"I love you so much but I just can't do this I'm sorry."
Abi's soft and weak words were echoing repeatedly in Jay's head ever since that fateful night after he sang to Abi in front of everyone at the Queen Vic before running after her which resulted in them sharing a passionate kiss. He was sitting up the Mitchell's kitchen table the next morning, draining everyone out, their voices just seemed distant.
"Ben, are you alright to take Denny to school this morning?" Sharon asked in a stressful tone of voice, with Dennis standing beside her with his backpack on his back, "It's just I have to run some errands over at the Albert with Vincent."
"Yeah, should be fine," Ben said reluctantly as he stood up and walked down the hallway to grab his coat.
"What are your plans this morning?" Sharon asked Phil, attempting to make conversation with her husband.
"Oh Lola's asked me to look after Lexi this morning," Phil responded as he finished his coffee.
"Oh right," Sharon murmured as Ben returned with his coat on.
"You ready then, Den?" Ben sighed.
"Yeah," Dennis answered.
"Have a good day darlin'," Sharon smiled at her only son as she kissed the top of his head.
"I'll be at the Arches once I've dropped Denny off at school," Ben confirmed to Jay in which Jay just reluctantly nodded. Ben nodded in return before he left the house with Dennis in tow.
"I better make a move then," Sharon announced as she kissed Phil on the cheek. "I'll see you later."
"Bye," Phil responded as he watched Sharon leave the house with her handbag swung over her shoulder. He turned towards Jay with an expressionless stare, "You made quite the performance last night." He commented.
Jay looked up at Phil and frowned, "What?"
"You know what," Phil responded with a blunt tone. "Singing to Abi like that, her and Ben broke up a week ago and you're there trying to sweep her off her feet."
"Well you've got nothing to worry about there," Jay scoffed as he looked away.
"Well you and Abi are history so what do you expect? Plus, are you forgetting that you and Ben are family? I mean, have some respect. It's clear that Ben misses her and still has strong feelings for her, he is taking her going to New Zealand hard as it without you trying to get your claws in."
Jay looked up at Phil coldly, "Yeah and you would know all about family considering your past with Sharon," he pointed out, clearly referring to Phil and Sharon having an affair when Sharon was still married to Grant. He watched closely as Phil's jaw dropped in disbelief. Jay could tell that Phil was going to explode if he continued but that didn't bother Jay one bit.
"Anyway I better go," Jay concluded. "The Arches isn't going to open up itself."
With that, Jay slung his coat on and departed the Mitchell household. As he left the front yard and closed the gate behind him, he noticed Lola approach him, holding Lexi's hand as she was skipping along the road to see her granddad.
"Jay," Lola began. "Is Phil in there?"
"Yeah," Jay said in a blunt tone before walking off.
"Wait!" Lola called out.
Jay spun around on the spot and looked at Lola with a frustrated expression, "What do you want Lol?"
Lola attempted to hide the smile that was starting to approach her lips at the mention of the nickname 'Lol'. Even where they were now, Jay still called her that, like he had always done. She quickly walked over to Jay with Lexi and let out a sigh.
"How did things go with Scabs last night? You made quite the performance last night," Lola observed.
"Don't call her that!" Jay hissed, "And I think you'll be pleased to know, she still wasn't interested so you can now back off of Abi because it's not her that's 'getting her claws' into me, it's actually the other way around. Actually, as if you would care how things went between me and Abi!"
"I care about you," Lola said defensively.
"Whatever," Jay scoffed. "Why don't you go back to that Jordan bloke yeah? You two seemed quite cosy playing happy families last night."
"You jealous?" Lola smirked.
"No Lola, I'm not jealous," Jay snarled. "I just think you should move on because me and you are history that I do not intend to go back to."
Before Lola could say another word and realising that it wasn't right to be arguing in front of a three year old, Jay decided to storm over to the Arches. He froze when he noticed Abi looking at him from outside of Dot's house after taking the bins out. She was looking at him sympathetically. Jay wanted to go over to Abi but his legs physically wouldn't allow him. So, he just ended up watching her going back inside the house and closing the door behind her.
