My Own World- Part 12
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!Ahah!!"
I screamed so loud when I got up, and you must know why…
"What in the name of Brad Pitt is going on around here?!" My brother said in a cheery voice!
"My 13th birthday duh!"
"Ahhhhhhhhh!" He screamed.
"Ahhhhhhhh!" I screamed louder.
"Ahhyayayayya!" He screamed even louder.
"Okay that was the weirdest scream I've ever heard." I said.
"Who's the birthday girl??" My brother asked excited.
"Me!"
"I have a surprise for you!"
"What is it what is it a chocolate cake with strawberries?! A dog? A monkey?!" MY brother turned to me and said,
"Why would you want a monkey?" He asked.
"Someone to play with when I'm bored cause I won't see Syaoran for the next 3 years!"
"Oh god I'm so sorry sis I heard everything I'm gonna miss you too when you'll go to that boarding school…"
"I'm gonna miss everybody so much!"
"That's a risk you need to take to be able to become a queen." He said in a truthful voice.
"I know. That's why I'm giving up everything to him."
"Right. So the surprise is! A giant pancake with a strawberry on top!"
"Yes! Finally something to enjoy of!"
"Oh and there is another thing."
My brother went to the living room and got a small jewelry box from the table. I wonder.
"What is that?"
"Open it and you'll see for yourself." He said.
I opened it and there it was. A shiny diamond necklace that had a locket in the shape of a heart and when I opened it there was enough space for two pictures. I smiled it was the nicest gift my brother has ever gotten me.
"Oh Touya! I Love it its perfect! Oh thank you thank you!" I hugged him so tight and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
"Anything for my little sis!"
"But how could you afford it?"
"I saved enough cash for your birthday if I didn't' what would I have gotten you, a doll?"
"I guess not…" I laughed.
We then set down and ate the tastiest breakfast we had in years! God I love my brother so much. Not as much as Syaoran of course…I gave a smiley face.
"So. Today is the big party of the year I heard." Touya said.
"Yeah you wanna come."
"Hhhh," He laughed. "To your party I couldn't have. But sure if you insist…"
I smiled. "I insist. And yes you can bring whoever you want just make sure to keep it down so it won't be a College party."
"I promise."
"Great."
"So what are you planning to do right now? It's Saturday."
"I think I'll go meet a friend and see if she wants to come. But I'll be back in a few hours. Please don't be worried about me."
"All right just promise you'll be back by 11 sharp!"
"11 Sharp got it!" I said happily. I didn't wanna tell him I was gonna see Tomoyo today. He thinks she's a freak! And thought all these years was a waste of friendship for nothing. But I always believed Tomoyo was real. I believe in her. And now I hoped she's finally back to normal.
When I finished eating I went to my room and got dressed. I then went to the bus stop and was on my way to the Mental Institution. It wasn't that far so…
The guards checked me and asked me who am I here for. I said,
"Tomoyo Daidoji, sir."
"Are you serious? No one came to see her yet. No One." I was surprised. Not even one person?! I feel so sorry for her. Even thought it's my birthday. Oh my god I'm 13 Ahhhhhhhhhhh! I feel so much like a teenager already. Wow this is gonna be so much fun. I know. I know…
"Sakura Kinomoto right?" A nurse said.
"Yes it is."
"All right. We'll give you over at least 10 or 15 minutes to talk to her but no more. She's the most helped child in this hospital. So please be careful."
"Yes ma'am."
"All right here we go." She opened the door. I didn't see her yet but the first thing I heard was,
"WHOEVER IT IS LEAVE ME ALONE!!" Okay it would be hard. But I have no other choice.
"Ms. Daidoji there is a friend here to see you."
"It's Mrs. Hiragizawa to you!" Mrs.? What is she talking about?
"There is a friend here to see you."
"I WONDER WHO THAT MIGHT BE!" She yelled. She was probably really confused.
"See for yourself." The nurse said. "Oh and if there is any trouble just yell for help. You're even secured."
"All right." I smiled at her.
"You have to be kidding me!" Tomoyo said.
"Hay. How are you?"
"What do you think? Everyday they think I'm even crazier. It's such a mess. God I hate myself. And this time there is a good reason. I've done even more but I didn't tell anyone.
