Hi guys! Another chapter was released. You really have to admit that I'm kinda hard-working right now, right? (Even I did abandon my other story to focus on this one. I am kinda guilty when making readers wait but…oh well, I'll try to finish it later when I take back my interest.)

So here's the answer for reviews from last chapter (Gotta say, I was so upset to see the numbers of the reviews wasn't much as if it's decreasing everyday X_X)

the fight: You're gonna know what happen to her soon. I think she is a strong girl but not strong enough to be okay after things like this (please read chap 12 for more information^^) happen to her.

xSapphiresRosesxFanx: Yes. I have to agree with you this time. I'm starting to think that Syaoran is a moron and a jerk, too. What a cold-hearted beast he is.

This chapter was beta-ed by: yingfa07. Thank you very much.

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Chap 12: Lost

It happened so fast as if things have been taken care of since the very beginning.

Up until now she has never thought about that...

Never once in her life did she want to hear about the death of a person that closes to her...

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Sakura was awakened by the sound of her phone ringing. Half asleep, she blindly reached for her cell just to see it was Tomoyo.

"Tomoyo? Why so early in the morning? Let me sle..."

"Sakura! Turn on the television, quick." Her friend's panic voice made she wake up immediately. She grabbed the controller to turn on the TV and shocked.

Her mind went blank...her vision was blur...her head felt dizzy...everything around her was twirling...her body went numb...she thought she heard the sound of her phone dropped on the ground right before the darkness surrounded her...

In front of her collapsed body, on the TV's scene was the scene of a chaotic crowd with many polices and rescuers were in charge. There were even boats and helicopters. But that wasn't what shocked her, it was the image next to the chaotic scene, the image of a man, a man that she knew very well...

"Today the Police Departure has found a dead body with a few bullet shots and a deep cut on his neck that seems to be under the Tomoeda River for quite a long time (I don't even know if there's a river named like that in Japan T_T). They found a wallet inside the vest of the man. There was a picture of him and a name card. His name was Fujitaka Kinomoto, the current director of Kang Corporation. From this I think we can guess the reason of his death. It has been reported for more than a month that this person has been kidnapped from his household but no one has heard of him or had any calls phone calls about the condition to take him back. It seems like this is a murder on purpose..."

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With a few blinks, Sakura opened her eyes, felt like the world was spinning around her. She weakly took a glance at the television's scene. It was still on but the program switched to another. Tears poured out of her eyes. Even if her dad has never been a real dad to her but... if he was about to die, she still couldn't stand it. Suddenly, something flashed in her head: "It has been reported for more than a month that this person has been kidnapped from his household but no one has heard of him or ha any phone calls about the condition to take him back. It seems like this is a murder on purpose..." Then it must have been a murder. But the problem was why was her dad murdered? He only acted cold to her, but never once did he ever act like that to anybody when he was outside so there mustn't be any one who could have purpose to kill him.

Sakura put her elbows on the floor to get up then sat on the bed, tried her best to calm down. It was so unfair to her. Since when did all the bad things have to pour on her head like this? She felt like collapsing again but tried to hold back before she could fall to the ground.

Suddenly, her phone rang. Just as she guessed, it was Tomoyo.

"Sakura. Oh God! I was so worry. I called you for like an eternity and no one answered. How are you now? You want to come to my place?" She asked with a worry tone.

Sakura smiled weakly: "I'm afraid that now I don't even have strength to go anywhere. Pass it to another day. Anyway, didn't you know my dad was kidnapped?" Tomoyo bit her lower lip: "I'm sorry Sakura but I've been in Beijing for quite a long time so I didn't know what happened in our hometown. I'm sorry." Sakura shook her head, forgot that Tomoyo couldn't see "It's alright. It's not your fault anyway." A sudden knock on the door made she startled and quickly said to her friend: "I'm sorry, someone is knocking on my door, I gotta go." With that, she shut her phone.

Sakura used her sleeve to wipe away the tears then slowly came to open the door.

Yukito.

Again.

Even half a month has passed since that event, her feelings toward him didn't reduce but grew stronger instead. Sakura tried so many times to hold back the lust of holding him and touching him but she only stopped at kissing limit, forced herself not to cross the line. But this time was different. She nearly collapsed into his arms, her body shook violently, her tears poured out, her mood went out of control... She clutched onto Yukito's shirt and cried, her head buried in his chest, the sobbing sound continued to ring through the air, filled it with her sorrow.

