Bella, I can never express how sorry I am." He said. His hand was still on my belly.

"What's done is done." I really wanted to get off this topic. It hurt too much to think about.

A sudden idea came to mind.

"You said you wish you were there..." I cleared, standing up and reaching for the large scrapbook sitting on the small table next to the sofa. "Alice made this."

I sat back down next to him and opened the book to the first page. It showed a piture of me, on my eighteenth birthday. Some of me, some of Edward, some with both, in a beautiful collage. A caption said, in mismatched fonts, "Edward and Bella: Pre knock-up." We had all laughed when we read it.

We flipped through the rest of the filled pages. Each showed a caption naming how many weeks I was into the pregnancy and the countdown to the supposed due date, which was somewhere around June 13th or 14th. Emmett singing "Birthday sex" Under his breath when he figured out the due date to date of conception was both the funniest thing I had ever seen and the most embarresing.

I quickly flipped to the next page when one held a picture of one of my old cup bras next to my new C cup one. Yes, my brests got slightly larger with the pregnancy, but that didn't mean Edward had to see it so obviously.

By the time we had finished reading the scrapbook, his family returned. He appolojized to them, too, and before long, I had to go home for the night.

When I did, I stood by the window hesitantly. After ten minutes of indeciveness, I went to bed, keeping the window shut tight. Edward wouldn't come in if it was closed; he wouldn't invade my privacy like that. I knew I wanted to keep it open. But I also knew that I just couldn't handle it.

A/N: I didn't really like this chapter. It felt rushed and half-assesed, but at least it's a chapter. I'll let you in on a secret... you should definitely Be ready for a surprise next chapter!