"What is it?"
"I'm married." Oh great now that.
"To who?" I asked in a kind voice.
"Eriol Hiragizawa."
"OH god Tomoyo when did you marry him?"
"At a lover's church. It's like a place where oyu can get married in any age. And there is also a place for a honey moon there. It was rally nice. We had such a comfortable bad. A TV…"
"What did you do in the Honeymoon?"
"Sex?"
"You really thought he was gonna sleep with you or even marry you or even get you pregnant at 13!"
"I like that Idea. He likes it too. But unfortunately they're making me to have an abortion since I'm only 3 weeks pregnant but I want to have this baby with Eriol."
"But what about his parents? I don't thin they'll let him have this baby with you."
"To tell you the truth Eriol never told this to anybody. He's adopted. His parents died when he was born. His mother died of cancer and his father committed suicide because his mother died."
"Oh my god is he okay?"
"He's fine he never met them so what the hell?"
"Tomoyo this is crazy how could you do that to yourself? Do you know how many teenage girls that are even older than oyu are crying they're eyes out because they didn't think about what might happen after sex! And they're over 15 or so! You're 13!"
"Yay I finally broke the record."
"It's not funny Tomoyo!"
"I know I know. I'm sorry. Just. I've been through a lot and everything happened so fast. But I felt so alive out there. But now I realize how wrong I was. There is only reason for me to live and that is my baby. But if they decide to kill me I'm fine with it. As long as I'll die with Eriol and my baby. "
"Tomoyo please!" I started crying. It was so sad although it was my birthday.
"Hay it's your birthday right?"
"Yeah you remembered…" I smiled, still crying.
"Hang on here I got oyu something." I wonder what it was.
"Here." She handed me a picture of her and me in 1st grade. We looked so happy back then. IT was so different. Everything was…So different, and so special. It felt almost like it never happened…
"Tomoyo I never thought you would keep it. I gave this picture to you. Where did oyu hide it?"
"In my diary. No one ever read it. I'm good." She smiled. Her face was so pale and so dry. So sick and dead. She did look like a crazy person after all.
"Thank you but don't want to keep it?"
"I have a copy but this is the original one. Sakura I know about all the horrible thing I've said. It's all my fault! I was so stupid since that stupid love note! I'm so sorry!"
"You think this is all caused by a love note?"
"Of course not it was my decision. And I deserve to die. I'm so horrible and there is no way god would forgive me for the things I've done. I'll be in Hell when I'll die not heaven after all…"
"Tomoyo look I'll make sure everything will be all right you just gotta believe!"
"Oh I do believe in my baby Sakura but I don't believe in my family anymore. My parents, my sisters and brothers…I was horrible and now God is punishing me!"
She started crying.
"No no Tomoyo he's not its okay I'm here I'm right here."
A nurse came in and said there is 5 minutes left.
"Sakura. I'm just so happy from everything. Although it was wrong I was happy. It made me so happy. I'm sorry I was such a horrible friend to oyu. I love you so much you're such a great friend. You know I always though Syaoran was the one for you. You 2 look like such a nice couple. I know you're in love with him. And I know he's in love with you too."
"We just love each other so much…And I just can't wait for him 3 years is such a long time…"
"I don't get it." Tomoyo said confused.
I then explained everything to her. Everything Syaoran said. I kept saying to the nurse a few more minutes and so on.
"Wow. Sakura you're the luckiest girl in the world. Trust me I know. You've got so much in you. I love you soo much. As a friend of course." We then laughed.
"I think it's a great feeling the same way over girls and boys I mean it's a great feeling to be in love don't' you think?"
"Oh it is." Tomoyo smiled. "It so is…Me and Eriol are so in love we will never let go. Not even death is gonna separate between us too. I will keep my baby no matter what. Whatever happens I will be strong. I'll never give up. Never."
"I'll always believe in you Tomoyo. Always. Even if oyu die…I will always love you, okay? So please don't give up yet okay?"
"I promise." She said smiling. We kept talking more and more about everything. We had such a nice talk. Ever since we broke up as friends.
"Tomoyo I know I said I won't forgive oyu. But that was when I just met Syaoran. I've changed since then. I've changed…"
"I know. From a girl to a woman."
"Tomoyo…" I blushed.
