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Chapter 11: An attempt to mend the past

Being attracted to the same sex isn't ideal. It is an immoral act and its abnormal; and we're discriminated because of our sexual preferences constantly. Condemned for being wrong. But unwilling to make it stop. This is what being 'gay' is. That is the definition. We're called losers, faggots, and other shit like that. People are so judgmental that they will do anything to prove that we are the gross ones.

But really,

They're the gross ones…HE was the gross one…

It was my first day of school…and everyone treated me like an outsider…well, more like than didn't treat me like anything at all, I was invisible. Non-existent, or whatever you'd like to call it. Then, an angel came through for me.

My savior,

Onodera Ritsu. He was really fascinating…all the girls were absolutely infatuated with him. He was gorgeous. His bangs split cutely in the middle, his smile warming your heart. His vibrant aura, his soft characteristics. He played every instrument, violin, piano, keyboard-you name it, he played it better than anyone…and his voice,

Oh his voice….how do I put it into words? I can't even begin to define the beauty of it. It was so beautiful, it made tears pour out of your eyes unexpectedly, leaving you absolutely breathless. But I think what people found most intriguing about this particular male, was his eyes.

An emerald green. Luscious, fiery, soft green…I almost couldn't resist the temptation to take him into my grasp.

When I walked into class, I felt as if the whispers were already beginning, maybe I was just paranoid…maybe I was just being stupidly shy about transferring in the middle of school…but that was when I saw him.

Reading quietly at his desk.

"Students, this is Haitani-san, he will join our class as of today. Please be nice to him." The teacher patted my shoulder, as I did a quick bow. "Tell us something about yourself Haitani-san." I looked at him nervously, pulse practically jumping out of my shirt.

"H-Hai…um im Haitani, and I just moved here from Hokkaido…It's a pleasure to be here." I glanced around at some of my classmates, trying to focus at making a good first impression.

The teacher pointed at Onodera-kun, "Onodera-san, please help Haitani-san as we continue our lesson. Haitani-san, you can sit next to Onodera-san, the one with the book." I turned to the sight of a vibrant smile, practically forcing myself not to get caught up in those eyes.

I made my way to the empty seat next to him, as he moved his bag from the chair. "Hello, I'm Onodera Ritsu. I'm glad to make your acquaintance. I'll help you with whatever you need. Let's be friends, okay?" I blushed, and nodded as I took a seat.

"Haitani-san, what is that that you're eating?" Onodera-kun stared at my Panda Way sandwich curiously. I blinked, lifting an eyebrow.

"Um, it's a sandwich from Panda Way. Haven't you ever had one?" His cheeks turned a light pink, and he took a seat across from me.

"E-etto…n-no. I've never had that before…" He scratched the nape of his neck nervously, and shuffled into his seat comfortably. I looked at my sandwich, then back at him. Then at my sandwich, then back at him.

"Would you like a bite?" I asked him, heart thumping like a mad-man. His emerald eyes widened, and then closed as he smiled.

"No thank you Haitani-san. Oh, I have to go to the library for something. I'll see you later." He picked up his bag, and held it gently between his petite hands.

THUDUMP. THUDUMP. THUDUMP.

'I can't believe this guy…has never had a sandwich from this place…'

I stared at the empty seat in front of me, and noticed a book lying on the table. I picked it up, and looked it over for a second.

'This isn't mine…I guess he left it…I'll just take it to him.' I stood up from my seat, packing my lunch away and picking up my bag. I looked the book over one last time, not bothering to open it, and headed towards the library.

I entered the library, looking quietly for Onodera-kun. There wasn't really anyone in here. Actually there was only about five people from what I observed. Pretty empty.

I scanned the bookshelves for about 20 minutes, before moving to the back part of the library to search. I made my way over there, stepping lightly, and humming to myself.

'I can't wait to see that cute face he makes when he smiles or is nervous. Maybe he'll fall for me…'

After entering, (and seeing no one around), I shrugged, and practically gave up in my search when I saw that brown mop between the shelves.

"ah, finally." I mumbled to myself, and headed quietly over to my destination.

