Chapter 12

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JACKSON POV

When I opened the envelope and saw Bella with Emmett, it shattered my heart into pieces. I thought she really loved and cared for me. I fucken let her in my heart and she pissed on it. I trusted her like I've never trusted before.

She not only pissed on me but Abel too. I thought she loved him like her own. I really felt like he was going to have a real mommy. Someone that was good in his life and would be there for him no matter what.

I'm not sure what upset me the most. Bella fucken around with Emmett or that she had my son around him. How the fuck could she do that?

I knew something wasn't right with those mother fuckers, the Cullens. Bella has been so distant with me and she didn't want me to touch her. Not only have I been blind but fucken stupid too.

I left the clubhouse; I didn't give a fuck right now about the vote. I had to confront her, I needed to know why. Why she did this to me?

When I walked into the house, Bella was getting the food ready in the kitchen. When I asked why she had been lying, she played stupid. Like she had no idea what I was talking about. That fucken pissed me off. I was trying so hard not to lose my temper with her. She just stood there looking at the picture. I finally had enough of that shit.

"So are you going to tell me why? Is it cause of his fucken money?" I was waiting for an answer and she wasn't giving one.

"Jaxs I…we…it's …..not what you think. I wasn't doing anything with Emmett, then."

Was she really stupid enough to just say to me then, so she is now? I was furious; I knocked every dish off of the counter and broke them. Then I kicked the kitchen chairs across the floor.

She started crying. I had to get away from her before I hurt her. I've never let anyone in; or let them get close to me. This would be the reason why.

"Fuck you Bella. I want you out of my fucken house. You want that little prick so bad, then you can fucken have him."

I walked out the door and slammed it, never looked back. Got on my bike and rode.

BELLA POV

I knew that I was going to hurt one of them or worse, both of them. But I couldn't understand how or where Jax got that picture from. I should have been honest with him about my feelings for Emmett. I was honest with Emmett about Jax. Honesty did not change my relationship with Emmett, if anything, it has made us stronger.

Jax left in a rage and there will be no talking to him right now. But there are still things that I have to tell him before I leave. I'm such a horrible person for what I have done to him. Am I really any better than Edward? In my eyes I am worse than Edward.

I went into the bedroom to pack a bag. Jax told me to be gone and I would respect his wishes. I'm sure that the Cullens will let me stay there with them. But Edward will be here soon and I can't stay there once he comes. Maybe I should have just run the fuck away. But that's what I am thinking that I will do now.

As I was getting ready to pull out of the drive way, I saw Peter leaning up against a tree smoking. He is such a strange vampire. He blurred to the front of the car.

"Hey sweetheart are you planning on going somewhere?"

"I am not in mood for this. Please get out of my way." In a split second he was in the seat beside me.

"Bella, you can't just run away. You will break Emmett's heart."

"I don't really fucking care. I will only hurt him more if I stay; just like anyone that becomes a part of my life. Emmett deserves someone better than me anyways. He can have anyone that he wants and I don't even know why in the hell that he wants to be with me. Did Alice see this and tell you to come here?"

Peter reached over turned off the ignition and took the keys out of it. "No Bella, Alice did not tell me. I just knew that I needed to come here, that is my gift or curse, depending on how you look at it. Jackson is just upset right now but he will forgive you. I don't believe for a second that you don't care if you hurt Emmett. I'm trying to save you, but you have to want to be saved first." He talks a lot like Alice and Edward in circles that I don't understand.

"So what the hell am I being saved from now?"

"Yourself, you will never get over leaving like this."

To be perfectly honest I wished someone had done that a long time ago, saved me from myself. I told him repeatedly to get out of the car and give me the keys. But he shook his head no each time.

"Peter, please just give me the keys and you don't have to tell anybody you knew that I was leaving."

He opened the top of his jeans and dropped the keys down his pants.

"What the hell are you doing?"

"I have a twenty that says you won't go after them. Why don't we just talk this through and then you can decide if you really want to run away or not?" I sighed, he was right; I wasn't going after those keys.

