I don't own The Divergent Trilogy but I love it!!
TOBIAS' POV
God it's already Wednesday and I really need to talk with Tris because I'm leaving on Friday and I haven't had the courage to ask her the famous question even if it's has been in my mind for almost a week!!
I just can't figure out how to ask her, every time I think about that I decide to just tell her the first time I see her but then when she's facing me I just can't do that, I don't find the right words... Yesterday she was at my place in the evening and trying to ask her I just started babbling and then I changed the subject.
But I've decided I want to ask her so I have to do it as soon as possible or it will be too late.
But I'm very scared and unsure first of all because I have no idea about how to ask her and it's obvious but also because what if she thinks it's too soon? What if I screw things up? What if I just mess everything?
Tobias stop, stop, stop.You are confident and she will say yes!
Goddamn I just have to pop this fucking question and I have to do it today,yes I'll ask her today.
I decide to text her in a few hours and I get up to start my day but really I can't focus on anything: I burn all my french toasts and eventually just give up, I try to wear my shoes but it seems like I'm not able anymore and only after something like one hundred tries I notice I'm trying to make my left shoe fit on my right foot and just ugh and I really can't concentrate on work, I'm just making everything in the wrong way and yes I decide just to clear my mind so I go out for a run and try to think about ways to ask Tris what I want to ask her.
Running really helps me thinking and relaxing so now I am more confident and ready, I know for sure I want to talk to Tris as soon as possible mainly to ask her but also because I miss her smiley face so much even if I saw her yesterday... yeah I know it's crazy but really I already miss her and it makes me want to spend the famous three days with her even more.
I'm inviting her out for lunch. Yep that's it.
"Good morning baby, are you working?" I text her hoping I'm not bothering her but if she's studying or working she will just answer my text when she's done but still I really hope she's free for lunch.
Almost an hour and a half later while I'm finally working in my office I'm suddenly interrupted because my phone rings and I'm a little pissed because God I had just started working but when I see the ID my mood immediately changes and I answer it with a smile.
"Good morning princess"
"Good morning Tobias, sorry I have just finished working because Linda another yoga teacher is on holiday and I have to teach her course for this week."
"Oh baby I'm sorry. How are you?"
"I'm fine, just a bit tired. What about you?"
"Uhm yeah I-I am fine too" God why am so nervous??
"Are you sure? You sound a bit different" she asks and I hear true concern in her voice, God she is so sweet and selfless and I love her even more for that.
Yes love, I know for sure I'm in love with her but I want to take things slow and step by step trying not to screw everything up so I'll tell her soon but not now, even because if I am this nervous to ask her what I'm planning to ask her I can't even imagine how I'll be when I'll tell her I love her.
Step by step. Remember!
"Yeah, I'm fine just- We need to talk" I blurt out realizing only seconds later I've made and huge mistake "Don't worry that's no bad, no bad news. I didn't mean it to sound like that. I-I..."Okay now I'm babbling.
"Tobias if it's nothing bad then just tell me" she says in a soft but a bit unsure voice.
"It's not something bad, actually it's something good, I promise. I just want to ask you something."
"So ask me"
"Are you free for lunch?" I say and I hear her laughing hard. What have I said?
"This was the hard question? "
"No Tris, that wasn't the question." I say laughing too, I don't know how she always manages to make me laugh and I am not nervous anymore.
"Okay" she says with a chuckle "and yes I'm free for lunch"
"Wanna go out with me?"
"Come at my place, Christina is busy until three in the afternoon. I was planning to cook a delicious recipe."
"Okay, I'll be there in half an hour to help you, okay?"
"Deal, we will have tons of fun"
"Why?" I ask confused... Cooking can be enjoyable but funny it's a bit too much I think.
"You'll see"
"Ugh fine. See you beauty" I greet her and start getting ready for lunch with Tris: I take a quick shower, put some casual clothes on and on my way to her place I also stop at the florist to buy my gorgeous Tris a bouquet of yellow tulips, her favourite flowers.
Now I am not as nervous as I was before but I'm still a bit unsure but when she opens the door with a huge smile and stands on her tiptoes to kiss my lips I really feel better, she always makes me happy and everything is perfect with her.
When I hand her the flowers her eyes widen and then she looks at me with her wonderful eyes full of devotion and something else but they are so beautiful and full of emotions I just feel the urge to hold her close and this is exactly what I do, I hug her tight with the tulips still in my hand.
She hugs me back wrapping her arms around my waist,I bury my face into her soft and gold hair to breathe her scent that is something that no one else has, her smell and her perfume are something unique that I love.
