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I hope you are all doing ok... My vacation is almost over, and I have a ew more chapters I really want to post before I get to drawn in law books again. Thank you for all the reviews, just like always :p...

So this chap is something else... It has a few flashbacks just like a few chapters back, this one shows mostly Anna's past, actually most of this chapter is about Anna, and Anna's secret which is going to be revealed... I'm also going to do a chapter about Remus' past in a few chaps... I hope you will still enjoy this one though !! let me know, and tell me what you think... As soon as I get my reviews, as soon as I post Chapter 13 which I hope you'll like even more than this one...

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The morning of her wedding Anna woke up next to a young man with black hair, and grayish eyes who seemed so familiar to her, yet was different in so many other ways...

She pressed herself up against the young man as they were lying in his bed.

'It has to be the last time.' She said softly towards the young man. 'I will never cheat on my husband.'

'Why will it be different?' The man asked her as he gently stroked her hair.

'It just has to be.' Anna lifted her head a bid so she could look into the man's eyes. 'Besides you are too young for me, and we should never have started this in the first place.'

'You'll never be happy.' The black haired man continued, and for the first time he reminded her of her best friend.

'Yes I will.' She sad up completely straight now. 'It will be different when we are married.'

'If you say so.' The young man came to sit up straight as well and pressed himself against Anna's back. He nibbled her earlobe gently as he pushed her long curly hair aside. 'If you say so.'

Anna came out of a small café around 11am with a man, who looked a few years older than herself. He was wearing a black suit, with a neat tie.

'I had such a great time. Breakfast was amazing.' Anna said smiling brightly at the man. He had soft brown hair, and the most gorgeous green eyes.

'Anytime…' The man stated. He too seemed to be in quite a good mood. 'But I really have to go now, I'm already far too late for work.'

'Yes, I know…' the young woman said, being happy that she at least didn't have school today. 'I'll see you tomorrow…'

'Can I pick you up?' He asked her in a suddenly serious tone, and suddenly Anna looked a bid uncomfortable.

'I don't think is such a good idea.' Anna said tugging her hair back after her ear. 'Maybe later.'

'That's what you always say.' The man continued, now seemingly a bid annoyed. 'It's like you're ashamed of me.'

'It's not like that at all.' Anna said in a mixture of serenity and despair. 'I just can't explain it right now.'

'I guess I can wait a little longer…' The man said reluctantly.

'Thank you so much for understanding Thomas.' Anna said smiling again, feeling relieved. He couldn't come to her home; it would only get her in trouble. She knew Sirius would be mad, that he'd be too worried, and that he'd never trust Thomas.

'I don't really have a choice do I?' Thomas stated. 'Can't loose you, now can I?'

'That's kind of up to you…' Anna felt really happy as she looked Thomas in the eye. He was an amazing person, and maybe in time she'd be able to bring him home, and make the best of it. The young man laughed, as he pulled her into a hug.

'I'll see you tomorrow than at my house.' He placed a gentle kiss on her cheek just like he did every time. 'Bye.' He let go of her, and was preparing to leave, when Anna had a 'now or never' feeling.

'Thomas wait!' The young man turned around, and Anna took the few steps they had already been separated towards him, and before she herself knew what was happening she placed her lips firmly on his, kissing him hard, yet sweet. Thomas who seemed stunned at first didn't pull back, and Anna was happy to find that after a few seconds he was actually kissing her back. Their kiss stayed gentle, neither of them trying to deepen it… Soon however they both felt the need to breath, and broke loose from the contact breathing heavily. 'I'll see you tomorrow.' Anna said smiling even brighter than before, as she turned around and started going towards the parking space a few streets back.

Anna however didn't see the young man at the other side of the street looking at her with a whitened face and wide shocked eyes.

'Sirius are you ok?' Remus asked as he came out of the grocery shop as well.

'I'm fine.' Sirius said firmly, but everything his voice made it sound like he wasn't. 'We need to get home, now!'

'Darling I'm so proud of you.' A woman with bright blond hair said smiling down at her daughter as she caught a glace of the young girl in her white wedding dress. 'You are finally going to lead the life you are supposed to. I'm so happy for you.'

'I know mother.' Anna said giving a sad smile her mother didn't recognize. She hadn't seen Evan for days, and she had to ask him something, she had to do it before the wedding too. 'Will dad still give me away?'

