A/N: I know, I'm beating your brains in with this, but it's important that you're in the right place. THIS IS ONLY FOR THOSE WHO READ CHAPTER TEN.
Dear Maura,
It's been ten years since you died. Ten whole years. I know, I usually just pray for you, tell you things in my head, but that didn't seem like enough this time. So I wanted to tell you everything. I'm not really sure where to start, so I guess…the beginning it is. Or, I guess you'd call it the end. I'll go through the bigger events first. So, after you died, Pop found a job down south. We packed up and left in a hurry. It was bittersweet, really. Bad 'cause I had to leave behind all the things that reminded me of you. Good because I needed a fresh set of faces, a new start. People knew something was up between us because of the way I acted at your execution; I know, I promised I wouldn't go, but I did. Anyway. With the new set of faces came a bunch of new men to try and impress me, court me. And, well, I got married, Maura. I don't love him, but that's okay. It was kinda the point. You see, he's a military man, so he's been shipped off overseas to fight in the war of grand alliance. It's like I'm not even married. Yeah. I thought you'd approve. We have two beautiful children, but they aren't as beautiful as yours would've been. I think about that sometimes; would your kinds have your beautiful hair, your stunning eyes, your brilliant smile? Would they have your adorable dimples, or maybe your contagious laugh? Oh. Their names are Jacob and Maura. Is that tacky? Naming my kid after you? I don't think so.
As for my everyday life now? it's just as hard as it was ten years ago. My chest still constricts sometimes when I think about you, what we missed, and sometimes it tightens so much I don't think I can breathe…Your ring's around my neck. Always has been. And every time I take a step, it hits my bare chest and feels like it's burning me. Like how your touch used to feel. Electric. Fiery. Painfully necessary. Oh God, I need to stop writing, before I cry. Jake's up from his nap and I don't want to worry him.
Maura, I will always love you. I will always miss you, but I hope you don't have to miss me. I hope that wherever you are, you can see me, know I'm alright. Because sitting here in the dark, not knowing…It's the deepest, sharpest pain I've ever felt. It's worse than the hollow loneliness, worse than the radiating anger I feel for the entire city of Salem. It doesn't matter. Ten years have taught me I can't change anything. Even if I could damper my pain, you wouldn't be back. No matter. I've lasted this long. I can make it forty more years if it means eternity with you. Even if eternity doesn't exist, the promise of it is more than enough to keep me going.
With all my love and undying affection,
Jane Isles