Hi Everyone! Sorry it's been so long since my last update. I have been so busy lately! Oh and I am going to go back and rewrite some of the earlier chapters. The plot will not change but they are so short and brief. I don't really like them. Also I am now adding titles to the chapters. Major changes!...not really. But I will let you know if I change a chapter in case you'd like to go read it.
Oh and there may be some adult language in the chapter. Sorry if that bothers you but...
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Chapter 11: I love James Potter. It felt right, those words, forming in my brain.
I pulled myself from the realization of my love for James and noticed Marlene was looking at Remus.
"Go." I told her. "Go talk to Remus, I'm going to take Mel's approach on life for a little while."
"But Lil-"
"No," I said with a shrug. "Go."
I got up and walked out as Marlene slid down the bench to sit with her boyfriend.
At least she's happy. I thought.
Chapter 12: I LOVE...
I decided not to go cry for hours. Instead, ignoring Melania's instructions I went up to her dorm. I knocked twice.
"Come in," I heard an extremely depressed voice say.
"Hey Mel," I said softly.
"Oh -sniff- Lily!" she said wiping her eyes and faking a smile.
"Mel, you know you don't have to pretend to be happy for me. Actually I was hoping you and I could just talk and let it all loose."
She smiled (genuinely) and enclosed me in a huge hug. "Lily, that is exactly what we need. We just have to get it all out of us. Marly is happy, so just you and me?"
I smiled, "That sounds great. Let's go to the Head's dorm. It's really nice in there."
I led her out of the Gryffindor common room and down to the Head's dorm. I asked the portrait if anyone was in there.
"Yes, I believe a Mr Potter and Mr Black are currently in there." the girl in the portrait told me.
"Lil, I look like a wreck!" Mel complained.
"It's alright," I said fixing her smudged makeup.
After she was able to pull herself together we walked in as quickly as possible. Both guys watched us come and go into my room. As soon as I shut the door we both collapsed on my bed.
She started with the ranting first. "ARGH! I just don't know anymore. Seeing him with that girl today... It broke my heart all over again. Lily! I can't keep living this way! I like the school's biggest man-whore yet I can't stand seeing him with other girls!"
I nodded sympathetically. "Well keep in your mind he still has to apologize to you. So until he does..."
"I know, I know." she told me. "So how are things between you and James?"
"I haven't talked to him since he stormed off. But I think he heard me crying last night."
"Oh Lily! I'm so sorry. That's awful!"
"I know," I said sniffling now. "I finally liked him and I screwed everything up. EVERYTHING!"
We talked hour after hour after hour about our boy troubles.
Eventually, Mel sat back on my pillows, "Lily?"
"Yes Mel?"
"Why can't we just get to be happy?"
"What do you mean?"
"Why can't relationships just work for us like they do for Marly?"
"I don't know Mel. I just don't know."
And our tragic night continued on.
James POV
I knew Lily and Melania were just a common room away. But I couldn't reach them even if I tried. Lily thought I was mad at her. She cried. I made Lily Evans fucking cry. Do you know how much of a jerk I feel like right now? I wasn't even mad at her! Truth is, Remus was mad. He thought she didn't mean the things in that letter. Even though I heard her say it in a dare, the things she wrote, no way it was all bullshit. It couldn't be. I have no idea why I flipped out on her. But I made her cry. Part of me thought she'd come crawling back, but Lily Evans would never ever crawl back to anyone, especially not me.
So here I was sitting in my room with Sirius. The thing about us we are best friends. There is a bond between us no one could ever break. We're like sisters. And no, I didn't mean brothers. We totally act like girls and tell each other EVERYTHING. Remus and Peter, they're my brothers. Sirius though, he's my sister.
And here we were talking about our pathetic love lives.
"Why am I so stupid? Trying to make Melania jealous! I just pissed her off. I can tell. JAMES! Help me." Sirius was saying.
"Pads I have absolutely no idea why you snogged that Hufflepuff. All I know is that you are a million times better off pleading for forgiveness."
"NO! I refuse to apologize. It is so not me!"
"Then have a great time being single."
"Prongs shut it. You aren't helping. The thing is, we have such good chemistry me and Mel. I can't find it with any other girl. And oh boy have I been trying to find that. Why is that? Oh no," he said suddenly stopping. "You don't think..."
My jaw dropped. The pieces fit perfectly. "Sirius you've got all the signs. I'm afraid to tell you, you're in love."
He looked devastated and I started to crack up.
"Sirius is in LOVE!" I shouted. "Mel and Siri, sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G!"
"Oi! Shut up!" Sirius bellowed slapping a hand over my mouth.
I could control my laughter until Sirius went below the belt.
"And what about Lily?" he retaliated.
I stopped laughing. "What about Lily?" I asked, my depression returning.
"Are you still in love?"
"Yes! Of course I am!" I began to rant. "I want to go over and ask her, but what if...what if she was lying? I couldn't live with it"
"What because you love her?" Sirius said drawing out the word love so that it was mocking me.
"YES! I love her! I've liked her since I first met her, but this year. I've fallen in love with her. Sirius you don't get it, I LOVE LILY!" I yelled, perhaps a little too loudly.
Sirius pulled me into a hug. (Told you we were sisters.)
"Listen mate, I think she's into you too. Don't listen to Moony."
I smiled and gave him a hug in which I tackled him onto my bed.
Have I mentioned we also act like 4 year olds?
Lily's POV
"I LOVE LILY!" we heard James yell.
It was silent, dead silent.
"Lil- did you hear that?" Mel asked.
" I -uh- yeah. He -he loves me. Me. Dear Merlin. James Potter loves me!" I squealed, the news finally processing in my brain.
