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Authors notes: This is my first uploaded fan fiction. Please review so I know if I should continue. This is a Jasper Fanfiction
Chapter Twelve
Everyone Falls
Jaina's P.O.V
Me, Bella and Edward made it to school in one piece. Edward drives like a psycho. I'm surprised he still has his license. I got my schedule and found I hardly had any classes with Bella and Edward. Only three.
I made it through math and science alone. People were pretty welcoming to me though. A few seemed a little hesitant. I was introduced to few people by Bella. Eric and Mike. Angela and Jessica. Mike introduced me to his new friend Jason. They were all very nice to me especially Jason. He pulled out my chair, and asked me to sit with him at lunch.
"She'd love to" Alice said pushing me in his direction.
"Uh yeah, okay. I said throwing Alice a confused glance. Alice Edward and Bella took the table at the window. I was nervous but they were all so nice to me. Jason bought me lunch and a soda. They weren't to curious of why I came here so I dodged that bullet, they were to interested in telling me all about them selves.
Alice's P.O.V.
My vision was clear. Its what had to be done. Edward threw me a disturbing glance before he said
"Are you insane Jasper is going to kill you!" he hissed.
"All part of the plan big brother. All part of the plan. Trust me, I know what has to be done." I said my voice low and quick human ears couldn't possibly pick it up. I watched Jaina mingle with the other humans. She seemed to fit in perfectly. For now.
I knew what lied around the corner. I knew the push Jasper needed to make my new sister part of the family permanently. Nobody would go against Jasper, when it came to her. I wasn't about to lose her. I knew if it was up to him in his state of mind he would let her go as he did me. What he didn't know and at this point the cant know, is that without him she would become something unspeakable. I couldn't do that. Not when her life would bring so much happiness to my beloved Jasper.
He was just to stubborn to admit he needed her. He would grow bitter and alone. He would eventually move away from us becoming the monster he used to be. He needed her as much as she needed him. They just needed something to bring them together. I used there weakness's against them. Jaina's flawed body and Jaspers Jealousy. It would work. I've seen it. I stared at the cafeteria entrance waiting patiently for my vision to come into play.
"Right on cue" I said looking at Bella. Jasper opened the cafeteria door and looked to our usual table. A flash of confusion crossed his brow as he saw she wasn't sitting with us. I saw him scan the room and his eyes settled on her. She was laughing and talking with the boy sitting next to her. Jaspers face turned dark. His eyes once a bright toffee color were now black as pitch. I swear through all the chatter I heard him growl. He looked at me and glared. He turned his attention on Edward and walked to our table. He threw a 20 on the table our table.
"Jaina's lunch money from Esme." he spoke lowly. He turned his attention to Jaina and glared. Jason turned his head and saw Jasper looking at Jaina.
"God that guys a freak." Jason said unaware that we could hear him as good as Jaina. Jaina looked toward our table and caught sight of Jasper. She smiled at him but it didn't reach her eyes.
"No he's not! She snapped at Jason. She looked back at Jasper to see him walk away. She got up out of her chair to follow him into the hallway. Edward and Bella looked at me like I was crazy but I couldn't help but to Smile widely as I envision what happens next. Edward looked at me reading my mind and smiled back at me. Bella just rolled her eyes.
"You too and your secrets! It will be the end of me!" she exclaimed laughing.
Jasper's P.O.V.
I held back the monster when I saw her in the cafeteria. I had to leave. If I stayed they would all find out what freaks we Cullen's and Hales truly were! I would have killed him. I would have destroyed all we tried so hard to maintain. Our secrecy. I was to late, I've lost her.
She looked so happy talking to him. She didn't know what he was feeling. I could feel his lust roll off him like thick rivets of fog. It sickened me to know those feelings were a direct reaction from sitting next to Jaina. I left the cafeteria with a new sense of agony. Then it happened. She followed me. Her heartbeat catching me off guard, mixing with her scent.
I heard her call after me but I kept my pace fast. She ran after me, I stopped dead in my tracks when I felt her small hand catch my arm. Her skin burned my cold arm. She walked around to face me, but I kept my eyes low.
"Why did you leave?" she asked.
"Looked like you had all the company you could handle." I said coldly to her. She looked confused and then sad.