'Of course he will, my child.' Her mother stated. Lily, Patty, and Alice were standing in the corner of the room just talking. They looked so good as bridesmaids, Anna just could not help but wonder if one would be willing to trade places with her. 'Naturally he will do so reluctantly.'

'Mother would you care to take Patty, Lily and Alice and get me Sirius I need to tell him something. It's important.' Anna said, and her mother looked up in confusion. She never really liked her daughter hanging with that person, ever since he left his very wealthy family.

'As you wish, darling.' Her mother stated formally, it was the closest to her normal tone than any other word she had said so far. 'Come on girls. Give the bride some time alone.'

Only moments later Sirius entered the room, and before he could even properly close the door behind him Anna flew around his neck.

'I love you. You know that right?' She said desperately trying to hug him even thither in her desperate movement. 'You'll always be my best friend. Always.'

'Anna, is everything alright?' Sirius said in a concerned tone, a tone he only had gotten after what had happened to himself now almost a year ago.

'I'm fine. No I'm not. I did something really really awful, and I don't know what to do.' Anna stated as she was rambling pointlessly. 'But remember, no matter what you hear, I'll always love you.'

'I'll always love you too.' Sirius had no idea what was going on, but frankly was quite concerned about his friend. She had not been in such a state a lot, especially on a 'happy' day like this. Anna finally let go of him, and pulled back a little. Sirius looked at her and smiled. 'You look amazing. If I was straight, we'd elope.'

Anna grinned, and for the first time that day she felt some relief. Yet it was weird… She could tell all her friends without any hesitation that she loved them, and yet she never once really told Evan. She never actually, in all those years they had been together told him those 3 words: I love you. Yet she told all her friends, and family: her mother and father, Sirius, Lily James, Peter and Alice, and she even thought she already had told Patty. Why was it then that she couldn't tell her soon to be husband? The man she was going to spend the rest of her life with? The man she loved above no other, right? Right?

Anna came in not long after Sirius and Remus had. To Remus she seemed more happy then she had in all the months they had known each other right now. He suspected that that didn't matter to Sirius though, who looked as if he was ready to commit murder.

'Hi…' Anna stated in a friendly tone, not knowing what was going on with her best friend. 'I thought you wanted to make the best out of Remus' day off from school?'

'That was the plan.' Sirius said matter-of-factly, a cold tone in his normal so sweet voice. 'But something got in the way…'

'Oh?' Anna looked genuinely confused, Remus thought she probably was. 'Did something happen?'

'You can say it like that I guess…' Sirius stood up from were he was seated, and walked over to his roommate. 'I suddenly felt sick to my stomach…'

'How come?' Anna asked, now she even sounded confused. The poor girl had no idea what was coming to her, but than it hid her right between the eyes…

'Well you know… I found out that my oldest friend had been lying to me when her tongue was down someone else's throat!' Sirius suddenly stated, well yelled was more accurate.

'What are you-'

'Don't!' Sirius interrupted Anna. 'You know very well what I'm talking about. Study group, my arse. I can't believe you're dating again, without my concern, without even telling me about it!'

'You want to know why I didn't tell you about it?' Anna asked remorseful, yet determent. 'Because I knew how you'd react and I wanted to avoid this, until I was certain it was what I wanted.'

'What you wanted?' Sirius continued raging at the young woman as Remus watched the two of them. He had never really seen Sirius angry. Ok there had been the time Sirius had send him to his room, but that was more out of confusion and fear than anger. But this, according to Remus Sirius really didn't have the right to act like this. He had no right telling Anna what she could or could not do. 'Do you even remember how you acted when you were with Evan? When he had you convinced that he was what you wanted? That he gave you the life you wanted?'

'It's nothing like that…' Anna tried, but Sirius didn't have ears for it and just continued his sermon about how she was doing the same thing again, that she was falling for the same tricks again…

'Stop it! Just stop it!' Anna suddenly yelled, tears filling up her eyes. This was something Remus suddenly had never seen before. Anna who was normally the one who was mad fast seemed like a little and hurt girl… She was broken up. 'Thomas isn't like that! And even if he is, that's for me to find out. You shouldn't judge people who you don't know.'

'Right… Like you didn't judge Chris when you could!' Sirius didn't seem to notice her tears, which were now dripping down from her cheeks.

'And with good reason!' Anna said quietly. She had known Sirius loved him, and she had never trusted him. Just like Evan, Chris had become a very painful bruise on their relationship… But they hardly ever talked about their past, it didn't seem to matter anymore. Up until now that is.