And then the next thing Sakura knew was she being carried to bed by Yukito, he whispered soothing words into her ears to make her turn back to normal then, what happened next was completely erased in her mind...

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This time waking up wasn't as hard as before to Sakura. It just her head seemed heavier than the last time she was still conscious.

Sakura got up then looked around her room before she looked back at herself and shocked when realized that she was totally naked and next to her was a still-sleeping-naked-too Yukito. She gasped and looked at both with horror eyes. She hugged her head and shook violently. What has she just done? Losing her pride and virginity already? She couldn't believe it. No. Maybe Yukito just stopped at... She didn't even want to think about it anymore. She just told herself that he wasn't that kind of person who would take away girl's virginity, right?

Sakura shivered. She wrapped the blanket around herself then rushed to the bathroom, careful not to make Yukito wake up. She locked the door and started to vomit into the sink. Then, like losing all her strength, her body slipped down to the ground and she started crying.

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She didn't know how many hours have passed since she was in that bathroom but when she woke up, the first person she saw was Yukito again. She closed her eyes and asked in a weak tone: "You did it?" Yukito looked at her with worry eyes. He bent down to kiss her forehead: "I'm sorry. I didn't know you'd be hurt because of that. I didn't know that you were a virgin either. Sorry." His words made her disgust. She turned her head away to avoid his kiss: "I want to be alone, can't I?" He sighed: "Sorry. I thought I could comfort yo..." "Leave, please." She cut in and pulled the blanket over her head to cover her. She heard his footsteps went farther and farther then disappeared with a "click" sound of door closing.

Her tears slowly poured out of her eyes again. She whispered "Syaoran, I'm sorry. I betrayed you."

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Syaoran sat in front of his television, his eyes scanned all over the man's face. "He was Fujitaka Kinomoto. Kinomoto huh? Then he must be Sakura's father since they both look alike so much." Syaoran rushed his hand through his hair. "But why was he killed? He has nothing to do with the underground. Why was he killed?" These questions kept wandering around his mind. He frowned. If it liked what he thought then this definitely must be involved with Sakura - his daughter then.

Syaoran went back to his desk and did some research. "This man absolutely has nothing to do with any kind of underground webs or mafia. I'd better inform Sakura about this. I guess she's already found out about her father's death. I feel sorry for her after all." He sighed then opened the PMN to send her a message. But when he was going to type any of the information in, an idea flashed in his mind as he looked at the clock to calculate the time in Beijing then grabbed the phone and called her.

The phone rang for a while then Sakura picked it up: "Why are you calling? Is there something wrong?" Her voice seemed weak and hurt. He has heard this voice of her before, when she was panic with all the killing stuff. "What happened?"

Sakura couldn't hold back her tears anymore. She let it all out: "I lost my dad. I LOST HIM! Why didn't you guys protect him like you promised me? Why did you let him die? ANSWER ME, SYAORAN! WHY DIDN'T YOU KEEP YOU STUPID PROMISE?" Her voice was angry and hurt. It made Syaoran feel guilty. Yes, it was his fault for not being more caution. He had to admit after Sakura joined his gang, he didn't even think of protecting her family for once. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't be like this. I know you have other things to worry about. Besides, I shouldn't shout at my family. Sorry Syaoran." Syaoran couldn't take it. Her nearly cry voice made him feel worse and worse so just like a coward, he changed the subject: "I know it's not everything. Tell me about the other one." This time Sakura was silent for a long time, then her voice broke: "I did it with Yukito. I betrayed Black Wolves. I'm sorry. I didn't know why. All I knew was just he carried me to bed and everything went on. Oh God! I don't know what to do anymore. I lost my virginity to someone like him. I DID IT with him. I BETRAYED YOU AND OTHERS." Sakura said, her voice was guilty and angry. She wasn't angry with Syaoran but with herself. She forgave him because she knew it was also part of her fault. If she didn't join Black Wolves then nothing this would have happened. But deep inside, she knew that she herself really wanted to join them. She had the chance to experience something like a real family, which she's never had before. Besides, she even slept with Yukito. Then how the hell could she blame him but not herself? So she chose to forgive and forget…

Syaoran frowned. He has never seen her that pathetic. It made him realize that he was a cold-hearted beast was too cruel and harsh on her. Even her dad's death was his responsibility too. That made him want to rush to where she was to see if she alright or not which he sure was not at all. Syaoran gritted his teeth: "I'll bring you back, I'll bring you back ok? So calm down and I'll try to settle things up as fast as possible, ok? It's gonna be alright Sakura. I'm sorry. I didn't think of your feelings at all. I'm sorry. Wait for me, I'll bring you back." He kept repeating his words to sooth her down until her condition was better.

