A.N: Hey guys!!

So first let me thank you my faithful reviewers again you guys are AWESOME!!

And here you are, some Dimitri but is it the last of him? Ehhh….I wouldn't bet on that =D

Ok as for the song You give me something I think it fit Rose and Christian very well.

Anyways enough rambling just review please and tell me what you think…Good or bad.

Steffy.

Chapter 11:You give me something By James Morrison.

It had been a week now that we made it back to Portland and even if we didn't acknowledge our relationship publicly they all knew it since, well, Christian was spending almost every night with me at the studio flat.

I also dinned almost every night with him and Tasha and she seemed really pleased for us. She kept repeating how happy we seemed to be and how glad she was that we were 'friends'.

Tonight Christian and I were going out on a date. It was actually our first date and it was silly, but I was slightly nervous.

Christian was very good so far, he didn't push me into the relationship. I was not ready to talk about my feelings and he was not forcing me to do so. When he asked me out on a date, I couldn't deny him that much.

"So…Bow chica bow wow tonight?" Asked Megan wiggling her eyebrows taking my spot behind the bar.

I sighed rolling my eyes.

"Well, it's not like it's not porn city every night up there!" She said pointing at the ceiling. "I came up last night, all can I say is that it seemed that you both were enjoying it all right."

I blushed slightly. "Yeah, well, I lived with you and Thor back in Europe and you've got some lungs!"

"Oh but I never denied that!" She said with an evil grin.

"I…" I didn't expect that, it made me chuckle. "You're such a little devil."

"Yeah, but a little devil that helped you get laid" she said, remembering the little trick she pulled.

I stuck my tongue out, making her laugh. "I'll be back in a few. Christian will meet me down here in a couple of hours." I said looking at her.

She gave me the thumbs up.

I wore my nicest pair of jeans and my nicest red top, I even bought some make up.

I was sitting at the bar when I smelled Christian's musky aftershave as he came to sit beside me.

"Hello beautiful" he said with a grin.

"Hey!" I said looking at him. He was wearing a black pair of jeans, a light white sweater and a black leather jacket. "You are very…you're gorgeous," I added uncomfortably.

"It's an insult to even think that as you are beside me." He said resting his warm hand on top of mine that was resting on top of the bar. "You are stunning Rosie." He added lovingly.

Christian was calling me Rosie regularly since we were back and even if I didn't admit it, I just loved it!

"You know what I'd love to do?" He asked expectantly. "I'd really love to give you a kiss right here." He gave me the puppy eyes, the ones I never could resist.

"Well I wouldn't want you to feel deprived and all that," I said nonchalantly teasing him.

His eyes widen in surprise as he probably never thought I would agree to PDA.

I smiled as he jumped from his bar stool and stood in front of me.

"Your lips are just an invitation to kiss." He said lightly brushing my lips with his fingertips. He then leaned in and kissed me softly but it made me light headed like each time he was kissing me.

"Rose & Christian sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G. First come love then comes marriage then comes ---" Megan starting purposively singing with a high pitch voice.

"Then comes a good ass kicking if you don't stop tormenting me." I said, pretending to be serious.

Christian still stood in front of me keeping his hands on my shoulders but he chuckled turning his head to look at Megan.

"You wouldn't hit a pregnant woman," asked Megan pretending to be shocked.

"I wouldn't d---" I stopped.

"What?!" Christian and I asked simultaneously.

"Yep!" She said marveling. "A bun in the oven… Baby on board" she said pointing at her belly. "A little Thor" she added and I could she that she was totally high with happiness.

"I… Wh… Why didn't you tell me before!?!" I asked slightly hurt.

"Well I wasn't sure," she said a little embarrassed, "and I had confirmation this morning, I was just waiting the perfect moment. And avoiding an ass kicking seemed like the perfect moment" she said winking.

I chuckled. "Yeah… A baby… Wow." I said truly happy for them.

Christian let go of me and gave Megan a hug from above the bar.

"That's awesome!" He said excitedly. "You should be totally ecstatic! A baby…" He shook his head with a wide smile. "The perfect finalization of a relationship."