'You just wanted to be right from the beginning!' Sirius deep down knew he was out of line, but he couldn't find himself to care anymore.

'No I didn't! You know very well I didn't.' Anna said her voice trembling almost as much as her body. Remus felt so much remorse for her. She was scared just like he had been so many times, but he didn't dare do anything. As Anna looked Sirius in the eye she spoke one last sentence which made Sirius quiet down almost immediately. 'Your fear isn't mine…'

With that Anna turned around towards the door and started walking away. A few moments later she left the apartment again, and with that left the two boys alone again…

'Why didn't you ask Sirius to be your best man?' Anna asked Evan only a few minutes before he had to go and wait by the altar.

'Honey, you know it's bad luck for the groom to see the bride before the wedding.' Evan said calmly. 'You should go and wait.'

'Answer me.' Anna stated towards her fiancé. 'I need to know. I asked you to ask Sirius to be your best man. Why didn't you?' She asked him again. She needed an answer now; it couldn't wait until tomorrow, or even tonight. She had to have the answer now.

'He's sick.' Evan stated in a formal tone, as if he was discussing the weather with a stranger.

'No he isn't.' Anna said not understanding where Evan was at. Sirius was in the church with them. She had seen him, he looked perfectly fine like always.

'Yes he is. I don't want my best man to be a sick person like he is.' Evan spat out the words, and suddenly Anna knew. She knew what her fiancé meant. Suddenly she knew what Sirius had said just a few days ago, and suddenly she knew how Snape had found about Sirius that day. Before she could say anything however, Evan continued. 'And starting tomorrow he won't be able to put ideas in your head anymore.'

'He doesn't put ideas in my head.' Anna said feeling more angry than confused right now. 'And he's not a sick person. It's the most normal thing in the world. Feelings don't have a gender.'

Evan turned towards her for the first time since he had seen her entered the room, and came towards her with big steps.

'Honey, you know he puts ideas in your head. You would never agree to his perverted ways if he hadn't.' Evan's voice seemed to be concerned, and although Anna knew he probably was, for the first time she also knew he didn't have a reason. 'You know I only want the best for you right?'

Anna nodded. She knew he did. He loved her, she knew that was true. It had to be.

'Now, go and wait for your turn.' Evan said towards the young woman. 'You look beautiful.'

'Thank you…' Anna said, not knowing how this conversation had come to an ending already. She turned around at once, and started walking out of the room, yet as she was about to leave, she turned around again. 'Why did you tell Snape?'

'I had to. Sirius needed to know that being evil will always be punished. He chose to lead his life unpure, which is not my problem.' Evan said it as if it was the most normal thing in the world, but it wasn't. Not to Anna, not to most people she knew. Not to the people she loved truly. She left the room in quite a hurry, feeling tears burning in her eyes.

She didn't however get a chance to start crying, as she already heard her tune. She needed to walk down the Aisle. She had to say 'I do'. It had to be done.

'Thank you for being such a friend to me. Oh I pray a friend for life, and have I ever told you how much you mean to me? Oh you mean so much to me' A song started playing on the radio, which was on far too loud. Anna's thoughts were rushed as she was speeding on her road to nowhere.

How could Sirius say such things? Wasn't he supposed to be her best friend? Wasn't he supposed to love and trust her unconditionally? Wasn't he supposed to want to see her happy?

Anna wasn't even sure if Sirius even thought she deserved happiness. He didn't trust her instincts, and he wondered why she hadn't told him yet? He was practically a psychopath if he thought about Anna dating again. Yet she had the right to, didn't she?

'Please don't go just yet! Can you stay a moment please? We can dance forever under your stars tonight. We'll live and breathe this dream.'

She deserved to be happy as much as the next person. If Sirius, himself, started dating again she would be OK with that as well. He deserved a friend, a lover… He deserved love. Yet so did she.

In fact, it wasn't even that she loved Thomas, she didn't know him will enough to ever be curtain it was love. However, maybe she did love him, after al she had never before really loved in that way.

Why didn't Sirius see that? Why didn't he want to help her?

He should.

Anna felt like her blood was boiling as she drove on a small road far to fast. Everything around her was dark. She had no idea where she was going, no idea where she'd end up. The only thing she did know is that she had to get away.

