Disclaimer- All recognizable characters belong to Mrs. Meyer, the other ones belong to moi. The song belongs to the band Garbage.

Chapter 12- Temptation Waits

I'll tell you something

I am a demon

Some say my biggest weakness

I have my reasons

Call it my defense

Be careful what you're wishing

I started to pace, not really listening to the hushed voices of Carlisle and Edward in the corner. My mind was racing; was I really going to do this tonight? Was I ready? ' You have to Bella, for Bayleen.' I thought to myself, pacing even faster. I couldn't believe this, how had my life careened so totally out of control? I stopped and let out shaky breath. I was going to give myself a heart attack if I kept doing what I was doing. I sat down on Carlisle's couch and put my head in my knees. I felt a cold hand on my back, instantly knowing it was Edward. I sat back up and he wrapped me in his arms, in the embrace I loved so much. " Edward, I'm scared." I whispered. He kissed me softly and brushed a tear away from my cheek.

" Darling, I know it's going to hurt but-" I put a finger to his lips and shook my head no.

" I'm talking about Bayleen. Edward. . . What if he," I bit my lip and held back my sob. " What if he kills my baby?" I said, sounding stronger than I'd been in a couple days.

" Bella, I won't let that happen. You won't let that happen. You shouldn't even worry about that, we won't allow him to hurt her. Come on, let's go lay down for a bit. Talk." I nodded my head slowly and didn't object when he cradled my in his arms and walked me upstairs. He laid my down on his bed gently and then sat next to me, brushing his hands through my hair. " What was her father like?" He asked. I tilted my head so I was looking at him and let out a small sigh.

" He was a good man. Kind and gentle, he always cared about people. No matter who they were, he would help them. I met him my first year of college. . . I was still trying to, to get over you. I tried to forget you for a long time, it never seemed to work. Anyways, he was a nice change. He liked me before I liked him, and the first time he asked me out I said no. But he was persistent, and eventually I gave in. He was. . . He was special, and I loved Bayleen the first time I laid eyes on her." I answered him quietly, holding his hand in mine. " I loved Ben. . . I did. But, he wasn't you Edward. I could've married him and had a great life but. . . He wasn't my soul mate. You are. You've always been in my heart, ever since I first saw you in biology. You're it Edward." He kissed my palm then he put his arms around me and held me close to him. My head fell onto his shoulder and I listened to his soft breathing, feeling like everything was almost okay. If only Bayleen hadn't been taken, everything would've been.

" I love you too Bella." He breathed in my ear. I smiled, but I was thinking about how good of a dad he would be to Bayleen. He would treat her right. He would love her like she was his own daughter. I started to bite at my lip again, finally drawing blood. I froze and quickly released my bottom lip from my teeth. I looked over at Edward. His eyes were dark and I could see his body tense. " I forgot how damn good you smell." He said quietly, his words sounded like he was stressing them out.

" I'm sorry." I told him weakly. " I was just. . . It's something I do when I'm stressed out." He nodded his head, his face started to turn away from mine when I grabbed it and forced him to keep his eyes trained on mine. My heart started to pound harder in my chest, something I was sure he knew. Then I pressed my lips to his. He tried to push me away but I clung to him like a little child; my lips still locked on his. Finally I tore away from him only so I could look into his eyes, my blood was on his lips.

" Why did you do that?" He asked me quietly. I put a hand to his cheek and smiled softly. Then I straddled my legs around his waist and kissed him again.

" Because I've waited so god damned long for this Edward." I whispered in his ear as he held my back tightly. " I love you, I need you." I cringed when I heard how desperate I sounded. But it was so true. I wanted to be with him, in every way.

" I need you too Bella but you have to-" I groaned and swung my hair around my shoulder, so my neck was exposed.

" Edward I was always sure. How many times do I have to tell you I love you and want to be with you for all of eternity? Just please. . . Edward, just do it." His hand slowly moved up my body, landing on my neck. I shivered as he caressed my skin, his eyes darkening by the moment.

" You don't know how long-" He started, leaning forward slightly. " How long I've wanted to do this." He finished, his lips barely touching my flesh.

" Then why did you fight it so hard?"

" I didn't want to make you a monster." He whispered. I could tell he was fighting himself again, trying to back away from me.

" You are not a monster Edward Cullen. And I won't be either."

" You'll forget everything." I looked down at him and shook my head no.

" I could never forget. My memories mean too much to me. Now. . ." I pushed my hair back and closed my eyes. My mouth started to water in anticipation, I'd waited so long for this to happen. I groaned when he started to tease me by just brushing his teeth against my skin. " Edward." I breathed. I put my hand on his shoulder and prepared myself. But nothing could've prepared me enough when he finally bit down. I let out a tiny cry and felt him start to drink. A small feeling started to move up my legs, slowly creeping its way up. It felt like I was burning. I could feel him sucking and lapping up my blood. I squeezed his shoulder when my world started to fade around the edges. He pushed himself away and I stared into his eyes. It wasn't his usual topaz eyes that stared back, they were a deep crimson. I smiled and he gathered me up in his arms.

