Next chapter is here! Finally! Yay! :D I believe I did all my thanking for reviews in my new Death Note fan fiction, Aurum Aeterna, so...yeah. I deleted the emails I got because I put all the thank yous in one story. Anyway, I'm sure reviewers and supporters know who they are and I know they know I am very VERY grateful towards them. :) This story would be nowhere without all of you! Now enjoy! :D
I didn't know why, but a sudden fit of rage surged through me, practically consuming me to the point where I lost all control over my body. It was as if all the feelings of betrayal, abandonment and rage had finally crashed down on me, the mass void of emptiness transforming into an uncontrollable fit of hysteria.
"Kaname..." my voice hissed through clenched teeth and my nails pierced into the soft flesh of my palm. "You...BASTARD!"
Everything blurred together as tears poured forth from my eyes, my arms flailing about around me, crushing into my dresser, desk, and walls. Immune to the pain, I continued, my thoughts racing and clashing together simultaneously with the thunder outside the Academy.
"WHY did you do this to me Kaname? WHY?" My shrieks sliced through the still air and my arms still crushed into whatever was in hitting distance. I felt welts and bruises on my throbbing arms, the skin burning red as anger totally controlled my every action.
"Kaname! Why?"
"You know I'm never going to turn my back on you"
Then you wouldn't have left...
A vase crashed to the floor, shattering...
"Farewell, Kaiyo Abukara."
"KANAME!"
I gave into the physical pain and dropped to my knees, tears pouring down my face, drenching my shirt sleeves and cheeks. My chest heaved, laboring for air and I gripped the hem of my black, uniform skirt, my entire body trembling from the shock of the pain and the heavy sobs. Everything ached...everything seared...and I felt as if, for the first time in my life, I hated Yuuki. Why, why did she get to spend forever with Kaname? Why did she get to spend the rest of time with Kaname...they were brother and sister for crying out loud!
Wasn't there something wrong with that? Was I the only one that saw the total absurdity of that marriage? In all technicality, was I the better choice? I could be turned into a vampire easily and then share Kaname's blood and not have to worry about falling to a Level E...I was willing to do that...for Kaname...I would give up my humanity just to be with him...
I lifted my bruised palm up to my eyes, the tears distorting the black and violet mess on the peach skin...
But what if Kaname didn't want to do such a thing to me? Condemn me to a life of only draining blood out of humans...? Was all of this happening because I wasn't a vampire and he didn't want to change me? Did Kaname choose Yuuki over me because I was a mere human...? I didn't have any fantastic powers...everything I knew about hunting was because of the training I received from the Chairman and Zero. Everything...there wasn't anything redeemingly amazing about me...Yuuki however...whose beauty and fighting abilities surpassed my own...
"Kaname..." my voice cracked and I buried my face in my hands, like a child. I had reached a point where I flat out had no idea what to do anymore. Kaname never wrote me...I hadn't heard from him or Yuuki in weeks...
"Everything...has fallen apart..." I heard my own voice squeak, barely audible.
My hands covered my ears as I leaned against the cold wood of the dresser, sobbing, delirious. What to do now...the ball was going to be Hell...I knew that much. Seeing Kaname...seeing Yuuki and Kaname together...that was going to be a stab in the chest. It was bad enough I had the knowledge they were madly in love...but seeing them...witnessing the love I'd never have...the love I could never attain...how well was I going to be able to take that...?
...my door creaked open but I didn't notice, my shaking hands still clamped tightly over my ears. Tears were still dripping out of my closed eyes and my arms throbbed like hell, the gentle touch of Zero's cool fingers almost going unnoticed as I laid my forehead against my shaking knees.
"Kaiyo," his voice whispered, his sweet breath sweeping over my cheeks and I pretended to not hear him. He reached out to me, his fingers curling over one of my hands and prying it away from my ears.
"Kaiyo, pull yourself together," he half commanded, his voice low and smooth.
I shook my head violently, my eyes still squeezed shut, tears spraying in every direction.
Zero sighed, his other hand pulling my palm from the side of my head and he hesitantly touched my face. When I opened my eyes, I met the stern but slightly concerned violet irises, his mouth tight and eyebrows creasing.
"This has to stop," Zero told me in a low and firm voice, as if he wanted to comfort me and scold me simultaneously.
"Zero..." I started but he held up his hand to silence me.
"Listen, I know it's been hard for you but Kuran is gone. He's not coming back. He left with Yuuki...and chances of him actually being at this ball are slim and zero," Zero continued and more hot tears burned in my eyes.
"Kiryuu-"
"I'm not watching you go through this anymore Kaiyo. You've gotta let go...and the sooner you do so, the better you'll feel."
I could feel my eyes darken as I began to stand up, my legs still shaking violently.
"Let go huh? Why is that?" I hissed but Zero showed no signs of intimation or even anger. His eyes, however, began to thin into slits, which was slightly frightening.