'So close your eyes, but don't dream too deep and please pass me some memories and when I fall you're underneath a thousand broken hearts, carried by a thousand broken wings…' The song continued, yet Anna could barely hear it. It seemed to be on the background, even though it was filling the whole car.

She wanted to scream.

She needed to scream.

Suddenly however she found her car slipping from the road, trying to turn the car around… What was happening?

The last thing she thought about was that she had to make things right with Sirius…

Than everything went black…

'Dearly beloved.' The priest started in a formal tone, as Anna's father had just dropped his daughter at the alter. 'We are gathered here today to celebrate a magnificent event. Two young people will give their lives to each other from this day forward until the moment of death.' Anna swallowed deeply looking at everyone and everything that wasn't Evan. Until death, that was an awfully long time. The priest continued to chit chat until he finally came down to business, and Anna felt as if she was going to be sick at any moment now.

'Evan Christoff Peter Blaikon do you take Miss Annabella Kathrin Madison Lauren to be our lawfully wedded wife in sickness and in health for richer and for poorer until death does you apart?'

Evan took a deep breath while already nodding.

'I do.' He spoke with a smile. He knew she was his' and no one else could take her away anymore. From this day he'd own her.

'Miss Annabella Kathrin Madison Lauren do you take Evan Christoff Peter Blaikon to be your lawfully wedded husband in sickness and in health for richer and for poorer until death does you apart?' The priest, and everyone else in the small but crowded church looked at her, and Anna didn't know what to do. Was she really going to be 'Annabella' for the rest of her life? She looked at her friends: her tree bridesmaids, Sirius, James and Peter who were all smiling brightly at her, and in the back of the church in a dark corner she saw Regulus smiling his smug smile just like always. She didn't love him at all, it was nothing like that. She got together with him about two weeks after Evan's marriage proposal. Regulus was freedom, Evan was prison, and as she looked at him for the first time it hit her that she didn't want to be imprisoned…

'I don't.'

'Than I pronounce-'the priest started but realized what Anna had said. 'What?'

'I don't. And I never will.' She said more loudly than the first time, and everyone looked at her in surprise. 'I'm sorry, I can't do this.' She said it towards Evan who looked completely taken aback, and with those words she ran away from him. Lily on her heels…

It had been hours since Anna had left the apartment, and although Remus could see Sirius was still angry with her, he was also very concerned. She didn't pick up her phone, she didn't answer any of their calls, and she wasn't with any of her friends… Well, Remus had said that she might have been with this person called Thomas, but that only made Sirius' mood worse.

Remus knew Sirius was just trying to protect his friend, but he wasn't sure if this was the right way to do so. A few hours ago a very enraged Anna took her car and left, and that alone was reason to panic. Although she would never admit it herself, Anna had an anger management problem… As Remus looked over to Sirius he wondered where she got it…

Suddenly the phone rang, and both Sirius and Remus almost sprang towards it.

'Sirius Black.' Sirius stated as he picked up the phone. You could see that he wanted it to be his friend…

'Mister Black, this is Eva Milton speaking. I'm calling from the memorial hospital.' The woman said in a serious tone at the other sight of the line.

'What can I help you with?' Sirius asked in wonderment, suddenly getting an even worse feeling.

'Tonight a young woman was brought into the emergence room. We couldn't identify her yet, but she had this number on her speed dial. Could you come over as soon as possible, or can you give a lead how to find out her family?' The woman spoke, as Sirius felt like he was going to faint.

'Is she alight?' Sirius asked his voice trembling. Remus looked up, wondering what was wrong, or if something had happened. 'She not…' Sirius couldn't say it, he couldn't even think it.

'She's in a coma.' The woman spoke again in a serious tone. 'Can you tell her who she is?'

'Anna… Anna Lauren.' Sirius spoke his eyes more fearful then he could ever remember. 'I'll be over as soon as possible. Do you need anything?'

'Her insurance papers and identification if that is possible.' Eva explained. The woman sounded reluctant.

'Will she be alright?' Sirius asked now, he felt empty and scared. What would he do without her?

'I don't know the doctor is still examining her.' Eva told Sirius over the phone. 'Maybe we'll know more when you are here.'

'I'll be right over.' Sirius said, hanging up the phone without saying anything else. He was shocked to say the least. He had to get to the hospital now. Why did they fight? Why did he let her go?

Suddenly Sirius got sight of Remus again. 'Take your coat, we're leaving.'

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