Chapter 12-Confrontation

Jace looked out the window at the rising sun. It had been awhile since he last got a good night's sleep. All he could think about was the beautiful redhead sleeping soundlessly somewhere in the city. His heart beat frantically thinking about her. He couldn't decide how he felt about her. He either hated her for sleeping with Sebastian or was filled with such server regret that he was the one to give her to him. Of course, that had not really been Jace. He was under Sebastian's control but he still felt responsible for what happened. Fire blazed from his fingertips as he touched the wall. It burned brightly but was no longer painful. They had let him out after a week but wouldn't allow him to see Brother Zachariah. He felt awful that the silent brother had been injured trying to stop him. He had written to the brother many times finally getting a reply that he would visit him at dusk tomorrow. It was pleasant but Jace had bigger things to worry about. Sebastian was on the loose and only he knew how to stop him. Clary had gone through enough and he didn't know how he would react next time they met. Isabelle told him he was being stupid for pushing her away but she didn't know what happened in that apartment. The only ones who knew the truth were the three of them and Jace wanted it to stay that way. Not just for his appearance but for Clary's reputation as well. Laying back down on his bed he decided to close his eyes and attempt to get some sleep.

The sun was high in the sky when Clary's mother returned with a home pregnancy test. Her mother had been adamant that she take it as soon as possible. "I know you are a young women and are capable of making your own choices. Gosh knows your father and I were not pure before we got married. But I thought you two were smart enough to use protection." Jocelyn scolded pacing the bedroom floor back and forth. "You and Jace are much too young to be parents. I was too young and I don't wish that on you Clary. A baby is a blessing but it is also a sacrifice." She sighed. The small redhead's eyes were glued to the floor. She didn't have the heart to tell her that if she was pregnant that it might not be Jace's. She knew her mother felt guilty about her brother. She didn't need to add the fact that he raped her only daughter to her mother's guilt. Rape, it was an ugly word. She hadn't used it till now. The first time she had been tied up and it had been rape. After that first time though was it still rape? Surely she had been willing? She didn't have any long to think about it because her mother had thrust a test into her hands and pointed to the bathroom door. Nodding and silently made her way to the restroom and closed the door.

It had only taken a few minutes to take the test and she waited in the restroom for the results. She didn't wish to be around her mother right now. She heard Luke call her mother's name from downstairs. Apparently, they had a visitor from the Clave. Clary's shoulders relaxed as she sat on the toilet looking down at the plastic test. Her heart lurched in her chest as two lines appeared. "Damn it," She cursed under her breath. She was pregnant. Clary never thought that she would be in this position. Sure she had imagined the day that she would sometimes have kids. She pictured being married to Jace and after some time finally starting a family. They were happy memories but she felt anything but happy at the moment. She was heartbroken and the worst part was she couldn't talk to anyone about it. Only the people there in that apartment would understand and she sure as hell wasn't going to go to Sebastian about it. His offer had loomed too much in the back of her mind for her liking. Still, there was Jace.

The blonde had refused to see her and she had planned to leave him alone until he approached her. She couldn't do that any longer. The baby could very well be his and if it wasn't…she couldn't think about that right now. She needed him right now. She threw the test into her backpack to dispose of later. Jocelyn came into the room at that moment looking at her worriedly. "So?" she asked. Clary faked a smile. "Negative." She replied. Her mother looked at her sternly. "Are you sure? You look unhappy?" she asked. At this Clary let the storm of emotions she held in her chest erupt. "Of course, I am unhappy. I just had to listen to you lecture me for the last hour about irresponsible I am and how rotten Jace is. I'm relieved I'm not pregnant but that doesn't mean I'm happy that you think this way. What has Jace ever done to you to make you dislike him so much?" Clary accused stomping her foot. Her mother looked at her bewildered. "Clarissa what has gotten into you?" she asked. "Answer my question," Clary demanded. Her mother gave her a scowl. "I know you love him but I am afraid you love him too much. You went after him. Put yourself in danger without any thought of the consequences as long as it meant being with him. I've seen too many girls hurt over loving a man too much!" she replied bitterly. Clary rolled her eyes. "You sound like Valentine with the to love is to be destroyed. It's not my fault that you choose to marry that lunatic instead of Luke." She snapped.