Abi returned from the kitchen after washing her hands and made her way up the stairs, knowing that she had a bit more packing to do before her adventure this evening. She couldn't believe that the day had finally come, the day that she was leaving Walford for a very long time, if not forever. However, Abi was forever kicking herself for how vulnerable and weak she made herself last night. She sunk herself down to Jay's level, like literally sunk herself down to his level. She never wanted him to know how she truly felt. Of course she loved the idiot, she never really stopped but she had to move on, she had to get away. He hurt her so much that she felt like she couldn't put herself through that again. What if he did it again? She physically wouldn't be able to cope if Jay left her for another girl again. In a way, he did it twice. The first time was when he kissed Kitty behind her back on holiday but she forgave him and then ten months later after she found out, he ends their relationship for her best friend. She felt what hurt the most was that Jay fell for best friend, the one that was always there for her when Jay failed to be, the one that she had sleepovers with and went out and did girly things with. That was the girl that Jay fell for, why did it have to be Lola? Why couldn't it have been another girl? In fact, why did he have to fall for someone else at all in the first place?
Abi opened her wardrobe. It was mainly empty apart from a couple of boxes that were kept at the bottom of the wardrobe. One was filled with old stuff that she didn't want to part with at the time and had just stored in a box. However, the top item in the box seemed familiar. She took a deep breath to compose herself before pulling out the box and placing it down on her bed. She slowly lifted the flaps and pulled out a big handmade valentine's card. She gasped softly in realisation at the card that Jay had made her. It was full of photos of the two of them together and said 'Happy Valentine's Day' in bubble writing. She smiled sadly as she opened the card. In the card, it read:
To my beautiful Abs,
Happy Valentine's Day!
I love you
Jay xxxxx
She gently put the card down on the bed and looked inside the box once more. Once again, she smiled sadly as she pulled out a white teddy bear that was clutching a red love heart in between its paws. On the love heart, it spoke 'I love you'.
Abi took a slow and steady breath and she tried to compose herself. She couldn't be sad about the past, she had her future to think about. But she couldn't help but think that that particular Valentine's Day was after the Christmas fallout between her parents where they all found out that her dad was secretly married and in the end, he went off with his secret wife. That day she also had a run in with her dad as he tried to give her a valentine's card which he use to do when she was a little girl. That evening, Jay came round as the two of them agreed to go out for two for one pizza but neither of them fancied going out, therefore Jay had presented her with that teddy bear, a handmade card from himself, a bunch of red roses and Christmas re-gifted chocolates. Together, they had made chicken stir fry and sat and talked while they listened to music. Furthermore, that was the night that Abi realised that Jay had always accepted her for who she was and had loved her for that. That resulted in them making love for the first time. Abi wouldn't admit it to him, but that was the best night of her life.
Abi sighed sadly as she put the items back in the box and took hold of the other box that was in her wardrobe. It was full of photographs that she was going to take to university with her and stick on her wall in her dormitory once she got there. She prepared herself as she opened up the box of memories which stored twenty different photographs of memories that were precious to her at the time and wanted to take with her. Those pictures consisted of her family where her parents were together and she still lived with them with Lauren and Oscar. Those were the times where things were manageable and didn't particularly tear the family apart. There were also photos of other members of the family which included her Grandma Dot, her granddad Jim, her uncle Jack and her brother Bradley. However, the photos that particularly pulled at her heart strings were photos of her, Jay, Lola, Ben and Dexter. Abi came across a photo of her, Jay, Ben and Lola where Lola was heavily pregnant with Lexi and before she went off to Costa Rica. They all had radiant expressions on their faces. Even though, she was not aware about the story behind Heather's murder at the time, Abi did recall that she felt very happy and secure with Jay as not long ago, he had made it clear to Lola that he was not interested in her and he stuck to his word. That was when the only girl for Jay was Abi and Abi felt that she was not going to get let down, she trusted him.