Sakura collapsed on the ground her tears dropped everywhere. She used her hands to wipe off her tears then leaned back and tried breathing normal. She whispered in a weak voice made Syaoran hardly get what she was saying: "I'll stay here. They're preparing a gang war against you guys remember? If I'm not here then there's no one could help you. Sorry. I shouldn't be worked up all over something like that right? I shouldn't have bothered you."

Silence.

Then Syaoran's voice came, the gentlest tone that she's ever heard him talking to any one: "It's only natural for you to do so since you're just a normal school girl. I asked too much from and forgot that you're not killers like us. You're easy to break and yet, I hurt you so much, I made you suffered. I'm sorry. I totally understand the reason why you were shocked and I think its okay for you doing so. If there's anything happening to you, just tell me. I owed you too much and I haven't done anything for you so if you want to ask me for a favor then it's alright. You can also ask me to come back at times you want, ok?" Sakura nodded.
"Okay. Thank you Syaoran." Sakura sighed. She shook her head then asked with a softer tone: "Thank you Syaoran. But why did you call me? Is there something I must take notice?" Syaoran frowned. He didn't want to mention about her dad right when she was in that kind of condition but... whatever: "Your dad's death definitely had something to do with you since he has never got involved with the underground world or mafias. So you better be more cautious from now on. We Black Wolves have a lot of enemies, not only Red Lions. I'm afraid if any of them find out about your family, they'll be put in danger." He heard her weak voice: "Understand. If there's anything you find about my dad's case, please let me know. I'll stay here until I get to know who was behind this after all. If it's from Red Lions, I won't forgive them, even if I'd have to reveal my identity, I'll definitely take care of them. Even if it means to turn my back on you guys. I'm sorry." Syaoran sighed again. She was stronger than he thought. He might think about her in the wrong way. Maybe she was a person he could trust after all: "It's okay. Do what you want from now on." ... "I trust you." With that, he shut his phone.

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After two months, Sakura's condition got better and better. She tried hard to push her feelings and sorrow aside then forced her to make up with Yukito. She didn't want herself to drag the whole Black Wolves off. After that, she just focused on training herself to be tougher and faster. She trained herself to not letting her emotions get in the way and made all what she did into nothing. She forced herself to bear with the pain and fear when killing while fighting in a gang war. But what tortured her most was she forced herself to sleep with Yukito like she was really in love with him. If it were three months ago, then she would be alright. But after all what she suffered, she realized that her feelings toward him was just a waste and not real. She couldn't love a person like him. After two months watching him closely, she found out that he wasn't the kind of person that looked like his outside after all. So she learnt to hate him, to keep herself away from him, to have no feeling for him but the will of taking advantage of him.

And what she was waiting for has come. The gang war that Yukito talked about three months ago was decided to start. Since this was a war that has been carefully prepared for a long time, Yukito decided he himself will participate in. But Sakura didn't have any time to announce it to Black Wolves since Yukito announced the gang right at 11 p.m then said that they'd be leaving in midnight by Red Lions' jet and arrived the next day. If she was fast, she could send a message to Syaoran but for some reason, Yukito just stayed in her room and followed her everywhere until midnight and directly brought her to the jet with him. That made Sakura worried.

"Yukito. You're attempting to attack them right after we arrive?" Sakura asked with a hurry tone. She has trained for this, so it didn't matter for her to pretend like this was nothing to her but revenge. "Yes." He simply answered and kissed her lips. She didn't dodge but continued on asking: "But how can we find them? We don't even know their hideout." He smiled mysteriously: "You'll know where to find them soon."

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Later, at Diamond, Japan.