"um...Sorry…It's about time I went home for the day…" Onodera-Kun spoke, nervously switching off of each foot. I stopped in my tracks, trying to see who he was talking to. I bit my lip, watching as he gave a sheepish laugh, and spoke again, "uh…what about you senpai?" He took a few steps down the aisle, when I noticed a tall raven behind him.

'Was this the guy bullying him?! Oh I swear I'll kick his ass!' I felt my heart grow angry, and I clenched the book in my hands.

"I'll be here until the library closes." The raven spoke, attention focused on a book. Onodera-Kun hesitated before speaking again,

"You always stay here late don't you?"

The raven's focus did not leave the book, only gave a small reply, "It's boring at home anyways." I could almost feel Onodera-kun's nervousness. Though, I didn't understand why he was having such a hard time talking to this guy, when he was fine with everyone else.

"Why?" He asked curiously. I listened carefully, for I too was internal intrigued by this conversation.

"How should I put it," the raven spoke bluntly, "My family's falling apart at the moment." Both Onodera-kun and I flinched at the blunt remark. He spoke as if he was talking about the weather…though, I assumed he only spoke so freely to Onodera-kun.

"S-Sorry! I shouldn't have pried…"

"It's okay. It's better with the cat around." The raven's attention was still only on the book, which was starting to get on my nerves. Who talks to someone with their back faced to them!? And especially to Onodera-Kun! How rude! "Want to stay at my house tonight?"

I felt my heart race with jealously, 'why would he ask that!? Wait, no, they're just friends. Guys ask other guys to stay over…don't they!? They have to be friends. Onodera-kun's mine…..'

Onodera-kun became jumpy and began speaking entirely fast without any breaths in between his sentences. "How am I supposed to react if you suddenly ask me that!?But it my parents refuse, next time….NO! But I'm going today!" The raven haired boy turned around, revealing his masculine features and cat like eyes.

"Which one is it?" I listened intently, anticipating the answer.

"I'll go! If it will help you from feeling lonely, then I'll be satisfied."

"What's with that?"

"….." Onodera-kun stood silently shocked for a moment, then spoke again, bowing his head sadly, "Im sorry…yea. Me being with you won't change anything…sorry…..I'm annoying aren't I…?" The sound of his voice saddened my heart.

'How could he be annoying? He was perfect. Everything about him was perfect. And if this guy can't see it then why the fuck is he wasting his time!? Okay, no! I just need to give this book back, and find out the relationship they have…only then will I know what the hell this ass of a guy is to Onodera-kun…'

"well, I think I'll just go home...thanks for helping me study-" The raven haired boy shut his book, cutting Onodera-kun's voice off with his own.

"That's not what I meant." He pulled Onodera-kun's wrist, kissing him gently, as Onodera-kun rested his body on the shelve. I dropped the book on the floor, growing angrier by the second.

I officially hated this bastard.

'He's stolen my lover…He's mine….He's mine. Okay, im hallucinating. This isn't happening! No way-I love him! He can't have him! NO! NO HE'S MINE!'

I suddenly felt really nauseous. I ran out of there as quickly as I could, running to the nearest bathroom. I kicked opened a stall, retching into the toilet.

I fucking hate him…

2:00 pm:

Takano pulled into the parking lot of their apartment complex. Taking the keys out of the ignition and stepping out of the car. Ritsu unbuckled himself, and he too stepped out into the parking lot. Takano took the brunette's hand, pulling him towards the elevator. They hadn't said much throughout the 30 minute drive, which drove Ritsu crazy inside.

"Takano-san, about the plan…will you tell me more?" Takano pushed the number to their floor, silently holding Ritsu's hand.

"…" Ritsu shifted from foot to foot, fidgeting anxiously.

"Takano-san, I really want to know what you're planning. I really don't want to have to go through the same thing again…Takano-san…please…" Ritsu stared at the ground, digging his nails into the palm of his free hand.

"It's not a difficult one. And in all honesty, it's a risk." Ritsu blinked a few times, trying to wrap his head around the term 'risk.'

"How much of a risk?" Takano turned to the brunette, who opened his medication bottle and threw two pills into the back of his throat.