"Thank you Tobias, thank you" I hear her whisper in my chest so I reach her ear and tell her soft things too.
I really don't care if it's cheesy or something, I love this girl so fucking much and even if I don't say those words I try to pour love in everything I do for her, to make sure she understands how important she's for me and how much I care about her.
She slowly takes my hand and guides me inside towards the kitchen, she puts the flowers in a vase and thank me with another soft and magical kiss.
"Ready to cook?" she looks at me with a playful smile nodding towards the table that, I notice now, it's full of flour and potatoes.
"What are we doing?"I ask because I really have no idea about what you could make with potatoes and flour...
"Gnocchi, we cook Italian today. Happy?" she says knowing how much I love Italian food, it's just delicious so of course I'm happy, I just nod in agreement licking my lips. She chuckles.
"So making gnocchi it's quite simple but very funny, as a young baby girl when my grandpa taught me how to cook them I had tons of fun and since then I make gnocchi twice or three times each year."she explains, she has never talked about her grandfather so I ask her.
"Your grandfather was a great cook?"
"Oh yeah, I've never told you that but he was half Italian and he lived there for some years. He used to cook Italian often and we were very close so he also teached me a lot of recipes."
"So...you can cook Italian?" I ask her excitedly.
"Mmm yeah, I mean I'm not all that good but I can cook something yes"
"Oh you're always such a modest, I guess you're a wonderful cook. Ya know when-I mean if we'll live together one day we could cook Italian food like everyday. You should teach me, ya know."
Oh damn God, have I just said that? Oh God I'm so fucking stupid, I can't believe I just kind of said we'll live together. Well done Tobias, best way to scare Tris!!
"Deal, I'll teach you, we start now" she says with a smile, not saying a single word about the living-together-thing. Thank God!
We start making them and I follow Tris step by step, she knows the recipe by heart and she just seems so happy and relaxed while we cook, I guess she loves it.
So we rice potatoes, mix them with salt and flour-a lot of flour that just flies in the air so we end up covered with flour from head to feet-, shape a dough, cut it and roll each piece and cut it in small cute gnocchi.
And ta-da gnocchi are made, we just need to boil them in hot water and add cheese or pesto or tomato sauce and eat them...I can't wait.
"Ya know you look good in an apron"she tells me staring into my eyes.
"So you do and you are super cute with flour everywhere"
"How? I'm full of flour? You're not..."
"Yes you are!"
"Where?" she asks trying to clear her wonderful face but I stop her, grabbing her wrist and pull it down, still looking at her intently.
"You have flour here"I say staring right into her eyes and kissing each tip finger saying "here" every time I plant a kiss starting from her right hand and then her left.
"And you also have some flour here" I kiss her forehead, her right cheek, her nose, the other cheek and then her soft dreamy lips and her chin.
She also has it on his neck and on his left breast but I stop to think about if I should stop or if I can keep on going.
Further and further.
I decide to be brave so still having eyes locked with Tris' I plant a couple of soft kisses down her neck and then on her left boob.
The sexual tension between us is now almost too much to handle, I'm soo much turned on, my dick's already hard and I know for sure we can't go further or I won't be able to stop.
She holds my intense gaze for a while, her lips softly apart and I'm sure she's swallowed hard when I kissed her breast like I did too, that was the furthest we have ever gone and yeah it was damn hot...it felt just amazing and the sexiest thing I've ever done. Her breasts are covered by her t-shirt and a bra but fuck it was just so excited and hot!!
After a few seconds of staring I can't handle her strong gaze, I know for sure if we spend a few more time like that I'll just jump against her and I'll have my way with her right now, right here in her kitchen.
So I clear my throat and say "I think we should clean here and then eat"my voice is rough with want.
"Yeah" she says breathless, I love I can have this effect on her and turn her on because if course she has this power on me, it's almost too evident.
We tidy up the room, clean the table and everything but we never touch eachother and I think this is for the best because I still need to calm down and I'm not 100% sure I'll be able to control myself if we are too close, sexual tension still in the air.
Fortunately it goes away quickly and we start to chat, talk and touch like we always do and I really love it because with Tris everything is so much more special and important than with other people, we just have an unique connection and yeah I love it.
"God Tris these gnocchi are delicious" I say,my mouth still full of my first bite but really I have never tasted something this good.
"You did well ya know so I guess it's not just my own merit"she says blushing, I just lean in to plant a soft kiss on her lips and lock my hand with hers.