I forced a smile seeing Christian's reaction but it shook me deep inside. I could see how he got excited to the news. He probably would love being a father one day and he would be an awesome father and that's something I couldn't give to him, even if I wanted to, not that I did of course...

"Well imagine if the kid is proportionately sized like Thor." Said Christian thinking. "That will be one hell of a baby coming out of you." He added seriously.

"Oh…" Said Megan as her smile progressively faded.

"Stop it." I said laughing playfully slapping his shoulder. "Come on let's go" I added getting off the stool.

"Have fun" said Megan still preoccupied.

"Yeah and don't sweat it" I said trying to contain my laugher. "You can have a C-Section." I added seriously.

"YES!!" She said like I was the messiah getting cheerier by the second. "Thank you Girly."

"Don't mention it" I said winking and following Christian outside.

We walked side by side quietly for a little while as I was still lost in my thoughts concerning the future.

Christian knew I was damaged and that I had issues and he was not pressuring me into anything. He was not forcing me into telling him what I felt for him or what I intended to do in the future. He seemed pretty satisfied to keep it up on a day to day basis but I realized now that this chat would come eventually and I would have to let him go then.

"Rose? Are you with me?" I heard Christian ask with concern.

"What?" I asked dumbfounded realizing we were around the corner from the cinema.

"I was asking what did you want to see" he asked very nicely.

"Oh... I don't mind." I said shrugging slightly.

"What's up Rose?" He asked with concern bringing his hand to my cheek.

I turned my head to kiss his palm. "Nothing is wrong I was just lost in my thought." I smiled. "I was imagining Thor as a dad and your comment." I chuckled. "You should make a note, never comment on the size of something that will come out of a girl's vagina."

"Noted" he said with an half smile keeping his hand on my face. He was very gently brushing my cheekbone with his thumb. "You know we're doing PDA right?" He said teasing but I could see deep in his eyes that he was enjoying it.

"I know we are," I said with a smile. "Don't you like it?" I asked teasing.

"I love it!" He said leaning down stopping a few centimeters from my lips. "I'm proud to be with you Rose. I want the whole world to know." He added before kissing me softly.

I brought my hand to the one that was resting on my cheek and intertwined our fingers.

I kissed the back of his hand. "Come on boyfriend let's go watch the movie."

I could see that this simple word made him marvel.

"Say it again please" he asked squeezing my hand.

"You're my boyfriend." I said with a smile. It was stupid to even want to deny that and he wasn't asking for much. I could at least give him that.

"And you're much more than that." He said kissing me again.

Christian said he loved me a couple of time at night when he thought I was asleep I just hoped he would be too chicken to say it while I was awake, I was not ready to reciprocate as close as I was to feeling the same.

We turned walking hand in hand to go to the cinema, when I let my eyes roam to the other side of the road and froze on the spot.

He was there looking at me with an unfathomable look on his face. He was wearing his leather duster his hair was loose and flying in the wind.

"Dimitri," I whispered.

"What?" Asked Christian surprised.

I looked at him quickly and pointed at the other side of the road that was now empty.

"He was there!!" I said seriously still pointing. "He was looking at us!" I added knowing that my voice was higher than usual.

"Come on Rosie…" Said Christian very nicely but I could hear the concern.

"I…" I pulled him along and crossed the street. I looked up and down but he was nowhere to be found.

He was usually easy to spot I mean there were not a lot of 6'7 cowboy style men walking around.

"He was there! I'm not insane!" I said completely shaken as I started to doubt myself.

He let go of my hand and wrapped his arm around my shoulders.

"Come on let's go and have a drink." He said pulling me to a small café close to where we were standing.

"I'm not crazy," I mumbled as we sat down.

"I never thought you were." He said locking eyes with me to show he meant it.

"So you believe he was there?" I asked with hope.

"I believe that you truly believe seeing him." He said resting his hand on top of mine. "The question is why did you see him?"

I frowned confused.

"I'm sorry to mention that but don't you think that the timing is a bit strange?" He asked squeezing my hand. "You finally acknowledge that we're in a relationship and you see him…" He twisted his lips. "Now I'm sorry for asking but did you see him when you were ummmm…'involved'…with someone else?" He asked uncomfortably.

