Ahh, well first of all, I must apoligise for taking SO LONG to update...I'm SO sorry!! After my German trip, (which was sehr...uhh...toll? -Mein Deutsch still sucks, big time!) I had a REALLY busy week (?) and then, when I finally sat down to write Neutral, I was suddenly hit with a BIG 'OL LOAD of writer's block!! (sob) Which is still here, as well...but I tried to fight throught it and this is what happend. It's...well, I think it's pretty sucky, really, but yeah.

Anyways, reviews! For the last two chapters XD

Leighbriel-Misokita : LOL! I feel so evil!! ;) My ploy worked!! Muahaha! Hehe, thanks for reviewing XD

Orca Owl : Aww, I love you too (uh, in a totally platonic and friendly sort of way!) And your review made me lol! I loooveeee that song!! Uhh, anyway, I'm convinced by the cookie!! (although one can never have too many plushies) Thankies!!

Silly-Go-Round : WOOT!! I rocked someone's socks off!! I've never done that before!! 8D

Insomnia On High : Haha! That has to be one of my favourite phrases!! I could just imagine Kakashi saying to Sasuke XD And OMG I just reread that and thought exactly the same!! (starts singing)

Ich...uhh... JA!!

Danke fur...reviewing!! (okay, I officially suck at German)

lazeee an demented : ...Cake?! Woot!!

sweetangelblue : Cookies?! WOOT!! (Can you guess how much I like sweet things?! XD)

chocoGONEsushi : lmao!! I would have drowned in a puddle of drool and nose-blood!! XD And then I would go find a handsome bishie and make him smex another bishie XD And yeah-huh, my favourite line!! I can just SEE Sasuke's smirk as he's saying that...and Kakashi is just SO fun to write, even when he's serious!!

chocoGONEsushi : ... again XD Yesh, guilty!! Ahh, well. This chapter is less pervy XD Which is sad... but yeah. And Naruto is one frustrated foxy!! Either that, or the poor shrimp's hormones have FINALLY kicked in X3

Kakashi: Now, Sasuke, It's perfectly normal for a boy of your age to have certain feelings...

Sasuke: Why the hell have you given me a dildo? ... Hey! I am not an uke!

Kakashi: Ahh, but Sasuke-kun, I never said you were gay!

Sasuke: ... I hate you.

Wilfred Humbug : I know!! He SO is!! ( I just recently saw the Shino laughs episode which made me LOVE him XD Plus, he's all cute and grumpy in the manga at the moment! Wait, did I just say cute? X3) SHIKA!! Yay!! Okay, running out of characters now...hmmn... how about an Orochimaru plushie? I could use a new voodoo doll 8D And WOOT for reading in lessons!! I always used to read ffn during lessons and then our school blocked FFN!! (mayyybe because I was reading M rated yaoi...) Anyways, thankies!!

Mythalie169-TreeSpirit169 : Hehe, perverts unite!! And my family just ignore my random fits of laughter now X3 I guess they're used to it!! Thanks!!

Okay...falling asleep!

OH YEAH:

A/N : Some of you might have noticed that a chapter miraculously disappeared. Wellll, that's because I merged chapters one and two, so everything has moved back a chapter. X3 Took me AGES to do, though...

Anyway, on with the story! It's a little strange...the first part has Sasuke remembering stuff, so it's almost flashbacky, so you gotta bear in mind that Sasuke is 14 when Kakashi and Iruka do their thing and when he starts noticing...stuff...about our blond dobe, okay? And then it moves back to the present!!

The first part, well, I guess I needed just to write something different to get back into writing, so a load of KakaIru came out... X3 I don't really like this chapter, but yes.

Onwards!

Chapter 12

Sasuke P.O.V (Slightly flashback-y…Sasuke remembering the past, I guess)

Of course Kakashi knew we were still having sex. He must have. Iruka probably had no idea; he'd believed Naruto when he had told him it was a one time thing. He was so naïve, it had taken him almost a year before he realised that Kakashi had the hots for him. And that was after three "dates", which he'd just thought of as "coffee between colleagues."

Kakashi had told me that he liked Iruka after about 2 months of chasing him, and I wasn't really all that surprised. Naturally, I knew that my guardian was gay. I'd have to be pretty dense not to notice the one night stands, the random men he pursued. He was popular, and he was perverted, and didn't seem to mind scarring my (8 year old upwards) mind by bringing home his boyfriends. And, hell, there were a lot of them. Kakashi got bored easily.

