Back to the past and it's Sirius's turn to make it up to Remus, don't get too excited, this is a T...Enjoy and Review!

The smell of Sirius still lingered in our vacated dorm, Peter and James had taken Sirius's advice then. Carefully, a delicate hand stroked over my anatomy, eliciting occasional shivers and gentle, groggy groans from me. Eventually, I had to look at his beautiful face, to give my eyes the treat they had been deprived of for several hours. I laced my fingers with his and opened my eyes slowly. I rolled to face him; drinking in every millimetre of his face. From his tangled mess of chocolate locks, to his perfectly square jawline.

I smiled "Oh good, it's you, I thought I was going to be raped this morning." Sirius laughed and stroked my what I can imagine, pink cheeks. "Thats because you were." He stated, kissing my forehead, which at this present time was masked by my unruly and untamable golden hair.

"Oh, honey, it would just be surprise sex." I whispered, longing ot kiss him senseless, like I had last night. I twisted my hands through his hair and twirled it around my hands, spun silk gliding through my fingers. He leant in and kissed me, bringing our naked bodies closer together.

This was heaven, and if I died right now, I would die happy. At the point where I was sure I would pass out if I didn't breath now my body made me pull away from his warm, tender lips. As I slowly pulled up for air I felt his body twitch beside me. He was never this energetic in the mornings.

"Whats this Siri, you're so excited this morning."

"I'm just preparing to spring some surprise sex on you Rems" His hand, which was at the small of my back, and threatening to descend, pulled us even closer, if that was humanly possible. I snuggled my head into the crook of his neck and he sniggered as my hair tickled him.

"There's a flaw in your plan...it's not much of a suprise anymore." I murmured into his collarbone, nipping it slightly.

I was awoken from my lovesick trance by two sets of heavy footsteps. Great James and Peter, walking in, with mine and Sirius's legs pretty much undistinguishable (from the way they were tangled) under the heavy scarlett covers. "We're going to miss breakfast if you two don't stop it now."

I noticed what James was wearing. A vest and shorts that were 5 years too small. I grunted in distaste and gripped so hard on Sirius's shoulder I felt myself leave marks there. "Siri, you get hard over that, not only will I feel it but I will rip your dick off with my bare hands." I whispered.

Sirius lifted my chin and kissed me chastely. I knew he was still a little worried about people judging him. I wasn't, people had judged me my whole life, but he wasn't used to it, so PDA's were usually small.

"I wouldn't dare." He growled, pulling away to trail his tongue over my neck and jaw. "But you're angry face might just do it."

Prongs and Wormtail gagged and I rolled my eyes. "Please dont make me feel sick before breakfast, I've got to keep my strength up for practice later."

"Isnt it obvious, you're interrupting." Sirius all but snarled sitting bolt upright and wincing. I almost winced with him. I knew what it was like after our first time. "Your girlfriend makes me sick all the time, so you have nothing to complain about."

James lobbed a bundle of uniform at us both, hitting me square in the face. "You two get dressed, we're about to go." Wormtail stated before scurrying off.

After slowly pulling on our robes we wandered, subtly hand in hand to the Great Hall, pitying the pained look on Sirius's face when he realised wuite abruptly the benches were wooden and hard. I did snigger slightly. But to make him feel better I did give him a quick kiss, much to Peters dismay (God who knew he was such a homophobe). And then we hurried on to our lessons. I was in a stunningly cheery mood. Until in Divination I managed to glance at the ever present lunar calendar on the wall. My mood sank like the Titanic.

Sirius, unsurprisingly was the one to pick up on my mood and rubbed my shoulders, putting a careful arm around them "Rems, whats up?" he whispered in my ear, kissing my neck anxiously. I shrugged and brushed him off.

"Oh no it was last night wasn't it, I did something wrong, Rems I'm sorry."

"It's not you." I said bluntly, shrugging his arm off and hurrying to the next lesson.

Sirius kept pressing me for answers, and constantly stroked my hair nervously, or squeezed my hand. I couldn't meet his worried and darkened grey eyes. They always went darker when he was worried. I knew if I did he would just ask me more questions that I didn't want to answer.

Last lesson finished entirely unspectacularly and I knew that it was going to get dark soon. As terrified and alone as I was I trudged across the grounds and to the shrieking shack. Somehow, something in my gut told me this would be a bad one. But what was I supposed to do about it?

I paced the shack, knowing the change would come soon enough.

I wasn't wrong. But where were Sirius and James, they were normally here by now. To help control me, I was alone and out of control. Like I'd thought, this was bad.

It was as painful and slow as ever, and I gritted my teeth. I was determined not to cry out, not to let it know it was getting the better of me. But it always got the better of me. The shriek that tore through my changing chest was half human and half feral.

The urge to infect others with this disease was overwhelming and I had no choice. I bit and tore at my own flesh, which began bleeding uncontrollably. It didn't satisfy the need to spread this curse but the pain helped mask it momentarily.

I howled in pain and ran crazily around the shack, trying to get out, still tearing myself apart. The moon was at its peak by the time Sirius arrived. I was human, and half unconcious, curled in the corner in a pool of my own blood. Shivering against the cold of the night. Sirius gasped and froze.

"Moony, what happened to you? I should have come sooner, I'm so sorry." Sirius cried. It was then I lost every bodily function and drifted into comfortable unconciousness.