Author's Note: Sorry I took so long guys, the Document Uploader's been giving me some trouble. Thanks again for the reviews!

This is dedicated to Bridget and Janna; without you guys supporting me, what happened at Ashram would have never happened. I wish you could have been there today. CP Pride, baby!

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Sometimes he wondered he didn't just make his damn mind up.

He was hovering on the edge of one decision every minute. Never being able to make it.

It was one that he should have never had to make in the first place. A decision he told himself was stupid, because there was in no way in hell he felt that way about Leah Clearwater...unless he did.

Nessie or Leah?

Frustrating was not the word. They were so completely different; fire and ice. He knew, deep down, whom he wanted. But that could change in the course of time.

Nessie was perfect. Beautiful, kind and gentle. He couldn't imagine anyone more brilliant. When he was with her...the world just wasn't that important anymore. She was his world. Nothing mattered more than her anymore. He knew that Bella was secretly pleased with the fact that her daughter would end up with her best friend and stay with the family for the rest of eternity, but the truth was, he couldn't imagine ever thinking of her that way. All he saw when he looked at her was the adorable baby sister he would give his life to defend.

And Leah couldn't be more different. She could be selfish, bitter and one of the most dangerous women he knew. But she was strong and loyal. Loyal to him and her brothers. It was the little things he loved about her; the way her nose scrunched when she way thinking, how a lock of hair always managed to curl on her forehead that he itched to brush away for her. How she had a wonderful, deep laugh that came right from within. How sometimes, she'd smile for no reason, thinking he wasn't watching.

Their parents would be ecstatic if they got together; Billy had tried his hardest to accept the fact that his son was destined to spend the rest of life with a hybrid. Jacob knew his father would rather he marry Quileute, stay on the reservation and take his place as an Elder. A future he was resigned to watch fade away.

Nessie was everything he needed. Leah was everything he wanted.

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Hope you guys liked that; there's a bit of Native pride I added there :P. I found that lacking in the books, for some reason.