I'M SO SORRY! LIKE, SO SORRY. UGHH .
Anyway, I hope you guys like this chapter.
We stayed in this hospital for a couple of days, eventually we were admitted out, and back in school.
We were sitting in Chemistry together, when I was suddenly called to the front office. I looked over to Austin, who was wearing a sweater covering up his arms. He shrugged his shoulders.
I patted his hand, and made my way into the hall. I slowly walk down the hall, and turn into the main office, then my heart stopped for a split moment.
There before me is my father. He stood up from the futon, and walked towards me. He spread his arms out, as if he wanted a hug.
I stepped away, and pushed his arms away. I know it was cold, but he deserves it.
"Why are you here?" I asked. "I found out you were in the hospital, so I cam-"
"Bullshit!" I yelled. He was taken aback, by my sudden use of words. "You stopped caring. I bet I know why you're here , but it's not to take me home, and 'help' me."
"Al-" I turned around and stormed out of the office.
This isn't the first time he's pulled something like this. I never told anyone this, I rarely thought about this. When mom died, he shut me out, but he was collecting insurance money. He stopped caring about me, but he also stopped caring about my mother.
I bit down on my lip, as I walked away from that office. I need space a lot of it, but Austin's in class. So, I go back to the rooftop. Me and Austin's special spot.
Surprisingly, I received a text from Austin, telling me to meet him on the roof.
I could feel my heart pounding in my ears. Why do I feel so nervous all of a sudden?
I make my way to the rooftop, to feel my heart drop in my stomach.
I see Austin, but I also see Tilly with him. She's kissing him, her hand squeezing his wrist tightly. Austin shoved her off of him, she stumbled back. She turned around, and saw me and she smiled.
She opened her mouth to say something. but I cut her off, not with my words, but with my fists. I sent a right hook to her jaw. She hit the ground, she held her jaw and stared up at me in disbelief.
Austin was shocked by my sudden violence, but kept his distance. That's when I realized the look on her face, she was sad.
I felt kind of bad, maybe I didn't have to punch her, maybe a slap or two, but that's not the point. She can't have the one thing she wanted, Austin.
She looked down at the ground. I grabbed her hand, and forced her up. She looked me in the eye and muttered two simple words. "I'm sorry.."
"I forgive you."
She nodded, and walked off . I'm just as confused as you are.
I turned to face Austin and punched his arm. He rubbed it and frowned. "What was that for?"
"For letting Tilly get the best of you." a smile grew on my face, as I stood on my tippy toes to give him a quick peck on the lips.
He leans in and kisses me, but not only for a short moment. His arms wrapped around my waist, as he continued to sweetly kiss my lips. I couldn't help, but giggle.
...
We sat on the roof, just staring out towards the city. I sat a good distance from Austin, but I could feel myself pushing him away. I didn't want to. I could just hear words echoing through my head.
You break everything you touch.
I shuddered. I wouldn't let Robert get to me so much, but...it wasn't only Robert who said it to me.
Flashback:
There's more to the story of dad ignoring me. He was violent at first. He didn't need alcohol to bring up how he really feel about 'his precious wife'.
He truly did love her, but he began collecting money off of her as if she meant nothing to him. He would yell all the time, and one time, he shoved me, screaming that it was my fault mom's died, and told me I broke everything I touched.
How Robert knew about that never questioned me. I honestly feel like my father's feeling for my mother slowly dissipated after her death, suddenly becoming numb to everything except for greed. All he wanted was money.
"Ally, what's wrong?" He asked.
Austin. He's worried about me. Don't push him away.
"N-nothing...important."
He narrowed his eyes in confusion. "My dad is here. He came to get me, but I refused and stormed out of the building."
"Ally, that's very important. Why didn't you tell me?"
I shrugged and looked down at my hands. "I didn't want to bother you with my problems."
"Ally, everyone is here for a reason. We all have problems. You can open up to me. It's okay."
I smiled. He patted the ground next to me, and I slid next to him. I put my head on his shoulder. Austin's always here for me.
He gave me a side hug, and set his hand on the ground. Why can't we have more moments like this? Instead of Robert attempting to ruin things for us, or us being hospitalized.
I want Austin to be happy, I want to be happy, but we can't do that. At least...not yet.
Not now.
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~Kristina B.