Chapter Twelve

"Where is everyone?" I asked as I climbed the stairs slowly in Edwards house. I was climbing the second set of stairs by now, Edward slowing down his pace behind me, when I noticed how quiet it was in the house.

"I told them to leave."

"Why?" I glanced back at him.

"I didn't want them in ear shot. This is something between you and me. Not something between you and the Cullen family. Plus it'd be uncomfortable for me to be listening to 6 peoples thoughts while I'm trying to listen to you seriously." He spoke casually, his voice showing nothing of what he felt at the moment.

I nodded and continued to climb the stairs. As I approached his door I started to shake a bit. Nerves. Damn, Nerves. I didn't know how this 'talk' was going to turn out. All I knew, is that we both needed to get everything out of our system. Who knew how long that was going to take.

I sighed and opened the door slowly, ignoring the questioning look Edward was giving me at the moment.

I walked into the room and sat on the edge of the bed. I was playing with my fingers, twiding my thumbs, doing anything to try to keep my mind off the talk when I heard Edward cleared his throat. I sighed then slowly raised my head to meet Edwards eyes.

He was leaning against the opposite wall, one leg positioned up against the wall while his arms were crossed across his chest. His face showed nothing. Poker face. Ugh. This is going to be wonderful.

I took a deep breath, "Well?" I raised my eyebrows as I expected him to start talking.

He raised his head a bit. "Yes?" He met my fake cheeful voice.

"Are we going to talk?" I prompted. Did he want me to start or something..?

"Well, I figured you would go first." I frowned.

My eyebrows furrowed and I tilted my head a bit. "And why is that?"

He placed his hand on his chin while one finger lightly tapped his lips. Was he mocking me? "Well considering you were the last to make a mistake, well big mistake." I caught the harshness in his tone. "Then I figured we would start with you and gradually make it back to my mistake." Asshole.

He gave me an innocent expression. I glared. "Fine." I crossed my arms over my chest as well and then flickered my gaze to the floor.

I was about to speak when he interrupted me . "I would prefer if you looked at me when you talk, Bella." He spoke coldly.

Fine. I glanced up at him with cold eyes and I saw him flinch just the slightest bit before covering it up. I took another breath. "Sorry."

"You're going to have to do better than that, love." He sneered the slightest bit.

"I wasn't done." I snapped back.

He remained silent. "It was immature and wrong, I know. But I was hurt , Edward." I pointed to my chest as I spoke. "Not only the fact did you fucking sleep with another woman but the fact that you weren't going to even tell me about it just hurt like a bitch!"

"Now-"

"No. I'm speaking." I shot back before he could continue. He looked away from my glance, his glare boring into the wall. If looks could kill, the house would collapse by now. "Look at me while I'm speaking Edward." I smirked internally as I used his words against him.

He looked at me and I swallowed at his hateful expression.

I ignored it and continued. "You know. I keep wondering. If I didn't show up that day at the hotel you would've slept together again I presumed. You seemed awfully comfortable when I walked in. Oh and then you didn't even tell her that I was your fiancé. What was the name she used? Oh yes, I'm your pet, correct?" I raised my eyebrows and he opened his mouth to speak, I raised a finger up.

"Not done." He snapped his mouth shut angrily. "Then you tell me that you would've told me EVENTUALLY. Eventually, Edward? Really? I take that as a never. You probably wouldn't have even come back."

"I did come back didn't I!" His voice broke through.

I let out a chuckle. "Yeah. When you realized I was leaving with Jacob and would be with him. After you realized that I found out about you too. After you realized you were caught and couldn't do a damn thing about it!"

"Good thing I did come back, Right Bella?" His leg was on the floor now and he took a step towards me. "What if I didn't show up yesterday, Bella?" He pointed to himself, mimicking me in a way. "Would you have slept with him, Bella?!" He shouted, his voice boomed across the room. I was starting to hate every time he said my name in disgust like that.

"I wouldn't have slept with him." I spoke quietly.

"That's kind of hard to believe." He jaw clenched.

"Why?" I gave him a frantic look.

"He was positioned in you, Bella! Before you knew it you would've slept with him! It was all about timing! If I showed up one minute later, There goes your virtue!"

"Well, I wanted you to take my virtue, but I also wanted to take yours. I wanted it to be special! But nooo, can't have that. Instead your virtue was lost to fucking Tanya! That's disgusting, Edward, disgusting."

