And here is what you all have been waiting for!!! A new chapter after almost three months of waiting!!!

Pairing: Kakashi and Sakura

Rating: M

Disclaimer: The only thing I own is my lack of sanity lol. I don't own The Ruins by Scott Smith (my most favoriest book ever!!!!!!!!!) All rights belong to Scott Smith, I am just using it to enhance Sakura's thoughts.

Sakura kept her eyes down as more tears fell down her already flushed cheeks and another small sob escaped her lips. She felt his thumb as he slowly wiped the tears from her cheeks. He pulled his hand away and she felt the weight on the bed disappear and she heard the bathroom door open. She heard the faucet click on and then turn off and his footsteps approach. She lifted her face when she felt the bed descend again with weight and she could make out his for through her blurred eyes and she could make out the damp washcloth in his hand and then she understood. He placed it against her warm cheek and began to clean her face of the tears and she relished in the feeling off the cool cloth against her skin. After a few minutes she watched him set it down and he turned his attention back to her.

"Sakura...what happened?"

She sighed and her head hung again, but not in embarrassment this time...in shame. She didn't know how to tell Kakashi of her past and she didn't know if he would accept her if she did. This was something that she once she let it out she would never be able to take it back and she would never be able to change what might happen. She started slightly when his hand cupped her face and lifted it to gaze into his eyes. She looked at his face: the shocks of silver that were falling into his face, the onyx eye strained with worry and to her surprise his red one was open too and she could see the worry again. His mouth was set in a semi tight line as he gazed at her and she knew he was trying to figure out what was wrong. She took a deep breath and sighed.

"Kakashi...this is something deep..."

"Sakura, you can tell me. You can trust me, I-" He stopped.

"Kakashi?"

"Nothing, just tell me. I'm always here for you, always an ear when you need it."

She let out a small and short laugh "It's not that I can't trust you Kakashi...I'm just not sure if I can trust myself just yet."

He sighed and she almost regretted her words, but when she saw the small smile grace his lips she knew that he wasn't mad at her. He took his hand from her face and placed it on one of hers that was reasting in her lap. His warm fingers wrapped around hers and she felt her heart jump and melt at the same time. She looked down the their clasped fingers and then back up to his face and she couldn't help but smile.

"There's the smile that I was waiting to see. Ready to go back to sleep?"

Her mind was running and she knew that if she went back to sleep she would just have the nightmare over again, but she knew that she couldn't let him worry and lose sleep and have it be because of her. So she did what she did best; she put on her best smile and looked him right in the eyes.

"I'm ready. Good night Kakashi."

"Night."

She watched as he studied her face and she noticed something that made her mind freeze...he looked like he wanted to say something, but he couldn't bring himself to do it. She watched as he reluctantly pulled his hand from hers and stand from the bed. His steps seemed pained as he walked away from her. He turned when he reached the door to stare at her one more time before waving. She waved back and he shut the door and as soon as he did she sighed, but not in relief, in despair. She loved the man so much and she could never bring herself to tell him. She sighed again and glanced over at the clock and sighed when it read only near midnight. She reached onto a shelf and pulled her black Ipod from it and unraveled the earbuds that were wrapped around its slender body. Popping them into her ears she buzzed through the song choices and finally settled on "Sounds of Madness" by Shinedown. While the music pounded in her ears she felt it beating the nightmare from her thoughts, but all that night she didn't sleep, all she did was curl up on her side into a ball and listen to music until the sun touched the sky.

-Kakashi-

He made his way back to his won bed, thoughts of ramming his head into a wall very prominent in his brain. He had the perfect chance to tell her that he loved her and he had hesitated. He recalled her confused face when he had stopped midsentence and he felt his heart break just a little bit more. He had wanted so badly to take her in his arms and when the chance had come he took it and it had felt so right to him. Never had anyone felt so right for his arms. Shaking his head he lay back down on his bed and placed his hands behind his head.

"Why can't I ever tell anyone how I feel?" he whispered.

The sight of her crying...it had just been to much for him and he so badly wanted to tell her his feelings, anything to make the pink-haired angel stop crying. But as always his heart had put up its guard and stopped him. He still had a very long chain of cursing going on mentally in his head and he had no intentions of continuing the very long chain of "fuck, fuck, fuck fuck" that was going on. He turned over onto his side and tucked an arm under his head and let the sounds of the tires on the road and the wind passing lull him back into sleep. His dreams were not as sad as he felt and they involved a certain Sakura.

