[Flashback]
If I build a wall
A hundred feet tall
Would that keep you in?
If I shackled your feet
So you couldn't leave
Would you try and run?
If I promise not to fight
At least not tonight
Would you stay the night?
If I wore that little dress
That you like the best
Would you pass my test?
Would you stay?
Would you stay with me
-Stay .//Michelle Featherstone//
We never found them.
They were gone. Every last one of them was gone. There were no bodies to find, there were no survivors.
I cried for their deaths, for their pain. I cried for myself and all the chances I would never get. I cried for Ben and the lost of all his loved ones. But mostly I cried for Toby. My poor innocent book worm Toby.
"Lilly?" I felt Ben touch my shoulder gently, I didn't even hear him come up behind me.
"Yeah" my voice was low and horse.
"We have to leave" I took a deep breath, I knew the time was coming. We had been hiding in the area for the past month looking and waiting for some sign of hope.
"I know"
"Hey, look at me" He turned me around so I was facing him. I didn't want to look at him, I didn't want to see his sadness. More so I didn't want to see my reflection in his eyes.
"We are going to make it out of this. We're going to win this war. That's what they would want from us-" His fingers under my chin lifted my face to his forcing me to look into his eyes, "We're still here" he whispered it softly but it hit me with the force of bricks.
Tears came pouring out of my eyes.
That was the problem wasn't it? That we're still here while our loved ones are dead. Death is easy, its those that survive it that feel the excruciating pain of reality, of life.
He pulled me too him caressing my hair as he whispered in my ear telling me it would be alright.
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"How can you still be talking about this Ben!" My voice was near hysterical. "Lil-"
"NO! We should be out there fighting. Not running around the country trying to find these stupid ingredients!"
"This is the only way to beat them!" He gripped my shoulders, his face pensive as his eyes locked with mine.
"time travel is nothing bu-bu-but a waste of time! Who is going to go me? You?! Ben we need to look at this realistically. Time travel is impossible-"
"No it's not!" His face became fierce as he stared at me, "Ben" My voice soften. I brought my hand up and grazed his cheek with my fingertips. He shut his eyes and leaned into my touch.
"I'm sorry. I Just… " His eyes opened stopping me mid sentence. "I need you to believe in this Lilly… In me" His eyes never left mine.
His hands went to my waist gently staying on my hips.
His touch felt like fire through my veins.
"Lets say I do, How are we going to travel back" I asked him, he sighed looking at me and frowned before putting his forehead against mine.
With his eyes shut he said softly and remorsefully, "Not we Lilly, But you. Only you"
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I couldn't help but notice how the moonlight hit his face as he slept there.
We hadn't been able to find a safe place to stay, so are only option was this field that had nothing around it for miles.
We had planted symbols of protection around us, around the land incase anything should find us. But I doubted that they would.
It's been three months since- since we lost everyone that night. Here I was staring at Ben under the moonlight as he slept wanting nothing more then him to wrap me in his arms.
Was that horrible? That when he talked I wanted to kiss him. When he slept I wanted him to hold me. I was losing my mind -and heart- here with him.
I sighed and looked away.
He told me I had to go back. Only me. It was silly to think he could be right, that he somehow could send me back.
He said we needed a spell, that they had found it the night the compound… I shut my eyes not wanting to think about that spell.
He said he had it memorized, that he was going to perform it.
I asked him why him? And he just looked at me and said that he was the only one that could. I didn't question him, all you had to do is look into his eyes and see that he needed this. He needed this like the air he breathed… Like how I needed him.
I couldn't believe I let myself get attached. In this world, in my life… getting attached only meant one thing. Pain.
We had traveled thousands of miles to get ingredient for this spell only to find that we needed to perform it in a place that has yet been touched by evil.
Where could we find that? Is there still a place left in this world untouched by evil? That seemed more impossible then time travel.
I wondered what Jane would think of this, of time travel. That the worlds future or I guess past rest in my hands. She would probably laugh at me with a smile on her face and say something a long the lines of 'well baby sister, I guess you have your work cut out for you. Try not to mess it up with yah?'
"Lilly?" His voice was groggy, I looked over "did I wake you?" I asked wondering if I had some how made a noise. He shook his head and lifted himself up, keeping one arm on the ground to support his weight. "Why aren't you sleeping?" He yawned.
"Can't sleep" I mumbled low, looking back at the moon.
"We have a long day tomorrow." I nodded stilling gazing at the night sky. I heard him shuffle around before I felt him put his hands on my shoulders.
"Do you know why the moon is so lonely?" I frowned, "No?" Ben put his arm around my shoulder, "Because the moon has a lover"
I looked at him curiously, he gave me a small smile before continuing, "You see the moon and her lover were both sprits in the immortal realm. They adored each other as they were going to spend eternity together. One night the Moons lover asked a trusted sprit in the immortal realm what to get the moon as a gift, the trusted sprit told the moons lover to travel to the mortal world and get the moon wild flowers, the moons lover wanted nothing more then to surprise her; so he did as he was told.
What the moon's lover didn't know what the trusted sprit was in love the moon also, and that once you left the immortal world you could never return.
Not being able to return the lover can only look up to the sky every night to see the moon, while the moon can only look down upon her lover.
They can look at each other for eternity, but never can the known the feeling of their lovers touch. The moon is lonely, because she has a lover."
I shut my eyes feeling the moister seeping through.
"Your crying?" he asked me, I shook my head no.
"Lilly look at me" He was in front of me now holding my face in his hands, "Lillian" I opened my eyes as the tears ran down my face.
I couldn't understand the look in his eyes.
"I'm sorry" He whispered, "No.. Its- It was just sad that's all" I said as his eyes searched mine. I didn't want him to feel guilty over telling me that story. It wasn't his fault I was a complete wreck. I shut my eyes trying to compose myself.
His thumb caressed my cheek, "Your even beautiful when you cry" My eyes snapped opened, "wh-what?" He gave me a small smile, "I'm going to kiss you Lilly"
I stood there shocked as his head bent down towards mine, "so beautiful" his whispered before his lips crashed into mine.
His kiss was soft, gentle. I had never in my life felt as I did in the moment.
My eyes shut, my hands that had been hanging idly by wrapped around his neck. My body arched into his, a soft moan escaped my mouth as it hungrily kissed him back.
In that instant I forgot the world, forgot the war that was raging on around us. Death, destructions; all the blackness of life that I had always felt, that always was in front row in my life seemed too vanish. There was nothing but Ben and I, nothing but the feeling of my heart falling in love for the first time.
DISCLAMIER: That story about the moon is NOT mine. It belongs to X-men Origins. I just took it and made it fit into this story. BUT i suggest you watch the movie cause the actual quote/ scene in the movie is SOOO much better then what I had Ben tell ;)
Aaaaaaahhh Benny. :)
eh. Okay, I'm done day dreaming. Hehe. Anyways, This was a short update I know. BuUUut it is an imporant one. You see when she fell for Ben the first time, I mean really. Wouldn't you fall in love?
Next chapter is Lill with the boys. I promise ;)
Review? Pretty please? with sugar on top... And Dean & Sam on top of that... With whip cream on top of them... Ehhh. Okay, I'm shutting up now. :)