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Here is the Chapter finally AHHHHHHH:
Ch 12: Back At One
She took a hold of my hand. "Spencer I'm sorry, I'm sorry for the come here, go away trip I've been putting you through."
"Okay why," my voiced cracked. "Would you do that?"
Oh great now my voice decides to crack.
She pulled me closer, her lips were inches away, "Because I want you and I don't want to hurt you." I backed up. "Spencer, come to my place after the game."
Do I give into the devil's temptation? God save me!
I sighed as I tried to figure what my next word would be. Everything seemed to be falling into place but a part of me couldn't help think of Jordan.
No no, please no, not the word vomit, help me!
"I," I swallowed heavily before continuing, "Can't Ashley," And there it goes, oh my god what did I just do?
She stumbled back turning her eyes away. Reality finally sunk in, "Huh?" She cleared her throat and continued, "Why not? Spencer I'm trying here!" she screamed.
It's a little too late; reality needs to bite her in the ass.
"I'm glad you made up your mind, but I'm with Jordan and you're with Glen." I gritted my teeth I didn't want to do this. "I'm sorry."
I shouldn't be toying with her emotions, but some part of me wants her have a dose of her medicine. Fuck!
"I've been thinking about you, my love and all the crazy things that you put me through. Now I'm coming around, throwing it back to you. Were you thinking of me when you kissed him could you taste me when you licked his skin."
The pain flickered in her eyes. She closed them and the tears slowly trickled down. She tried to grab my arm but I pulled away.
Why am I doing this, it's like the poltergeist has possessed me.
I turned to look at her one last time, "Spencer, don't do this." She pleaded. There wasn't nothing else needed to be said, I left.
"Let's turn around and head in different directions, Like we never, it's like we never knew each other at all. We said what we feel, then we stop ourselves, and just walk away. Never looking back, loving every second of it, we just walk away. This is probably the best, not to mention the worst idea, that I have ever had."
Shit, fuck… shit, I might have just made the biggest mistake of my life. My fingers pressed into my forehead, I wanted to cry but now wasn't the time nor place. I took a long deep breath and turned to walk back into the gym.
Carlin you're a dumb fuck, yea I said it! You had the girl of your dreams right there, right in fucking front of you and you just pissed it away! Yep you just flushed her down the toilet. See that swirl moving and that thing disappearing that is her. You big douche!
Fuck!
Jordan smiled up at me as I sat next to her. Her body shifted to face me. Something in her eyes maybe the confusion or worry caused me fidget. I felt guilty for using her like I did.
Fuck you guilt if I could I would kick you! Ugh!
Her hand lied on top of mine "Carlin, I want to ask you something okay?" Her tone was quaint, causing my nerves to further unravel. I opened my mouth but nothing came out, the only thing left for me to do was comply with a nod.
Jordan placed her hand on her head and let a sigh go, "I'm not mad but why did you bring me here to make Ashley jealous?"
Damn ain't she perceptive, I sure know how to pick them!
"Huh?" Play dumb, since you sure know how to act it!
She rolled her eyes and looked towards the game. Ronny made the shot and she focused her attention back on me. "Spencer, don't play dumb it doesn't suit you. Please answer the question." She calmly asked.
I inhaled and then let it go, "I brought you here because I wanted Ashley to come to her senses. We kind of started something behind Glen's back. Jordan I love her so much and I think I just made the biggest mistake." I paused to catch my breath, she smiled at me to continue. "She finally told me she wanted me too, but I turned away. I am so fucked, shoot me now, please."
Jordan laughed and grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the door. "Jordan I know your gorgeous, but jeez I will not have sex with you. What type of person do you think I am?" I smirked.
She raised her eye brow, "Are you sure you want to be asking me that because from the looks of it, Blondie you're an idiot." I hit her in the arm and laughed. "Hey, Hey you asked and I just told it you how it is, don't be hating on me." She finished.
I shook my head, "Um Jordan, 'don't be hating', that's definitely a no no, an actually hell no for you, don't say that again sweetie." I teased.
I tried dodging her hand however she got me on head, "Carlin shut up!" she retorted. I smirked and shrugged my shoulders as I got into the car.