"Hhhhh Sakura-chan's blushing!"
"But oyu know I truly feel like a women. I got my period last week!"
"No!"
"Yes!"
"I haven't gotten mine yet. Not at least for the next 9 months or not at all ever. Just kidding I gotten mine a year ago. Hhhh..."
"Haa hahh very funny."
"Yeah so this is our last time talking huh?"
"I guess it is…" We started crying again. It was the last time of our lives. The last time we would see each other. The Last time…the last time…
"Tomoyo I'm gonna miss you so much…" I cried even more. We gave each other a hug and then a kiss on the cheek.
"Sakura I have to tell you something…"
"What is it I'll understand. I promise I will I won't tell anyone I promise. In fact I swear!"
"Good cause I need you to swear. Listen I've heard the doctors talking and."
"And?"
"And they said I would have an abortion and they'll, they'll-"She couldn't continue it was so hard the pain in her heart was getting more and more oxygen to breath.
"They'll what?"
"THEY'LL KILL ME!!"
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm the most insane person in this place. They don't think I can ever get over it. And they don't trust me. Sakura if they're gonna take my baby away better they'll take me too and my husband!"
"Tomoyo they can't do that to oyu you're too young!"
"I didn't even get to graduate Elementary School! Demmet!"
"It's okay I say now that oyu Tomoyo Hiragizawa are a graduate of Tomodea Elementary School. Congratulations!"
"What about my diploma?"
"You're diploma is your baby." I smiled.
"You're right." We smiled at each other.
"Listen I need you to do a favor for me."
"What is it?"
"Burn my diary. I believe it's still under my bed at my house. Tell them you wanted to take a picture from there for memory. But take my diary instead. Or take anything oyu think oyu would like I don't' need any of my stuff anymore. All I need is my baby and my husband."
"Okay I'll make sure I'll do that tomorrow. Or today."
"Okay Today. Because tonight I will."
"You will what?"
"I don't think I have much choice Sakura but…"
"What is it?"
"I don't trust anybody but oyu, my baby, Sayoran, and Eriol."
"I promise I'll keep it a secret. I swear."
"Okay but don't scream all right?"
"All right?" She bent her head down and then looked at me straight in the eye and said these words I would never forget…
"Me and Eriol decided that if I die and my baby would too, he should die too. He can't live without us. Ever. We decided to die for honor tonight. Were gonna kill ourselves for us. For the baby."
"Tomoyo…But they baby will die too."
"IF we die the baby should die too. Were in heaven or hell. But they baby is ours and with us at all times. We'll take care of him I swear."
"Tomoyo…" I cried even more and covered my hand over my mouth.
"Sakura –chan please help us…Help me and my baby please don't tell anyone…They're gonna find anyone but I don't' want anyone to stop me…Please."
The nurses came in and said it's about time for me to live. But I said,
"PLEASE! It's our last time talking to each other! A few more minutes, please!"
"Oh all right! 3 more! Were counting!"
"We have to hurry." I said.
"You're right. So last 3 minutes of our lives."
"Yep. 3 minutes. I just can't believe it. Why are you killing yourself tonight?"
"Because I'm gonna have the abortion tomorrow. They said so. Everyone agreed. Except me and Eriol. And you, right?"
I smiled. "Absolutely."
I added. "I'm gonna miss you so much Tomoyo. Please take care of yourself Please! I love you so much you can't leave me!" I cried even more. The tears on my face wouldn't stop falling. They're just too many and I wasn't gonna give up. Not now. Not today. Not on my 13th birthday!
Tomoyo held me tight in her arms and said. Looking at me with her bright shiny eyes.
"It's gonna be all right Sakura. Me and Eriol and my baby are gonna be happy. Wherever we are. Whenever. Were gonna do it. I have where to hide and run away. I know exactly how to save myself. Don't worry about me. Were gonna jump of the mountain near the entrance to the ocean. Were gonna drawn ourselves Sakura. And it's gonna hurt. Those are the last bit of breaths I'm breathing now. And my baby. Were gonna do it. And nothing will stop us. I've already imagined it. And it's all for the better. They will never take my baby away!" I was still in her arms. Understanding that this is the last time hearing my best friend's words. The last words I'm willing to remember for the rest of my life. And it's the last time I'm gonna see her. Today on my birthday. Wow, she's gonna kill herself on my birthday...