Two Weeks Later

-Sakura-

Sakura looked up from the book she was reading and rubbed her tired eyes. They were on the road again and it would take two days before they would arrive. She hadn't been getting much sleep for the past two weeks and she knew that if she continued this way then she was going to crash and crash big time. She placed her finger in between the pages to save her place as she closed her eyes to rest them for a few moments. She knew that this was crazy and that she was just avoiding the nightmare that she was afraid would come back. She never again wanted to remember that night of Sasuke and to her the only way to do it was to make herself so tired that she wouldn't dream when she finally did crash. She then felt her consciousness slipping away from her and the dark began to take her.

"You can scream all you like Sakura...no one will hear you and no one is home here."

She snapped awake and her book almost went flying. Her breathing was heavy and her chest was heaving up and down in an effort to calm herself down. The nightmare was vivid in her memory again and she was almost ready to cry. She hated Sasuke and what he had done to her and now she was feeling the still strong aftershocks of it. She was now determined to make herself extremely tired. She stretched out on her bed and repostioned herself to where she was laying on her sid with one had supporting her head and the book, The Ruins, was on the mattress. She opened it again and began to read, she was almost done anyway.

"Stacy could remember how they'd taled about suicide late one night, all four of them, more drunk than now, choosing prospective methods for themselves. She'd been slouched on her bed, leaning against Eric. Amy and Jeff had been on the floor, playing a half-hearted game of backgammon. Jeff, ever efficient, had told them about pills and a plastic bag-it was both painless and reliable, he claimed. Eric proposed a shotgun, its barrel in his mouth, a toe on the trigger. Amy had been drawn to the idea of falling from a great height, but rather than jumping, she wanted someone to push her, and they had argued back and forth over wether or not this could count as suicide. Finally she surrendered, choosing carbon monoxide instead, a car idling in an empty garage. Stacey's fantasy was more elaborate: a rowboat, far oput to sea, weights to bear her body down. It was the idea of vanishing that she found so attractive, the mystery she'd leave behind..."

Sakura glanced up from the book and new thoughts began to spin their webs in her head. So many ideas she could have used so long ago to end her pain...but she never thought of any of them. She had chosen to prolong her pain each day with a new scar that would forever mark her skin. She closed the book by dog earing the corner and she placed it back on the shelf. Sitting up so that her feet were touching the floor and her hands were clasped in front of her and supporting her chin. So many thoughts were running through her brain and she was considering each and everyone of them, but then again actually doing them would be letting Sasuke win and she couldn't do that. Hurt and pain began to bubble in her heart again and then she knew that it wasn't safe for her to be alone. She had to be around someone and she knew who would make her feel better. Sighing she stood and walked out of her room and into the middle of the bus where there was a couch and a TV. Kakashi was sitting on the couch and was watching a movie.

"Not disturbing you am I?" she asked.

He glanced over at her and smiled "Not at all. Come have a seat." he patted the empty space beside him.

She smiled and took the place he offered with no hesitation.

"What are you watching?" she asked.

"A movie about a doctor who by just being a friend, cured this girl who was pretty much psychopathic. He's falling in love with her in the process." (If you guys didn't get that reference then I have failed at my job as an author).

She smiled and began to settle into the couch to get interested in the movie. As the movie went on her eyelids began to droop again and she fought hard agaisnt it. She noticed that Kakashi was very close, his arm almost touching hers, She could feel the heat of his skin through his shirt against her bare arm. She heard him yawn and when he stretched he draped his arm over the back of the sofa, his arm winding up around her shoulders. She froze, she knew that this was probably a friendly gesture, but so much did she want it to be more.

"Go ahead and lean on me. You look tired."

With just a moment's hesitation she did as he asked. She lay her head on his shoulder and almost gasped when her head was a perfect fit to his. She snuggled into the warmth of his body and she felt his arm wrap tighter around her and she let her eyes droop completely and she felt herself fall into sleep, only this time feeling safe.

An Hour Later

Sakura awoke to movie credits playing and Kakashi's arm still wrapped around her, the only new addition was a blanket. She wiped the sleppies from her eyes and thought back to the fact that the sleep had been dreamless and looked up at Kakashi who was also alseep. She didn't want to move, it was so warm and comfy but her body loudly protested, telling her clearly that it needed to be stretched and certain areas cracked. Moving as carefully as possible she ninja-ed her way out of his arm and stood. She raised her arms above her head and she heard the bones snap andcrack as they realligned themselves. Her fingers cracked and she felt a bit better than she had earlier and she knew that she owed it to Kakashi.

