Welcome To My Messed Up Life
Chapter 12
Brianna's Birthday Party
It was now Friday night. Mom had let Brianna invite anybody she wanted after all the mean things she had said and done to her. We had everyone coming over. She invited pretty much all of my friends, Eli's little sister, and was even nice enough to let Olivia come over for Madison. Saying everyone needed to have someone.
Just then the bell rang and there was Declan, Olivia, and Holly J. I smiled letting them inside to our home. It wasn't in the best shape right now but that's cause Brianna and Madison had came back through making a mess again.
"You look like you could use some help." Holly J said as they all three came inside. I looked up at her and sighed. "You want us to help?" She ask while I just shook my head no.
"I've got it don't worry. Olivia if you want Madison is up stairs in her room." I told her and with that she ran off to find her. I just smiled and laughed. "You two can make yourself at home while I finish my cleaning."
"You mean to tell me your little boy toy isn't here? Its a miracle." Declan said with sarcasm. I had to laugh at that. It didn't sound right on him like it did Eli.
"Haha, Declan. Sarcasm just doesn't suit you. Try something else." I told him and he laughed while I finished up what little I had left to do. "Brianna, Declan and Holly J are here. You gonna come and see them?" I ask her and she came down. She smiled and ran to them giving them hugs.
"I can't believe you guys came! Thank you." She told them with a big smile on her face.
"Of course we would come. We wouldn't miss our little sisters birthday for nothing." Holly J said and Brianna smiled real big. Of course she would smile real big.
Just then there was a knock on the door. I went to open the door and there was Eli and Sandy standing there waiting to be invited in with the rest of us. I just laughed. Of course being polite they wait instead of just coming on in like I told them they could. Well, Sandy does when its just her, but Eli trys not to, unless he knows I'm upset about something. Then he comes right on in like he owns the place.
"Speak of the devil." I said as I let them in and Declan laughed a little.
"That's a good one Clare. I still can't believe we got here before he did." Holly J said as she was laughing too. Sandy and Brianna had done ran outside to play on the swings. I have no clue why she didn't invite more friends than that.
"You are just mean to me." Eli mumbled making us all laugh. "So who all are we waiting on?" He ask and I sighed saying names.
"We're waiting on Alli, Adam, Fiona, Sav, Anya, and Peter. I swear Peter loves that little girl more than anybody." I said and everyone laughed. Then Eli gave me a strange look.
"What about Drew? Alli will be the only one, besides Peter cause of Darcy, here without another person. I thought Brianna would invite him." He said still giving me a strange look.
"She doesn't like Drew. It took a lot of convincing to let her invite Alli. She doesn't like her either. It amazes me sometimes how she can just say who she does and doesn't like." I said and they started laughing. "What?"
"Where do you think she gets it from?" Holly J ask me and I turned red. Just then the door bell rang saving my butt. Saved by the bell. I loved that show.
"Hello Sav, Anya, and Alli. Come right on in. Were waiting on Peter, Adam, and Fiona now." I said and they all nodded there heads. I let them in and we all just sat there in silence for a while.
Finally the last two came and we sat there watching T.V for a good while. I would get up to check on Olivia, Sandy, Madison, and Brianna some. Me and Eli would take turns doing this. Just then we got bored and decided to share a secret. Just one secret.
"I've sent bad photos I shouldn't to an ex boyfriend." Alli said being the first to talk. She looked around and pointed to a random person who just happen to be Peter.
"I use to do drugs." He said then pointed to Holly J. She sighed and looked at the floor.
"I use to have a big crush on Spinner." She said and everyone just nodded there head. I had no idea who he was so I reminded myself to ask her about that later. She pointed to Declan.
"Even though Holly J already knows this, I was the reason Spinner and Jane broke up." He said and everyone sat there shocked. "I've changed my ways though." He pointed to Anya.
"I like to L.A.R.P a lot." She said shrugging her shoulders. She said it in more of a question though. She pointed at Sav.
"I don't really have a secret." He said as he thought for a minute. Then it hit him. "I tried running away when I was little. Its about the only thing I can think of." He pointed to Adam.
"I was dressed as a girl for the first two months of my babyhood." He said with a little blush while everyone started laughing. He pointed to Fiona.
"I drink a lot and am getting help for it." Just then she pointed to Eli who sighed and just sat there. I gave him a look and he just gave it back to me.
"Fine, I like to listen to Taylor Swift some." He said and it got quiet. Then everyone started laughing. He pointed to me the last one to go in the room. I sighed.