Then, she came across a photo of her, Jay and Lexi at Lexi's christening. They were sitting in the Vic and Abi cradled the little baby Lexi in her arms and was smiling widely towards the camera with Jay sitting closely beside her with her arm wrapped tightly around her as he grinned into the camera. Jay was holding Lexi's hand. Abi had just started sixth form at the time and had got back together with Jay a few months before that. Amongst the photos, she came across a photo of just her and Lola posing for a selfie on one of their many night outs. She did miss Lola as a friend, she really did but she knew things would never really be the same again, not after what happened. Even when Lola and Jay hadn't gotten together, she missed her friend as things weren't right as Lola didn't agree with her new relationship with Ben (not that she blamed her!) and Abi was also pushing the people who cared about her away. But then Lola returned and got her claws back into Jay again and that's what really opened her eyes- she couldn't trust Lola or Jay, not anymore. Not after what happened. Abi smiled sadly as she finally came across a photo of just her and Jay. They looked so happy and so loved up, like nothing could ever destroy that. Abi was smiling like a little girl through the camera and Jay was smiling like a Cheshire cat as his arms were wrapped firmly around Abi's shoulders.
She let out a soft and gentle sigh- she really did miss her old life. The life where things were supposedly perfect. She would do anything to have that life back. The life where Bradley would still be alive and her parents were together and happy. She also wished that in this life, her and Jay were together and that she was best friends with Lola and nothing ever happened. However, she knew she would never get that life. Abi contemplated that she really did need to get away from it all as she believed that her downfall was caused by her breakup with Jay. She put all of her trust in Jay and relied on him so much as he was always there for her and was always willing to do anything for her and believed that they had a permanent and secure future together but she should have realised that nothing is ever a fairytale, not everything pans out the way they are supposed to. In a way, it was all her fault, while Abi was being needy and feeling helpless due to her A levels and family problems, she did not really ask Jay how he was feeling- no wonder he turned to Lola in the end. She was always willing to listen no matter what whereas Abi would just dedicate herself to a schedule which would either be sorting out her messed up family or preparing for her exams.
Oh well, she couldn't turn back time, things obviously were not meant to be and now it was time to turn over a new leaf...
"So you two actually kissed?" Gary exclaimed excitedly as him and Jay were alone in the Arches working on a car.
"Do you want to say it any louder because I'm not sure that woman standing out the doctors' surgery heard you enough?" Jay hissed as he pointed towards the brunette woman who was wearing a navy blue coat who was standing outside the doctors' surgery with a handbag swung over her shoulder.
Gary rolled his eyes, "Well why you don't seem too pleased?"
Jay sighed, "I would be if she didn't admit that she still loves me before telling me that she can't be with me." He told him frustratedly as he worked on the bonnet of the car.
"Why would she do that?" Gary furrowed his eyebrows confused.
"I don't know," Jay shrugged it off sadly. "To be honest, I don't blame her. I really did hurt her Gar when we broke up."
"It's what makes us human," Gary said softly. "So what are you going to do now?"
"Well what do you suggest?"
"I'm afraid I can't tell you that my friend, only you can decide," Gary told him. "If she's worth it, you can continue fighting for her or if you've done all you can then there's nothing more you can really do."
Jay sighed. In that moment in time, Jay couldn't think what else he could do. He loved her so much and didn't want her to just slide through his fingers again. Just at that moment, Jay's mobile vibrated in his pocket. Jay frowned as he scrambled his hand down his pocket and pulled out his phone to find one text message waiting for him...
'Can you meet me round yours at 5? Abi'
Gary looked over at Jay questionably as he watched him texting enthusiastically on his phone.
"Who was that?" he asked intriguingly.
"Abi," Jay responded. "She wants to meet me round mine at 5."
Gary nudged Jay, "Well that says something doesn't it? That means that there's hope."
"Yeah maybe," Jay sighed, in hope that Abi may be having second thoughts after all.
Time ticked on as the day went by and 5 'o' clock soon approached the residents of Walford. Abi was all packed and was ready to get going to the airport, but she knew that she had something that she had to do first. Abi took a deep breath as she stood outside the Mitchells house and her eyes wandered up the house that used to be her home for the past year while she was with Ben. She even stayed there on occasional evenings when she was with Jay too. Abi swallowed as her knuckle knocked softly on the front door. Her stomach started turning as she heard footsteps coming from inside the house before the door swung open and there stood Phil Mitchell who looked slightly taken aback that his son's ex girlfriend was standing on his doorstep.
"Abi?"
"Hi," Abi spoke nervously. "Is Jay there?"