"At least I didn't lose it to a dog." He spat.

I frowned. "At least he's my best friend! Tanyas just some common whore."

"Best friend or not, you fucking betrayed me Bella!" He yelled. I flinched back at little. He never yelled.

"As did you , Edward!" I retorted.

He groaned loudly and ran a hand roughly through his hair and looked away. "I didn't have a choice."

"I don't believe that. Everyone has a choice."

"It was that or your death, Bella. You can't honestly expect me to watch you die, knowing that it is going to happen."

"You could've just changed me. "

"They would've taken you away. And if you didn't obey, You'd be killed. What other option did I have, Bella? Please tell me because I thought through every damn thing I could." His sarcastic tone filled the air as his voice raised in pitch.

"You could've at least told me."

"You would've been mad."

"Duh?" I couldn't help it. Of course I would be mad.

"But you know what? You had a choice, Bella." Back to me.

"I was hurt."

"That's no excuse!" His fists clenched.

"How is it not? I was lonely. I needed somebody. He loves me! He would treat me right! He definitely wouldn't cheat on me! And He would've found a different way to handle the situation. He would rather die then cheat."

"If he died in my situation, you'd still be dead. So how does dying for you help?" He sighed. "Justifying actions isn't doing anyone good. You're just digging yourself a bigger hole , Bella."

"Why is this all pinned on me, Edward! You cheated too! Actually, Wait, You actually slept with someone!" I faked a gasp. "I didn't even go that far."

"You would've."

"But I didn't."

"So that's supposed to make up for it? You still acted rash on your own stupid teenage feelings and didn't think about the consequences. I didn't even want to sleep with Tanya. I just laid there and let her do what she wanted. I got no enjoyment out of it whatsoever, besides I was thinking of you the entire time! I was doing it for you! Yeah, that sounds like bullshit, but you know what, It's true. Other than you who by the sounds of your moans I think you enjoyed Jacob quite fucking well Bella!"

"You don't know what the hell you're talking about."

"Oh I don't?" He raised his eyebrows.

"You don't. I was thinking of you too. The entire reason why I even invited him over, why I stripped off my clothes for him," He winced." Was because of you! If You didn't crush my heart like you did I wouldn't have felt the need to redeem myself by sleeping with another. Which yes. Was very very wrong. I used Jacob. And I already spoke with him and told him my apologies. He hasn't forgiven me yet, but he said he will. Now why are you so damn stubborn and can't believe me!"

"Because you fucking crushed my heart too, Bella. You know what else? You planned it. You planned to break my heart right in front of you. You planned that when I came home that I would go to your house. You planned for Alice to tell me to go to your house! And! You planned that when I walked through the door I would find two very naked people on a couch about to fuck. I haven't even seen that much of your skin before , Bella. And in an act of revenge, you show Jacob it all. What the hell?!"

"And I said I was sorry for that!" I threw up my hands.

"Sorry doesn't do shit!" He exclaimed.

I glared at him harshly. I didn't even know what to say anymore.

He glared back.

We did that for awhile before he groaned and started to pace around the room, his eyes roaming the ground frantically. I just followed him with my eyes, wondering what he was thinking.

"Tell me what you're thinking." I whispered softly. The tension in the room changed erratically.

His eyes flickered to me for a moment then back at the ground. "I'm wondering how the fuck we're going to get out of this stupid shit!" He growled and stamped his foot, causing a dent into the floor.

I glanced at the dent and frowned . I positioned my body against the head board and brought my knees to my chest and rested my chin on my knees.

He glanced at me again and stopped pacing. Instead he walked over and sat on the edge of the bed in front of me. His gaze stared into mine. I could see his fingers flicker the a bit forward. As if he wanted to touch me. Part of me wish he would, the other part would slap his hand away.

"I'm sorry, you know." His eyes were glowing again with sincerity.

"I know." I said weakly. I could feel the tears coming by now.

"Ugh!" He closed his eyes and laid his back on the bed. "I want to forgive you, I really do."

"As do I." I whispered. A tear fell and I quickly whipped it away.

There was more silence as we just sat there.

"What are we going to do, Edward?" I spoke quietly after a moment.

"I don't know, Bella. I don't know."

To be honest, I was extremely nervous to post this. So many people expect a lot out of this chapter . becase of the fight and all that. and personally, I think I did well. I just hope it meets all your expectations..

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