Chapter 12

alright, so i tried to finish this yesterday, but i am sick and therefore... i passed out in the middle of writing it:) this is basically where i am setting up the plan that will not be reviled until it is already in place. Enjoyxx

Bella's P.O.V

Sitting on their table next to Edward felt surreal, I wasn't fully ignoring him because I needed to keep him thinking he is getting closer to forgiveness, I occasionally threw a smile his way, but mostly spoke to the others.

I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned to see Stewart, I smiled at him and he smiled back before saying "hey, I was just wondering if we were still on for tonight?" looking straight into my eyes.

"Yeah, we still are" I told him "I am going to bring Matt with us though, so that we can get into the club without questions being asked" I continued, he nodded before throwing a glance at the Cullen's. "Oh yeah!" I exclaimed turning to them "would you guys like to join us, we are going to this new club that opened up, its called 'club jumbo' because everything they sell there is jumbo sized"

Alice smiled and said "we would love to come with you Bella" her siblings nodding in agreement after her, Edward and Stewart seemed to have a staring contest and I can see the anger building up inside of the both of them, and we all know Stewart cant control his anger like Edward can.

I looked up at Stewart and said "alright Stew, Ill see you later tonight" it seemed to snap him out of his staring contest with Edward and made him look at me, he smiled, nodded, then walked away. I looked at Edward and shook my head in a disapproving matter.

"What? I didn't do anything" he said as I continued to shake my head "it wasn't my fault the kid couldn't take a hint" he continued. I scoffed at his words.

"It wasn't Stew that couldn't take a hint Edward" I said just as the bell rang and we all made our way to our class rooms. I had the same class as jasper, and I haven't gotten the chance to speak to him without his siblings being around before now.

"Hey Jazz" I smiled at him, trying to start a conversation.

"Hello Bella" he smiled back, but I could tell there was a little bit of a strain in his smile.

"You know I don't blame you for what happened, right?" I said, knowing the cause of the strain in his smile "it wasn't your fault, and you shouldn't blame yourself for it. I'm actually proud of you, you were able to control it at the beginning, before it got too much" I continued. I looked into his eyes and can see a lot of the self-blame that is there

"I should have had better control over my actions, I should have been able to stop the craving, just like everyone else in my family could" he said, his voice was thick with emotion.

"Jasper, everyone in your family had better control than you because they have been doing this longer than you have, I'm pretty sure if it was anyone else in your situation then we would have had the same outcome" I said putting my hand on his chin so that I can turn his head to face me "jasper, you are and empathy, meaning you were feeling the hunger of 6 other vampires on top of yours, you have more control than you think. This wasn't just your hunger, it was your whole family's hunger" I continued, as I looked into his eyes I could see the amount of self-hatred and self-blame go away and be replace with understanding.

Jasper smiled at me, "I have never thought of it that way before, thank you so much Bella" he said as he hugged me

"it was my pleasure jazz, but you know you and your wife seem to forget that I am a breakable human" I said as the very tight hug seemed to make it very hard to breathe, he lessened his grip and chuckled.

"Sorry Bells, guess I got over emotional" he said with a small smirk playing on his lips. I laughed at his joke, I was glad to have the old jasper back; he was more fun that way.

The bell rang signaling the end of the class, we were whispering the whole time so the teacher couldn't tell we were talking, and I made sure to whisper low enough so that only jasper could hear me. As we walked out of class Jasper threw his arm across my shoulder and pulled me closer to him, I looked up to see what was wrong with him and he had a scowl plastered on his face, staring at all the male students as they stare at me. "Jazz, what's wrong?" I asked him as we made our way through the school towards the parking lot.

"Nothing, I'm just glad it is the end of the day so that I don't kill any of the boys that have inappropriate feelings towards you," he said as he tightened his arm around my shoulders. I started laughing as we reached the parking lot, the rest of the Cullen kids looked up shocked. They probably hadn't expected Jasper and I to be so relaxed near each other.

"Alright, I will see you guys at home" I said as looked at the car I asked, "you guys came in one car?" I was shocked because Emmett took up two seats by himself.

"Yeah, it usually ends up with either Rosalie sitting on Emmett's lap or Alice sitting on my lap," says Jasper from next to me.

"Oh alright, well if you guys don't want to share a seat, then one of you can ride with me" I say with a shrug.

"That would be great Bella, especially since it is my turn to sit on Emmett's lap and I would much rather have my own seat" says Rosalie, I was shocked that she accepted my offer and was happy about it, I always thought she hated me.

I smiled at her, not wanting to come off as un-friendly "alright, lets go" I motioned towards my car with my head and turned to walk towards it "I'll see you guys in a minute" I called over my shoulder to the rest of the Cullen's.

As we hopped into the car, I heard the rest of their goodbyes, we made our way out of the parking lot and I smirked at Rosalie before she knew what was happening, we were speeding in the direction of our houses.

up next: Bella and Rosalie bonding.

i want Bella to get close to all the other Cullen's before she can start to forgive Edward, you will find out later why that is.

xxLordeofthebestxx