Chapter 12

Tobias P.O.V

"The love of my life." Is all I can say... when she ask me what we were to each other. She is laying down, reclined slightly on the bed. Most her body is covered in plaster and in slings, making her look like a puppet on strings.

She winced ever so slightly. I notice her heart rate pick up. I step closer to her. I keep my hands in my pockets, not wanting to frighten her more than she must already be.

"Are you alright?" I ask her

"I'm ok, just hurts everywhere." She says with a painful smirk.

"I'll get the nurse to get you something for the pain." I push the button near the wall. Explaining to the lady on the other side of the receiver that Tris needs something for the pain.

In record timing a nurse comes in with a syringe and administers morphine into the I.V drippier. "This should make you feel better. It will make you drowsy again. Just try and relax. Your body will heal faster that way."

Tris leans her head back and almost instantly starts to relax. I thanked the nurse and she walked out of the room.

"I'll leave you to get your rest. I will be back in a few hours. Um I'll tell everyone you are awake, and try and find Caleb for you. Do you need anything before I go?" Still watching her, I see she turns her head to meet my eyes.

"No, but Thank you!" She says with a grin.

"Of course, anything for you."

As I walked out of Tris' room closing the door behind me. I take a much needed breath in, I tried to remind myself that she is alive. That is what counts. No matter what shape she is in. She will always be my Tris even if it's in my memory. I wonder why on earth why she would think she is fifteen and back in Abnegation. She always said she never felt like she belonged there. I'm hopeful the Doctor will figure that out. He has to.

I lean against the wall, thinking about my next move. I should inform Christina, she would want to know. Plus, she can spread word to the others about Tris' condition.

I should also try and get an hour or so of sleep. I haven't really gotten any sleep in days and the shock of Tris' condition and exhaustion is starting to take its toll on me.

I also have to figure out how to get Caleb down here. Maybe by telling him she is alive, it will help him snap out of it. The thought of bringing him here, angers me. He is the reason why she is here to begin with. He is the reason why I almost lost her to Jeanine back in Erudite as well. She thought she was being selfless, giving herself over to Jeanine to save others from killing themselves under yet another simulation all the while her brother was helping Jeanine...

Having come to resolution on what to do, I peel myself from the wall and walk down the hall through the double doors and enter the waiting room. Christina is sitting talking to Zeke, both having a cup of coffee and having a conversation to pass the time.

"Hey," I step in front of both of them. She must see it in my eyes, Christina waste no time jumping up from her chair yelling "She's awake?"

"She's awake," I sigh.

Zeke stands and joins Christina and me with a smile. "Thank god!" Placing his hand on my shoulder and shaking it slightly.

"Wait, if she is awake? Why aren't you thrilled?" She asks, confused by my expression.

"Sh... she doesn't remember me. She doesn't remember us. She thinks she is back in Abnegation and she thinks she's fifteen." Shock reaches their faces.

"Doc is going to run tests. See what he can find. I have a few hours, they are sedating her because of the pain. I'm going to get some rest." Going over what just happened, reminds me of another obligation I needed to complete. "Christina where are they keeping Caleb?"

"In the Psych. Ward why?" She asks.

"Tris wants her family. I haven't told her about her parents. I thought her brother is probably the next best thing." What else can I say.

Wow for once the Candor in her has no response. She is speechless.

I go back to my old bunk. It feels weird being back here, without Tris. I look at her bunk just to my left, so close I can reach out and touch it. She is alive. I keep reminding myself, like that would make it all better. I close my eyes and try to rest for a couple of hours. As long as she is alive there is a chance to fix her memory. I cling to that thought and resolve to at at least try to make her fall in love with me again even if sh doesn't remember.

I wake up from what was a pretty deep sleep but still doesn't feel long enough, I lie here a few minutes more and try to decide how long it's been. Finally, I decided that enough time as passed for it to be a few hours. I decide it's time to go find Caleb. I make my way through hallway after hallway asking hospital staff where to find the Psych Ward. One lady actually took pity on me and walked me there. I thanked her and she quickly walked away.

"Excuse me, I'm here for Caleb Prior." I ask the attended at the desk.

"You are?" The attendant isn't even looking up.

"My name is Four, I need to speak to him it's urgent. His sister is awake." Alright, I'm getting frustrated.

"Only family can see him."

I speak in my Four firm voice as if he was a initiate back in Dauntless who just pissed me off. "I said I need to see Caleb Prior. Now show me where his room is." When he finally looks up, he sees something in my face that makes him quiver.

"He is in room 32 down the hall." he said pointing the way I have to go.

"Thank you," I say as I turn on my heel and head in the direction he indicates.

When I reach the door, I take a deep breath. I think the best strategy to use here, is put some serious fear into Caleb, which I am happy to do.

I open the door and I see he is lying on a bare mattress. There are restrains attached to the bed-frame but they lie uselessly on the floor.

"Get up Caleb." No response. I move in close and grab the fabric of his shirt and put my face up to his. "Caleb you listen and you listen good. You are Tris' brother. She is alive. You need to grow a pair and go help your sister. So help me Caleb, if you do not get off this bed..." I grab his arm and start pulling on it. He is dead weight like a five year old refusing to get out of bed.

"I killed her." Escapes his mouth in a whisper.

"She isn't dead. She needs her brother. " I say sternly. That's all he needed to hear. Like breaking him from a spell, he lifts his head and looks in my eyes. "She's alive?"

"Yes, she is alive, but she is confused. She thinks she is back in Abnegation, she thinks she is fifteen again. She is asking for her family. She has forgotten everything about me. I haven't told her about your parents. You need to get over yourself, get off your ass and go help her." Going from scary to pleading with Caleb .. anything for her.