We decided to have classic cheese-gnocchi but we have also a cup with tomato sauce and one with pesto in the middle of the table, between us and after a few minutes of light talks and jokes she tells me I should try the pesto one because they're delicious but then she stops me by taking my wrist softly when I try to taste them, I look at her with a confused look.
She stands up and walk towards me slowly, always staring at me and not saying a single word and I can't do anything, I just look at her not being able to move.
She sits on my lap, rests her back on my chest and her head on my shoulder, the only thing I manage to do is wrapping my arms around her and kiss her on the cheek.
"Try this" she says, taking one of her gnocchi, putting it into the pesto sauce and then feeding me like she did on our first date, a little more than a month has passed since that perfect night but this action feels as magical as that first time and I find myself thinking about how much I want to be fed by this gorgeous girl sit on my legs forever.
No matter what, I want Tris.
Pesto gnocchi are really good and tomato one too, we keep feeding eachother, chatting and cuddling together.
It's amazing and I think now I'm more confident than I was before so I just decide to ask her the famous question, I'm here for that after all!!
I swallow hard and I finally start my speech "So Tris, I really want to talk with you about something but as I told you before it's not something bad."
She cups my cheek with her soft hand and smiles softly at me like to encourage me.
"So ya know now I work at home but I used to live and work in New York, actually I spent there three years of my life and I moved back here a couple month ago and I was soon blessed with you" I say trying to make sure she knows how much I appreciate her and how much grateful and thankful I am, how I love being with her and how special she is to me.
"So I have to go back there next weekend, I have to go on a business trip with all my bosses and just everyone who works for the company for a few days so yeah. I know you have never been to New York and you really would like to go there and visit one day, you told me that during our second meeting when we spent the whole day at the beach with the others. I know it would make you happy and now it seems like my main goal is making you happy so what I'm trying to say is..."
You can do it Tobias, just ask her "Doyouwanttocomewithme?"
I look at her, hoping she'll say yes.
Her mouth falls apart and her eyes widen when she finally realizes what I have just ask.
"Business trip? New York? With you? A few days? Next weekend?" she asks like she can't believe that but then shouts "Oh my God, I have to start packing or I won't make it!!"
I can't help but laugh, laugh hard and hug her tight!
I'm so happy right now and relieved I can't stop grinning, I start to plant soft kisses all over her wonderful and cute face like a five-year child but I'm just too excited and she has said yess!!!! I mean she hasn't said Yes but I'm sure I can take her answer as a positive answer.
She chuckles as I tickle her stomach, God the sound of her laugh is something I can't live without, it's so true and beautiful and amazing.
"I can't believe you're taking me to New York" she whispers like she really can't believe that.
I nuzzle my nose with her and staring into her eyes I say "I can't believe you're coming with me there. God I was so nervous and now I'm so happy. Thank you Tris, thank you"
"Thank you Tobias" she says kissing me.
"Ugh it's already three in the afternoon, I need to go in half an hour. I have self-defence classes to teach"I say, not really wanting to leave.
"Three in the afternoon? Oh my God!"
"What's up?"
"Chris is going to be home in a few minutes and then ugh we're having a 'super funny girly afternoon of shopping and salon'. Exciting isn't it?"
"Ahaha it's hilarious"she looks at me with a what-the-fuck look" but seriously, I'm sorry baby but the NYC news it's perfect for a girly talk, isn't it? Not that I'm used to girly talks but that's a kind of thing a girly girl like Chris could really freak out about I guess."I say.
"Yeah, what a long afternoon" she says and we both laugh.
"But seriously are you sure I won't bother you or something in New York...that's a business trip after all"she says and I can tell she really wants to make sure she won't be a problem for me.
"I'm sure, 100% sure. We'll have a lot of fun and New York it's amazing and everything is so modern and special there, it's the perfect city to visit even if living there it's not all that great. Ya know I'll be busy some hours a day with meetings and that stuff but then we'll also have plenty of time to spend together and of course when you'll be alone you'll be able to do whatever you want...ya know museums, shopping or-"
"Shopping is not in that list, not in a thousand years! It will be a miracle if I'm still alive tonight after my shopping session with Chris so don't you dare to talk about shopping!"
"Ahaha okay, I won't"I say laughing but then more seriously I add" But really Tris I am more than happy you're coming with me, I'm so excited about that and I really look forward to Friday. Wait you won't have problems with your classes and job right? The fight leave Friday morning around ten and we're coming back on Monday...we'll be here in the afternoon I suppose" I really hope she can make it but I don't want her to risk her job or something.