"What's that supposed to mean?" she asked her voice was irritated.
"You have no idea what that pathetic boy is feeling for you right now, Its disgusting!" I snapped at her.
"At least someone is feeling something about me unlike you, you don't even like me, I don't understand why you even care! Why did you bother to come at all?" She asked. Her voice was shaking.
"Esme asked me come. You forgot your lunch money." I said flatly. I saw the corners of her lips twitch like she trying to stop herself from frowning.
"So you didn't come because you wanted to see me, you were just doing Esme a favor?" she asked softly.
"Exactly" was all I said jerking her arm off of me. I could feel the waves of disappointment and rejection come off of her but I kept walking. I never looked back. If I had to face her, I don't know what would happen.
Jaina's P.O.V.
I walked back to my lunch table quietly. I sat back next to Jason. I never felt so vulnerable in all my life. Jasper really did hate me. Jason seemed concerned and asked me what was wrong. I couldn't help but feel good when Jason talked to me. He was so sweet, Jasper had to be wrong about Jason.
Just then he asked me to the spring dance. I was shocked but I said yes.
"Of course yes! That would be wonderful." I told him. He seemed pleased. Then the bell rang.
"See you tomorrow, beautiful" he said and hugged me. I was ecstatic. I never went to any of the dances at home. I ran to Bella and told her all about it. She acted like she was happy but something in her eyes told me something else. Alice seemed to beam.
"Lets go shopping. You don't have much time. it's this Saturday." she said with so much enthusiasm that I forgot about my conflict with Jasper. The rest of the day went by smooth, everything was going great. We left from school straight to port angles. We shopped at all the best stores, Alice chose a strappy pink dress for me. It was so pale pink it was almost white. It was satin and low cut. It was perfect. I bought matching shoes and a little clutch purse. I completely ignored my imperfection when Alice said with me wearing such a beautiful dress they wouldn't have time to notice the scars. I placed all my confidence in her. She told me she saw me have a beautiful night of the dance. I believed her whole heartedly.
When we returned home it was almost eleven. I was so exhausted that I stumbled up the steps to my room. I heard loud somber music pouring out Jaspers room. I didn't even care. I kicked off my shoes and climbed in bed fully dressed. Next thing I knew it was morning.
Jasper's P.O.V
The week went by torturously slow. I stayed in my room most of the day drowning my thoughts in my paint and music. To avoid my feelings further I hunted through out the night. I couldn't tolerate the subtle movements that came from her room. I focused on each sound. It was consuming me.
So I avidly avoided her. I became less active with my family. I didn't talk to any of them. I knew Esme was upset with me but I didn't care. It became all the more worse when our home phone rang. It was for Jaina. I heard Alice race up the stairs and pound on her door. Then I heard her say
"Its Jason." I almost tore through the wall and grabbed the phone from her but I obtained. Instead I ease dropped on her pathetic conversation. The flirtations that took place were so juvenile, I smirked at every line he tossed her and became disgusted when she ate them up. I hated her. I hated her with every fiber of my being. Then I asked my self If I hate her so much then why the hell do I care. I couldn't answer myself.
I was drowning in self pity, when it became so intolerable I couldn't bear it anymore. I decided I would kill her and rid myself of all this pain. I planned It carefully. I never made any long-term decisions on when so Alice wouldn't see it, But I knew exactly what I was going to do. I would lure her into the forest and end her. I would tear out her throat and run her body to the stated line and burry her deep in the forest floor.
I focused on it. I envisioned it. Its what had to be done. I only omitted when I would do this. . It was Saturday. It was 7 o'clock. I didn't even realize all the commotion till I descended down the stairs. There was Edward, Alice, Bella, and Jared. Dressed in ball gowns and tuxedo's. I didn't understand what was happening. Then it hit me. Tonight was the spring dance.
How did I not know. Why didn't I pay attention to all of there chatter. I realized I blocked everyone and everything out. So unlike me. To be thrown like this. They all grabbed there coats and purses and were heading out the door.
"Wait aren't you taking Jaina?" I asked trying to express false concern hoping my plan could still be put into action.
"No she has a ride. Jason will be here any minuet." Alice said looking at me with a small smile. At that second I felt my blood boil. I sure they felt my emotions as they gave me a concerned look.