I shook my head vehemently. "No I didn't see him before but it's that…" I cleared my throat looking down at my cup. "You're actually the first person I've gotten intimate with since…since Dimitri" I said blushing.

Christian didn't say anything for so long, I looked up he was looking at me with surprise and something that I would describe as joy.

"What?!" I asked getting even more uncomfortable.

"You didn't get with anyone for more than 3 years?" He asked like he couldn't believe it himself.

"Nope, I slept only once with Dimitri and now… Well…" I pointed at him.

He nodded. "It's…" He raised my hand and kissed my knuckles. "But it does make sense if it's the first time you connected with someone since Dimitri."

"Maybe…" I said not really convinced but it had to be.

I was already shaken by his reaction to Megan's pregnancy. It made me think about our future or rather the lack of it.

I sighed. "Yeah you're right" I said forcing a smile.

We discussed it for a while.

"So we're going back to yours?" He said taking my hand as we walked outside.

I looked at him for a couple of second. "You've spent the last 5 nights with me" I said trying to sound cheerful. "Maybe you should show Tasha you still live there."

He looked at me and I could see hurt cross his face but he just nodded as he didn't want to push, he truly had a heart of gold.

We walked back slowly to his flat hand in hand but he was silent I glanced at him a couple of time and he was closing up. I was so stupid.

"Do you want to come up?" He asked when we stopped in front of the building.

I shook my head. "I'm tired I think I need an early night." I kissed his hand, "but I'll see you tomorrow," I said looking up to him with a smile.

He pulled me into a bear hug and buried his face in my hair.

"Don't push me away Rosie. Hold on please… Don't give up" He whispered in my hair.

"I'm not pushing you away." I said against his chest. "I just need an early night." To think I added to myself.

We broke our embrace and he kissed me passionately almost with despair.

He let go of my face and looked at me with what I imagined was pain and fear.

"I love you Rose. I love you more than I thought was possible." He said locking eyes trying to see into my soul.

That was it, he said it while I was fully awake. Could I fake a seizure? Not so much.

I looked at him, took his hand and kissed it lovingly.

"I'll see you tomorrow Chris." I said looking at him while walking backwards.

Once I made it at the end of the street I started to run back to the Bar. I was so angry at myself for not reciprocating. Because I did love him so how hard was it to say 'I love you too'? Apparently impossible for me. STUPID!!

I walked across the bar automatically totally lost in my thoughts and I thanked god that nobody stopped me as I was really not in a chatty mood (was I ever?).

I barely made it to the studio that I heard a faint knock at my door.

I sighed. I hoped it wasn't Christian since I didn't know what to say or do.

"Rose it's me… Can I come in?" Asked Megan nicely but I could hear the worry in her voice.

"Yeah…" I said slightly relieved as I opened the door.

"Sorry to bother you," she said walking in looking at me warily. "But you seemed so distraught that…" she brought her hand on her hair playing with her long ponytail she was always doing that when she was uncomfortable. "What's wrong?" she asked reaching for my hand.

I looked at her for a second and sat down exhaling loudly. I could talk to her I knew she wouldn't judge me and that she was one of the only person who could actually understand me to some level, that others couldn't even comprehend. She hunted as a Nomer, she felt the fear, she saw the same terrible things I've seen.

"He said he loved me." I said resting my face in my hands.

"And that's bad because….?" She asked, confused, sitting down beside me.

"Have you met me?" I asked sarcastically. "Falling in love with me is stupid and reckless and dangerous. I'm really no good for him." I said sadly. "I won't be able to be the kind of woman he needs."

"Says who?" Asked Megan rubbing my back soothingly. "I'm sorry Rose but I think he knows you pretty well, even better than you think. Love never made sense but if it's reciprocated then it's meant to be."

I looked at her speechless.

"Did you think I intended to fall for Thor?" She asked chuckling, "I was only driven by my desire of revenge. I wanted to kill the monsters that took my baby sister away from us causing my parents to destroy themselves in alcohol. That's when I met that big warrior and I knew that I was doomed."

