Russia, 14 July, 17:50 pm
Dear Diary,
Ten years have passed since my Aaron brought Nina back to life…
It was better if she stayed dead
It would had hurt less
Didn't I tell you the full story?
Well, when Jin Kazama woke up I punched him right in the face
I know I know I shouldn't have, but I couldn't help myself
Thanks to Aaron I became extremely strong, just as a bodybuilder, but maintaining my lean form
When he got up I tried to punch him again, he dodged and we fought for what felt like hours
In reality only fifteen minutes had passed and Aaron came back, he watched us fighting for a while
"That's enough liebchen"
We stopped hearing Aaron's voice
I almost kicked Jin in the crotch if he hadn't stopped me
He would have become sterile, that's for sure
Aaron met Jin's cold eyes
"You should be dead"
"You have no idea how many times I hear that phrase" he responded grinning and then pointed his head toward Nina "bring her and follow me, let's see if I can play being God" his wicked smile didn't bode well…
Jin's face went white seeing Nina
"Wha… WHAT HAPPENED?"
Is he acting? How could he NOT remember?!
Rage was overwhelming me again
I clenched my fists
"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!" I yelled, Jin went paler like a ghost
He didn't dare to look away, as if to convince himself it wasn't a dream
I was extremely tempted to punch him to death
Aaron read my body language
"Calm down meine liebe, he doesn't know" he said in a deep, sweet voice
Pure honey for my ears, it did calmed me
Wise move
Aaron approached Jin and put a hand on his shoulder, he became immediately tense but didn't look away from Nina
"Congratulations Mr Kazama, you have a fine and beautiful baby girl"
Jin turned his head slowly toward Aaron, forgetting momentarily about Nina
The Japanese man was even paler than before, if that's even possible, his eyes and mouth were wide open
If circumstances were different, I would have laughed out loud at Kazama's dumbfounded face
Aaron patted him on his shoulder twice, a smile printed on his delicate lips
The black haired man regained his voice and shouted
"I have a WHAT?"
"A WHO Mr Kazama, you have a beautiful DAUGHTER"
If I had to look at the way Jin's hand held Aaron's arm like some sort of lifeline, I thought he would have lost consciousness right then and there
Or a heart attack
Unfortunately, he didn't have the last one… nor the first one
What a pity
However in the end we followed Aaron in the basement, his precious laboratory, and I carried my sister
At first, Kazama wanted to carry my sister but I stepped in his way
We stayed there glaring at each other
"Your fault" I whispered angrily
I saw clearly the guilt in his eyes as he went away without saying a word
I thought 'I will not let that beast touch her ever again'
How wrong I was…
Two weeks later
I was ready to go out for a walk when I received a message on my cell phone
It was my liebchen
'I have a surprise for you meine liebe: the sleeping beauty woke up. She needs to take a look at someone important for her, come down whenever you're ready'
As I was reading the text, my heart skipped a beat
Aaron truly did it!
He brought Nina back to life!
That man is such a genius!
I was so excited I couldn't help but ran to the laboratory
I was breathless when I arrived: my sister sat on a metal table with Aaron's lab coat on, Kazama was by her side as well as Aaron
They were all looking at me
After regaining my breath, I came closer to her
"NINA!" I yelled with joy, I was so happy to see her alive that I wanted to embrace her tightly and never let go
But my happiness didn't last long
She looked at me from head to toe, then our eyes met
I looked into hers and saw nothing, she didn't recognize me
"Do I know you?"
She looked into mine and probably saw what was like losing the only person I truly loved once again
Her words left me incapable of speaking and moving
'I beg you…DON'T DO THIS TO ME!' I tried to contact her but my message didn't reach the recipient
I lost my telepathy with her…
"THIS ONE," Aaron said pointing his finger at me "my liebchen, is your beloved sister, don't you remember her?"
Her eyes cold as ice were studying me... they were warm toward me, once… now it hurt so much I would have preferred if someone repeatedly stabbed me to death
She was NOT my beloved sister
"No, I don't" Nina answered matter-of-factly
No emotions could be seen on her face nor in the tone of voice
She really didn't know who I was…
My eyes became teary and my heart broke… there was no way Aaron could fix this… no possible way…
I KNEW she wasn't going to remember by the look she gave me, but I hoped that something, even meaningless, could click in her head…
Hope is the last to die but the first to deceive, everybody knows that…
Such a fool I was…
"Are you sure liebchen? Do you recognize me or this young man next to me?"
"None of you"
Nina never looked away from me, but I couldn't stand to look into those familiar, yet so unfamiliar, eyes and not see my reflection
I just couldn't
"Who are you?" she asked me again
I wanted to cry, to destroy everything, but there were no tears for the woman in front of me
Why should I cry for a woman I just met, even if my heart wanted so badly to?
We were complete strangers
As simple as that, is it not…?
I untied my ponytail, I put my hair tie on her as a bracelet and our eyes met once again
I didn't resist
I put both my hands on her cheeks and I kissed her forehead, while I was doing so I had a flashback
'Together, little sis?'
'Yes, forever'
A sad little smile crossed my lips as I realized nobody can fool death without paying a price
After all, wasn't it true that 'together forever' always belonged to fairytales?
Nothing last forever
It was so obvious and I was so blind…
I broke the kiss and looked at her messy hair
She loved to play with mine when we were young
A faint smile crossed my lips
"You know very well who I am…" I said while I was brushing her hair with my fingers, like she used to do many years ago "from the bottom of my heart, I wish you all the best…" I stopped brushing her hair and caressed her cheek instead, my throat tightened and I had to keep my voice from shaking "have a good life, Nina Williams"
I gave her a chaste kiss on the lips and went the hell out of there before my eyes betrayed me, luckily no one tried to stop me
'Will it be the same life for you without me in it, sis? Will you not… miss me, even a little, sometimes?'
Even if it was a rhetorical thought, I hoped she could hear it
Before I got out, I turned my head
Aaron was watching me, I could tell he was sad because he knew what I was going to do and he let me do it. He understood
Kazama was embracing her tightly from behind and she was touching her lips
There was a glint of familiarity in her eyes
My heart filled with hope
Perhaps…
No, it can't be
I WILL NOT lose my sister thrice
Hope is dead
There was nothing in her eyes
Yes, that must be the right answer
Just… nothing
The woman I used to know inspected the white hair tie, when she saw it
Nina wrote something in purple when she was seven
S+N= T?F!
Nina narrowed her eyes, deep in thought
I was already out when she said something I didn't hear
"…Sarah…?"
It was hard to pack my things with the tears blurring my vision, in fact I took just the essential: my photos, a pair of shoes and some clothes. I left there everything else.
I took the first available flight to Ireland
I wanted to go back home
My real home
And so I did, for few months.