"Mmm yeah I think there will be no problems, I mean I'm free on Saturday and Sunday and I haven't got classes on Monday and I can skip classes on Friday plus last week another yoga teacher was on holiday and I taught her courses too so I'm sure she will return the favour. I'm so excited to go to New York!!" I hear true happiness in her voice as she hugs me tight and that makes my heart flutter.
God I love this woman!
We are in our little amazing bubble so when someone unlocks the door we jump in surprise... I guess Chris is already here.
"Trissy I'm home." Yeah Christina is definitely here." Go get ready for our girly afternoon! We have a hundreds things to do and tons and tons of shops to go in so-" she stops screaming with her excited voice as soon as she walks in the kitchen and sees us.
"Oh hi Four" she waves at me with a smile but then looks at Tris with a quite angry face"Hey have you forgotten about our plans?" she seems a bit upset.
"No Chris, don't worry I have not forgotten it's our girly afternoon today. Don't worry. Four and I had lunch here and he was just leaving." Tris says.
"Yeah I was leaving, I have to work"I add looking at Chris that seems happier now.
"Oh fine" she says happily "Okay, and- oh what is all this mess here?"she asks pointing at the table that is still semi-covered with flour.
"Ahahah we made gnocchi and we were cleaning and-" Tris says but blushes a little knowing we weren't really cleaning.
"Yeah sure you were cleaning" Chris says with a malicious voice that makes me flush a little"But really gnocchi? They are so good, have you finished them?"
"No we saved a plate for you, it's in the fridge"
"Oh thank you, I love gnocchi and Tris is damn good at cooking, isn't she?"
"Absolutely agree, an amazing cook" I say answering Chris' question but looking softly at my girl, I am not just saying I really mean it.
"Okay little lovebirds, stop it with all this sweetness" Chris says with a disgusted face.
"Oh shut up Crissy because you and Will together are the same ways, what am I saying? You two are so much worse than us" Tris says chuckling and I decide it's time for me to leave so I greet Chris and Tris walks me at the door where we have some more privacy.
She is staring at me, biting her lower lip -sweet Jesus she and her lips drive me crazy- trying to hide a smile.
I feel the urge to kiss her so I lean down and softly yet teasingly bite her lower lip too before crashing my lips firmly against hers, in a passionate and long open-mouth kiss: our tongues dancing together, her hands in my hair and my hands on her lower back.
"That was a kiss!" she says when we break apart completely breathless but with huge grins on our faces.
"Ya know I really love kissing you" I say with a malicious smile and she just nods in agreement.
Even if I'd love to stay here something like forever I really have to leave so I kiss her one more time and head home thinking about how much I'm lucky to have Tris in my life, I have literally been blessed with her.
Like I said that night when I was in bed with the temperature: she is my angel and I am so thankful for her, so damn thankful! Oh yeah.
TRIS' POV
"So Tris I think we have a lot to talk about, right? We haven't had a girly time only the two of us in ages and sometimes I miss you and that's crazy, how can I miss my roommate?"Chris says as we walk towards the shopping center, it's a nice and sunny day so we decided not to take the car but just go for a walk even if I think we will need a taxi or a bus to go back home because knowing Christina we'll have something like ten bags each!
"Yeah, me too even if I prefer the dinner-film girly time instead of shopping."
"Oh shush we will have so much fun and then at the salon they will spoil us, isn't it great?" she questions me like she already knows the answer and I have to confess that yes I like going to the salon once in a while just to stay quiet and have some relax, I mean who doesn't like salons once in a while?
Plus now that I'm going in New York with Tobias I think I could really enjoy a wax.
New York. With Tobias. God this is a dream becoming true, I still can't believe this is happening. Three days in the city I have always wanted to visit with the best boyfriend ever, the one who I am in love with. Just the two of us!!
"Yeah yeah whatever"I say biting my lip trying to hide my huge smile at the thought of what Tobias has asked me today.
"Mmm Trissy, I can tell something is going on. What are you not telling me?" Chris asks and I think about what to say... I know for sure I usually try do deny it when she says something's going on but this time I'm too excited not to tell her, I really need to talk with her...I'm just so so excited.
"Four's taking me to New York next weekend"I say and even if I'm dying just to scream it so that everyone knows about it I still try to act like it's not a big deal.
"Ah" Chris is now staring at a shop window and this is the only thing she says... I mean this is the only thing she says until she realizes what I have just said:"Wait what? He is taking you where? Oh damn God c'mon we need to speak about it, seriously" she shouts dragging me towards a more private place where we can actually talk and she makes me sit as she does the same.
