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Chapter 12

The sound of the body dropped to the floor.

"Honey, are you okay?" Grissom asked moving, so that he was positioned in front of Sara, so she couldn't see Hanks body.

"Is he dead?" Sara asked ignoring Grissoms question.

Grissom went over to Hanks body and checked for a pulse "He's dead" Grissom whispered before placing a towel from his hamper, over Hanks face so Sara didn't have to see him.

"I.i.i.Killed.Him" Saras body shook with sobs.

"Honey" Grissom tilted Saras chin so he could look in her chocolate brown eyes. "It was self defence, if you didn't kill him, he would have hurt you"

"Its true" Sara murmured after a few minutes of silence.

"What's true?" Grissom asked in confusion.

"There is a murder gene" and with that said Sara dropped her gun and walked over to the chair on the other side of the bedroom and sat down bringing her knees to her chest.

A murder gene?

(Flashback)

Sara: Do you think there's a murder gene?

Grissom: I don't believe genes are a predictor of violent behaviour.

Sara: You wouldn't know that in my house, the yelling's, the fights, the trips to the hospital, I thought that was the way everybody lived… But when my mother. Killed my father… I knew that it wasn't.

(End flashback)

Oh no, she's not thinking she is like her mother is she…?

"LVPD"

Grissom got brought out of his thoughts by his front door crashing down.

"Gil, Sara!" Brass yelled.

"In the bedroom" Grissom shouted, glancing at Sara and noticed the fear in her eyes.

Seconds later Brass entered the bedroom with two police officers in tow.

"What the hell happened here?" Brass asked lifting the towel of hanks face and looking at him.

"I.i.Killed…him" Sara sobbed from the other side of the room.

"Sara" Grissom said concern etched in his voice, making his way to Sara, he knelt down in front of her and took hold of one of her hands in both of his.

"Gil, would you like to tell me what happened here, before I have to call dayshift" Brass said still shocked at the sight before him.

"Dayshift?" Grissom questioned.

"Dayshift will have to have this case, as you are the night shift supervisor, you nor your team can work on this case"

"Oh okay" Grissom sighed "Sara woke me up saying she thinks someone was in the house, I told her to grab her gun after a heard footsteps coming down the hallway, just as Sara grabbed her gun Hank barged in to here" Grissom could see it all replaying in his mind" Hank had a gun." Grissom had just realized what Hank had told them.

"Hank said Ecklie gave him the gun"

"What! Ecklie gave Hank a gun!" Brass asked shocked.

"Hank said he gave it him for protection" Sara murmured.

"Yeah In fact, Conrad said to me in his office yesterday, that I was a threat the Hank" Grissom remembered.

"What?" Brass and Sara said in unison.

Realizing he never told Sara this bit of information he squeezed he hand before continuing " I tried telling Ecklie, that Hank was a threat to Sara, and how he shouldn't have released Hank, but he was having none of it"

"Okay" Brass said writing it all downs in his little black notepad." What happened when Hank entered the bedroom?"

Grissom looked at Sara and realised she was still in shock from shooting Hank to say anything, so he continued "He was pointing the gun at me and Sara, while Sara had hers aimed at him, Hank was talking Sara how tough she was before…." Grissom stopped talking he didn't want to talk about how Hank hurt Sara.

"…Before he kicked 10 shits out of me, his exact words" Sara said a hint of courage and fear in her voice.

"Okay, then what happened" Brass continued.

"I tried to calm him down, but he got angrier, so Sara tried to get Hank to put the gun down, then they could talk, but Hank wasn't listening" Grissom sighed softly whilst squeezing Sara's hand again before continuing " that's when he said he came here to kill Sara, and he was about top pull the trigger before…before Sara shot him"

Sara whimpered whilst trying to hide the tears what was escaping.

It sound horrifying coming from Gils mouth.

"Don't worry Sara, I know from what you have told me that this was a case of self defence, and I am sure the sheriff will understand as well" Brass smiled gently "ill have to phone this in, I wont be a minute" with that said Brass left the bedroom into the hallway.

"Honey, are you okay?" Grissom asked still in the same position as before.

"Im scared Gil" Sara whispered

"You heard Brass, its self defence, even the evidence will prove that"

"Gil, Im scared that I am turning into my mother" Sara turned her face away from Grissoms concerned blue orbs, causing her hair to fall in her face.

"Sweetheart, don't think like that," Grissom said gently, while tucking her hair behind her ear before caressing her cheek. "Your nothing like your mother"

" I am, I let a man abuse me because I was to damn scared" Sara sobbed "and now I killed him…it like history replaying itself"

What am I suppose to say, she's so torn, I don't know if I can fix this, but I have to try, I love her to much to lose her.

"Ecklie and his team are on their way" Brass said coming back into the bedroom.

"Just a fair warning Ecklie is pissed"

"I don't care about Ecklie" Grissom spat, he could feel his anger building up, but he pushed it back down, he couldn't lose his temper in front of Sara.

"Brass is it okay if erm… I grab some erm..Clothes" Grissom asked after a few moments, his cheeks turning a deep shade of red.

Grissom was wearing long navy pyjama bottoms while Sara was only wearing one of Grissoms dark green shirts saying forensics on the front.

"Sure" Brass chuckled at Grissom being embarrassed about his naked torso.

"Tell us where you clothes are and ill past them to you, you don't want to contaminate the scene"

"My pants and shirt are on top of the hamper….

"My clothes are beside the hamper," Sara said feeling her face burning up after realizing what she was wearing.

"Alright, Sara you go into the bathroom first, then Gil can go in after you, then you can place the clothes you was wearing onto the bed so they don't get any cross-contamination"

"Thanks Brass" Sara muttered taking her clothes from Brass and entering the bathroom.

2 minutes later Sara had reappeared in the bedroom and placed the forensics shirt on the bed. Grissom did the same, just in time to hear his name being yelled from his front door.

"GRISSOM!"

"Ecklie" Sara, Brass and Grissom murmured in union.

"What the hell have you done!" Ecklie screamed entering the bedroom and seeing his Hanks lifeless body on the floor.

"Ecklie, if this case is personal for you, I would advice you not to get involved" Brass said holding his hands up to calm an angry Ecklie down.

"No its not personal, you son of a bitch Gil! Am going to nail you for this!"

"Exactly what are you going to nail me for Conrad!" Grissom snapped "I should be getting you arrested for supplying Hank with a gun!, if you didn't give him the gun we wouldn't be in this mess!"

"Gil calm down" Brass said calmly standing in-between Grissom and Ecklie "come on I'll take you and Sara to the station"

"Fine Brass, this isn't over!" Grissom scolded giving Ecklie a cold stare, and with that Grissom and Sara left the room with Brass in tow.

"Son of a bitch" Ecklie murmured before going over to see his now deceased friend.

TBC

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