Chemistry and Quantum Physics – Chapter 12
Adalind's POV
How did I even begin explaining the agreement of my brain and my heart for my 'visit'? The quads are behind me thinking I just wanted to get some air. But really, I'm stalking.
I'm ten feet away from being discovered. I know I'm not supposed to do this but I stay home for another minute, I'm a crazy woman.
I moved even closer, my heart stopping everytime I treaded, hoping I wouldn't be spotted. All I want is a good view, anyway. Just a close look… and a long craved conversation?
I picked up random groceries and placed them in the cart. Checking, I saw a few canned goods, several boxes of tampons and other stuff that I don't even know what the functions are.
Of course, I still moved closer, like prey intentionally giving itself up to a predator.
'Too close,' my mind screamed.
'Not close enough,' my heart whispered.
My heart, once an ironically unimportant but vital organ, never really had much say in my Wesen life, so for it to suddenly surface was a little unsettling.
Me being a Hexenbiest before wasn't my only self defense mechanism. Protection from attachments was one too. I tried shielding myself from the weakness that was love ever since I was a teenager but living without loving would be awful. Everyone can agree to that.
I loved Sean, but he just used me. I was just too naïve to admit it. Now, Cupid's at it again. I curse the sting of his arrow and curse at how it somehow landed directly in my heart, amazingly passing through every barrier I'd ever set up. I know I should find the strength or the will inside me to pull that arrow out, to push my newly forming feelings away. Because the chances of me going somewhere with these feelings is vague. The chances of getting hurt? Very evident.
Constantly having someone stuck in your mind is a weakness. And weakness is a pain. I lost the appeal of an open heart, my resentment towards things pushed me to defend myself, once ensuring that I would never fall for someone again.
That's an erroneous judgment.
But what's even more off beam is Nick turning around and recognizing my presence.