"Why are you carrying that thing around? And didn't you just take some at the park?" Ritsu turned away nervously, putting the medication bottle back in his pocket.

"Anyways, about the plan, what exactly are you saying by risk?" The elevator did a sudden 'DING.' And the two men stepped out into the hallway.

"You remember when we had sex in the library?" Takano pulled out his keys, as they came closer to the apartment door. Ritsu flushed, embarrassed at the question.

"N-no. I-I don't remember anything of the sort…."

"…Liar."

"B-besides what does that have to do with anything!?" Takano opened the apartment door, gently pushing Ritsu inside.

"Okay, in all honesty, after you confessed to me, I followed you around for a week." Ritsu shook his head, as he took off his shoes.

"W-what? What do you mean!?" Takano took off his shoes, walking down the hallway, Ritsu stumbling not far behind him to the couch.

"I mean exactly what I said. I followed you around for a week. I ditched class everyday for a week, and learned your schedule. And I learned some pretty interesting things." Takano took a seat on the couch, resting his arm over the top. Ritsu hesitantly sat on the couch, (with a good amount of space in between mind you).

"W-what d-did you learn…?" Takano stood abruptly, going into the bedroom for a minute, giving off the sounds of rustling papers and drawers being opened and closed. He came back to the living room area, flopping down right next to his lover, holding a piece of paper in hand. Ritsu stared at it blankly, then took it into his own.

"Monday: Oda Ritsu has Math first period. Overheard conversation of test scores with classmate named 'Haitani-san'-got B on exam- Oda is very popular-and apparently funny to a lot of people. Goes to library, and stares at me." Ritsu rolled his eyes at the last part, shooting darts in Takano's direction.

"Takano-san. I'm seriously not in the mood to read this crap." Takano chuckled, and took the paper back.

"Well you have to hear it, it's important to what im about to explain." Takano cleared his throat, continuing to read off of the list, "Tuesday: Oda is scared of animals apparently…though he tries to be nice and feed them. Got scratch by a cat today, dropped the food and ran. Followed him to music class….heard the most beautiful music with the voice of an angel. Same friend from day before hangs out with him most of the time. (gives him googlie eyes) Goes to library, reads, stalks me. Wednesday: Oda can speak five different languages….heard him myself. Japanese, French, German, Italian and English. Saw him run into three different things in less than five minutes today, very clumsy. Same friend from the last two days helped him up. Ends the day at the library. Thursday: Couldn't find him anywhere. Not a single place. Towards the end of the day, saw his friend crying into Oda's arms. Oda comforted him and said 'I'm sorry.' Then left. I assume he went home. Friday: I told him he was gross and annoying. Left but came back with two umbrellas….Saw his friend watch us, I wanted to hold his hand, so I tried. But failed when he ran away like an idiot. I glanced at the friend hiding, and went home."

Ritsu took the paper, scanning over it with his eyes. "Um, What did this guy look like?" Takano smirked, and kissed Ritsu's forehead.

"He's the one and only Haitani-san that I hate. And he's hated me ever since then. When I told you that his 'lover' had confessed to me a few years ago, I said that because I thought that you'd get the hint that it was really you who he was in love with. But…" Takano trailed off, gently gazing into Ritsu's eyes.

Ritsu's pale color tinted pink, and pouted. "But what!?" Ritsu impatiently awaited the answer. And Takano rolled his eyes, pulling out a cigarette.

"But because you're so dense, I knew I'd have to explain it to you eventually." Ritsu's eyes widened, causing an uprising of useless defense mechanisms.

"I am NOT dense! What the hell!? Besides, what exactly does this have to do with the plan?!" Takano fiddled with his unlit cigarette, before tossing it away in boredom.

"The point is, if you 'remember' him, he's attitude will change into the one he had in middle school. Not terrible, but not great. And at that point of the plan, you drop the bomb." Ritsu shifted in his seat, thinking about the plan.

"Um….uh….okay…but how does that help us at all? And what do you mean 'bomb?'" Takano sighed in annoyance, and rested his head on the top of the couch.

"Though I hate to have you say it, it must be said…" Takano stared at the ceiling, nibbling at his bottom lip. "You have to say those words…that I waited ten years to hear…"

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