Chapter 12—Explaining the Hurtful

Ginny didn't sleep in my room that night. I wasn't sure where she would sleep, but I didn't care if she shared a room with Harry. It was her idea to share my room with her in the first place. For all I knew, Ginny could have apparated back to the Burrow after having a lengthy discussion with Harry.

It worried when I didn't see her the next morning. She couldn't leave while I was showering; she couldn't leave the night before. All I know is she left a note with Harry saying she left. That day was a very quiet one.

It seemed to me that no one understood my logic in dating someone I went to school with. Well, no one I grew up with seemed to understand. I began to wonder if dating Scott was such a good idea if only half the people I knew completely understood why. I started many letters to Ron, trying to explain why I was doing the things the way I did them, but every one of those 37 letters didn't say what I wanted him to read. It was getting harder ad harder to focus on anything.

Next thing I knew, it was already the end of my second semester at Merlin's, and Scott and I had celebrated our six-month anniversary. By this time, Scott had met my parents, and I had met his. The only few people I really kept in touch with were Harry and Neville. Ron and I would occasionally send letters to each other. These letters would never say anything about dating. Just mainly about school and family. Fleur and Bill were expecting a baby at the end of the year, they still had a month or two 'til they found out if it would be a boy or a girl.

It was almost Harry's birthday when I received a letter from Ginny. By this time, it felt like Scott and I were slowing down a bit, but I was still happy with him. We would sometimes go over to his sisters' home and be with her family. Her twin boys were adorable!

Ginny's letter was completely out of the blue. Harry hadn't really ever mentioned Ginny ever since our argument. Her letter was a shock as well.

Dear Hermione,

Things just haven't been the same since our fight. But, I said those things for a reason. No matter how happy I may be about you and your relationship with Scott, my brother (and his feelings) are still important to me—no matter how I act towards him. I know what a git Ron can be most of the time, but I also know he cares for you. A lot. I'd hate to see you both miss out on something that could be great just because of geographical difficulties. I hope we can still remain friends.

Love, Ginny

I sat reading her letter to me for what seemed like hours. And every time I read it, I knew what she was saying was true. I also knew that no matter what I wrote back to her it wouldn't be good enough.

Eventually, I did write back. It was the day before Harry's birthday and I finally sat down to reply back.

Ginny,

I'm sorry I was not able to write sooner. I want you to know that I agree and understand with what you wrote me. I wish there was another way to explain my actions, but unfortunately better words escape me. I do hope to see you tomorrow at Harry's birthday dinner. Anyway, I must be off.

--Hermione