Thnx for all your lovely reviews but guys I have some good news and bad news! Bad news- I cant put up another chapter till I get ten reviews... Good news- im doing that because I cant stop writing this fic and I never update my other one, so for those who read Jasper's love and Nate's friendship, your finally going to get an update!. Im sorry but I love my other fic too and I don't want people to keep having to wait for so looooong!

Sometimes-You've-Gotta-Live, I know Rosalie seems really mean right now but its all part of the plot, shes really going to come through for Rachel in the later chapters and be the big sister she needs to be, but right now there are reasons why I have to make her seem this way.

Rachel's POV

I looked at Jasper intently for any sign of frustration or anger but his face was set and didn't leave a hint of emotion. If only I could look at his eyes.

He opened the door of the Porsche and looked at me, so I would be riding with them, I didn't know how to feel about that. Jasper's eyes like his face were set, betraying no emotion.

"Im sorry." Emmet said and I just nodded and got in.

I just watched as Jasper an Alice got in, Alice was driving.

It had been eerie in the car , a dreaded silence had took over, the purr of the engine was the only thing making any noise.

I let out a sigh.

"Jazz come on, shes a teenager!, she needs her freedom" whined Alice. I waited for a response but there was only silence.

Then Jasper said something too quick for me too catch and Alice replied almost immediately they were like this for the rest of the ride.

It had been 5 days since we went to the amusement park and I could tell something wasn't right. Alice and Edward kept talking to Jasper in hushed voices and every time they noticed me they stopped talking. As for Jasper he stopped talking to me entirely, he stopped talking to anyone. I had to figure out what was wrong, maybe it was my fault, no I was sure it was my fault. Even though everyone tried to assure me.

I entered the kitchen once again to see someone talking to Jasper, this time it was Edward. He saw me and gave me a smile.

"You woke up early,is it the dreams again?" he said standing up.

I just gave him a small smile and shook my head. It was the dreams but Edward probably knew that already. He left the room without saying anything and it was only me and Jasper left.

I sat myself on one of the long chairs by the counter. I couldn't take it anymore, I couldn't take the silence.

"Jasper Im sorry, I shouldn't have done that, please just talk to me, please." I begged desperately in a hushed voice. I was staring hard at the marble counter.

And before I could blink he was here, cupping my face, staring me straight in the eyes.

"No im sorry,im really, really sorry..." he said and looked away, pain seizing his face.

"Why, why are you sorry?" I whispered, it wasn't his fault he had every rite to be mad.

"I cant...I cant tell you..im sorry, all my fault, sorry..i shouldn't..my mistake." he stuttered.. "I slipped, but why, why, it could have been anyone..."

"Jas-" I was panicking.. what was going on, what had he done? I was feeling guilty, why had I hurt him so bad?

He put a finger on my lips." no, its not about that, its not what you think..." He got up and was out the door.

I didn't know what to say.

"I will tell you, when,when I can... Im sorry." and then he as gone. Into the deep forest. I just kept staring waiting for him to return

I must have sat there for sometime, because it was 10 already and then I realized, Oh God no I grabbed the phone with shaking fingers, and searched frantically, where had I put it. I ran and got the crumpled piece of paper and dialed. Please...

"Hello?"

"Thank god." I let out a breath.

"For what?"

"Oh yea nothing Neil sorry, I jus-"

"Rachel?" He asked.

"Ya its me...Sorry, umm wrong number I need to do something,k bye." and then I hung up not even waiting for a response. I felt bad, awful how could I have misunderstood, of course Jasper wouldn't hurt anybody.

"Rachel whats wrong?"

I looked up to see Bella looking intently at me. "Nothing I just have a headache, I think im going to go rest for a while."

"Are you sure that's all?" Bella asked.

"Yea im sure." I lied and went outside in the calm breeze and lay on the grass,closing my eyes. This felt great peace and quiet. Thank god Emmet had gone hunting with the Carlisle, Esme and Rose.

I heard a few footsteps and opened my eyes, still laying down I turned my head toward the noise. The sun was shining right in my face.

"Nice day-" the sentence was broken as my scream, and the next thing I knew I had two arms holding down my own from either side.

"Calm down, its just me..almost got a heart attack." Seth said.

"Almost gave you an heart attack?" I replied giving him a small punch.

"Rachel?" Edward said appearing in front of us, it must have looked awkward because Seth let go of me immediately.

"Oh Edward,don't worry its just that some of us like to sneak up on others, for no reason at all." I said glaring right at Seth.

"Ya Edward don't worry at all, its just that some of us weren't actually sneaking up on others, but just trying to say hi, but instead getting punched in return." He said looking at me.

Edward just gave us a look and then went back inside.

"So whats new?" Seth asked in his normal cheery voice.

"Nothing." I said and went back to closing my eyes.

"Aw come on don't be such a bore!" he whined.

I sat up straight. "There isn't any way your just going to let me lay here peacefully is there?"

He pretended to think "No absolutely no way, come on." he grabbed my arm and made stood up.

"So where exactly are we going?" I asked nervously.

"Were going to La Push to do a certain thing I like calling cliff diving." He answered with a grin.

I gave him one of my questioning looks which was returned by a sheepish smile.

"Ill go get my clothes." I made it to the stairs, when I was stopped by Alice.

"Are you going somewhere?" Alice asked hopefully.

"You want me to?" I asked back.

"Well, Rach aren't you bored, staying here all the time? It would be nice for you to spend some time with people."

"Ya I know, do you think it would be okay with Jasper if I went, I wont go if he doesn't want me to." Looking everywhere but at Alice.

"Yes of course it would be fine with him, just remember to have fun." Alice said.

"I'll personally make sure she does." Seth said appearing out of nowhere again.

Within 20 seconds I had everything and was ready to go because of Seth's impatient sighs and stare.

"Seth are you feeling alright?" I asked as we got into the car.

"Im just happy your finally ready to have some fun instead of mopping around." He answered.

"I was not mopping around."

"Well that's what I heard." Seth said as he started the engine.

"From who?" I asked a little annoyed.

"Nobody, come on cheer up, were going to have fun." He said with a grin which I couldn't help but smile back at."Now that's what I like to see."

Seth's POV

It was nice to see her smile, I hated it when something was bothering her, hurting her. She was looking out the window but I could still see the worry etched in her face. She turned and gave me a smile, a beautiful smile which could light up anyone's day but her eyes still gave away her emotions.

What was she worrying about? I needed to know, I hated that prodding feeling, but instead of asking I just parked the car and got out. I made my way to the other side and opened the door for her.

"Thanks Seth." And the beautiful smile was back. "It looks the same here, just great, so calm..." She said looking around.

"La Push will always be La Push." I replied as we began walking towards the pack.

Im sorry guys but I had to end it there, im sorry if it wasn't the best chapter, Ive been sick for a couple of weeks now...and lets just say its hard to write when your heads killing you. :( Does anyone watch FIFA here? Brazil was so awesome and they got out, oh well Spain is awesome too! Next chapter will have the whole pack plus Renessme. So Please REVIEW it makes my day!