"Jazz u okay" Bella asked. I pulled my self together. "Yeah, great. Haven't been better." I lied.
"Well we better go." Edward said taking the lead and taking Bella's arm to walk her out the door. They disappeared down the walk and I closed the door behind them. I waited now for Jason to knock. Maybe I would take him out to. Then I decided against it.
It was seven thirty nine. I heard his piece of shit Honda tear down our drive. I felt the knots twist in my stomach as he exited his car. I heard his steps on the dry earth. Then the knock. I opened the door and glared at him. He stood there holding a pathetic excuse for a corsage.
"I'm here for Jaina." he spoke nervously. I was pushing every fearful emotion I could in to this boy. I was making him squirm. Then I heard Esme gasp with delight. I turned and there she stood at the top of the steps. She was wearing a pale pink evening gown. It was form fitting at her breasts. With spaghetti straps but then it flowed down in a layer of lace and silk. It was beautiful. She was breathtaking. She descended and as she grew closer, I felt a sick wave of revulsion emanate from Jason. I didn't give him that emotion. It was all his own. Then embarrassment. He started to stutter and step backwards.
"Oh god" was hitched under his breath.
"I..I am so sorry, I cant go with you to the dance. I didn't' know. I mean. I'm sorry." he said while staring at her like she was a monster. He ran back to his car. The look on Jaina's face broke my heart I didn't understand why it didn't make me happy. You could see the rejection in her eyes. Her mouth opened and her breathing was rapid as she held in her pain. She knew exactly what was wrong.
He didn't know about her scars. He was repelled by her. He didn't want her after all. I heard his car tear down the drive and hit the road. She just stood there frozen in her rejection. Esme ran over to her and pulled her into a hug
"Ignorant boy, couldn't see past your skin. He wasn't good enough for you anyway dear." she whispered stroking her back. Jaina broke. Crying into Esme's shoulder. Finally she calmed a little and walked to front door and left. I caught the door before it closed and followed her with my eyes.
She wandered into the garden and sat on the stone bench. The moonlight reflecting on her dress looked like my skin in the sunlight. She was beautiful. I slowly followed her till I was standing 5 feet behind her.
"Jaina" I whispered. She didn't turn to look at me.
"Jaina" I said more firmly. She turned her head to the left. Not quite looking at me but enough to let me know I had her attention.
"Do you want me to take you?" I asked.
"No, I'm hideous, I don't want to embarrass your family any more." She said sadly. Her voice cracking.
"That is not true!" I said my voice edged with frustration.
"He's a fool, to do this to you. I would have never done this to you" I said flatly. She turned sharply to look dead at me.
"You already did! You wouldn't even talk to me. You abandoned me! You hate me! I only wanted what everyone else had. I wanted to have someone look at me like Edward looks at Bella. To have someone love me like Jared loves Alice. But its not in the cards for me. I need to accept it and it was foolish for me to think anyone would want me." She cried. Her eyes were spilling over with tears. Her makeup was streaking down her cheeks.
"I don't even know why you care" she whispered under her breath. I snapped. I ran over to her, her pain and her voice was overwhelming for me. I pulled her up by her shoulders and to look me in the face. I was growing angry, furious.
"I always cared!" I shouted at her.
"I just didn't want you to know it…" I said my voice wavering. Here eyes were wide with shock. All my intentions to kill her wavering. I was uncertain now if that is what I wanted. I felt my heart break when I looked into her emerald green eyes. I suddenly became angry with my self. 'don't you back down now you coward, look at all the pain she has caused you' the monster screamed in my brain. Pull yourself together. We planned this, this is what we both want' I squeezed my eyes shut tight, and fought back my inner thoughts. I let my face relax and I looked at her again. This time not letting my emotions get in the way.
I let go of her shoulders and brushed the tears from her cheeks with the palms of my hands. Never releasing her gaze, I spoke
"Please let me take you to the dance." my voice was soft. I pushed warm emotions deep into her. She sniffled and I gave her my warmest smile. I did everything my gift would allow to get her to trust me. I didn't yet know if she should but its what I wanted. The game we played was unfair to these humans. I was using my camouflage, my never ending arsenal of weapons to tempt her, to trick her, to dazzle her. She fell for it.
