GAHHH! Guys, I am so sorry for not updating this earlier! I am so sorry for disappointing people who followed this story! About this chapter, just to warn ya, there's a little...just a little... bit of pedophilia on Kaito's part. It's nothing big, just a bit of soliloquizing to himself...

Gakupo POV:

After that blowout yesterday, no one seems to be talking to one another. Not surprisingly.

If you are a smart person, you would walk around and try not to get involved. If you are a nice person, you would go around and try to cheer everyone up. If you are a smart and nice person who cares for your job (and knows that there is a concert coming up in a few weeks), you would act like nothing's happening, with just that one bit of sensitivity. That is me.

So I'll just be the usual cheerful fanboy that I am, and choose to not talk about the angst in the studio now. What do you want to know about? Ohh, what about the progress of our concert in June (and as I told you before, it is coming up in a few weeks).

So about da songs... I'll be singing a traditional version of Senbonzakura, because Al-dog T (or Mr. Trancy as others call him) thought I sounded rather nice in a traditional version of Senbonzakura. BUT THAT SONG IS SOOO BORING! I spe-ci-fi-cal-ly told Al-dog that I wanted a dancey-dancey song like Spice or Romeo and Cinderella, or perhaps Two-faced lover!

BUT NOOOOO! Al-dog says those songs are supposed to be for "girls" and Len has taken Spice. Did that kid came from the 1800s England or something? Doesn't he know that gender equality are THE RAGE now? If a woman has the right to do everything a man does, then it goes THE OTHER WAY! (echos: way...way...way...)

So, I'm stuck singing Kokyuu, Yakusoku, and World's crying etc... ALL SUCH MOTHERF*ING boring songs... And you know what's worse, Nekomura Iroha is trying to steal my songs! She has been bugging Al-dog for about 2 months about giving the traditional version of Senbonzakura for her to sing instead. Excuse moi? Iroha, my dear, is only a part-timer here (even though she'd never admit it) that is trying to get a permanent place. I had felt bad for her once...She's a rather pleasant kid that don't have much popularity...UNTIL SHE BEGAN TO STEAL MY SONGS! Al-dog, of course, being a fellow glam-king, said no. Poor Iroha kid then got into a huge tantrum, saying all kinds of crap about me, like how my attitude is not fit for work and crap... What happened can be summed in the next 10 words:

Bitch tried to get me fired, got herself fired instead.

So that's that... I'm personally doing very well with my songs. I've memorized all my songs and my dance moves (not that I really have any), and the producer said all I need to do is to polish them up- which is Bullshit considering I am perfect and beautiful with no "polish" what-so-ever. In terms of others, well... I know Luka, Meiko, Gumi and Kaito are doing decently well (but not as well as me, muahaha!) and The twins... I doubt they really have any energy to work after... this drama.

Speaking of Al-dog, He is (surprisingly) the least affected of all this. I mean, of course he'll just sometimes stare into space and get jusst that bit more emotional, but he's not like forsaking his work.

So I was chatting up Luka this other day about work, like, you know, about songs and dance moves and stuff... We were talking, and then Meiko walked in. Then I saw a blush creep up on both their cheeks. And I knew something was up.

Oi...why is there so much romance in the studio? Of course, this is heaven for a fanboy like me, so I don't mind.

Kaito POV:

I'm walking down the corridor. I'm not really going anywhere, though. I'm really just wandering for no particular reason.

I memorized all my songs, practiced all my dance steps, and did my best to stay out of trouble. However, I still feel...that something is not done, that I need to finish something. Then I heard a sob, and I turned my head towards it.

It was Rin, sobbing and hugging her knees. Feeling like an older brother, I went and sat next to her.

She gave me a look, and decided to continue sobbing while clinging to my shirt. I just hugged her, not knowing what else to do- I was never a great one with girls, even though I really should be. Rin is saying something, but I can't quite make out what she was trying to say; a bloody red blotch can be seen on one of her bunny ears. Seeing this, I lifted one of her limping arms, and saw what I expected to see: several deep cuts on the back of her hand.

When Rin is distressed, she tends to dig something sharp in the back of her hand, drawing blood. Her fans don't see this, because the make-up artist would brilliant cover up the scars. She had done this with a pen, a knife, even her own fingernails. I looked at her other hand, and there was her self-harm weapon, a shard of broken glass.