But Iruka was different. I knew it as soon as Kakashi admitted that he had feelings for his fellow teacher. I was about 14 at the time, so I was old enough to see the signs. The way he said his name, the way his whole (well, the unmasked part) of his face lit up, the way his eyes looked far off, dreamy.

And Kakashi waited for him. He'd never done that before. If someone wasn't interested in him in the beginning, he never bothered chasing them. But for Iruka, he waited. He didn't go straight in for the kill. He got to know him, took him out as a "colleague" and learnt all he could about him.

And the more he learnt, the more obvious it became. Kakashi was in love.

It was strange, I have to say. He'd come home all cheery and happy. He'd talk about Iruka all the time (which was really quite odd, since he was also my teacher and tutor.)

And then he told him.

And that's when the cheeriness stopped. Iruka said no. Iruka turned him away in anger. Iruka tried to avoid Kakashi, wouldn't look at him, wouldn't meet with him.

But Kakashi just kept on chasing him, and chasing him for months on end, until finally Iruka found himself saying yes. I can't really remember what the situation was, but Iruka folded, and let himself be taken out for dinner. Just dinner, Kakashi had promised. No funny business.

Kakashi didn't come back to our flat that night. But Naruto did. He knocked on the door at about 10 pm and I asked to stay for the night.

"Iruka's got a friend round, Sasuke! And you'll never guess who it is! It's Kakashi-sensei!" Of course, Naruto had no idea what Iruka and his 'friend' were getting up to, but that was beside the point. Iruka had taken Kakashi home.

And then I knew, Iruka loved him too.

It got me wondering. I'd always presumed that two guys could never have a proper relationship, I mean, Kakashi had never had a second date with one person. I wondered what it would be like.

Naruto and I played computer games until the early hours of the morning and then he fell asleep in my lap.

And that's when I realised that I was attracted to my best friend.

I watched him lying there for about half an hour, suddenly seeing something in him that I'd never noticed before. It suddenly occurred to me that I liked Naruto. I liked him, like Iruka and Kakashi liked each other. I'd known before that I felt differently about him than everyone else. He'd been special to me, yes. He'd brought butterflies to my stomach, yes. He'd made me feel warm and fuzzy whenever our skin met in childish play, yes. But it had never occurred to me that I was attracted to him. That I wanted to touch him, I wanted to kiss him.

And so, in juvenile curiosity, I brushed my lips over his for the second time since we'd known each other. My heart raced, and I felt my face heat up. I was shaking, and drew back from the blond, just staring at him.

My whole body felt hot just from looking at him. So I leaned over and licked at his lips, savouring his taste. He tasted, unsurprisingly, of the ramen he so frequently consumed.

Never before had I been so turned on by the taste of ramen. Never before had I been so turned on at all. I shifted, Naruto still in my lap, sleeping as if nothing were happening. I could feel a tightness in my pants as I stared, as I started to lay kisses all over him, learning his taste, his shape. I felt myself growing fully hard for the first time.

Unlike Naruto, who was quite obviously a late developer, I had fully reached puberty already, at the age of 14. My voice had almost broken completely, whereas his was still high pitched. While he was still completely bare in that area, (and believe me, I knew. Shower times after PE lessons were the most awkward time of the week) I had already grown a fair amount of pubic hair, I was taller, and was even starting to grow the tiniest amount of stubble. I was growing up, and Naruto remained completely oblivious.

I gently laid the blond down on the sofa and went to my bedroom. I got into bed, stared at my ceiling, and thought of Naruto.

I thought about that day, our first kiss. I thought about the orphanage, how he was the only one who was there for me.

I thought about him, how beautiful he was. How I'd kissed him while he was sleeping.

It was so wrong, to feel this way about my best friend. I knew that, but it didn't dull this feeling inside of me.

As I started to drift off, I wondered what it would be like to touch Naruto, to run my hand up and down his length, to hear him moan beneath me. I would top, naturally, and he would have no complaints. I would thrust myself into him and he would scream out my name in ecstasy.

"Sasuke?" I stopped. Naruto? He was standing next to the bed, but I could hardly see him in the dark. "Can I…?" As far as I could tell, he gestured to the bed.

I reached out my arms to him and he curled into me automatically. I didn't care why he wanted to be in my bed, or that it was the middle of the night and he'd woken me up, I just liked having him beside me. Something was wrong, though. Something felt off.