Mel smiled and pulled me into a hug. "Lil I'm so happy for you!"
"Mel I'm not doing anything with James until Sirius apologizes. Ok?"
She grinned. "Lily love, be with James-"
"Nope!"
"You're impossible!"
"And you love me for it!" I teased.
"I do!" she said.
We laughed until our sides ached. Then the realization dawned on me, James loves me. Oh Merlin. I love him too. James Potter and Lily Evans. Hmm..what about Lily Potter. Not as bad as I thought it be. Lily Potter. Lily Potter. Yeah, I could definitely be Lily Potter. I love James.
Melania's POV
Why is that git so thick-headed? If he would just apologize I'd practically jump on him. Not literally, of course. Or would I? Just right then and there full on snog him. Hmm..not a bad idea. But no he'll never apologize. Stupid git. Oh well, I love Sirius.
Sirius's POV
Laying here on the floor of Prongs' room I thought to myself. Damn, she is really something. Melania of course. I don't want to apologize to her. But I was such an arse. I owed it to her. I owed her that and so much more. She will never believe me that I really do like her. Like her? Oh hell, who am I kidding? I love Melania.
James' POV
Oops. I think she heard that. Well it's true, and it always will be. I have to talk to her again. I'll apologize for being a git. I was it's the truth. I want her back in my arms. Why did I believe Moony? He tore me away from the girl I love! Yeah I'll admit it. I love Lily.
Lily's POV
Mel and I woke up early Monday morning. She slept here last night instead of going back to Marlene. We needed each other last night. I sat up and looked around. Mel was up too.
A few charms and spells later Mel and I were dressed, hair done and all ready to go. Magic is wonderful, I thought.
"Lily," Mel complained with her ear to the door. "They're out there, I can hear them."
"Well what do you want me to do? James lives here too." I told her.
She made a face and said, "Fine. But I have to run to the Gryffindor Tower to grab my books. Meet you in the Great Hall in ten. Alright?"
"Yeah sure." I said sitting down on my bed. I thought about the day to come. I didn't want to face James, not today. I just couldn't do it.
How could he think I'd do that to him. I meant every single word I wrote, even if I did complain about it.
With a final sigh I stopped pitying myself and went to meet Mel in the Great Hall. As it turns out, Sirius had spent the night in the Head's Dorm too. I never would've known unless I hadn't seen him on the way out. They had been so quiet. Not like it matters but those two reminded me of me and Mel. They acted like girls, almost like sisters. I laughed at the thought as I walked into the Great Hall. Marlene was sitting with Remus so I sat by myself until Mel came. We ate our breakfast in silence then headed off to Transfiguration.
McGonagall decided we'd be transfiguring animals to objects. Simple, but we all needed to refresh our skills.
"You'll be in partners, but I will pick your partner for you." McGonagall told us. She read off a list of names. I was hoping to be with Mel or Marly, but that would never happen. Instead I got one of the four people I had no intention of talking to, Sirius Black.
"Lily!" he exclaimed.
Oh Merlin, kill me now. "Black." I said icily.
"Oh come on now, call me Padfoot or Sirius at the least."
"Fine, Sirius. Do you remember the spell?"
"Of course I do Lily-flower!"
My eyes went wide, not that ridiculous nickname again!
"Ok," he said reading my facial expression. "Lils, can I call you that?"
I nodded.
About half way through the lesson Sirius spoke, "We need to clear away some of this awkward tension. I need to know, did you mean the things you wrote in that note?"
"Sirius! Who do you think I am?"
His face fell.
"I would never joke about being in love..." I said softly.
"WAIT!" Sirius yelled causing the whole class to stare at him. He lowered his voice, "You meant it! Oh Lils! Lily do you realize what this means?"
I shushed him, "But James is mad at me! You CAN'T tell him. Please Sirius. I'll do anything. Anything. Just don't tell him."
"But he isn't mad at you!"
"What? Then why has he been acting like it?" I asked confused.
"No! He's been devastated. He couldn't be mad at you even if he tried."
I smiled as McGonagall released us from the lesson. "Wait!" I called after Sirius.
He turned around, "Yes?"
"You still can't tell him! That I fancy him! Please, I'll do anything." I pleaded.
"Fine," he said a grin stretching across his face. "One condition, you and your friends participate in the Official Marauder's Game of Truth or Dare. No rules, and certainly no chickens. You in?"
I gulped, it was extremely risky. I'd heard so many stories that were results of the annual Truth or Dare game they played.
"Ok," I agreed. "I'll play. Marlene is a maybe. But I'll force Mel to play too."
"Brilliant! I'll tell you the time and place at a later date." he said gathering his books.
We walked out of the classroom and parted ways when Sirius called my name.
"Lils! Just try to talk to him, just try."
I nodded. "Alright, I'll try."
"Oh and one last thing, could you -uh- try to -uh- get Mel to talk to me again?" he said blushing.
I smiled, "Sure. I guess we'll sit with you guys at dinner then?"
"Yeah, that would be great. Oh and could you not tell Mel I asked you to get her to talk to me again?"
I smiled, "One condition. Stop snogging random girls, and apologize to her."
"Alright!" he said excitedly.
"See you at dinner," I said walking away.
"Lils?" he called after me.
Yes?"
"Friends?" he asked.
I smiled, "Yeah!"
He smiled and walked away. The people around us staring at the new friendship between Lily Evans and Sirius Black. So maybe today wouldn't be as awful ad I thought it would be. Never in my life did I think I'd say this but I was really happy I was friends with Sirius Black.
What do you think? How did I do with the multiple POV's?
Another chapter down! James and Lily are almost together again. I promise it will be soon!
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