"I have an older half brother whom took my place with our Dad when he moved in with us." I said real fast and everyone just stared, except for Eli, at me a while. I frowned. "Any questions?"
"Yea, um, one, you hiding anything else from us?" Anya ask looking me strait in the eyes. "That's a pretty big secret to keep." I put on the biggest smile I could.
"Nope nothing else." I said and they all just stared at me not believing it. "I'm serious guys. Just watch out for Madison for me." They all nodded there heads.
Just then Madison and Olivia came into the room. Olivia sat on Declan's lap while Madison sat on Eli's. Holly J and I gave each other weird looks until we noticed what they were doing. Just then each one gave the boys a huge kiss on the cheek and then ran off to Madison's room laughing. The rest of us started laughing while they just sat there dumbfounded.
The door bell rang just then.
"I'll get it." I said going up to it to see Lane there. "What do you want?"
"To give my little sister her birthday present." He said and I glared at him.
"What else do you want?" I ask him and he sighed looking me in the eyes with the biggest sorrowful eyes I had ever seen on him. "Well, I'm waiting."
"For you to forgive me." He said and I gave him a look. "You and your best friend would always go to church so I know you believe in that kinda stuff. You even wear a purity ring." He said and I glared at him some more.
"I forgave you a long time ago. I just don't trust you enough to let you back in to my life. Most of the stuff that has happened is your fault anyway." I told him and he sighed.
"I know you've done told me a thousand times. I'm sorry. I didn't know all the things that happen would make you go that far. I didn't think of how they'd affect you. Your the only normal one in this family." He said and then I laughed.
"What family? Dad is gone, Darcy left to help others, Mom is to engrossed in work, and Madison and Brianna are still to little to understand. You call that a family?" I ask and he sighed walking on in.
"Eli. I see you still managed to stay with my sister." He said and everyone gave him confusing looks. "She usually runs away from love by now."
"Thanks Lane. That was the old me though. This is the new me. The new me isn't scared anymore. She actually tries now." I said and he laughed.
"Whatever, anyway, you gonna introduce me to your little friends?" He ask and I sighed.
"Lane this is Declan, his girlfriend Holly J, her best friend Anya, Anya's boyfriend Sav, his little sister Alli, Declan's twin sister Fiona, her boyfriend Adam, and then Darcy's boyfriend Peter. Guys this is my brother Lane." I said and the guys got up.
"Do we need to take care of him for you Clare?" Declan ask going into over protective brother mood. I liked seeing people actually worried about me for once. It was refreshing.
"Nah, were good for right now. If he tries anything though, then you can." I said as Eli put his arms around me and glared at Lane. He just glared right back.
"Since when did you change? Last time I checked you were scared of your own shadow, now you have this many friends." Lane said and I just glared.
"Please don't bring up the past." I said to him and he just got an evil smirk on his face.
"Oh so they don't know about how jealous you got when I moved back in? Or how you ran from what six dudes? Maybe they don't even know about any past deaths either." He said listing things off. "I bet Eli would like to know about why you got kicked out of the last school you were in?" I got mad.
"They had it coming at them! You mess with me all you want, but you leave my family alone. They still didn't get kicked out." I said angry now. "I ran from the guys cause our family was screwed up enough that, I couldn't tell you what real love was. I could a little now. Besides I don't go talking about deaths either. If I wanted somebody to know about how Dad, Grandma, Grandpa, and Benny died I would tell them." I was really angry now.
"Did you tell them how the guys got a broken nose? Or how you broke that promise to do that to them?" Lane ask and he was really smirking by now. I just sat there not being able to move.
"They shouldn't of started that rumor. Its not my fault she has problems like that. They were taking advantage of her and I didn't like it. You didn't either." I told him and he stopped smirking. Ha! I had him.
"Yea well, at least I didn't go beat the crap out of them and get kicked out of school." He said and with that I went after him, but Eli stopped me before I could. He just smirked. "Aw, you need more people to beat up."
"Nah, I'm good. I should have beat you up years ago. All Da- Dad-, all Daddy was for you is a sperm donor. She didn't want my Mom to be happy, so she stole him from her. I hope you are happy. You broke them up. Just know that even if they were divorced they still loved each other very much. Love does exist." I told him and his eyes got wide when I said 'Daddy'.