Ten cars pulled off at the front door of Diamond Club as the whole China Red Lions stepped out. Yukito, Sakura, Shenhua and Lily were leading and after them was nearly forty other gangsters. They made their way through the guards and Shenhua kicked off the door. They entered the hall as everyone was startled and looked up to see who they were.

"What a crowd we have here. I wonder where our Little Wolf is." Shenhua smirked and shot in the air. "Everyone, out right now. I only need Black Wolves to stay here, so get the fuck out." She laughed out loud when seeing the whole club turned into a mess and everyone ran out, stumbled into each other. "So Syaoran, stop hiding and get the fuck out. I'm tired of waiting already." Yukito shouted.

"I don't remember hiding to any of you fuckheads." A strong and cold voice came from the below.

Sakura nearly couldn't hold back her tears. There they were. Black Wolves was standing right in front of her eyes. All the familiar faces were here. It has been nearly a year she couldn't see them. She didn't know how much she missed them and now she's about to shoot at them. Could she do that?

Sakura took a step forward to hide her emotion from the others and to have a clearer vision of Black Wolves: "So now I finally get to see the famous Syaoran eh? You fucking bastard that dared to kill my family? How the hell can people like you can still live on?" She pretended to ask in an angry tone. But Black Wolves understood. They could see her feelings for them deep inside. But if this kept on going then Red Lions would definitely felt something wasn't right about her so Syaoran decided to look up and talk back: "The spies that dared to spy on us? If you are about to blame anyone, blame your own parents. If they didn't stick their nose into our business then it's have been alright by now, don't you agree dear Cherry Ling?" He pressed her alias harshly as Sakura woke up, pushed off her feelings aside and turned back to who she was at that moment. Black Wolves' Enemy: " You're gonna pay for this. I swear." She said through gritted teeth as she jumped over the banister and landed right in front of Syaoran. She whispered: "Sorry. Couldn't find a way to contact you. He stuck with me the whole time." Syaoran simply nodded and looked behind her back. Behind her, the rest of Red Lions landed lightly on the ground and all pulled out their weapons. Shenhua smiled sweetly: "I don't like fighting with weakling so choose a good fighter among of you useless shit to fight me quick." Sakura gritted her teeth. She really didn't like Shenhua's tone at all.

Suddenly, Syaoran was push aside to reveal a beautiful girl with red eyes and long black hair. Meiling looked at her enemy with a pair of dark eyes that showed no emotion. Shenhua smirked: "I'll fight you. Let me take care of a piece of shit like you." She said and grinnedn as Meilin nodded silently. The atmosphere changed. Sakura got a feeling that something happened between these girls before so she slightly moved aside and back to Yukito, let they do whatever they wanted to. Yukito hold her in his arms and said softly: "Sorry, even if you want to take care of Syaoran, I definitely won't give him to you. I have my own things to settle with that bastard, too." Sakura thought for a second then nodded: "Then tell me who the second important person is. I'll take care of that one." He looked at Black Wolves and said: "Other than that girl over there, Meiling then there's only Eriol left. He's a skillful fighter, you'd better be careful." She smirked: "Then it'd be my honor to fight with a bastard like him." Yukito smiled. He patted her head then went next to Shenhua: "Calm down girl. You won't do anything without my command or signal." He turned back to Syaoran: "I want your precious Eriol to fight with my sweetheart, is that ok with you?" Syaoran looked at Sakura: "That Cherry Ling of yours? Hah. Eriol, what do you think? Fighting that bitch is just a waste of your talent. Save your energy." Eriol grinned. He cracked his knuckles: "No problem. I really want to test that girl a bit right now. Seeing how she bigmouthed made me want to bring her down so much." Syaoran simply nodded: "Then it's settled. Let's begin. Can't wait to kill you dear Yukito." After the smirks of the two, the gun shots immediately echoed through the air. Sakura quickly moved away from her old position to Eriol side without a sound but still be caught by him: "You've improved." He smiled.

Sakura wasn't surprise of his fast reaction to her movement. She grinned: "Long time no see Eriol."

"Long time no see." Eriol agreed.

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To be cont

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A/N: I think that after reading this, many of you guys may want to kill Syaoran for his stupidity. I also want to do that too. God! Even I created him, I can't even understand him anymore. Now he's acting on his own…He's a character…He's doing things he wants…

Anyway, R&R please.

Special thanks to people that supported me from the beginning.

Love

Crystal Rose