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**Don't worry about Jake, I had to bring him into the story because of a future chapter I have written and it was really important to bring Jake into the story**

Jacob Black

Chapter 10

Thank you for being such a friend to me
Oh I pray a friend for life
And have I ever told you how much you mean to me
Oh, you mean so much to me

(Flyleaf)

BPOV

"Why haven't I seen you since you moved here?" Jake complained and pulled a sad face.

"I had a lot on my mind Jake" I sighed and handed him a mug of hot chocolate. I walked to the living room and heard Jake following me.

Jake plopped down on the couch with a huge smile. Shit, I've missed him. Jacob Black has been my best friend since…well, forever. We spent most of our summers with Jake…when we came to Forks but since we refused to come to this crap town any longer, Jake came to Phoenix to spent summers with us. I love him like a brother but, and this is a major but, Jake doesn't see me as just a sister or just a friend. He wants more from me…he even begged Antonio to talk to me about his feelings.

Flashback

I was sitting on my futon in front of my window when my brother knocked on my door and then entered. I smiled when I saw him approach me.

"Hey, where's Jake?" I asked. Toni cleared his throat and looked really uncomfortable while he took a seat next to me.

"Uhm, he's in my room…uhm Bells, how do you feel about Jake?" he asked. I've never seen my brother this way. I chuckled.

"Uh, Jake…wow, he's a friend" I sighed.

"Just a friend?" he asked.

I widened my eyes and scoot closer to him. I wrapped my arm around him and nudged him.

"Hey, what's this about?"

He sighed.

"Jake asked me to talk to you because he is in love with you and he-"

"Whoa, whoa, whoa…Jake's in love with me?" I yelped.

"Bells-"

"No, no, no, this can't be happening. Toni, he's like a brother to me and I don't share his feelings. Fuck, this is going to be awkward." I rudely interrupted him again. He wrapped his arms around me and chuckled.

"Bells, listen to me. I know you and I know you don't have romantic feelings for Jake. I just wanted to see your face..." I slapped him on his shoulder, "seriously though, he fucking loves you Bells and he is killing me with his constant babbling about how gorgeous you are or hot as hell or fucking sexy you are…believe me I know this, you're my sister and I think you're gorgeous but Jake is like a nagging old lady" he pulled a pained face.

I laughed and hugged him tightly.

"I'm sorry you are in pain" I pulled a baby face.

"Bells, never ever do something you don't want to do. Jake will have to get over this crush…if I don't make it through the night; just remember that I love you so fucking much" he winked and planted a kiss on my forehead.

I laughed at my brother as he left my room but then my smile fell as I thought about Jake. How can he do this to me? Nothing's going to be the same ever again…

End of flashback

"Bells, I miss you…I miss our talks and walks on the beach. Please, come visit me down at the Rez" he asked.

"Okay, I'll make a plan but Jake" I raised my finger at him "just as friends"

"Deal" he smiled widely and I felt like a little shit for pushing him away since I found out that he's in love with me.

"Come to La Push Saturday" he said with excitement.

"Uhm, I have to shop for a prom dress but how about Sunday?" I asked and groaned silently to myself. I hate to shop and knowing Alice, I won't be just shopping for a prom dress.

That night I laid on my bed thinking about my brother and how much I miss his advice and his talks. I thought about my weekend plans; Saturday with Alice and then Sunday with Jake.

I was thinking about Edward and how I would miss him this weekend. I felt guilty about my plans with Jake but I also felt like a little shit for ignoring Jake. Plus, I miss my best friend. He knows how I feel about him and he knows that I will cut him off if he tries anything funny.

The ringing of my phone brought me back to reality and when I saw the caller ID, my heart sprinted away.

"Hi" I answered with a big smile plastered on my face.

"Hi beautiful. What are you doing?" he asked and I could hear the smile in his voice.

"I was just thinking actually" I said.

"About?" he prompted.

"You and this weekend" I sighed.

"Why do you sound unhappy?" he asked and I could almost imagine him frowning and running his free hand through his crazy fucking hair.

"Because I'm going shopping with your demented sister and I've made plans with Jake on Sunday" I said.

