Olivia opened her eyes and closed them again, the light was to bright. Her whole body was sore and she wasn't quite sure where she was and what was going on. She thought about falling asleep again but then she felt a touch on her right thigh and she remembered where she was and what just happened. Elliot was forced to sodomize her after the guy with the ski-mask had raped her. She jumped up and started to scream.

"No, no please stop! Please stop touching me, please stop touching me." She started to fight, she flailed around and tried to hit the guy holding her. She panicked, she couldn't go trough this again, there was no way that she would survive being violated again. She fought stronger and managed to hit the guy into his face, he moaned and for a second he stopped holding her but then someone else grasped her. And the other guy came back, they both were holding her down now and she just wanted to die.

"No, please don't, please don't.", she sobbed.

"Olivia, Olivia it's okay. It's me, Cragen. No one is going to hurt you, do you hear me? You're save here, you're in the hospital. It's just George and me and we're not going to hurt you. Everything is alright."

She wasn't sure if this was real or if her brain was fouling her but she just wanted to believe him. She stopped fighting and tried to look into the face of the guy pressing her onto the bed and it really was Cragen.

"Captain!", she cried.

"It's okay Liv, it's me. His iron grip went lighter and she tried to breath slowly. He stopped holding her and stepped back. "Everything is alright you're not in danger, okay?"

"I'm sorry Captain I thought...", she couldn't tell him what she was thinking.

"It's okay. It was my fault. I should have never touched you. I'm so sorry.", Cragen whispered. He was embarrassed that he acted as an civilian would do.

30minutes before

After George told him what happened he wanted to see his detectives. George brought him to Olivia's room. It was unbelievable how vulnerable she looked. In the last 10 years there were a lot of different things he thought about Olivia, he saw her good sides and her bad sides, although there are not a lot bad ones. But he never looked at her and thought of her as vulnerable, she was the strongest person he ever met. But when he saw her face now she had the same expression on it as every victim has, although she was sleeping pain and fear was written all over her face. And he couldn't stop asking himself. Why she? She had been through so much in her life, why was she the one who had to suffer so much and he was asking himself if this would be the straw to break the camel's back. He really was scared that this was the final thing who would break Olivia Benson.

He stepped closer to her bed and when he saw that she had opened her eyes. He softly touched her and talked to her, he wanted her to know that he was here and that she wasn't alone.

But she tore her eyes open and started to scream, she flailed around and George was screaming at him to hold her so that she couldn't hurt herself. He tried to sooth her but she managed to punch him into his face and he had to stop holding her. How could he have been so stupid to touch her, was he out of his mind. She was a rape victim and he just touched her during she was waking up. He could have kicked himself.

He helped George to fixate her and she started to beg, she really begged him to stop touching her. What the hell happened at this basement and how the hell could his two detectives manage to keep it a secret from him and all their friends for more than 4 weeks.