"You believe in love again?" He ask me and I nodded my head again looking at Eli. "And you called Randall 'Daddy' again. I've not heard that come out of your mouth, since, since the accident." Lane said like he was trying not to cry. I sighed. I didn't mean to be mean to him.
"Look, I'm sorry for saying that. You know why we moved so quickly. Nobody could handle being there anymore. Daddy, wasn't a sperm donor. Your here on this Earth for a reason. Yes its been a while since I've called him that, or since I've believed in love. What do you expect? You saw how Grandma was with guys, or how everyone in the family has girls older than boys. Our parents divorced for crying out loud. What makes you think I would believe in it? Saddest thing I saw it coming." I said with a huge sigh. He looked sad.
"Look, I'm sorry I got your parents broken. I was mad myself. You had the perfect life. You had a mom and dad who were still together. You had an older sister and two younger ones. The entire family loved you more than anything. You would do anything for them." He said with a sigh like he was sad. He looked like he was.
"You call what I have a family? Sure I had parents who were still together and three sisters that I love dearly. Did you ever stop to think that maybe I wanted a brother who would scare the guys away? Or when I had a bad day I could pretty much tell him anything. Sure I could Darcy, but she was busy with being popular. Madison is in her own little world cause of yea that, and Brianna is too little. I was the one they had do things. They had me more of a maid than a daughter. Why do you think I was always over at Bella's?" I ask him and it finally got to him.
"To get away from the family you wanted. Then why did you cut yourself that one day? Sure you only did it once-" I looked around for a little bit. "How many times Clare?" He ask. Everyone was looking at me with intense stares.
"I promised I wouldn't ever do it again and I keep my promises. I did think about it, but I manged to stop myself from doing anything." I said and he sighed with... was that relief? "Why do you care?"
"Your my baby sister. Sure I have five other little sisters, but you were the only one to put your foot down on me. Give me a piece of your mind. You don't remember that time you got hit with your phone? You got mad when I wouldn't hurry up and hit me in the, yea. I threw it at you." He said and I gave him an angry look.
"Yea I had a bruise for a good week." I said and he put his head down. "What about the time you hit me in the leg with a freaking pellet gun. No, wait I think it was a Bee Bee gun. All I did was push past you to get the ants off me." I said with a sigh and he duck his head even more.
"Sorry bout that. We had good times though too. Maybe more bad than good, but there still were some good days in there too." He said and I smiled.
"Yea there was some good days. If it wasn't for you tricking me, then I wouldn't have found something that helped me calm down. Thank you for that." I said and he laughed. They looked at me strangely.
"Not to interrupt but what exactly happened that was so bad with your brother?" Holly J ask. Fiona gave me a sad look. I had told her a little bit, okay almost all of it. I trusted some more than others. Fiona had some problems too, so we would stay up at night talking about it.
"He's, um, the reason, um, that." I couldn't really finish my sentence. Lane saw this and took in a deep breath.
"I'm the reason her parents split up." Lane said and everyone's eyes got huge. "I know it wasn't nice, but I just got angry at the time coming from a bad past and didn't think I needed help. Our dad didn't have much to do with us, so I got mad seeing her happy with a family." He told them and Peter talked first.
"Dude that so wasn't a cool thing to do." He looked over at Peter and sighed. "Darcy said it took Clare a while to come with the terms of it. She said it took her a little over a six months to get over." Just then Lane looked around.
"Where is Darcy anyway?"
"She had to leave for Kenya a little early." I told him and he smiled.
"At least she's doing something with her life. What do you plan to do with yours Clare?" He ask me and I sat there in Eli's arms shocked. I hadn't given it much more thought.
"I hope to become a writer. Maybe travel the world for a little while." I said going in to a day dream on all that. To get away from everything. Just me and the open road. Maybe even Eli too.
"That's some serious goals. It was another reason everyone in the family liked you the most." He said with a smile. I gave him a strange and confused look.
"Excuse me?"
"Don't play dumb. Everyone loved that you knew where you were heading with your life. That you had plans and was going for what you wanted. They liked that you didn't relied on guys for help. That you were independent. You still are. You just have help when you need it. Your letting people in again. I'm glad to see you happy." Lane said with a smile. I sat there with a smile also.
"I'm glad to see your still alive." I told him with a laugh and gave him a hug. "So what exactly did you come down here for?" I ask him and he laughed a little nervously.
"You see, there's this girl that I've been dating for a year now. Well, a little longer than a year you just didn't know about her. I knew you would try and scare her off or get attached and it wouldn't last. You know like your last boyfriend." He said and I cringed.