"So, I'm not going to see you…at all?" he moaned, "What kind of plans did you make with Jake?" he asked and I could have sworn I heard him growl at the mention of Jake's name. Do I sense some kind of jealousy?

"I'm just going down to La Push and we'll probably just spend the day at the beach or something."

"Well, fine. I have to go Bella, I'll see you tomorrow morning when I pick you up for school" he said and I felt sad that he was hanging up so soon.

"Oh, okay. See you" I sighed and hung up.

The next morning I waited for Edward outside. It was freezing and the fact that I was nervous as hell wasn't helping my situation. My body was shaking uncontrollably. My eyes dropped to the floor when I saw his Volvo driving down the street. I bit down on my bottom lip nervously. He stopped next to me and leaned over to open the door for me. I climbed in without looking at him.

He sighed. "I'm sorry about last night"

I finally had the guts to look up and meet his eyes. I gasped…his eyes were dark and sad. Plus, I could see that he never slept last night.

"It's okay" I smiled. He leaned over and gently placed his soft lips on my forehead, which made my body shiver. I've never had these kinds of feelings before. On the one hand, it's making me very excited but on the other hand it's scary as hell.

We drove to school in silence but everything about our conversation last night bugged me. I want Edward to be honest with me about his change in mood last night. I know it had something to do with Jake and I know I have to tell Edward everything about Jake. And if he still feels the same way…I'll end my friendship with Jake because Edward is really important to me.

I'm absolutely, one hundred percent certain that I'm falling in love with this boy. He is helping me forget about Toni and the excruciating pain that's been buried deep inside my heart. I'm depending on him more and more and it's also scaring the shit out of me because we're graduating one of these days and I don't even know what his plans are for the future and where he's going or if I'm going to see him again.

"What's wrong Love?" he asked. I shook my head and met his eyes.

"I was thinking about our conversation last night and also that I should explain my relationship with Jake" I said nervously.

"Bella, it's okay. I was wrong to get jealous and I'm sorry-"

"Edward, Jake and I grew up together. He is my best friend…but if my friendship with him is going to upset you, I'll stay away from him-"

He lifted my chin with his index finger and I stared into his beautiful eyes.

"You'll do that…for me" he asked astounded.

"Of course I will. You are so important to me and I don't want to lose you" I smiled.

"You'll never lose me and I don't want you to give up your friendship with Jake." He smiled the most gorgeous smile and for a moment I thought he was going to kiss me…finally, but then Emmett opened the driver's side door. Edward groaned in frustration but Emmett just roared in laughter.

"Morning Bella" he boomed. Edward shot him death glares and a giggle escaped my lips.

"Morning Em" I giggled. Edward stared at me with contentment and the weirdest feeling crept into my heart…a feeling I've never felt before. My heart felt bubbly and all tingly…

"Can we go to the meadow after school?" I asked and Edward nodded.

"Sure, I can't wait to have you to myself for a while" he smiled as he climbed out of his car. I followed him and we walked to our first class.

The day dragged and when school was finished I almost jumped up and down in excitement. I was going to be alone with Edward for the rest of the afternoon and I couldn't wait any longer. Edward waited for me outside gym and I walked straight into his waiting arms. My heart swelled and calm filled my entire body as his arms enveloped me.

"Are you ready?" he asked and I nodded my head.

Edward drove closest to the meadow and we hiked the rest of the way. I loved the meadow…I love the flowers, the yellow grass, the musical waterfall…the clear sky.

"I wish you could see yourself through my eyes Bella" Edward's velvety voice said and harmonized with the bubbly waterfall. This place was like paradise…

I sat down on the soft grass and lay down on my back, staring up at the sky.

"Come lay with me" I whispered. His body lined up with mine and everything felt so perfect.

"I wish I could see myself through your eyes too" I sighed. Edward rolled to his side and propped himself onto his elbow. I looked into his eyes and he gently tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear.

"You are so beautiful" he whispered.

He leaned closer with his lips almost touching mine. My heart went into overdrive and my tongue graced my lips in anticipation.

"I wanna kiss you so badly" he whispered in a trembling voice and I gasped as his warm breath wafted over my face.