"God you're so demanding, you could have just asked me to be quiet politely and I would have done it, maybe." I feigned hurt and turned to start the ignition. I closed my eyes once more Ashley was racing in my mind. Her smile, touch, lips, face, body, and voice were haunting yet soothing.
"So Miss Carlin, what are you going to do about Ashley? I noticed she left the gym, so why don't you go over there, after you drop me off." She snickered and faced the passenger window.
Why didn't I think of that? Idiot!
I grinned and turned up the volume to the song.
"Death until the dust, and we're waiting
Ruined in the rust, of our craving
It feels like, it feels like
Don't you know the cost, of your betrayal?
You're the one that's lost, you're gonna fail
It feels like, it feels like you're
gasping with all your might
You can't take away my strength
Fix these broken veins
There's nothing left to fight
(Live free or let me die)
You can't take away my pride, I won't be denied
There's nothing left to fight
(Live free or let me die)
Insects walk below, I'm on a wire
Fire will burn below, but I am higher
It feels like, it feels like
Don't you know the cost, of your betrayal?
You're the one that's lost, you're gonna fail
It feels like, it feels like you're
gasping with all your might."
I pulled up to her house.
This has been in interesting night.
"Well I guess this is it Carlin, this had been an interesting night, oh fuck it, actually it's been quite exciting and suspenseful. I love drama and well your ass is full of it, now the question is will the girl get the girl? Dun Dun Dun!" She chuckled and unlatched her seatbelt. She turned to leave but suddenly kissed my cheek. I smiled and shooed her out the car.
"Bye." I yelled at her and left.
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I pulled up to the stop sign; I had to two choices right or left. Shit shit shit right or left. Right or left, left or right ugh. One will take me to Ashley and the other back to my house. Oh fuck it, I'm running on impulse now, hopefully this time it does me some good.
This is it, I cautiously walked to the door. My fear was growing, I had no idea if she was even home, or whether Glen was with her.
Ew, I hope they're not doing the nasty! That will scar me for the rest of my life. Should I knock, or barge in, I'll go with option one simply because I don't want her to call the cops.
Cop+Me Jail which equals the third worst moment of my life.
My hand came to the door, but I couldn't force it to knock. I looked down at the hand, my nerves were getting the best of me; my hand was trembling. I quickly closed eyes and took a deep breath and I finally knocked on the door. The only thing left to do was wait for someone to answer.
This blows ass!
The door finally cracked opened and an unfamiliar girl answered it. My eyes briefly scanned her, "Um is Ashley here, it really important I talk to her." She just stood there silently.
Awkward silence is well awkward
She finally started to speak, "You're Spencer aren't you." I shook my head and she opened the door for me to come in.
Her hand was in front of her, "Hi I'm Kyla, Ashley's younger sister." I shook her hand and just stared blankly.
Hmmmm sister interesting.
I smiled at her, "Nice to meet you. I'm really sorry for coming here late but I really need to talk to Ashley." I told her urgently.
"Yea I figured, I have no idea what you did to my sister, but I've never heard her talk about someone like she has you." She paused. I know I'm irresistible, it just takes a little time and then they're hung up on me. Got to thank the charm it's alluring,
"However," her tone became stern, "I haven't seen her cry so much either, whatever you did to her you need to fix. If you hurt her anymore more I swear I'll kill you."
I gulped. What the hell just happened? Okay whatever it was it turned poster child into a fucking demon. "Okay" I choked out.
Her smile returned, "Well okay, she's up in her room, it's the second door on the right. Good luck." She chirped.
Well goodbye Miss. Bipolar. She is one of the fucking weirdest kids I've ever met. Note to self watch out for her, also find out if she on meds.
Here goes…
A/N: Hello Pretty people, so here's the update and I know…Ah I left you with a cliff hanger again. Jeez I'm a beyotch lol. Anyways my trip has been very interesting I might be going back again before I leave to go to Michigan for school. So If I do it's going to be hard as fuck to update lol. Anyways I have a few chapters written so I will post them if I go back up. Your comments made my day I looooooooove (yea I got happy with the Os) you guys and I hope you continue to like the story and continue to review.
Songs: The Calling's Adrienne, Chiodos' Baby you wouldn't last a minute…, Skillet's Live free or let me die.