Abi watched as Phil's expression turned from taken aback to aggravated. He sighed heavily, "Why do you want Jay?" He spoke abruptly.
"I need to give something to him," Abi explained, indicating to the cardboard box that was being held under her arm. "Please?"
Phil gave an exasperated sigh as he opened the door wider to let Abi in, "He's in the kitchen," he said bluntly as he shut the door behind Abi and walked into the living room.
Abi watched Phil as he walked into the living room and made himself comfortable in the armchair in front of the motor racing. Phil had always given Abi the creeps in a way and sent shivers up her spine. Abi sighed as she walked into the kitchen to find Jay leaning against the worktop on his mobile.
"Hiya," Abi said pleasantly as she smiled softly, closing the kitchen door behind her.
"Alright," Jay spoke cheerfully as he smiled, putting his mobile down on the worktop. "What's that you got there?"
"Oh some photos that I wanted to give to you," Abi told him as she put the box down on the kitchen table. She watched closely as Jay went through the photographs, acknowledging pictures of the two of them and them with Dexter, Ben and Lola. "I thought you may have wanted them more than me."
"But why?" Jay asked confused as he dropped the photos down on the table, "These were the good ol' times!"
"Yes Jay, times when we were happy," Abi stated. "I can't have those memories with me I'm sorry."
"But why Abs? There were times when we were happy," Jay spoke convincingly as he reached for her hands. He grabbed hold of them and squeezed them lightly, "We can be happy again Abs. I mean, we still have feelings for each other. I love you and you said that you still love me last night. So, what's stopping us eh?"
Abi sighed, "Jay if there was a way that we could be together, I would take it but I'm scared, Jay. I'm sorry, I just feel that there is no way in us getting back together, not now anyway."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Jay asked hopefully, "You mean you're not ready?"
"I don't know Jay," Abi sighed frustratedly. "But we need to move on, we need to be with different people because right now, we're just going back in the past and going round in circles and that's not doing any of us good." Abi gulped as she released her hands from Jay's grip, "I'm sorry."
"Abi please," Jay pleaded.
"Look I should probably go," Abi announced as she played with her hands. "Take care of yourself, yeah?"
"Oh come 'ere," Jay sighed as he quickly walked over to her and pulled her into a tight embrace. Abi's arms automatically curled around Jay's neck as she rested her chin on his shoulder. Jay inhaled the smell of Abi's hair which smelled of strawberries. He really didn't want to let Abi go, she was the only girl that Jay ever really loved and she was going to the other side of the world.
Abi had forgotten how good Jay's embrace felt and the thought that she would not be having those for a long time or not again saddened her. All of the memories that her and Jay shared came flooding back but she refused to let it get into her heart. She physically couldn't otherwise she wouldn't go to New Zealand. Things may be different this time round but she couldn't go there as she couldn't completely trust that things wouldn't fall the same way they did last time. Gradually, Jay and Abi slowly pulled away from one another and shared a brief glance before Abi disconnected it.
"I'll see you then," Abi said softly before opening the backdoor.
"Yeah, see ya," Jay said softly, trying to hide the sadness that was aching through every vein in his body. Jay watched as Abi started to walk out but turned back to look at Jay one final time before walking out completely and closing the door behind her.
Abi let out a long breath that she felt she was holding onto from the moment she entered the Mitchell house. When she felt her eyes start to heat up with forming tears, she quickly walked away with her head held high and confidence rising. She had to stay strong. She couldn't sink down to Jay's level because in her head, she knew that history would repeat itself. Something would tear them apart whether it would be another girl or something terrible and Abi would be back to where she was- a destroyed wreck. She couldn't keep torturing herself like that anymore. She felt a throbbing in her chest and could feel her heart pounding as she edged nearer to Dot's house. She was deepened with sadness and was heartbroken that she was going away to New Zealand and leaving Jay- the only man that she had ever loved. But she had to trust her instincts that one day, she would find a man who really will be her 'prince charming' and would love her endlessly and would always protect her and never ever hurting her…that's if there was ever a man out there who was like that.
Abi smiled bravely as she walked up to Dot and Fatboy who were standing by Fatboy's car and were smiling on her approach.
