AN: So this is a short filler, just to give you all an insight into why Tanya did what she did, from her POV. Review if you like, review if you don't. Thanks so much for all the bleachers/queue/football/soccer info, I really appreciate it all! Enjoy…

RECAP: "I told you!" she said simply, the rose from her seat and followed me out through the door and down the hall towards the parking lot and my car. We got in silently and I started the engine, pulling out of the parking space and onto the road leading out of Forks into the mountains.

TPOV

Edward drove, and I sat staring out of the window in silence, for half an hour until we reached a small clearing in the wooded gloom that surrounded Forks for miles in all directions. He stopped the car and we got out and went to sit on the grass, near to a large boulder. The sun was shining down warmly upon us but I didn't notice it much. My eyes were fixed on Edward as he slumped back onto his elbows and then lay flat on his back in the muddy, wet grass.

He looked so sad that I felt my heart bleed for him, his eyes so full of pain that I felt the need to comfort him… to hold him… to tell him it was all going to be OK! It wasn't. Bella was with another guy and Edward was mine. I wanted him, needed him, and I had vowed to make him mine that night I saw him sitting alone on that barstool, waiting for something… someone maybe. I had never asked, I had just gone over to him and staked my claim. That was the night… that I started to fall in love with Edward Cullen. I had been a bitch that much I knew, but I couldn't help it, I just needed him to want me back and he hadn't. He had loved Bella instead.

"Tell me everything!" he spat, sitting up suddenly, his eyes ablaze. "How did you know who I was when no one else did? What about Bella? What did you know?"

I sighed, readying myself to tell him everything, without telling him anything. I wanted to be as honest with him as possible, but I couldn't tell him the whole truth. And that truth was that I had recognised him because I had always liked him… that I knew about Bella because I had wanted to know everything about Edward, so doing my research on Bella had just been a part of that… that I had seen the two of them that day in the café because I had thought that it would be Edward that she went to see. I had been wrong!

I knew that I couldn't tell him any of that so I started as close to the truth as I could manage. "I recognised you Edward because I remember your face. I remembered your face and that didn't change! I knew it was you from the moment I saw you in the bar that night." His eyes flicked up to meet mine from where they had been looking down into his lap, as he had been pulling apart daisies with his long fingers, and he frowned.

"You knew then! Why did you kiss me then?" he asked, seeming shocked that I would have even talked to him at the club having been aware of who he was.

"Edward, you seem to have a very low opinion of yourself. You've always been hot; you just never let it shine through before. Look at you now though, that jacket makes you look gorgeous! I kissed you because I wanted to kiss you, not because I didn't know who it was. It not that slutty, am I?

"No! I guess not." He seemed apologetic for the unintended insult but still angry with me because of everything else, and with good reason!

"In answer to your second question Edward, I saw…" I struggled to find a word to suit the situation, one that would not cause him to pass even further into depression than he already was. "…them together in a coffee shop one day; the day after we danced at New Moon, I think. I didn't tell you because I didn't want to have to be the one to break your heart. I thought I would let Bella have that honour, considering it was going to be her fault." I knew I was getting bitchy again, but I just couldn't care. "I think you're a nice guy Edward, and I didn't want to hurt you." I just wanted you! I sighed at the thought and he cocked an eyebrow. Shit! I didn't mean to say that aloud.

Then he surprised me yet again by lurching forward until he was kneeling up, just inches from my face and looking me straight in the eyes. Then he whispered the words I so desperately wanted to hear, his breathing laboured and his eyes deep and soulful. "Maybe you can have me, Bella clearly doesn't need me!" Then he bent his head down to capture my lips in a searing kiss, full of passion and emotion.

I could literally feel his feelings, his heart and soul, pouring into the kiss. I felt his anger, his pain, his lust, his confusion; all rolled into the best kiss that I had ever received. The only problem way that it also felt wrong, deep down inside me… I knew that he didn't feel any of this towards me, it was all for someone else. I was merely the outlet for all his frustration and heartbreak, and in the process he was breaking my heart. It was then that I knew that I had to stop it, before I lost what little once of sanity I had left.

I shifted my arms from where I had wrapped them tightly around his neck, placed my palms flat on his shoulders and pushed. At first he didn't respond, but as I pushed harder he eventually pulled his lips away from mine and sat back onto the grass from where he had been kneeling up to kiss me.

"This is wrong Edward," I gasped, trying frantically to get my breath back as he tried to lean back in to kiss me again. I held my arms up, rapidly forgetting why I was holding him back. "You don't like me, you like Bella."

"So, maybe I can learn to like you!" he said, shrugging his shoulders. I could see from his face that he didn't actually believe what he was saying, and I knew that I certainly didn't.

"No, Edward! I don't think you can, as much as I would like you too." As I said the words, I knew that they were true, and my heart broke a little bit more.

"I guess your right!" he said, sounding utterly defeated. I suddenly felt an urge to help him, regardless of how I felt.

"Maybe I can help you win Bella back?" I asked, smiling slightly.

"I doubt it, but you can try!" he replied, with a tiny bit more enthusiasm.

"I'll do my best!" I said cheerfully, confident now that I could at least try to help one of us find our happily ever after, even if mine was beyond my reach now. "So, are we friends?" I asked tentatively, still unsure as to what his reaction would be.

"Sure," He smiled half-heartedly at me, but it was a smile nonetheless. "Friends!"

Then he helped me up off the soggy grass and we made our way back to the car. When we got there he hugged me close and I smiled.

"I'm glad we're friends." He actually seemed sincere about it and I smiled.

"Yeah, me too!" I knew that it would probably kill me to see him with her, but damn… I was going to get this kid his girl if it was the last thing I ever did!

Then we got into the car and drove back towards Forks.

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