"I…I'm so damaged. I'm a war zone, my heart is…broken in so many pieces." I said looking away.

"Yeah it is but try to let him in. He will heal you in ways you wouldn't even imagine were possible." She rested her arm around my shoulders. "I know…I've been there."

"He needs someone better than me." I said stubbornly. "I'm not meant to be loved….Or to love." I added pursing my lips.

Megan burst into laugher. "I'm sorry Rose but that's the most idiotic excuse I have EVER heard! Everybody can see, even his Aunt, that you healed him and, of course, you are meant to be loved! You are fantastic!" She kissed my cheek loudly. "You are everything he wants if only you could take your head out of your butt for two minutes you'll see the way he looks at you… You are like the sun to him, his everything and you'd be just an incredible fool to let him slip away."

I looked at her completely stunned by her passion.

"What's the problem Rose I mean…honestly." She said taking my hand.

I looked away. "He will realize eventually that he needs more, that he deserves more than what I can give him and…"

"You're scared he will hurt you if you let your wall down" she said simply.

I looked at her and shrugged.

She sighed "Yeah so right now you are acting like this and hurting both of you…because you MIGHT get hurt later?" She gave me a sideway glance. "Yeah that makes sense," she added with slight sarcasm.

"I never said I made sense!" I snapped. I didn't like having my own stupidity pointed out to me.

"It wouldn't make sense for you to back paddle if you were not into him already." She said with a small smile. "But you love him too and you can deny it as much as you want even to yourself but it won't change what you feel Rose. Believe me, I've been there too."

I looked at her without a word because I knew she was right. Of course she was but I've been a loner, a fighter, for so long that was the only thing I was really good at.

She stood up. "I need to go back down now but tomorrow you are off right?" She asked rhetorically . "GO to him. Be as brave as when you are at war and let him in, all the way. He is just in enough to hurt both of you now. You don't have much to lose Rose." She added with concern. "You are suffering right now. I can see that. Deep down you are tired of pushing him away. You want it all, don't you?"

I bite my bottom lip. "I'll go and see him tomorrow." I simply said.

"That's something." She said hugging me. "Believe me it's an experience talking, opening your heart is worth the risk."

After she left I laid on the bed thinking about everything. Maybe I could let my wall down progressively but I had a vision of Dimitri and I couldn't help to think it did mean something.

In the morning I went to the University and waited outside the building where Christian had his early morning Economy lecture.

As the 200 students left the building I spotted him straight away. It was pretty easy as he was the only 6'4 guy wearing a hoody (hood up) and black sunglasses on such a cloudy day.

He looked so sullen, worried, and lost in his thought. I knew him well enough that I didn't even need to look into his eyes to figure that one out. I could say that just based on the way he was walking. I was in deep right?

"Chris?" I called on a level voice but I knew that his moroi enhanced hearing will pick it up easily.

As soon as he saw me he stood straighter and walked toward me. I could see his classmates looking at us curiously.

Yeah, he was a freak for them… If only they knew how unique and fantastic he was. I thought angry with them.

As soon as he stopped in front of me I brought my hands up to his face. I gently pulled his head toward me and he didn't protest and leaned down to meet my lips.

I kissed him like when we were just the two of us, I kissed him just like I loved him…passionately.

"I'm not pushing you away." I whispered against his lips as his forehead was resting against mine. "If I hurt you I'm sorry, I never intended to do that." I added sincerely.

Christian took his sunglasses off and narrowed his eyes as the light was hurting him.

"I want to look into your eyes without barriers," he said lovingly. He pecked my lips three times, "Thank you," he said sincerely. "It means a lot to me" he added wrapping his arms around my waist

"Anytime boyfriend!" I said while kissing him again. "Anytime…" I said again crashing into his chest closing my eyes while breathing his intoxicating fragrance.

"Rosie…".He said in a breathe resting his cheek on top of my head.

We stayed in each other arms for a long moment and a lot of people walked around eyeing us but I couldn't care less. He was content enough and I was too. Only us mattered right now.