"You all ready to go?" Fatboy asked cheerfully as he stood by the open boot of his car which was full of her luggage. "All your stuff is in the boot for your next adventure!"
Abi let out a deep breath, "Yeah, I guess I am." Her eyes wandered around the Square, "It just feels sad and weird all at the same time that I'm leaving. Walford has been my home for ten years."
"You don't have to go if you don't want to," Dot commented comfortingly but with a hint of eagerness. She enjoyed having female company in the house and Abi was also Jim's granddaughter and Dot wouldn't deny that she would miss Abi being around. It felt like the Brannings were slowly slipping away.
Abi shook her head sadly, "No Grandma Dot, I have to go. I need to move on. You never know, I might be back soon!" She added cheerfully.
Dot chuckled as she rubbed Abi's shoulder, "Well you're always welcome to stay anytime."
"Thank you," Abi smiled sadly. She turned to Fatboy and smiled at him, "I'm just going to go and get my bag."
With that, Abi slowly walked back into Dot's house for a final time with an attempt to clear her mind from all the bad things that have happened to her in Walford.
Jay swiftly looked into the box that was left on the kitchen table. He noticed the white teddy which embraced a red love heart saying 'I love you' in the box. He smiled sadly as he stroked the teddy's arm softly reminiscing back to that Valentines night and cursing himself for not continuing to be that man for Abi. The man who Abi could trust and she knew that he loved her for her and believing that nothing could tear them apart. He guessed that they got it all wrong.
"What did Abi want?" Phil asked as he entered the kitchen.
Jay quickly let go of the teddy as his eyes shot up at Phil. "Oh Abi just dropped some stuff off that she didn't want," Jay spoke hesitantly.
Phil's eyebrow arched, "And why would she give them to you?"
"Too many memories," Jay shrugged. "Anyway, I'm nipping out." He quickly excused himself as he grabbed his keys and phone, shoving them into his pocket before he walked into the hallway to retrieve his coat.
"You're not going after Abi, are you?" Phil asked warningly.
"No," Jay scoffed as he put on his coat.
"It's a shame that Abi's leaving," Phil spoke bitterly. "Despite her family, Abi would have made an alright housewife for Ben."
Jay's jaw tensed. A housewife? Is that all what Phil would see her as? Abi is far more than a housewife. If Abi was his wife, Jay wouldn't see her as some wife who would have his dinner on the table when he got home from work, who would constantly be at home looking after their sprogs and doing on-going housework while he went out as the breadwinner- it was not the 1950's anymore! If Abi was his wife, Jay would treat her with the respect that she deserves and would worship the ground she walks on as well as promising to stick by her and love her no matter what. He would be honoured that she would be the mother of his children and would support her with looking after them as well as encouraging her to fulfil her dreams.
"Yeah, well, I'll see you in a bit," Jay murmured, resisting the urge for his anger to rise as he departed the house.
"Off to Gatwick airport we go then Abs!" Jay heard Fatboy exclaim cheerfully as he walked out the front gate. Jay looked over to observe the scenario outside Dot's house to find Fatboy opening the driver's door of his car and Abi hugging Dot one final time before joining Fatboy in the car.
Jay swallowed a lump that appeared to be developing in his throat as he leant against the wall watching the scene go by. Abi was actually leaving. Leaving Walford, leaving him and he had no idea what he was going to do. Jay watched Fatboy's car drive away. Jay sighed as he ran his hands over his face when a thought hit him.
"Gatwick airport," he said to himself, thoughtfully.
It was like a burst of energy had suddenly shot through Jay's veins as he darted across the Square and over to Gary and Dawn's flat where he pressed the buzzer hard and tapped his foot impatiently.
"Hello," a cute little fragile and feminine voice was suddenly heard through the speaker.
"Summer, it's Jay," Jay panted. "Is your mummy or daddy in?"
Throughout all of her life, Summer had always known Gary as her father and had always referred to him as 'daddy'. Lucky for the sweet little girl, Summer had never seen or heard of that Mr Rob Minter.
"Yes they are," Summer replied. "D'ya wanna come in?"
"Yes please sweetie," Jay answered as he ran his hand through his hair. The door buzzed open and Jay burst through the door and headed over to Gary and Dawn's flat to find Summer standing by the front door grinning.
