Chapter 12

Remembering

I woke up later that night. The sky was getting lighter, but there was still a few hours before the sun rose. I looked at Fili and smiled. He was fast asleep. I kissed him lightly and then got dressed. I found the library and once more felt hope. Maybe I would be able to find something about my father.

As the sun came up I was still no closer to finding anything.

"~Are you alright?~"

I looked up at a beautiful woman. She had long black hair and deep blue eyes.

"~Yes I….I am trying to find something about my father.~"

"~And who is your father?~"

I looked down. She was suddenly next to me. She smiled.

"~You are Lady Estelwen.~"

"~Just Estelwen.~"

"~I am Arwen. Just Arwen.~"

I smiled and nodded. She was looking at me carefully.

"~You bear resemblance to one that I know.~"

"~Who?~"

She stood up and took a book. She flipped through the pages and then showed me.

"Him."

MY eyes widened and I shook my head.

"~Impossible! How could I be related to a monster and betrayer like him?~"

She seemed confused, but then she nodded.

"~You speak of how he betrayed Lord Thorin Oakenshield.~"

I nodded. I looked down at the page and an unknown memory came back to me.

"You have given me two beautiful children! A strong son…..and a most beautiful and delicate daughter."

I blinked and shook my head.

"~Are you well?~"

"~Would you mind if I took this?~"

She smiled and handed me the book.

"~It is yours. Now….~" She looked down. "~I believe we should get you some bindings.~"

I looked down and blushed. I quickly zipped up my hoodie and she laughed. Arwen was kind to me. We became fast friends and she gifted me with a sword of elven make.

"~It shall glow blue when danger is near. I think you shall need it when you leave.~"

I smiled and hugged her. We had stayed in Imladris for now 3 days and tomorrow we would be leaving.

"~Before you go, there is someone who wishes to meet you.~"

I was confused but I followed her. She led me to a tower and there stood a lady garbed in white. Her hair was blond and seemed like gold in the sun. She slowly turned and smiled at me.

"~My granddaughter. You have brought her.~"

Granddaughter?

Arwen nodded.

"~Yes…..~" She looked at me. "~I will find you later. Trust her.~"

I nodded and when I turned the woman was in front of me.

"~My name is Galadriel and you Estelwen Caladhiel Rogers, have finally returned.~"

I bowed but she shook her head.

"~No child, you need not bow to me.~"

I looked at her.

"~Please Lady Galadriel….do you know who my father and brother are?~"

She looked me in the eyes. She did not speak but I heard her voice.

"I do, but you do also."

I gave her a look of confusion. She smiled lightly.

"~You will find him before your journey's end. But remember my dear Estelwen, you cannot change what was, you can only shape the future.~" She smiled suddenly. "~Now I believe you should return to your husband.~"

Husba…..WHAT?!

"~I believe you are mistaken my lady. I am not married.~"

"~By elven right you are. You have bound yourself to another, nothing cane separate you from him.~"

My jaw dropped to the floor.

Oh shit! Well done Estelwen!

I now realized Galadriel was gone.

"Amazing how they do that. I wonder of I can do that." I said.

"Man le?" came a deep voice.

I jumped slightly and turned around. An older man stood there. It was not Gandalf nor was it Radaghast. He was dressed all in white.

"~Are you…..Lord Saruman the White?~" I asked.

He smiled lightly.

"~Indeed. And you are my dear?~"

"Estelwen Caladhiel Rogers."

He smiled and chuckled.

"An unusual name. I have never met someone with three names."

I smiled lightly.

"~If you will excuse me, I must take my leave.~"

He nodded and I left. Galadriel's words remained in my head the rest of the day. I walked down by a waterfall and decided to go for a swim to see if that would help. It did somewhat. Another memory came to me.

"I will not let you corrupt her! You betrayed them! You betrayed me!"

"YOu cannot leave! Without you I am nothing!"

"Well then you shall be nothing. Namarie!"

"Estelwen?"

I spun around. Thorin was there with his back to me.

Well at least he has respect for my privacy.

"Will you please dress so that I may speak with you."

I got out of the water and dried off. I got dressed and when I had my pants, breast bindings and tank on I told him.

"You can look now."

He turned and looked at me.

"Walk with me."

My stomach lurched.

He knows!