"Okay, if it what you want. I don't want you to go if it will humiliate you in any way." she spoke her voice was low. Her eyes displayed a slight suspicion as she looked into my face for ulterior motives.
"Nothing you could be or do will humiliate me. It would be my pleasure. I said smiling my most attractive smile. Using my most seducing voice. I saw her eyes soften. I knew I had her. It would be easy to kill her if I chose to after the dance.
My stomach twisted at the thought of her blood rushing out of her and down my throat. I now was sure that I wasn't sure anymore. Is this what I really her dead all week. It was my plan. I wouldn't get further attached to this creature.
She wasn't for me. She was destined to die. I would only bring her that peace sooner. It would be almost like a mercy killing. I could forgive myself for this. I would kill her and leave the Cullen's. I was prepared for it. Its what I wanted. I extended my hand to her, and she took it. I walked her back to the house.
I ran upstairs and got cleaned up. I put on clean black jeans and a black button up shirt and vest. No need to be that fancy, I didn't want to get my good clothes all bloody. I ran down the steps and took her arm in mine and walked her to Rosalie's car. I opened the door for her and she got in. She was mine now. No turning back. I drove us to the high school. I could feel the nervousness rolling off in waves.
"Are you alright?" I asked her false concern clinged to my voice.
"I don't really wanna be here." she confessed.
"Give me one dance and we can leave if you like." I said looking her in her confused eyes. She smiled and agreed. We exited the car and walked in the building. It was full of flashing lights and loud obnoxious music. When we entered, they all started to stare we were defiantly turning heads. I heard some students gasp at the sight of her. I felt a rage grow inside of me at there negative feelings toward her.
Again I was questioning why I even cared. Why did it bother me so much that they didn't approve of her body, of her skin. I needed to get a grip. I tried to block out the chattering and insane insults. They didn't even now how or why she was the way she was and they never asked. They just silently gawked at her.
We met up with my siblings, they acted confused as to why Jason wasn't her escort and shocked that I was. I lied to them, convinced them that I was wrong and I wanted to make things right. I convinced them that I did care about her. I smiled my warmest smile and then when I was fully convinced that they believed me, I asked her to dance. It was a slow song, I smiled at her and led her to the dance floor.
I felt the jealousy roll off the girls that danced with there pathetic excuses for boyfriends. Then I looked to the left and saw Jason dancing with a short Hispanic girl. She was two feet shorter then him and busty. He looked over at us and glared. I stared daggers back at him. He instantly recoiled looking at me with fear in his eyes, then her lowed them back to her. I hated that stupid boy and I'd deal with him later.
I pulled Jaina close to me, I kept my eyes on her. She looked up at me nervously so I began manipulating her emotions, I was filling her with warmth and love. She began to respond and smiled back at me. We moved slowly across the dance floor, her body pressed so firmly against me, my hands on her hips and her arms wrapped loosely around my neck.
"You look beautiful tonight" I whispered in her ear.
"Thank you, so do you" she whispered back.
"So does this mean you don't hate me anymore?" she asked nervously. I didn't know what to say. I did hate her, I hated her and I loved her at the same time. I didn't know how I felt about her. She was bitter agony to me, she tortured me. I could see she was getting nervous again at my lack of response to her question so I lied.
"Past is behind us. I don't hate you anymore." I felt confused and I couldn't even sort through my emotions. I know having her so close to me was making my venom flow, my throat actually began to burn ever so slightly. I could pick up the faint fragrance of her scent that was masked behind medication. I wanted to taste her blood again. I lied to her when I said it was disgusting. I took everything in me to spit it out back at her instead of letting it roll down my throat. I wanted her blood and at the same time with her body pressed against me I was desiring something different altogether. I wanted her.
I shocked myself with this revelation. I felt my hands wander from her hips to the small of her back and pull her even closer. I felt her breathing quicken and a wave of lust poured out of her body into mine. The lustful tension kept building till it was almost unbearable. I pulled away and took her hand in mine and led her out of the building.
She didn't question me, she only obeyed me when I told her to get in the car. She didn't speak as I drove off, her unknowingly being held captive in my car as I drove down a deserted road that led to the a forest trail. I parked the car and quickly got out and was over by her door before she could even think twice about it.