"Hello," Summer spoke cheekily.
"Ello trouble," Jay cooed as he picked up Summer, balancing her on his hip as she giggled and was carried into the lounge and kitchen area where Gary was sitting down watching the telly.
"You alright Jay?" Gary exclaimed happily.
"See you got innocent little girls answering the front door now eh," Jay teased as he put Summer down.
"Well she's always been keen," Gary grinned as he stood up. "You want a drink or anything? Dawn's just in the bath."
"No I aint stopping," Jay insisted as he scratched the back of his neck. "I was actually wondering whether I could borrow your car."
"Depends what it's for," Gary smirked.
"Well it looks like there is something I can do in order to win Abi round," Jay said cheekily, his sadness suddenly gone temporarily as he was determined to carry out this new plan. "I just got earshot as Abi was on her way to the airport of what airport she is actually going to. I'm going to get her from the airport."
"Oh you're a genius!" Gary exclaimed cheerfully. He made his way over to the small kitchen, grabbing the car keys from the worktop and throwed them at Jay in which he successfully caught. "It's mad, but it's a great idea. You've only got one shot of this, Jay- go and get your girl! Good luck!"
Jay smiled as he ran out of the flat and ran into the Mitchell house to get his passport. He didn't even bother answering Phil and Ben as they tried to talk to him. He sprinted out of the Mitchell house and jumped into Gary's car across the road. He quickly switched on the engine and belted himself in before quickly putting his foot down on the clutch and putting the car into the correct gear before quickly applying a bit of gas and pulling down the handbrake down in order to set off.
Jay was not going to give up on his girl, if there was a chance that Abi was going to come back with him and not go to New Zealand then it was as sure as hell that he was going to take it.
"Good evening, how can I help you?" The airport receptionist greeted Abi with a smile as Abi walked over to the front case with one big heavy suitcase.
"I've booked a flight to New Zealand," Abi explained as she put her flight booking form and her passport down on the desk. "It's for 8 'o' clock."
"Not a problem," the airport receptionist answered as she opened Abi's passport and glanced between Abi and the passport photo. She put the passport down and looked at her computer. "Brilliant, would you like to sit towards the front or back of the plane or in the middle of the plane?"
"Erm, middle," Abi said hesitantly.
The airport receptionist smiled as she printed out Abi's ticket and stating what seat Abi was in before loading Abi's suitcase onto the conveyor belt. "Thank you, enjoy your flight!"
"Thank you," Abi smiled as she walked away from the front desk and made her way over to security.
Just half an hour before the flight to New Zealand, Jay sprung into Gatwick airport, constantly cursing the traffic on the way. It was horrific- there had been an accident on the M25 which caused traffic to go a completely different route. Luckily, the queue for the flights to New Zealand was empty as Jay quickly ran over to the front desk.
"Hello sir, can I help you?" The same airport receptionist who assisted Abi smiled at Jay.
"Erm, how much is it for a flight to New Zealand?" Jay enquired in a rushed tone.
"Last minute holiday?" The airport receptionist chuckled. "It's £300- that includes your return."
"Yeah, that will do," Jay answered, thinking if it turned out that Abi wanted Jay to go to New Zealand with her in the end, then he would go to New Zealand with her. He would do whatever it takes to make things work with Abi. The receptionist nodded as she made the booking on the computer.
"I'm afraid we only have 5 seats left," she frowned.
"This may sound mental but as you can see I don't have any luggage which kind of means I don't have any intentions of getting on the plane. I've actually come to stop someone I love from leaving," Jay explained. "I'll pay the £300, just as long as I get to catch her."
"Aw! That's so cute!" Another airport receptionist from the desk next to them awed with her hand on her heart. The receptionist smiled at her.
"Well be my guest," the airport receptionist chuckled. "That's £300 please."
"Is it alright to pay by card?" asked Jay.
"Yeah sure," the airport receptionist answered as she put the card machine on the desk. "I'll also want to see your passport as well please sir."
"Yeah sure," Jay responded as he quickly gave the receptionist his passport in which she checked over before accepting the card payment and giving Jay his ticket. "Good luck!"
"Thanks," Jay gave a brief smile as he picked up his passport and ticket and dashed over to security.
