We do this every day. Stage two is 10 days long, they tell us. Its day four when I notice something frightening: Kevin is watching Daniel, closely. "Daniel, you seem to be doing very well. Mind if I watch today?" Daniel just smiles. "Of course not, Kevin." But an icy fist grips my heart, and I can't keep the worry out of my heart.

That day, when I went into my fear, I wasn't surprised to see Daniel in it. I am given a gun and a choice. In front of me are three people. Daniel is on the left, all alone, and my parents are standing together on the right. A man is pointing a gun at my head. "Choose a group, and shoot them." I'm not surprised to hear the voice of Ryan. I remember Jay's advice and I take my time. I already know what I'm going to do. "Quickly, Ellie, or I will kill all of them." Enough time has passed. "You know, Ryan," I start, "no matter how strong you claim to be," I smirk a little. I start over. "No matter how strong you claim to be, you can't kill someone with a banana." I turn to face him and it's no longer a gun he has pointed at my head; it's a banana.

I open my eyes to laughter. I look over at Jay. He's laughing, his head thrown back, his eyes crinkled, and he looks at me. "That, what you just did right there?" Jay laughs again. "That was ****ing brilliant." I grin and chuckle. "Oh man, if only Ryan knew about this, he'd shit a brick." I laugh along with him. I glance back to him before I walk out and I'm caught off guard when I see his face lined with worry. I stumble out the door and wonder. Did I do something wrong?

I only figure out what he was so worried about later that night. Much later, in fact. We all walked back into our room and went to our beds. "Goodnight, Ellie." Daniel whispers to me. I hold his face in my hand and give him a long kiss." "I love you, Daniel." Daniel rests his forehead against mine. "I love you, too."

I'm glad now that I said that to him; that I was able to tell him how I felt about him one last time.

"Ellie! Oh god, Ellie! Wake up!" I jerk up and see Hailey's tear-streaked face above mine. I jump out of bed, glad to be fully clothed. "What is it, Hailey? What's wrong?" She sniffles. "It's Daniel."

I've suddenly forgotten her. I run out of the room and into the pit. They're heaving something out of the chasm. It's shaped like a body. My blood runs cold. The body drops to the floor, and then I can truly see that my worst nightmares have come true. Daniel is dead.

"No! Daniel!" I rush forward. I jerk out of Hailey's arms as she tries to keep me contained. I run to Daniel's lifeless body. I fall to my knees beside him and hold his face in my hands. "Daniel…Oh, this is my fault! If I hadn't picked Dauntless, this wouldn't have happened to you!" Silent tears fall down my face. "I love you, Daniel. I love you now and I'll love you forever." I'm speaking so softly I can barely hear myself.

I take a deep breath and stand up. My legs feel like jelly, but Hailey is at my side, a protective arm around my shoulders. I lean into her. "This death was tragic, yes. We lost a very promising initiate today, but by taking his own life, he's started a new journey, and I have no doubt he will use all of his bravery to explore his new life." Kevin murmurs something to the people near him and they go to collect his body. I take a deep breath and force the tears out of my eyes as I watch them take him away. "I love you." I mutter one last time until Daniel is gone to me forever.

I open my eyes as my mind leaves the world of my fear. Daniel was in it again, but it was different than before. I had to watch as Daniel was pushed over the edge of the chasm, as I'm sure he was. The Dauntless leaders figured him out. They figured out that he was divergent, and they killed him.

I will kill them for it.