I opened her door and helped her out of the car. I took off my vest and threw it in the back seat. I then pulled her onto my back and we ran down the trail. My thoughts were racing as I exited the path and ran through the forest. We finally reached my destination. It was a small lake hidden from view deep in the forest. The tree branches hung low and were saturated with moss. The moonlight reflecting off the water. I set her down and she slightly stumbled trying to find her equilibrium. I turned to face her. She looked up at me confused. She didn't understand me.
"Do you know Why I brought you here Jaina?" I asked my voice coated in sticky sweet venom. I gave her uneasy glance. She shook her head no. I could feel a sick uneasy feeling roll off her. It was fear.
"I brought you here to kill you" I said giving her an uneasy look.
"I thought about it all week" I said softly walking toward her. She took a step back. I could see her expression turn from curiosity to fear. I felt the thick waves of panic flood every fiber of her being. I took a step closer.
"Please don't" she whimpered.
"You have tormented every thought since that night. I cant get you out of my head. I cant live like this anymore." I said looking intensely at her. Her body swayed softly as she tried to step back. Her eyes left mine and looked at the ground in defeat.
"Look at me Jaina" but she refused.
"Look at me" I shouted. She began to quietly cry searching her mind for a way out but she knew she was no match for me.
"I never wanted for it be like this, I wanted things to be different. I know now that they cant." I herd my voice crack. 'oh god was I crying, why did it hurt me to see her like this' she looked up at me her eyes glazed with tears. I was hurting her, I was causing her all this fear. I accomplished this and I now regretted it.
"Please Jasper, they can be different just tell me what you want from me." she pleaded. I couldn't do this. I defied my nature. I defied my demons. I moved so quick se didn't have time to react. I had her pinned to the nearest tree. She shrieked, and began to struggle. I caught both her hands in mine. I pressed my body against hers. She could only stare up at me. Her eyes dilated as she thought she was staring face to face with her death. Her mouth was parted as she panted. I could feel her pulse racing as my hands wrapped tightly around her wrists.
"I'm sorry" was all I could say. She was frozen.
"What do you want?" she screamed at me. I let her go, and took a step back. She was crying full force. Her breathing was rapid. She looked at me with scared eyes and bolted to the left I grabbed her and slammed her back into the tree.
"Do you know what I want, I'll show you what I want" I yelled at her and then I grabbed a fist full of her hair. I slammed my venom filled mouth onto hers and kissed her with every thing I had. I was lost in my own battle against her. I new exactly what I wanted. It was her. She tried to push me off. Her hands pressing hard against my chest. But I wouldn't stop. I kept trying to coax her mouth open with my tongue until she allowed me entry. I herd her whimper in the back of her throat as she ceased to struggle and responded by kissing me back. I felt her arms wrap around me and pull me closer to her. She wanted me was all I could think.
I broke off our kiss only to kiss her face and trail to her throat. The second my lips touched her skin her breathing hitched. I continued to move passionately over her throat and neck and then to her shoulders. I nipped at her flesh leaving small red bruises all over her throat . I pulled the strap of her dress down past her shoulder and left a wet trail of kisses on her collar bone. Her head fell back .
I stopped and looked down into her eyes again. This time her eyes were heavy with lust her lids half shut and her breathing paced with mine. I pulled her dress up and grabbed hips lifting her into the air. Her back settling into the tree and her legs wrapped around me. I could feel her hips twist back and forth as she rocked against me her hands twisting into my hair. I let one of my hands move from her hips down her thigh and then back up again while my other hand wrapped firmly around her back holding her in place.
Her skin was like warm silk and I herd a growl utter lowly in my chest. I then kissed her more deeply while I tore off the fabric that hid her innocents from me. She winced, I could feel her nervous emotions emanate so I replaced them with ones of lust. I grabbed her arms and pulled her to the ground with me. I hovered over her soft writhing body as she tore at he buttons of my shirt I lifted myself onto my knees and pulled it off for her. Her hands began to explore my body while leaving hot trials all over my skin.
I pushed the skirt of her dress up and settled between her legs. I continued kissing her deeply only pausing long enough for her to catch her breath. I reached down and undid my jeans and pulled them down just enough to free my self and then I pushed into her. I felt her tense and she cried out into my mouth as I tore through her membrane. She winced in pain but I kept kissing her till I was grinding deep inside of her.
