A/N: Sorry for the late update but school was kicking my ass, but the updates will be more frequent now!
Summary: Burt Hummel is one of the most feared mob bosses, and in order to get to him his enemies are going after his twin sons but Burt will be damned before that happens, so he sends them to Dalton. Will it be enough?
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I do not own glee or One of us
"The Hummel Clan"
One of us
The funny thing about being a big brother is that even though you fight and annoy your little brother to your hearts' content, when somebody hurts him in any way nothing can appease your hatred but ripping that person to pieces very slowly and painfully; the only problem is that said person is my father and as much as I want to calm down before he answers the phone, I can't because I know that what he said was uncalled for and no matter how hard I try I can't calm down.
Still fuming I dial my dad's phone.
Ring. Ring.
"Kurt?" my father answers and the fact that he's surprised that I'm calling pisses me off.
"Hello father, care to explain why I just had to sing my brother out of a freaking meltdown?" I say through gritted teeth
He sighs and I can picture him running his hand over his face "Kid, your brother messed up a deal I'd been working on for months, you can't just expect me to let it go unnoticed. Gabe has to learn to be responsible and able to adjust to the demands, what we do needs training, how is he supposed to learn if I don't punish him for messing up?"
"Mess up? Are you even listening to yourself, he's not the heir to the clan, he's not supposed to be making hard deals, that's my job not his and-"my father suddenly cut me off
"Kurt. Just because he's not taking my place doesn't mean he won't be making any deals, he will be your second in command, he'll be doing just as much as you and besides you pulled off your first deal at the age of 14 you proved yourself, you proved to the world that just because you're young doesn't mean that you're not capable. So if you could do it, why can't he?" he asks and I just snap.
"What you made me do is beside the point, I knew what the clan expected of me, I knew that I couldn't mess up but Gabe was just trying to please you, not the clan, not me, you and do you know what you did, you destroyed him and for what, for a simple mistake? We're all human dad, we make mistakes, you made them, I made them, why make Gabe feel like shit for making one?" I yell
"Because he has to learn! He is disappointing the family, he's disappointing your mother, he's your twin, he can't be weak, you're gay and sick and still manage to pull it off!" he yells back, not paying attention to what he just said.
"So, now we're not good enough, I didn't fill your expectations because I'm gay and Gabe because he is an incompetent child" I say angrily
"No! Kurt, I didn't mean it, I-"he tries to make an excuse for his words, but I don't let him, he lost his right to speak of us the minute he mentioned mom.
"Yes you did but you have no right to bring mom into this, you're a bastard for calling your son an incompetent and useless son, you're supposed to be our father first and then the clan leader; you're supposed to protect us not crush us, you're supposed to listen to us and give us a second chance, to point us in the right direction, not to insult us and treat us like garbage. You have no right! I hate you Burt Hummel and you should be ashamed of yourself, mom raised us to be ourselves, to do our best and come to you when we had problems but apparently you've forgotten, so right now I hate you for losing sight of what really matters, I hate you and I don't want to hear from you until you realize that we're more important than a stupid deal!" I yell and hang up.
I stare at the phone for a few moments, trying to get my heart to slow down. I know that I went a little overboard but I couldn't help it, he was talking as if we were mere pawns when we're his family and that is not acceptable.
Realizing that I needed some time to think, I grab my inhaler and my headphones and head out of the room. The bodyguards, Gabe, Nick, Jeff, Wes, David and Blaine are all sitting against the wall in front of the door, all looking at me for an explanation but I can't talk right now so I keep on walking.
"Kurt!" I hear Gabe yell but I ignore it and put on my headphones, turn up the volume and press play. I make it outside and instantly start running towards the woods, I block everything out and just listen to the music blasting in my ears and keep running.
I don't know for how long I ran before my lungs and side screamed in protest and I had to stop and I didn't care, all I cared about was letting the frustration and anger out. I drop to my knees and try to pull myself together physically and emotionally before going back. But my chest still feels heavy and I know it's not the asthma so I do what feels right, I let it out.
"WHY?" I scream "WHY? DAMN IT!" I collapse and start crying "Why mom? Why can't this life give us a break we're sixteen, we're not supposed to have so much on our shoulders, I can take it, I know I can but burdening one life is enough, Gabe wasn't supposed to deal with this. You made me promise to protect him and I'm failing" I whisper. I feel defeated but I know that people will be worrying about me so I pick myself up, wipe my face, take a few deep breaths and start walking back.
It takes me about fifteen minutes to make it out of the woods and as I make my way towards the dorms I can see my brother and friends sitting on the steps of the building, waiting worriedly for me to come back.
"Kurt!" Blaine yells as soon as he sees me and runs to me. He hugs me tightly but instantly loosens his hold when I wince "Sorry, but I was so worried. You can't just run off like that Kurt"
"I know" I whisper against his shoulder and my voice comes out raspy from all the yelling and crying.
"What happened?" he asks as he runs his fingers affectionately through my hair.
"We fought, he brought up mom and said some things." I say and feel another hand on my shoulder that pulls me away from Blaine.
Gabe makes me face him and I try to turn away to keep him from finding out how upset I was but he grabs my chin and holds my gaze "What else? Something is bothering you, what else happened?" he asks worriedly
I open my mouth a couple of times but say nothing. "Kurt?" asks Blaine as he steps next to Gabe.
"I told him I hate him, well that's not true, I yelled it at him and hung up before he could say anything" I say and look away when I feel my eyes water again.
"Kurt, you didn't-" I cut Gabe off
"Don't, not right now. Let's just- just let it go for a couple of days. I'll apologize and take it back but right now I just want to rest because my side aches and forget about it" I say and they all nod.