"It feels nice, doesn't it, Sasuke?" He whispered, and pressed his body against mine. I froze.

"What are you do-" I started to say, but he cut me off. I found his mouth covering mine, his tongue darting into my mouth, and I suddenly realised how hot he was. I also suddenly realised what it was that felt off. He was naked. He was naked and hot and thrusting his hips against me.

And, Holy fuck, it felt good.

"Naruto…" I moaned into his mouth and he disconnected from me, starting to run kisses down my neck and gently nibble on my collarbone, still rolling our hips together. I suddenly felt a cool hand slip into my boxers and gasped as Naruto began to run his hands along my length. I could hear myself moaning, not caring that this was completely wrong, and that Naruto was my best friend, my male best friend, because all that mattered was the amazing feelings emanating from that soft, pale hand and the pleasure that was building up in me until it became so strong that I saw white and came, screaming Naruto's name into my pillow.

Warmth erupted in my boxers and I jerked awake with a gasp. My breath was coming in pants and my hands were shaking. My soft, pale hands. Not his. Not tanned, or slightly calloused. My hands, the hands that were still rubbing against my sticky crotch. My hands, that had not touched Naruto as he had not jerked me off.

I should have known it was a dream. My first wet dream, too.

I lay on my back, boxers sticky, face wet. That was the day that I knew I was in love with my best friend. The day when I found out that Iruka was in love with Kakashi, and the day when it hit me that Naruto was not in love with me.

I've dreamed of no-one else since.

Sasuke P.O.V (And back in the present)

It was two days after the little "toy" incident and we hadn't had sex since. Well, no full sex, anyway. A couple of quiet jerk offs and blow jobs in the bathroom, but nothing too loud. We were being cautious, because Iruka was beginning to get suspicious.

We were sat at the dining room table, eating a late dinner. Iruka was saying how he wanted to move us to separate rooms, and I had no complaints. Well, I'd voiced no complaints; that would have been far too obvious. Given the choice, I would be loudly yelling at Iruka to "Butt out and leave us alone! How the hell am I supposed to fuck him if you separate us?!"

Naruto had simply tensed up and nodded, moving a fraction closer to me. Thankfully, Kakashi had come to the rescue, explaining to Iruka how he couldn't possibly empty the spare room out because there was simply no room anywhere to put everything. A complete and utter lie, of course, and a fairly obvious one at that, but Iruka fell for it.

As Naruto decided to cling onto my hand, Kakashi went on to reassure Iruka that if we had continued to "experiment" after they'd caught us, we'd definitely be bored by now, so there was no threat. I just shrugged, and said that it had been a "one time thing" and we'd got it out of our systems and it was not going to happen again.

Ha! One time thing, my ass.

Or rather, Naruto's ass. And, what a lovely ass it was. An ass like that could turn any straight man queer, I reckon. Of course, no straight or queer men would be going near that ass. Naruto's ass was mine.

"Sasuke?" Oh crap, someone's talking. I glanced up and met one eye. Kakashi.

I glanced around. Iruka was gone. Wait, when did he go? He must have gone to bed…so why is Kakashi still here?

"I know you're still having sex, Sasuke." Kakashi said, and suddenly Iruka didn't seem so important.

Naruto's hand started to cut off my blood circulation. I glared at my mentor. "So what if we are?" I said coldly, giving my best Uchiha death-and-doom-to-all-who-view-it glare.

"Well, I suppose I should tell you to stop…" Kakashi glanced at us, and I continued glaring in return "But I don't think I need to." He continued. I raised an eyebrow at him.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Naruto voiced what I was thinking.

Kakashi simply shrugged in return, "I just don't see why two best friends can't have sex without any feelings involved. I mean, as long as you guys aren't falling in love or anything…"

Is it just me or did Naruto's grip just get a little tighter?

"…then it's just fine. Right?" Kakashi's visible eye was staring right at me and I swear he knew.

Of course he knew. Just like I'd known when he was in love with Iruka. He must have known for years.

"Right" I muttered, and let go of Naruto's hand. "I'm going to bed." I started to walk away, and Naruto followed, murmuring a quick goodnight to Kakashi. It was nice to know that my guardian could be supportive sometimes. He was obviously more kind than he let on, and sensitive and…

"…And remember, boys, lube is your friend, and always use protection!"

Perverted.

…We went to bed, like we'd told Kakashi.

Well, I went to bed. And he went to bed. There was no 'we' involved. No hug, no kiss goodnight. It was almost as if none of this had ever happened.

