Phan Fic-
Based on "Crazier" by Taylor Swift,
"I love you too."
Dan was glad that he had said yes to the offer, it would be a good opportunity for him, a chance to try something on his own. Though a part of him didn't want to do it without Phil, it was just nerves , he thought. Like when Phil hadn't been there that time for the radio show. He also didn't want to go as he would miss Phil, he hadn't even gone yet and he could already see it. He would be at the other end of the country, Phil at the other. At least they were still on the same continent this time. He contented himself with that knowledge and so he decided to make the most of the time together before he went.
He still had to prepare for what he was supposed to be doing whilst he was there, meaning that he often had to go into one part of Radio 1 whilst Phil went to the other, taking away some of their time together which they made up for at night. In between planning for the normal radio show, live shows and filming for videos, they spent time together. Playing games, watching television, eating out some nights. They went back to their spot by the Thames the last night, Dan remembered Phil managing somehow to lift Dan up at one point and spin him around once, his feet actually of the ground for several seconds before they fell to the floor. There was so much more to life that Dan hadn't seen before meeting Phil and he enjoyed every second they had together. It rained again on the way home and the night reminded Dan of when they had gotten back together again, only they knew the next morning that they would be apart again.
In the morning, Dan got up early and made sure he had everything ready for the weekend, checking his suitcase and train tickets several times. Phil was still asleep as Dan ate his breakfast and he didn't have the heart to wake him up, he looked so peaceful when he slept. Alternating between glancing at the clock and actually eating his breakfast he pondered the weekend ahead. He would be on the train for at least 4 hours and then have about hour they had told him to get settled into the hotel before going out. He wouldn't get back to the hotel until late and then the next day he would leave the hotel at about 8 in the morning and wouldn't again be back till late and probably even later than the night before. Then on Sunday morning he would be catching the train home and he could see Phil again.
Just as he was placing the plates into the sink, Phil walked in, wiping sleep from his eyes as he went to the kettle. Once he had set it to boil, he took Dan by suprise and threw his arms around his waist and kissed him. The click of the kettle finishing pulled them apart and when Dan looked into Phil's eyes he felt like he was falling, lost almost in them. Phil smiled and went back to making his drink as Dan went to bring his case down. A taxi would arrive for him within ten minutes and that was just long enough for him and Phil to have a proper goodbye. They held onto each other tightly when it was time for Dan to go. There was time for one last kiss and hug before Dan had to walk out the door and climb into the taxi to the train station. He waved to Phil from the backseat as the taxi pulled away and he watched Phil wave back and blow a kiss before the taxi turned round the corner.
He had 10 minutes to wait on the platform before his train pulled in and he used his time to tweet and text Phil one more time, his phone worked poorly on those trains so he would have to wait until he could use his laptop to communicate again. It was a long train ride and whilst he listened to music and ate his big bag of Malteasers , he found himself thinking. He thought about how much everything had changed and in his head it felt like a movie was playing as he thought over the past few years. He had felt before he met Phil almost like he was a bird that couldn't its wings, he didn't know what he wanted to do with his life and he felt stuck. Then Phil came along and changed everything, he knew what he wanted to do and he could see a future that he was finally happy with. He remembered when he was younger watching Phil's videos, watching him make life his own and Dan felt like that's what Phil had helped him to do, he'd shown him what living is for. Phil had opened his eyes to the world and made him believe that there was good in it.
After a long time the train pulled into the station and Dan grabbed his case from amongst the others and got ready to leave. There was a car waiting for him and he settled into the back seat as he was taken to the hotel. He was finally able to use his phone after hours and had enough time to send Phil a text saying that he had arrived. Once he arrived at the hotel, he unpacked a few items, grabbed a quick shower and had less than twenty minutes to start up his laptop and check Twitter before being called by the Radio saying that a car was on its way. He sent one more text to Phil and left the room with everything he would need, preparing himself for the rest of the day.
Later that night he finally got back to the hotel room. He was feeling tired and wanted to go to sleep so he crawled into bed. However after lying there for over an hour, unable to sleep at all, he realised that it was because he missed Phil. He kept thinking about him, his eyes, the way he laughed, the way they curled up together at night. Even though he had had a fun few hours, it had been a great experience so far, he still missed Phil. Some part of his felt like he was going crazier every second that he was away, crazy with missing Phil. It had been strange without him and Dan missed him a lot. Calling Phil became a sudden priority and even though it was even later that night, he had to call him and just hoped that he hadn't woken him. He wondered as he called Phil, if Phil was missing him. Phil answered and had only just gone to bed too. He had been struggling to sleep to and talking to Phil, started to make Dan feel less crazy, he felt like Phil was with him in the hotel room. It was almost 4 in the morning when they were both too tired talk anymore, they both had to be up in the morning. The time came for them to say goodbye,
"Night Phil , I love you and I miss you."
Dan smiled when he heard Phil's reply and it helped him to sleep that night, keeping away the crazy thoughts of being alone,
"Night Dan, I love and miss you a lot too."