Miroku was waiting with Inuyasha in the studio when Rin woke up. She silently slipped into the bathroom and took a quick shower and pulled on a change of clothes she had placed in the bathroom for emergency purposes. Miroku smiled and waved as he saw her, "Hey Rin. Long time no see. How are you?" She smiled and walked over, giving him a small hug.
"I am doing ok under the circumstances. She put in her disc with the newest song she had worked on before leaving Sesshomaru, Miroku listened to the track momentarily before smiling. "Do you have lyrics for this yet Rin? If not I can help you" He said as he sat at the table with his drink. Rin shook her head before quickly turning it off.
"No, I have lyrics for the song. I am just waiting for you to be ready, that's all." She said as she sat on the chair in the recording room. She put her headphones on and waited for Miroku to take his seat at the system, he waved to let her know she could begin as the music flowed through her head.
Do you still touch her like you do
Kiss her all over in the way I kissed with you
Or when you sleep with her do you sometimes think of me
Not if you love her the way I see
I had to be free
Had to be free
It's all that I wanted
I wanted to see
Wanted to be
Alone if I needed
I had to be free
Had to be free
From feelings that haunted
I wanted to see
Wanted to be
free
Miroku watched Rin carefully, not even knowing when Kagome and Inuyasha entered the basement and stood listening. Rin had her eyes closed as she let the music wash over her, purging her of all her burdens.
And then in the evening light when the bars of freedom fall
I watch the two of you in the shadows on the wall
And when the darkness steals some of the choices from my hand
Then I begin to understand
I had to be free
Had to be free
It's all that I wanted
I wanted to see
Wanted to be
Alone if I needed
I had to be free
Had to be free
From feelings that haunted
I wanted to see
Wanted to be
free
I had to be free
Had to be free
It's all that I wanted
I wanted to see
Wanted to be
Alone if I needed
I had to be free
Had to be free
From feelings that haunted
I wanted to see
Wanted to be
free
Rin slowly held out the last note as it softened into the music, Miroku cut it off before waving to her she was all set. Rin left the room and sat on the couch as she was caught up in the thoughts of her own memories. Miroku, Kagome and Inuyasha knew they could do nothing and as such, left her to her thoughts.
Kaede stepped into the basement and sat beside her. "Come now Rin, would he wish for you to be saddened? It should be he who is saddened." Rin shook her head as she wiped her tears. "I know he messed up, but you can't let it continue to get you down. You must draw on your own strength now."
"I know my way Kaede, I just don't know if I am ready to forgive him. His actions hurt me so much and Kagura of all people." She said as she snuggled with her pillow. Kaede smiled and slid a plate of cookies closer to her.
"If you know your way, then you know what you must do Rin. But again, I must ask that you take the time needed for your heart to decide if it Loves Sesshomaru enough to look past this and start over." Kaede said before leaving her to her thoughts.
Over the months Rin's health slowly started worsening after the birth of her twin pups. She refused to eat, all she wanted to do was sleep because in her dreams, Sesshomaru was still hers and loyally. Kaede had to call Sesshomaru and inform him of Rin's failing health and Kagome's care of his pups in the absence of their mother.
Sesshomaru stepped into the basement her favorite song playing softly as he watched her sleep, the words falling on his ears.
I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me
I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me
Sesshomaru slid his hand up her arm softly, her body stirring softly as she woke from her dream. Her eyes fell on Sesshomaru's face, "No, you're not real. I don't want to wake up, let me stay here where I can be with you Sesshomaru." His heart broke as he realized he was responsible for this and he alone.
"Rin, I am really here. Kaede called me and I came to see you. I know I do not deserve you Rin, but I can't make it without you. My study is a mess, you are not around to keep me in line, keep everything running perfectly….I had not realized how difficult it was until you were not there. I need you Rin, In my life, my heart, my very world. I am just sorry I didn't realize I was lost without you." He held his hand up, palm facing her, a secret they had so they knew the other was really there.
Rin placed her hand to his before his own hand closed around her fingers, interlocking their hands. Rin let out a small cry as Sesshomaru pulled her into his embrace. "Inuyasha if you would have Kagome get some food for Rin, I would appreciate it." He said, sensing his half-brother in the shadows of the stairs.
Within minutes Kagome was bringing Rin soul with Vegetables and soft meats. Sesshomaru sat beside Rin and watched her eat her food slowly as her own hands were shaking from the effort of holding a spoon. Kagome brought in two bundles that were squirming, Rin's eyes fell on the bundles before she was attempting to reach out for them. "Easy Rin, Kagome will bring them to you. Just sit back and relax." Sesshomaru stated as he took the first one with the blue crescent moon and silver hair. Rin was handed the second one with brown hair like hers and silver ears the color of his father's hair.
"What are their names Kagome?" Rin asked, Kagome smiled as she motioned for a moment and brought the dishes up the stairs and returning moments later. Rin was playing with his fingers while Sesshomaru was letting his other son play with his hair.
"We didn't name them, that was for you to do Rin. I do hope you understand that the pups are used to me and Inuyasha's scent. As you were sick and Sesshomaru was not around." Rin's eyes saddened that she missed her chance to bond with her pups. Inuyasha walked down and pulled Kagome towards the stairs.
"The pups can get re-acquainted with their parents Kagome. It is a personal thing so we should get going." He shoved her up the stairs and closed the door, leaving the two in silence. Rin smiled as her pups' eyes shone with curiosity.
"How about Ichirou for the first born, he is the one with silver hair and as for the second one, how about Hajime?" Rin asked, Sesshomaru pondered the suggestions with deep thought. "Ichirou for first son and Hajime for Beginning. For our pups are a symbol of a new start for us"
Sesshomaru smiled, "Yes, the names are perfect for them. I am just wondering if they will be behaved or if they will not be content unless they find trouble" Sesshomaru said with a small laugh. Rin smiled and leaned against his side, resting her head on his shoulder. For once, things could go right in her life and maybe she would get her happy ending after all.
A/N: This will be the end of this story, as I plan on making a sequel that focuses more on the two sons Ichirou and Hajime. Rin and Sesshomaru will be in sequel, but the plot will be on their two sons