"Goodnight" Naruto whispered as I turned the light off and got into bed.

Alone.

Naruto P.O.V

In my dream, I was with Sasuke. I could feel the heat radiating from Sasuke's body and I liked it. We were so close, our bodies pressed together. Our faces were inches apart and I could taste Sasuke's breath. I wanted to be closer, to melt into Sasuke and never move apart. I leaned forward to catch the raven's mouth on mine, but found I couldn't reach. I couldn't reach him.

I pulled away and tried again, desperately seeking the warmth of his lips, but again, I couldn't reach him, as if there were an invisible barrier stopping our kiss.

Sasuke's dark eyes filled with betrayal, hatred, and melted into red. I felt myself falling, down into darkness, arms flailing but finding nothing to grab; no hope to cling to. And then I felt strong arms latch onto mine, pulling me up to face my love. Angry red sharingan eyes faded back to soft black abysses filled with emotion but lacking any feeling and then he was kissing me.

Screw the barrier. Screw the Leaf. Screw the Sound. Screw that snake bastard.

It was right, there was no other way to describe it. It was as if our lips were made to fit together like this, our bodies curve and fit as naturally as puzzle pieces. Together, we made up something else that neither of us could achieve alone.

Tanned skin contrasted to light, bright hair with dark, vivid blue eyes with dull black.

Sasuke's soft lips against the need, the passion of our kiss. His tongue mapping out my mouth as if he knew that this was his one chance, his last chance. His hands in my hair, pulling, twisting, drawing our bodies together.

Our body heated melted away Sasuke's icy personality and I knew this was Sasuke, the real Sasuke and the other one didn't exist, he was just an act.

And then Sasuke's hands moving lower, plunging up my shirt; craving more skin. And his mouth, the warmth disappearing momentarily as he lowered his head down to my trousers and undoing the buttons slowly, torturously slowly, and then finally pulling them away.

All I knew was that Sasuke wanted me. Sasuke needed me.

It was nice to be wanted.

And it was nice to need in return. Every inch of my body craved Sasuke, and I knew at that moment that I couldn't live without him.

Sasuke's breath grazed my manhood, and I gasped, moaned.

Sasuke!

And then the dream changed, again. But it was in reverse this time, and I somehow knew that the nightmare was coming.

"Not in here" A pair of footsteps echoed through hollow halls.

"Where are you?" More footsteps, a second pair, urgent, desperate.

"We're so close!" Desperate after years spent waiting for this moment.

"Not here, either" Doors open, slam shut. Rooms searched; empty room after empty room.

"Sasuke!"

A feeling of emptiness overwhelmed me. Sasuke isn't here.

He had abandoned me, and he was never coming back.

I don't know why he left. I don't know where he went. But I know he's gone, and it filled me up with darkness, an empty pit formed in my stomach.

My feet carried me through the empty corridors, unsteady and weak. I was tired, and I felt somehow like I'd just come out of a battle, but I didn't know when or with who. I stumbled and fell to the ground, my hands grazing, my heart racing. It hurts. But what hurt more were the emptiness and the darkness.

I kept on running down the corridor, down the tunnel towards the light. Every step I take, my heart feels lighter. I'm getting closer to him, I know it.

"Sasuke!"

And then I woke up.

Cold, crying, sweaty, and… alone.

Sasuke P.O.V

"Sasuke?" A nervous voice jerked me out of my dreamless sleep. I glanced up blearily at the figure standing at my bed. Naruto.

Naruto?

"Dobe." I muttered. "I was sleeping. It's what people do in the middle of the night. You should try it." I turned away from him and buried my face in the pillow.

Kakashi's always saying how I get grouchy when I'm woken up. Especially since I'd taken so long to get to sleep.

I think it was because I was suddenly so unused to sleeping alone.

"Sasuke!" Naruto whined, shuffling slightly. I looked up at him again, and silently gasped. Was he…crying?

"Naruto?" I whispered, tilting my head. He was crying. Quite a lot, in fact.

"…Can I?" He hiccupped, waving at my bed. I got an odd sense of déjà vu.

"Sure." I breathed, and he got into bed beside me. I could hear his quiet sobbing, and wondered briefly if he'd had a bad dream.

He wrapped his arms around me and he curled into me, and my body stiffened, and then relaxed. I suddenly felt as if a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders, and I was suddenly content.

It took me no time at all to fall asleep with him in my arms, and I knew why.

It was nice, not being alone.

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