"Fine, let's go get some food. But promise us you'll fix it" says Blaine as he leads me to the dorms' kitchen.
"I promise" I say and lean on my boyfriend
The warblers and I are watching a movie when my phone suddenly rings. I apologize for the interruption and answer sleepily "Hello?"
"Kurt!" the urgency in Robert's words has me instantly awake
"What's wrong?" I ask and stand up up, bringing everyone's attention to me, the movie now forgotten.
"It's your dad, he—he-"he cut off and gave a broken exhale
"He's what? Robert, finish the damn sentence" I demand
"He's in the hospital Kurt, he had a heart attack" I hear him continue but I'm so far gone that I don't get what he's saying. My vision starts to blur and I'm suddenly on my knees resting against Blaine's chest and they're all calling my name trying to know what's wrong with me.
I suddenly remember that Robert is on the other line and ask "How is he?"
"He's in a coma Kurt" he says sadly
"No, no, no, no. This can't be happening Robert, I told him I hated him, I didn't mean it, I didn't, I-"I cut off when the tears and sobs become too much.
"Listen to me, I know you didn't and so does he, anybody can see you love each other and a simple fight wouldn't change that, okay?" he says, trying to reassure me
"Okay. Robert you have to send the jet, we can't be in different countries, we have to be there" I say through my sobs
"Kurt, you can't leave Ohio, I won't risk you boys, not when you could very much become the new leader if he dies" he says and I see red, I through the damn phone across the room and begin to hyperventilate.
"I- I- can't-" I try to speak but nothing seems to come out.
"Kurt calm down. Sam! The inhaler!" Blaine yells and presses his hand on my chest to try and help me breathe. Sam rushes over and immediately presses the inhaler to my mouth and releases the medicine.
"Breathe, baby, just calm down and take deep breathes for me" Blaine says into my ear.
"What happened to dad?" asks Gabe
"He had a heart attack and apparently we can't leave the fucking state to visit him, Robert can't risk me" I say and punch the floor
"Hey! Stop hurting yourself, it wasn't your fault" says Gabe
"Isn't it?" I whisper and ask Blaine to take me to my room.
When he closes the door behind us, I collapse on the bed and cry even more, I feel him join me and I'm suddenly in his arms and crying like a baby. I lay in his arms for hours with him whispering sweet things into my ear before I finally fall asleep.
"Kurt" someone says and starts shaking me.
"Hmm?" I ask still half asleep
"Come on, get changed we have to go to McKinley" says Sam
"Why?" I ask hoarsely
"The New Directions want to see you boys" he says softly
"Okay, give me five minutes" I say and start getting ready, Sam and Blaine leaving the room.
I emerge from my room and my brother instantly hugs me and tells me it's not my fault. "Come on" he says and we make our way to the cars. It takes a while longer than usual to get to McKinley since the others didn't know the way and we had to make sure they didn't get lost.
We made our way to the auditorium and Gabe and I were immediately embraced. After everyone said hi, I ask "What are we doing here?"
"You're here to sing" says Rachel
"What?" asks Gabe, tilting his head like a puppy.
"One of us" says Mercedes happily
"We don't believe in God" I say and they all gasp and look at us with wide-eyes
"Why?" asks Mercedes
"Because" I say, not wanting to explain
"Because, He makes Kurt gay and then his followers judge and hurt him for it, because He took our mom away, because Kurt has seen things no one should, because we have seen how ugly and cruel the world is, because He takes and takes when we have given so much, because He's trying to take our dad!" Gabe says angrily
"Any more questions?" I ask, when they say nothing I nod and start leading my brother out "Since this was obviously a waste of time, we'll leave you to it and go see what we can do to help our father"
"Wait!" Nick surprisingly says
"Yes?" I ask and turn to face him
"Do it for your dad, maybe you don't believe in God but this life is too hard for you to do it alone, give it a chance, if you want to picture yourself asking him why life is so unjust than do so but at least sing" he offers
I look at Gabe and we both think for a moment before giving in "Okay" I say and they all light up
The New Directions, Gabe and I make our way to the stage. Brittany halts when she sees that the boys are making their way to the seats "Aren't the birds joining us?" she asks Santana
"Hey Garglers! Get up here" yells Puck. The boys stop mid-sitting down and they look shocked before smiling and running to the stage as well.
Tina smiled at us and began singing,
If God had a name what would it be?
And would you call it to His face?
If you were faced with Him in all His glory
What would you ask if you had just one question?
I didn't want to sing but Rachel came up to me and whispered in my ear that the next verse was mine, I didn't understand why they wanted me to sing so badly but I figured it would help so I smiled to let her know I would do it.
And yeah, yeah God is great
Yeah, yeah God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
They all looked at me expectantly and smiled supportively
If God had a face what would it look like?
And would you want to see?
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like Heaven and in Jesus and the Saints
And all the Prophets
And yeah, yeah God is great
Yeah, yeah God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
Tryin' to make His way home
Back up to Heaven all alone
Nobody callin' on the phone
'Cept for the Pope maybe in Rome
Yeah, yeah God is great
Yeah, yeah God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
Just tryin' to make His way home
Like a holy rolling stone
Back up to Heaven all alone
Just tryin' to make His way home
Nobody callin' on the phone
'Cept for the Pope maybe in Rome
"Did it help?" asks Jeff when the music stops
"Yeah" we whisper
"But?" asks Wes
"But I still feel this big dark hole in my chest because no matter how much I ask no one answers, and no one tells me when my father is going to open his eyes and tell me he loves me, because I don't know if I'll ever be able to apologize" I say
"We know it's hard but you have us and we're not going anywhere, you're not alone and your father is strong he'll make it and slap you for being such an idiot" says Blaine
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