Jocelyn looked at her sternly. That had done it, her mother was silent now. She wanted her to be mad so she would go away and not bug her about the pregnancy anymore. She didn't want to have to hurt her in the process but if she had to then so be it. "I don't know why you are acting like this. All I am doing is trying to help you but if you think I am going to let you see that boy again then you can forget it. As soon as things die down we will be heading back to New York and then moving away from all of this nonsense. Her mother snapped before leaving the room and slamming the door. Clary took a deep sigh and slumped to the floor. It had been a long day and her worried mind wanted nothing more than to sleep. Shrugging it off to went into the shower to rinse off. Her mother would surely leave her alone for the rest of the night if not the next couple of hours. She needed to go and see Jace tonight. They way she saw it she had two options, tell Jace and work together to stop Jonathan or take her brother's offer and leave this dimension. How he had figured out dimension hopping was beyond her but he had said that he would leave her dimension in peace. She got out of the shower and noticed the sun setting out the window. It was now or never. Getting changed into a fresh pair of jeans and a black tank top she laced Heosphoros in her weapons belt. The sword was a part of her now.

Once dressed Clary braced herself to face Jace. She was tired of him avoiding her and with Sebastian's offer weighing heavy on her heart, she opened the shutters of the guest room window. It wasn't that bad of a jump and if Jace could do it then so could she. Just to be safe though she took out her stele and drew a rune on her arm. It was one that had come to her awhile ago; a levitation rune. After she applied it she jumped from the window and hovered in the air. She smiled brightly at another idea that came to her mind. Taking her stele out once again she used an invisibility rune. Now she would be able to travel through the city without any problem. Leaping from post to post and building to building she made it to the inquisitor's house without a problem. She knew that Jace's room was upstairs. The one with the cracked window that Isabelle had told her he hit when the heavenly fire became too much. Leaping up she hovered in front of the second story window. Inside Jace sat on his immaculate bed with his head in his hands. She tapped on the glass to get his attention. His head shot up as his golden eyes looked at the cracked window curiously.

"Jace, let me in," she called. The young man's ears perked up. She could begin to feel the levitation rune fade as he lifted the glass window open. She took a step forward just as both runes wore off. "Clary!" Jace said taking a surprised step backward. She leaned in and stepped through the window and into his room. "What are you doing here?" he asked suddenly crossing his arms over his chest. Pain laced her breath at his obvious discomfort. Maybe he didn't love her anymore? Perhaps the words in his letter were just a nice farewell attempt in case he did die. "I was just out for a stroll taking in the view of nature." She replied. She couldn't help the bitterness that laced her words. "Come on Jace. I mean really, why do you think I am here? You've only been avoiding me." She replied sarcastically. "I stood up for you with consul. They think you are innocent. I did my part." He protested. Clary's jaw dropped in surprise. "What do you mean? I am innocent Jace! I didn't know what you and Sebastian were planning. The only reason I was in this position was because I was trying to save you!" she pleaded struggling to keep her voice down. "I remember quite a few positions you were in actually." He countered. Jace knew that it was a low blow but he couldn't help it. Remembering her naked doing things with Sebastian sickened him.

Clary's face went flush. She looked away and it was clear by the tears welling up in her eyes that his words had hit their mark. "I did what I had to do." She whispered. "As did I. When I was released from him I left with the cup. I tried to save everyone while you were spreading your legs." He choked. She couldn't help the tears that fell from her cheeks. Despite the pain, she stood tall and looked him in the eye. "I love you and I risked everything for you. I've lost my virginity, my mind and now my heart. I came after you without a second thought but you left me with Sebastian to rot." She spoke softly holding the sob in her chest back. "I did come back and you were busy sleeping with him in his room. What choice did I have?" Jace hissed. "So, everything you wrote in that note was a lie. You really have no feelings for me?" Clary begged. The shadowhunters face grimaced for a minute. "I do it's just that the sight of you disgusts me. You gave in so willingly and you even seemed to enjoy being with him." He argued. She bit back the tears as her shoulders hunched over. "You think I just gave up?" she whispered biting back more tears. "He raped me and you let him. I knew I couldn't count on you so I did what I had to survive but I never stopped fighting. It was me who destroyed the apartment so he didn't have anywhere to hide. It was me who fought against him in L.A. I have been fighting every day while you stayed here like a coward." She snapped. She could tell by his pained expression that her words had hit him hard. She didn't care, though, no not anymore. She had given up so much for him only to have it thrown back in her face. If he wasn't going to help her than she was going to take Sebastian's offer. Clarissa Morgenstern wouldn't turn her back on Idris and it's people like Jace had. She reapplied the runes before making her way to the window. She half expected Jace to say something or try to stop her but he didn't. He just stood frozen and silent. "Goodbye, Jace Herondale. I wish you happiness and love with whoever you choose to spend the rest of your life with." She whispered stepping through the open window. Then she was gone, rushing through the air with all of the strength she could manage. She didn't hear Jace's cry or see him fall to the floor as heavenly fire engulfed his body. She was too far gone physically and emotionally.

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