"You promised me you wouldn't bring his sorry ass up. I'm not positive but I think he cheated on me." I said and Eli gave me a confused look.
"I thought K.C. was your last boyfriend?" Eli ask me and I moved around nervously.
"No I had three boyfriends after him. The last one I had lasted a week. I couldn't take it anymore after that. He got to clingy." I said and all the girls laughed. "Plus I think he cheated on me cause the next day he had a new girlfriend." I just brushed it off as all the guys started getting mad.
"I wouldn't ever do that to you. I love you to much to hurt you. Your my one and only." He told me right there in front of everyone. I smiled.
"I love you too Eli." I said and gave him a peck on the lips. "Now, Lane on with the girl."
"Well, you see, I ask her to marry me not long ago. She said she would love too. She wanted to meet the family. I didn't want her to meet my mom and since dad is gone for a while, I thought she could meet you, the little one's, and Helen. She would meet Darcy but since she's gone, so yea." He said and I smiled. I get to meet his girlfriend. Great. Someone else to come in to this family. Just great.
"Yea sure." I said and he sighed with relief. Great just great.
Degrassi
Everyone had done left the party by now. Olivia, Sandy, and Eli were the only one's left. Olivia was staying with Madison and Sandy was staying with Brianna. They were all up stairs and mom was down here with us watching T.V keeping an eye on Eli. She was scaring me a little, but I found it entertaining to see Eli fidget under her gaze.
"So Eli, what are you making in school?" My mom ask. She said she'd try with him and I was amused with this conversation.
"I'm on the honor roll ma'am." He told her and she looked impressed a little bit.
"Favorite subject?" She ask him.
"English."
"Do you plan to go to college?"
"Yes ma'am. I hope to major in writing." She was real impressed by now.
"You know you remind me of someone. I can't put my finger on who." She told him and I started to laugh. "Clare what's so funny?" She ask and I laughed harder.
"Mom that's cause his dad is Bullfrog Goldsworthy." With that her eyes got big and she started laughing for who knows how long. "Now why are you laughing?"
"Cause when you two were younger we would joke about how you'd whined up together. You had the biggest crushes on each other. It scared your dad and brother to death. You were only five and six but still. It was cute. I don't mind you going out now." Mom said all this while I sent a text to Eli and Alli. Eli just nodded his head.
"Mom Alli just text me asking if I could spend the night. Is it okay?" I ask her and she sighed before answering.
"Yea you can go. Tell Eli goodnight and I'll drive you down there." She told me getting up but I shook my head.
"No mom your okay. Stay here with the little one's. Eli can drive me." I told her that while he nodded his head. She gave me a look for a second.
"Are you sure? Its no problem to drive you." She said and I was about to say something when Eli beat me to it.
"Don't worry Mrs. Edwards, its really no problem. Besides it'll give us some time to just talk. We don't get that much anymore." He told her and she nodded her head. I went got some stuff packed for all weekend and was back down in a flash.
"You staying all weekend?" She ask me and I nodded my head. "Okay just be careful and be home by three on Sunday." With that we were in the car on the way to Eli's house. My mom may be trying, but it doesn't mean I have to too.
"Your being quiet today." Eli said as we drove the short ten minutes to his house. I was to tired this week. Mom may of been home, but they were so use to me that they didn't go to her for help with anything.
"I'm just tired and ready for bed. Its all I can do to keep my eyes open. That party tired me out." I told him which wasn't exactly a lie. Although, it wasn't the truth either. "You wanna know a secret?" I ask out of no where.
"Sure lay it on me." He told me with a smirk of his. I just giggled then got real serious.
"You were my first kiss." I told him and just like that his smirk got bigger.
"You mean I got the pleasure of taking the virginity of your lips?" He ask with the biggest smirk I've ever seen a guy have. I just rolled my eyes.
"Yes you took that away from it." I told him and he laughed. Then got serious too.
"I'm glad I got to. You mean to much to me. It makes me proud to know that I'm the first one, hopefully the only one, who got to kiss you." He told me and I smiled. He, so far, is the only guy I can see a future with. I may have been in love, but it wasn't real love like it is with Eli.
"Are your parents home this weekend?" I ask once we got to his house to find no other cars there.
"No they bailed when they heard 'no kids all weekend.' I may have said something about staying at Adam's, but..." His sentence trailed off at that. I laughed at how he was acting. "So, Miss Edwards, we have my whole house to ourselves. What do you wanna do?" He ask me and I laughed.