" Bella, my Bella. I'm so sorry." He cried, pushing my hair out of my face. I noticed I was starting to sweat.

" What are you talking about?" I mumbled. " You didn't kill me, you stopped. I knew you could." I kissed his hand and sighed contently. He looked at me, his eyebrows scrunched in confusion.

" Carlisle!" He called out. I was surprised by how fast the family came scurrying into his room. Carlisle came up to the bed and immediately started to study me. " She isn't screaming. It's like. . . It doesn't hurt or something. Carlisle, what's wrong with her? What did I do to her?" I scoffed and pushed him slightly. Well, it was more like a small hit. He didn't actually move.

" Silly Edward, why are you blaming yourself? You didn't do anything!" I tried to throw my hands up but I found I couldn't move them. " Huh, that's funny." I said quietly. The burning had turned into a tingle, like my body was falling asleep. I looked up at Carlisle and felt my eyes start to close.

" I'm so tired." I yawned. Then, I didn't hear a thing.

I'll tell you something

I am a wolf but

I like to wear sheep's clothing

I am a bonfire

I am a vampire

I'm waiting for my moment

Edward's POV

I watched as Bella slipped into a quiet slumber. Her chest rose and fell peacefully. It was unlike anything I'd ever seen before. This was most certainly not how people were supposed to feel when being changed into a vampire. Not that I was arguing, thankfully my beautiful Bella hadn't been in any pain. But I was also worried about that small fact. Carlisle was checking her temperature and her pulse. I still had her head on my lap and was running my hand through her hair. " Is she going to be okay?" I asked him worriedly. He smiled softly and put a hand on my shoulder.

" She'll be fine son. You did good." I smiled at his warm words and nodded my head. I had to believe it, I just had to.

" Why do you think this happened? I mean, her not feeling the pain and just falling asleep?" His smile faltered and he sat on the edge of my bed. I watched him struggle with the right words to use. " Carlisle, just tell me. Please."

" I think that the venom affected her transformation somehow. I mean, it already affected how she walked and looked. It may very well have affected how she changed also." He messed up my hair a little and brightened his smile back up. " Don't worry my boy, she'll be just fine when she wakes."

" Thanks dad." I whispered.

" Of course. Alert me if anything changes."

" I will." I watched him slowly close the door behind him and then I glanced back down at my sleeping angel. She looked so beautiful. She always had been. . . I put a finger on her cheek and stroked it slightly. " Please be alright." I whispered to her. " I want to stare into your deep brown eyes and be able to kiss you again. Please Bella." I held back a sob and just kept stroking her face. I'd wanted her for so long. It pained me to have to leave her, damn near killed me. I licked my lips and kissed her head softly. She stirred slightly but didn't wake.

" Edward." She whispered in her sleep. I grinned and laid down beside her.

" Always thinking of me aren't you?" I teased. For a day and a half she slept. Then she awoke only to fall back asleep almost immediately. I noticed the changes in her body slowly happening. She was getting paler, sweat was dripping down her forehead from a fever that was occurring because her body was shutting down. Her body started to curve in places she'd never had curves at before, and her pulse was weakening by the hour. I listened to her heartbeat, knowing these were the last days I'd hear it. I listened to it start to slow; I listened to her blood flow start to drop. And then finally three days were up, and I was waiting for her to awake. Her pulse was nearly existent. There was only a small beat of her heart.

Then, everything stopped. She was officially dead, officially one of us. I waited for her to open her eyes, but nothing happened. I shook her softly and whispered in her ear. " Bella, bella it's time to get up." I said. It was then she stirred. She opened her eyes and smiled up at me.

" Edward." Was all she said. I smiled and kissed her cheek. I hadn't noticed the color of her eyes until I was looking at her again. They were a bright blue. She sat up and wrapped her arms around me, my mouth was open in surprise. I listened as everyone came rushing into the room, their faces happy. They all stopped as soon as she looked up at them. " What?" She asked. " What's wrong?" I put a finger to her neck and made sure she didn't have a pulse. She didn't. I looked behind me at Carlisle, who was as confused as me.

" Bella. . . You're eyes. . . They're, well they're blue." I answered her. She furrowed her eyebrows and shot up out of the bed with vampiric speed. She gazed in the mirror and her eyes opened wide.

" What the hell is going on?" She whispered to no one in particular. I sat up and walked over to her, just putting an arm around her. I didn't know what to tell her, mainly because I had no clue. I inhaled deeply and was nearly taken aback by what I smelled. She smelled the same she always had. . . What was going on indeed?

You come on like a drug

I just can't get enough

I'm like an addict coming at you for a little more

And there's so much at stake

I can't afford to waste

I never needed anybody like this before

A/N: Ooer, what's up with Bella? Haha. Hope you liked this chapter! It was longer than the others I think. Again, the song was by Garbage, good band. Thanks for reading and remember to review because I love hearing from you guys!

Until next time,

Faith