"Listen you...I'm telling you this for your own good. Feel free to ignore me."
"Oh shut up!" I found myself half shouting, half unconscious of the words spilling out of my mouth. "As if I never listen to you! For all I know, you're just saying all this just so you can make your own move!"
Zero was stunned into silence, his eyes still narrow but staring at me. I couldn't tell if he was angry, offended, hurt or all three and in that moment, I honestly didn't give a damn. I turned to stalk out of the room but Zero grabbed my wrist, yanking me back towards him.
"Make my own move eh?" His mouth pressed against my ear and I felt my body tense as his cool hands grasped and pinned me against his strong body.
He pushed me up against the wall, his hand still clamped in a death grip around my wrist and I gasped in surprise, my eyes opening again to reveal his face was dangerously close to mine.
"Make my own move...don't get so cocky," Zero growled, and his other hand slid to my hip. "I could make you forget about that damned Kuran in nine seconds if you'd let me."
"Now who's the one being cocky?" I attempted to sound tough but my voice stuttered as a mere squeak. Zero's eyes petrified me. They were narrowed into thin, violet slits, like a cat, but, the emotions they beheld...that was almost captivating. A mixed look of betrayal, sadness, anger and possible lust glared back at me as we stood there against the wall, barely breathing, hearts thundering.
"Nine seconds..." Zero purred after a long moment of ear splitting silence, "all-I-need..."
His breath caressed my neck as he leaned in closer, his eyes softening and becoming more loving. My heart hammered in my chest to the point where it ached and Zero's lips brushed over the delicate skin shielding my pulsing veins.
"Ze...ro..." I managed to sigh as the light, dull, piercing pain shocked me, instilling my already tense body.
The gruesome tickle of blood slithering down my neck made me want to shudder, Zero's slow gulps steady and willing. I opened my mouth in order to protest but...for some reason no words came out. It was almost as if I didn't care Zero was sipping down my blood, as if...this was some sort of gesture of sick affection...an obsession...that from now on would tie us both to a web of crimson vows. It was so sickening...but at the same time...so...satisfying...
Zero's POV
Kaiyo's body shook and her legs gave out as one last sigh escaped from between her scarlet lips. I pulled back from her neck, her body falling into my arms, blood staining her white shirt.
"Kai-yo?"
GOD DAMN IT!
She didn't respond and I held her up, her head lolling back and forth as if she was severely intoxicated. Worry conquered me as I shook her slightly attempting to revive her.
"Kaiyo? Kaiyo! Wake up!"
SHIT!
Why did I not hesitate this time? How was I able to drain so much blood from her without a second thought as to what it would do to her? HOW could I have been so THOUGHTLESS!
"Ze...ro..." Kaiyo's voice came and I stopped shaking her, the steady breathing relaxing me immensely.
"Forgive me, Kaiyo," I whispered, holding her close to me and wrapping my arms all the way around her unresponsive body. I laid her down on her bed, her neck no longer bleeding profusely and I seated myself next to her.
Moonlight seeped through the curtains, touching Kaiyo's straight, brown hair as she slept and I stroked her bangs, her sleeping face peaceful. With one hand on her stomach and the other resting at her side, Kaiyo looked so serene...as if nightmares didn't haunt her waking life. A surge of affection pulsed through me, which wasn't surprising...I loved her.
I loved her...
I was insane for doing so...the girl was so damn complicated and stubborn...completely convinced that Kaname was the one for her and that one day he would realize she was the one he was destined to be with...disregarding any possible thought she'd be happy with me...
Damn. Girls were so complicated. Once they have convinced themselves some idiot was the one for them, they're blind as to how the love they've been wanting for so long had been standing barely three feet away almost ninety percent of their life.
It was a wonder how some men actually handled it.
Me? Oh hell no.
"You're so damn stubborn," I muttered to the sleeping Kaiyo, leaning in closer to her. "You're really naive when it comes to love you know...but..." I trailed off, placing one of my hands over hers, my lips inches from hers. "I love you, Kaiyo. I really hope you come around and forget about that damn pure blood..."
I knew she couldn't hear me and I was rather surprised with myself for saying something like that. It was out of character...for me at least. Sighing to myself, I stood up and slipped my hands into my pockets, watching Kaiyo sleep for a few more seconds. A moment or two passed and with both feelings of love and irritation, I kissed Kaiyo's sleeping lips before slipping out of her room.
"Damn it..."
I know it's not very long but I found it a good place to stop. So...how is everyone feeling about the Kaiyo/Zero? :D Just wondering. And is everyone in character? I'm not used to writing in first person POV so, I'm paranoid if Kaiyo's a Mary Sue and canon characters are OOC...ya know, all those worries. XD If any of these problems are prominent, please tell me so I can fix it. :) And thank you so much for reading! Reviews make me so happy! Thank you again everyone! ^-^
~SilverNightRain08