"Hmm." she smiled to herself.

She stopped and observed the man that was asleep before her. His silver hair fell messily into his face, hiding his one eye. His face looked so serene and peaceful when he slept and she wished that she could take a picture of it, he looked so perfect. She reached out and smoothed a shock of hair from his face and she felt the silky hair glide between her fingers and she couldn't help but smile. His hair was so soft and his childlike face made her want to just go back to sleep with him. But more thoughts began to pour into her head. His lips looked so kissable. She wanted so bad to kiss him, so bad to let him know with one kiss how she felt. There had never befor been a moment when she had had enough courage to do it...now she wanted to.

"He's asleep...he shouldn't notice."

She leaned down onto the couch, one knee and her weight balanced on it. She began to lean forward when she leaned too quickly and fell over. She fell straight into his lap and he jerked awake while she covered her quickly blushing face. He looked down at her, looking confused for a second, and then smiling. She knew the smile and she knew that she was in for it.

"Falling for me are you?" he asked.

"More like on you." she muttered.

He laughed. At the sound she looked up and his face was one of complete calm and cool. She loved the way his eyes crinkled when he laughed and the way his eyes sparkled. Before she could stop herself she reached up and brushed the back of her hand across his face. He stopped laughing, frozen in place by her touch. She did it again and he closed his eyes and leaned into his hand. She did this a few more times before slipping her hand behind his head and pulling him forward. Her lips met his and she tasted delight. His lips were as sofy and warm as she had remembered. She then noticed something...he wasn't responding...he was frozen. She pulled away and looked into his shocked eyes. The realization of what she had just done hit her and she fought to remove herself from his lap. She heard him saying her name, trying to calm her, but all she wanted to do was get away. Finally succeeding she stumbled the short distance from the sofa to the bathroom and shut the door and locked it. She couldn't believe she had done that. She had finally shown him how she felt...and he didn't even respond. Her heart was breaking all over again and tears threatened to spill. When she was sure that he was gone into his room she moved as quietly from the bathroom to her room. She walked into her room and stood in front of her bed when she heard the door close. She whipped around to see Kakashi standing there behind the door and began to move towards her. His face held no emotions as he came towards her. She tried to dodge him but he trapped her against her bedroom door, hands on either side of her face and was leaning very close.

"Kakashi..." she breathed.

His face was expressionless as he stared at her. He was taking in her features and she knew it, trying to make sense of what had happed half an hour ago. She looked at his serious eyes and taught mouth. His intense gaze was boaring into her and she felt as though he could see right through her. What he did next surprised her and awoke something inside of her.

"Sakura...you don't kiss someone and run away. You don't play with their emotions like that.

And with that he smashed his lips into hers. For a moment she didn't know what to do, all she could do was stand there. When she felt him begin to pull away she realized she didn't want him to. Shr reached her hands up and grabbed the front of his shirt and yanked his lips back to hers. Her hands loosened themselves from his shirt and entangled themselves into his hair and pulled him closer. His lips attacked with the same force as hers and she could feel the emotions he was pouring into the kiss. She hoisted herself up and wrapped her legs around his waist and he backed her closer into the wall. She felt the hardness of the door at her back and a different hardness somewhere else. He removed his lips from hers.

"I love you." he panted.

She froze and was sure she hadn't heard correctly "What?"

"I love you." he said again.

A gasp escaped her lips and tears began to fall. She saw the shock on his face.

"Sakura! I'm sorry-" she placed a hand over his lips.

She removed her hand from his lips and he looked at her with concern as more tears fell. Balancing her weight he moved a hand and wiped the tears away.

"What's wrong?"

"I have wondered for so long if you felt the way I do....and you do. I love you."

It took a minute before she saw it sink in and he smiled a smile that was blinding and full of happiness. His lips connected with her smiling ones that were smiling through the tears.

TO BE CONTINUED!!!!

There you are my lovlies!!! I know that you waited too long for this and I am so sorry. I have been so busy with so many things that this is the first time I have been able to sit down and type. I hope you like and I am working on the next chapter.

/3 Liz