"When are you gonna kill yourself?"
"I think midnight is the best time. The time when anything can happen. It's perfect. Planning my death and actually doing it. Hhhh…Sakura, just promise me don't tell anyone. Please. It's for me, Eriol, and my baby! Please! I trust only you and Syaoran. You're the only people I'm willing to remember tonight! You're the only friend I've got! The only real friend I've got! I love you and I don't want to hurt you. I just want you to be happy Sakura. Just promise me one thing."
"What?" I said still crying a bit. She cried too. She was looking at me. So honest, so kind. Tomoyo was my best friend. And tonight she's gonna kill herself. For the sake of her happiness and her baby. She had no other choice. She was the bravest person I know. And tonight I'm gonna lose her…Forever...
"Don't make the same mistakes me and Eriol made. At least everyone. But especially me. Remember. Don't make the same mistakes we made. Especially me." She smiled. Then continued,
"You have more power in you than you think Sakura. Use it, and for good. Make the right choices and go in the right path that will lead you to your happiness and Syaoran. Do the right thing and believe in yourself. Always. Trust yourself and be yourself always. I know that life is hard. But that's the thing. Only the hard stuff makes you strong. A person that hadn't worked hard is never strong. Only weak. So, workout on that body. Study well and do what you think is right. Work hard and you'll get what you deserve. I promise you…Live your life in a way you never have. And please. When I die, don't cry. Be brave. I know I am. Brave enough to do this. For the sake of my dear baby. And you know, I know it's a girl. A beautiful girl that looks just like me and Eriol. A bit like you and your dear mother. Some personality of Syaoran too!" She smiled.
I smiled back. "And what's her name?"
Tomoyo smiled even more and looked at me up and down. And said, "Sakura."
"Thank you."
"You're the best friend I ever had." She smiled.
We hugged one last hug and then Tomoyo added,
"Oh and Sakura?"
"Yeah?"
"Be strong. You have more power in you than you think. The most incredible amazing person ever existed in this world. And she's matching very well with her soul mate and the love of her life Prince Syaoran. And one day, you'll be queen. I know."
"Thanks Tomoyo. I'll miss you and good luck!"
"Good Luck to you Sakura. I love you. You're my best friend after all."
"And you are mine. I love you too."
"Oh and Sakura?"
"Yeah?"
"Happy 13th birthday I hope you'll enjoy your birthday party. And don't' worry I'll see you in my dreams. You'll wear such a nice gown dress. You'll be the most beautiful girl there. So mature and so smart. You're a women after all."
"And you are a mother." We then laughed one last laugh we had with each other. One last hug. One last kiss on the cheek and forehead. One last happiness and joy. It's gonna be hard. But it's all for the better.
"I'm sure she's nice and smart." I said.
"Oh she is. And she's beautiful. Just like you Sakura-chan!"
"Hhhh you're beautiful too Tomoyo. Take care of yourself. Your baby. And you husbent!"
"I will I swear on my dead body."
"Yeah. Hhh. Goodbye Tomoyo."
"Goodbye Sakura."
"I love you."
"I love you too. You're the best friend I ever had."
"You too."
"And Sakura?"
"Yeah?"
"Remember. You have the strongest most sweetest soul and ppower you. You have more in you than you think. You're blessed and purred. I'll see your mother and tell her you're so awesome and I can't wait to see you again in my dreams. In case I ever have any."
"I know. Thank you for everything."
"I'll miss you."
"I'll miss you too."
"Goodbye and good luck!"
"Bye Tomoyo. Take care of yourself and the baby of course. Don't forget Eriol too."
"Hhh I won't. Bye."
"Bye."
I then gave one last goodbye and looked at Tomoyo one last time. That was it. It was the end. Goodbye Tomoyo I'll miss you so much. I said to myself over and over again.
And as I left the place I remembered perfectly what Tomoyo said.
Her last words to me where "You have more power in you than you think…"
I'll remember them forever and ever and ever. Not even after my death. I'll keep my promise and love her as my friend forever. That was it. That was her end in this world…
I'll miss you Tomoyo…And thank you so much for everything. I'll see you later. In my dreams…