"I know what you would love to do." I told him going up to kiss him. I was almost to his lips. "But its not what I wanna do." I said with a laugh as I ran off inside. Thank god they don't lock there door and Eli gave me a key anyway. I ran to his room and locked the door.
"Nice try Clare. I know how to unlock my own door." Eli told me as the nob turned I hid behind the door. He didn't bother to shut it behind him. "Clare?" He ask looking around. I snuck up behind him.
"Boo!" I said and I swear he jumped six feet in the air. I was laughing so hard.
"Its not funny." He mumbled, but I was still laughing. I didn't hear him shut the door and lock it. Next thing I new I was pined under him on the bed. "I like this position."
"I'm sure you do. Why exactly do you like it?"
"Cause all I have do is bend down to do this." He kissed me on the lips. "And I can stare into your big blue eyes all day if I wanted too." I blushed at how he was looking at me like that. "Hey don't blush. Your eyes are my favorite place, besides your lips, on your face. Its what drew me to you in the first place."
"Oh really. What's kept you here?" I ask him as he looked into my eyes. He looked deep into them. Blue clashed with green. He kissed me on the lips.
"You." He mumbled kissing me again. "Everything about you. The way you put everyone before yourself. How your not ever satisfied til you've helped someone. Most of all how you put your family before anything. Even me. I've not ever met a girl to do that til you came along." He said and I smiled for once in a long while. We kissed again.
It started out nice and slow. Before we knew it the kiss started getting more and more heated. I didn't want it to stop. He started biting on my bottom lip til I finally opened my lips letting our tongues explore the others. He stopped kissing me on the lips going for my neck. He was leaving little marks and I new it, but I didn't care at the moment. I just wanted him.
"We need to stop." Eli said placing one more kiss on my lips then laying beside me. After I got back to normal and noticed what could've happened I smiled.
"Your not like the others." I said whispering it. He gave me a strange look. "If it was any other guy they would've wanted more. You stopped remembering that I wanted to wait. I'm glad I didn't run when its all I've ever known. I'm glad I stayed with you." I told him looking into his eyes. "I really do love you Eli. Please don't leave me."
"I could never leave you. I'm glad you didn't run either. Those two weeks we went away from each other I was so depressed. I didn't know what to do. Even if I wanted to leave, which I don't, I couldn't do it. You mean way to much to me. I'm just glad your not like most girls and cling to me. Actually you distance your self more than anything." He said and I looked down at the ground.
"Bad relationships in the past." I told him and he gave me a look.
"Why don't you tell me about them." He said and I laughed. He would really be freaked out.
"My first boyfriend was back in sixth grade. He moved without me knowing so I just figured we were threw. Then I dated my best friend for a good while. I got tired and broke up with him. We just got to were we recently started talking again cause he's going out with one of my friends. Then I started dating K.C. All that went down when I found him cheating and couldn't really trust any guys since. He wasn't a real love. I thought I loved him, but I love you more than I've ever loved him."
"What about the one's after him, but before me?" He ask me and I laughed.
"After that I dated this guy a year younger. I was still trying to get over the fact I was cheated on and this guy didn't have many girlfriends, so he clanged to me. It scared me once he said the words 'I love you' after two weeks so I ended it. Then I went out with this guy for about a month but wouldn't talk to him since I was real shy and trying to get over the last two so he broke up with me. A year later I went out with the last dude for a week. He scared me and kept asking me questions I didn't like. I broke up with him just for him to start going out with a girl younger than me the next day. It was sad."
"I'm sorry you went through all that Blue Eyes. I hope I'm the last boyfriend you ever have and your the last girlfriend I ever have." I guess he realized what he was doing. "I'm not rushing it to fast am I?" He ask me nervously. I smiled.
"No your not." I told him with a huge smile. Cause for once life was good. For once I felt like I was where I was suppose to be.
For once I felt happy.
I'm so sorry for the long wait! I've been gone for the last two weeks with no computer! I just got caught up on all the degrassi stuff going on!
Let me tell you that even if I won't like Jake he is freaking hott! It caught me off guard how he'd be that good looking! I pray to god that Drew doesn't die from what I've seen!
Anyway, getting on I wanted to send a shout out to Dramarose! Thanks for being a reader and loving the story so much! I'm glad to see I've still got fans on here!
If anybody has any questions or anything on the story send me a review or send me a PM! Thanks for reading! =)
Bye for now! =)