"Rin, you need to stop doing this. It doesn't make anything better." I said, forcing her to look at me.

"Yes it does." Rin's calmer now, but still half-sobbing, half coughing out her words, "It makes me feel better."

I look in her teary blue eyes, and I for some reason, can't tell her that this habit doesn'tmake her feel better, that it doesn't solve her problems, that she is wrong... It hurts, you know, to see a little girl cry.

"All for a boy, Rin?" I gently asked, not wanting to frighten her in this mood, "You are suffering, isolated by your own brother for a boy? Rin, you have left other boys before, why is this one special?"

Rin sobbed out a laugh: "This one's special, Kaito... We are so similar. I feel..I feel that he understands me, understands how it feels to have my own body violated and abused, how it feels to be turned against the world... Len doesn't understand, and he never will..."

My heart suddenly hurt.

"The days on the streets were no more than an adventure for him. He... was never violated, never... never felt the pain of ...of being desperate. Of course, he felt hunger, and he hated being looked down upon, but... he was...was always a bit immature..."

"Rin..."

"We had a chat. He... he told me that he can tell my wounds just through my singing... I was... I was so shocked, and then... then he told me his story. It... it was so terrible. That old man used him as a sex toy, yet he couldn't ... turn away. He said... he had to hold on to the last thread of the spider web. We talked, and he said in the end: 'we could be really good friends, Rin' The way he said my name... I... I fell in love with him, Kaito..."

I fell silent. I don't know what to say to her. So instead of doing anything, I just let her sob inside my sleeve for a little while, until she fell asleep.

Sighing, I carried the poor girl's body to another, more comfortable room. As I placed her limp body on the sofa, I realized she had lose some weight, again.

That girl needs to eat more.

I took my Ipod out, and shuffled my songs. The first that that came up was "She will be loved"

Beauty queen of only eighteen

Rin is 14, but she doesn't act her age. She is most certainly beautiful, the most beautiful girl I had ever seen, but she doesn't know that

She had some trouble with herself

I immediately thought of how she would dug her nails into her skin, draw blood, and tell herself that it made things better, and I thought about the past she told me once, and how she shivered as if in the snow.

He was always there to help her

I was always there to help her, along or not with Len. I was always there for her, as a mentor, as a friend, as a brother, as a person to bad mouth the dipshit that dumped she was scared, and Len was not there, I comforted her, I took her into my arms like I did today.

She always belonged to someone else

That's right. No matter how much I care for her, I am never going to replace her "prince charming". It must be nice, for the "prince charming". To have such a lovely girl thinking about him everyday.

I drove for miles and miles and wound up at your door

When she went out with kids from rich families, she doesn't want Len to know. Despite being angry at her, I would help her with getting by Len, because I wanted to make her happy. After they abuse her and dump her, I would always drive to wherever she was, and give her a ride home.

I've had you so many times but somehow I want more

I am her best friend, the person she trusts in. But...why am I not satisfied?...

I don't mind spending every day Out on your corner in the pouring rain

... why do I want to be something more? Like a person who...

Look for the girl with the broken smile

...can kiss away her tears with my lips, who can make everything better with his hand...

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

...I want to be her "prince charming"

And she will be loved

I want to love her, not as a friend, but as something more.

And she will be loved

But I am too old for her. I can't... I'll only scar her. I am a filthy pedophile... I... can not, will not, should not, love Rin Kagamine.

But why does my heart skip a beat when I see her smile? Why does my heart ache with fury when I see her hurt? Rin is not perfect. She has mood swings, is rashful, and, as herself calls it, "impure". But she is kind, gentle, and under her exterior, weak and devoid of comfort.

I slammed my fist into a nearby wall, trying to release the frustration I have. I have to keep this a secret. Rin will be loved, but she can not, will not, should not be loved by me.

So... do you guys want to murder me? I kinda don't know whether I'll let Kaito and Rin be together... So I'll let you guys decide. If you have any opinions, criticisms, or suggestions for the story, please drop a review! And a thank you to people who favorites/followed this story! I really appreciate them! The concert will be in chapter 20, aand I have no idea what to do with the story after that, so...