"So now Tris you are telling me what happened and just everything, okay? We are not leaving until you're done, with details.
"Okay okay, I'm so excited. So today Four told me we needed to talk but that it wasn't about something bad so we ended up having lunch together you know and we made gnocchi. Then he said he really needed to talk about something and he was nervous so I started to worry but then he told me he has to go to New York on a business trip next weekend and knowing I'd love to visit it he asked me to go with him. I had told him about how much I wanted to visit NY that day at the beach, during our first official meeting ya know. So yeah he is taking me to New York!! We are leaving Friday morning and we will be back here Monday evening "I say without even breathing once, wow I knew I was excited but I wasn't planning to tell her that much.
"Oh my God this so sweet and amazing, like a fucking dream!! I'm so happy and excited for you. Ya know I quite like him, he treats you right"
"Thank you Chris"I say hugging her and we end up jumping together like two crazy girls but who cares? I am so happy no one could even try to mess with me or get me upset, no way.
"But now my dear Tris we have to do some more shopping, if you know what I mean" at first I'm clueless and I have really no idea about what she is talking about but then when I notice she has an huge malicious and excited smile I start to understand.
I shake my head no.
"Oh yes baby! Four's taking you to New York and I guess he has booked just one room so you two will sleep together, what am I saying? I know as a fact you two little lovebirds will sleep together even if he has booked two rooms- that I strongly doubt. So yeah you'll need some more items, ya know and I'm 100% sure he will love them" she says with a smirk and I blush and shake my head again.
"Oh yes, you can keep shaking your head no but the answer is yes, I mean this isn't even a question! So I think we could start with Victoria's secret" she says grabbing my hand and dragging me through the shopping center that is now quite full of people, not like on Saturdays but still there are a lot of people in here.
"Oh and then we're going to the salon and I'm choosing your wax"Chris says and I try to say something but she stops me before I manage to say a word.
"And even this one isn't a question missy" she says and ugh it's going to be so embarassing and just ugh I want to die right now.
But when we reach our first destination- Victoria's secret lingerie shop-I stop and I refuse to go in.
"Sorry Chris I can't do it, I'm not coming inside. I'm sorry it's all just too embarrassing"I say.
"Oh c'mon Tris, you need to impress your boyfriend and we need to go inside and buy something hot for you to wear. Plus if I go in there and choose your lingerie by myself oh trust me it will be so much worse for you"she says chuckling.
"No Chris please"
"Oh c'mon. Are you two even humans? I mean you have been together for almost two months and you have done nothing. God I really can't understand how you have managed to keep your hands off of Four, I mean he's The Hottie and he really is"
Of course I blush and tell her I think I am not ready yet and I know that she knows it's also because of my 'accident' with my last boyfriend and yeah she's right and I know I need to tell Tobias but I'm planning to do it during our trip.
"Listen Tris you are beautiful and I know for sure Four keeps telling you so, he really really likes you, he's deep Tris and I can tell that just by looking at the way he stares at you...like you are the only thing that matters in the world so don't you dare to doubt it. Okay? So now we are going in there and you are buying some things okay? I know you'll need them one day. Hopefully one day soon"
Chris manages to drag me into the shop so I try to be as fast as possible even if Christina wants me to try something like one hundred things but I often refuse because they are just too much for me.
I end up buying three lace underwear sets and Chris buy something like the whole shop and I can't help but laugh when she realizes that now she has to carry wherever we go four bags full of things, her face was just hilarious but unfortunately this doesn't stop her from dragging me into dozens of other shop so when we reach the salon we both have a lot of bags: I have four but I'm carrying also two bags for her so we have six and six.
I know that's crazy but she's Christina after all so I shouldn't be so surprised!
At the salon we have the full pack: manicure, haircut, massages and wax...yeah we can say they spoil us a lot but once in a while everyone needs and deserves that!
Then we call a taxi to go back home because walking with so many bags is just impossible.
We order some Chinese food, change in some more comfortable clothes and have some more girly talks about everything: our relationships me with Four and Chris with Will, our new group of friends that includes also Marlene, Uriah, Zeke, Shauna and Lynn and about our past and future trips and things to do all together.
The time goes fast so we end up falling asleep on the couch with the light on and the boxes of our take away still on our knees but it was a very wonderful day, once again thanks to Tobias.
So this was chapter 12, I hope you liked it! Leave a review to let me know what you think. See you soon and thank you all once again!! :)