She began to relax and finally her body responded. She bucked her hips up and her legs wrapped firmly around me as I pushed her deep into the forest floor. Her eyes closed as she was feeling everything ten fold. I manipulated her lust. Her breathing became raged as she tried to push me deeper into her. I put my arm under the small of her back and arched her up so I could move rock my hips deeper into her.
I pulled away to look at her. She was beautiful. Her face was flush and she squeezed her eyes shut as she felt a wave of ecstasy wash over her. I followed as the tensions her body put on mine made it impossible to stop. I buried my face in her neck as I made my final thrust. I'm sure I left her bruised but not broken. I had never felt so much pleasure with anyone else. I was sure now that I was in love with her. I pushed off of her and grabbed her arms so she was on top of me. I looked up into her face and smiled. I weaved my finger through her hair and pulled her face to mine for one last kiss. She pulled away and a sad look crossed her brow.
"I'm sorry for everything" she whispered. I wrapped my arms around her and held her to my chest.
"No Jaina, you have nothing to be sorry for. It was me. I'm so sorry for hurting you so much" I said trying to apologize.
"I love you" she whispered. I couldn't believe my ears. She said it and I didn't force it from her. She said it all on her own.
"I loved you from the day I met you, I was just to stupid to know it." I replied. Grabbing her arms I pushed her back and I forced her to look at me.
"It was just to much for me to know that your going to die one day, it was even more apparent when you tried to kill yourself." I said giving her an intense gaze.
"I could be your forever, if you wanted it to be." she said cautiously. I know the look I gave her broke her heart.
"Don't Jaina. You don't know what your asking for." I said sternly. I took her hands in mine and then deeply sighed as I took in the bruises that were perfect patterns of my hands wrapping clean around the small wrist bones.
"Edward is going to turn Bella" she said looking down at her wrists engulfed in my hands.
"I'm not Edward, he thinks that him and Bella are forever. I thought me and Alice were forever and I was wrong." I said flatly. I pushed her off my lap and stood up. I extended my hand and help her up off the ground. She looked hurt and heartbroken. Then she turned angry.
"Then what was this? Why…Why did you…"She trailed off a deep sigh emanating from her and she ran both her hands through her hair looking at the ground as if it would give her the answer. It was the first time I truly noticed how different she was. Her body temperature rose well above human even hotter then a werewolf. Heat built and rolled off of her in waves. I was taken back by it, amazed by it. It was as if you could see the heat rise off her skin. I was fascinated by it.
I put my hand on her shoulder and she jerked away and then she slapped me full force across my face. I was unprepared and my face rocked to the left with the impact of her palm. I stared down. I didn't know what to do or say. My skin burned where she struck me. I shut my eyes tight and clenched my jaw as I tried my hardest not to retaliate. I felt the heat from her retreat as if I drowned it with feat. I then threw her a dangerous look and tried to hold back the growl that was building in my chest but to now avail. She herd it. I saw her shutter regretting her action entirely fear rushing through her veins.
"Oh god" she uttered taking a few steps back.
"I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking." she spoke so quickly her words were slightly slurred.
"Do that again and next time you will be sorry. I spoke my eyes growing darker by the second I could feel my throat burn deeper as I focused on her. My lover, my prey. I shook my head and put my hands over my face and kneeled to the ground trying to contain my darker side.
"I need you to go" I said my voice shaking she stepped toward me her hands shaking.
"I thought you loved me" she said her voice wavering trying not to cry.
"That doesn't make it any easier for me not to kill you. That doesn't change what I am." I shot up stalking toward her.
"I told you to go!" I yelled but she just stood there. The monster in me surfacing again. Uncontrollable I panicked not knowing how much longer I could contain it.
"Run! Get away from me" I screamed. Her eyes grew wide and she ran into the forest. I tried to push down the pain, the burning desire for her blood. I grabbed trees and uprooting them and then threw boulders into the lake making huge waves that crashed onto the shore. I let my senses take over. I could here her running wildly tripping on roots and her dress scrapping across branches.