"Then kiss me" I whispered back and before I knew it, his lips hovered over mine…slowly, as if tasting my lips. His lips tasted like the sweetest wine and were so incredibly soft. His lips moved over mine and my lips moved in perfect unison with his. It was as if our lips were made for each other. Edward kept the kiss chaste and I wanted to scream in frustration because I wanted more…my body wanted more.

I moaned loudly when he pulled away with a smile on his face.

"That was absolutely fucking amazing," he smiled and gave me another peck on my lips. I wanted to taste his mouth, his tongue. I wanted to know what it would feel like having his tongue in my mouth, gracing my tongue with his…

"Wow" I agreed as I snaked my arms around his neck, "and there wasn't even tongue" I complained.

To my surprise, Edward burst out in laughter and once again I was hypnotized by his sweet breath wafting over my face. My insides tingled and there was another unfamiliar sensation in my girly bits. I blushed instantly as if he could feel my sensations.

"Let's do something about that" he said in a husky voice.

"Do something about what?" I asked confused. He chuckled again.

"Silly Bella…" he moved in and claimed my lips again but this time with more urgency. His tongue graced over my bottom lip, asking for permission to enter and I gladly parted my lips, granting him the permission he needed. When his warm tongue slowly entered my mouth I almost screamed out in pleasure. This was the most amazing feeling I've ever felt and the sensations I've felt earlier, increased by a million. His tongue rolled over mine in perfection and I couldn't help the moan that escaped my mouth. I felt his lips curl into a smile while his tongue carried on with teasing the hell out of me. Our tongues danced together while our lips molded together in perfection.

I bucked my hips as my fingers tangled in his crazy fucking hair and I almost cried out when I felt his hardness against my thigh. He moaned and with that he ended out kiss.

"Please don't stop" I begged him.

He closed his eyes and exhaled loudly.

"Bella, believe me when I say that I don't want to stop but we have to" he said with a strained voice.

"Why?" I complained and felt the heat rise to my cheeks. I sound so fucking desperate but I've never wanted anyone before Edward and I'm already so worked up just by a simple kiss. I fucking need him and I want him…

"First of all, we don't have protection and second, I don't think we're ready. I want you to be ready Bella and I don't want you to regret this" he stated his reasons.

"I am ready-"

"You're not. Have you had sex before?" he asked with uncertainty. I shook my head in embarrassment.

"Don't be embarrassed but that's even more reason to wait and be sure about this. I want you…like I've never wanted anyone before but it will kill me if I do this and you regret it tomorrow. I'm sorry" he said and kissed my forehead.

I sighed in defeat because there was no way I was going to change his mine and maybe he had a point. Am I ready for this big step? I mean…it's a huge step and I have to be sure. I want to think about this when I'm sane not while I'm writhing under this man's body. Because let's face it, I can't even think straight while his lips are on mine and I'm not able to make any rational decisions.

"I guess you're right but I'm pretty pissed at you right now" I pouted my lips.

"Why?" he asked.

"For setting my body on fire and then pouring a bucket of ice over me" I said.

He threw his head back and roared in laughter. He looked so fucking sexy that I wanted to rip his clothes off and take him right then and there.

"Will it help if I tell you that you have that same effect on me?" he smiled. I sat up and hugged my knees. He nudged me and I smiled.

"Maybe it helps a little" I smiled.

"Bella, when the time is right, I'll make love to you but we have to be sure and we have to be prepared" he said seriously.

"Okay, but promise me when I'm ready that you won't back down again" I said.

"I promise" he smiled and kissed me chastely.

"I wanted to ask you, what's your plans for after graduation?" I asked.

"I've been accepted into Dartmouth-"

"No shit. Are you serious?" I asked.

"Yeah, I'm serious. What about you?" he asked.

"I've been accepted at Dartmouth as well" I smiled.

"What do you want to study?" he asked.

"I want to be a doctor," I answered him; "It was mine and Toni's dream. What about you?"

"You're going to think this is crazy but I want to be a doctor as well" he smiled.

"Fuck, this is like the best day of my life. It's as if we're destined to be together or something" I said.

"From the first moment I saw you, I knew we were destined to be together. You're everything to me Bella and I'll never let go" he encircled me in his arms and tightened his hold. I sighed in contentment. I had the most amazing man in this world…

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