Abi looked out the large window at the aeroplanes as she sat in the departure lounge alone with her thoughts. She had just text Lauren stating how she was going to be boarding in a few minutes. She was almost there. She was out of Walford and soon, she was going to be in another country. She was going to be away from Jay.
No, NO! Her subconscious roared from within her. She could not think of Jay as she was moving on with her life. This was a fresh start for her. But she couldn't help but think of Jay. She loved him and she wanted to be with him but she couldn't physically allow herself to be with him. He was toxic. She was not going to fall into his trap again.
As soon as she was up in the air, Abi's fresh start would begin. She would begin by entering the pleasures of New Zealand and enjoying some much needed family time with Lauren, Peter and Louie. She was also interested in seeing this Steven as apparently he lives nearby and was also intrigued by Peter and Lauren's long awaited news that they have been wanting to tell her.
"All departures to Flight 202, boarding is now open," it was announced through the speaker.
This was Abi's flight. Abi took a deep breath and she rose from her seat and got her stuff together before heading over to the queue where passengers were waiting to board.
"Abi!"
She suddenly heard her name being called by a familiar voice. Abi gulped as she turned her head to find Jay standing there with a look of desperation on his face. Abi rolled her eyes as she marched over to Jay.
"Jay, what are you doing here?!" Abi said through gritted teeth in a hushed tone.
"I'm not giving up on you Abi," Jay stated adamantly. "Abi, I love you and I'm not willing to let you go."
"Well, you're going to have to be willing," Abi said stubbornly, keeping her head held high. "Jay, this is crazy! How did you even get through? Will security be barging in any minute?"
Jay chuckled, "No, I bought a ticket just to see you, I had to see you."
"Yeah well you've seen me now," Abi added sarcastically.
"Abi, I know I messed up thousands of times but I want to make things work between us. I love you so much, you said yourself last night that you feel the same way. I want us to try again, I really do. I've got a ticket, I can come with you if you really want me to. I really want us to try Abi, I really want to be with you. I want you, just you." Jay pleaded as he placed his hand on her cheek and stroked it tenderly.
"Jay, this is madness!" Abi responded as she pulled away from Jay's embrace. "I'm sorry but I don't feel the same way. Loving you and wanting to be with you is completely different things."
"How is it?!" Jay exclaimed.
"I can't be with you Jay, not after everything we've been through. Go back to Walford Jay, if you really love me, try to move on. I'm going to New Zealand…on my own…I don't know if I'll ever be coming back. So please Jay, if you really do love me, go back to Walford and move on with your life." Abi told him, taking every strength and emotion in her body to say that to Jay. It hurt her so much to say those words but it was for the best, she kept telling herself.
"Abi…" Jay spoke in a desperate and pleading tone, emotion dripping out of him. "Please."
"No Jay, I'm sorry," Abi shook her head adamantly as she walked into the queue and gave the flight attendant her ticket. Jay watched with pain as the flight attendant accepted Abi's ticket and gave it back to her. He heard Abi murmur a quick thanks before Abi turned back to him.
"Goodbye Jay."
Abi kept her head held high as she walked down the slope with her bag draped over her shoulder. Before she turned the corner, Abi quickly turned back to glance at Jay who was gazing at her with pure heartbreak and devastation and Abi didn't look exactly over the moon either. Then, Abi was out of sight.
"Excuse me sir, but are you getting on?" The flight attendant asked with hesitation.
"No, I'm not," Jay gulped. He took a deep breath as he turned around and left the departure lounge and started to head out of the airport. Everything seemed a blur and voices appeared to be distant.
She's gone! His subconscious wept.
And there was nothing more that he could really do about it…
A/N: Bet your poor little Jabi hearts are now breaking, huh? Please let me know what you think by leaving me a review as well as favouriting and following! I hope you're enjoying this story as much as I am enjoying writing it.
The next update won't be as long as three months I promise! I can't believe it's been so long that I have not updated this story, I am so sorry! Things have just been so busy like work and I've been on holiday and oh, I also passed my driving theory test first time this week ;D (I really don't mean to sound big headed!) and before we know it, summer's gone?!
Anyway, please leave me a review and let me know what you think :') I love you all! x