I turned my hearing deeper listening to other sounds. I was searching for prey. 'Anything but her. Please anybody but her' I pleaded with my self. Then I heard a blood curdling scream emanate from her lungs followed by a loud growl. I ran faster then I ever ran before tracking her scent and direction using every tool I had. My sense of smell, my hearing, and my unmatched sight.
I was there in less then a minuet to see Jaina cowering to the ground as a massive black bear stood up on his hind legs ready to strike. I knocked the beast to the ground and tore him to pieces tearing at its throat and sucking him dry trying to bed down the beast that raged inside myself. When I was done. I was soaked in its blood. I walked over to her and she looked petrified. I reached to touch her but she retracted her arm and curled into a ball.
"I wanna go home, I wanna go home" she cried over and over to herself. I picked her up and she squirmed.
"I'm okay now. I wont hurt you. Please I'm asking you now more then anything please trust me. You can trust me now." I pleaded. She stopped fighting me and wrapped her arms around my neck shaking like a scared child. Her breathing became labored like she was suffocating. I knew she was having a panic attack. I tried to ease her emotions but it was difficult when my own feelings were so messed up.
I threw a wave of relaxation and was relived that by the time we reached the car she was limp in my arms. I lowered her into her seat and got in on my side. I drove home slowly trying to sort through the events that happened tonight. When I got home, I pulled her out of the car and carried her up to the house.
The moment I hit the deck the door flew open. Emmett and Rosalie stood in the door way glaring at me. Emmett pulled her limp body from my arms and yelled.
"What the hell happened to her" Rosalie demanded.
"She's fine!" I yelled objecting her accusations.
"She looks far from fine!" Emmett screamed looking at her bruised wrists.
"Its not what you think" I retaliated. I pushed Rosalie to the side and stormed up to my room. I hated them! They'll never see me as anything but a monster. Unstable, untrustable always monitoring me. I ran to my room and slammed my door. I ran over to my stereo and blared my music as loud as it would go.
I began to destroy my room. I through my table against the wall it splintered into pieces, I grabbed my chair and smashed my window, I kicked out the door to my closet. The wood splintered and cracked. I ripped the mirror from my wall and shattered it against the tile. I screamed at the top of my lungs in my rage. In my desperation. No one came to stop me they all knew better. I fell emotional exhausted in the corner of my room. I put my face in my hands and I sobbed.
Jaina's P.O.V.
I awoke in Emmett arms. I he was facing the stairs and I saw Jasper run up to his room. Emmett put me down and started to drill me on what happened. I told him Jasper saved me from a black bear, after we left the dance to talk to work things out.
I assured him Jasper didn't hurt me. I assured him I was okay. Emmett instantly felt guilty for accusing Jasper. We then herd a loud thud and crash. Emmett held me back.
"When he gets like this we have to let him work it out. Its my fault. I must have really hurt him by not trusting him." Emmett said sadly. Rosalie tried to assure him that he couldn't have known and that Jasper has always been unstable.
"When its over you can talk to him but until Jasper is ready its best not to step in. Emmett was bigger but Jasper was so experienced in the art of battle even Emmett couldn't stop him when he was angry. It would take him and Edward to hold him down, and there was a possibility that someone would get hurt.
When the violence stopped Jaina tried to go upstairs but was blocked by Alice.
"Not yet, he's crying right now. He doesn't want you to see him when he's vulnerable. Ive seen it. Be patient. I know what happened tonight. I'm sorry I lied to you. I do how ever promise you'll be greatly rewarded if you just let it play out. There are things at this point you cant possible comprehend. Forces at work that need time to germinate. Things may get worse before they get better but I swear to you they do get better." she pleaded. I felt weak and tired.
"I'm scared Alice. Really scared of him." I confessed. She pulled me into a hug.
"I know you are sweetheart but don't be. I'm afraid this is my fault in a way. I hurt him so much so many years ago. I jaded him. I'm so sorry your paying for it now." she said holding me tightly to her. I loved Alice. She made me feel so much better. "
Alice will you check on him for me?" I begged her.
"Go to your room and ill go talk to him. If he's stable I'll ask him to check on you. Okay?" she said pulling away to look at my face. I shook my head yes and I climbed the stairs to my room. She followed behind me I went to my room and she knocked on Jaspers door. I herd murmuring coming from his room but nothing I could understand. They must have talk for hour.