After I talked to Peter I came to many conclusions. Peter is a strange vampire compared to the Cullens. That I have to face Jax, Emmett and Edward; no matter what the outcome is going to be. Love has many angels, desires, emotions and endings.

Peter and I drove to the Cullen's house together. I was thankful that Emmett and Jasper had gone hunting for the night. I think that Peter knew that I needed some alone girl time with Alice.

Peter was going to go a few towns over to do some human hunting as he called it. When he was getting ready to go out the door, I hugged him and told him thank you for being there for me. He had listened to me ramble tonight. But what came out of his mouth was unbelievable.

"You're welcome sweetheart. But if you two decide to have a naked pillow fight. Or decide to experiment with a little girl on girl action; call me. I will have my phone on." I asked Alice after he left if he was always like this and she said unfortunately, yes.

I have started to get close to Alice again but I wasn't sure about telling her how I really felt about Emmett. But she was understanding and great about it though. She told me that no matter who I decided to be with, that she would still be my sister.

Alice went upstairs and came back with a book; it had a poem in it.

ICE AND FIRE

My love is like fire, but ice to her.

How come the colder she is the more

my flames burn with desire for her?

.

I don't understand my exceeding heat

for her when her heart is frozen cold.

Fire should melt all things, but only seems

to harden her ice for me.

.

The forbidden love we have and my

fire that burns for her will never be

extinguished by the ice of her denial of my

desires.

The more I thought about this poem; I realized Jax was my fire and Emmett was my ice. Jax heats my passion and lights my body on fire like a burning inferno. Emmett cools all my desires; quenches my body yearnings. I am more fucked up then even I thought I was.

When I woke up Alice had clothes lying on the bed with towels. I went in and showered. She bought me these cool black leather boots with four inch spike heels. They really looked great with the dark jeans and black sweater she had also bought. I needed to go face Jax and try to make him understand.

CLUBHOUSE POV

Jackson had been drinking and token most of the night. Trying to figure out where and when the hell things had gone wrong. Everyone wanted to know what was going on with him, but he wouldn't tell anyone. He just kept to himself and kept drinking.

Since drinking was not helping him to get Bella off of his mind he decided that he would try going back to his old ways. Caring about no woman, they were just pussy to him. He grabbed the first girl he saw, because it really didn't matter who she was. This was a fuck for a fuck. Bella had wronged him and now he would even the score.

The next morning when Bella came into the clubhouse looking for Jax; everyone was quiet. Not sure what had been going on between Jackson and her. But they did not want Bella to find out that way; seeing what Jackson had been doing with the other girl.

Lila and Cherry kept telling her that they hadn't seen him. When Bella went to walk down the hallway to his room, Lila asked Opie to stop her. Opie stood in the middle of hall with his a hand on each side of the wall.

"I don't think that Jax is here so why don't I take you and Lila to get some breakfast."

"I know Jax is here, his bike is. So whatever it is that you don't want me to see is going to happen. I am going into his room one way or another."

Opie finally lowered his arms to let Bella pass by.

"Bella he had a hard night. Please don't do this." Bella smiled at him and kept walking down the hallway.

Bella stopped at Jax's room and took in a deep breath. She opened the door and saw a naked girl sprawled out across the bed with Jax. Bella's heart was breaking but, she knew that this was deserved for what she had done with Emmett. She closed the door and never said a word.

Bella went and told Lila and Cherry good bye. She told them that she would come back later to talk to Jax. Bella told them that she was leaving town in a few days and would miss them. Both of them tried to reason with Bella to get her to stay. But they had no idea of the real reasons Bella had to leave.

Bella came back later and all the Sons were dressed in black without their cuts on. Bella knew that this was something bad because they were going under the radar. When Jax walked in with a duffel bag, Bella asked him what was going on.

Jax just kept walking towards the garage "What the fuck do you care?"

Bella was holding Abel when Jax came back into the bar. Bella wanted to say good bye to him. That just pissed Jax off even more that she was pretending like she cared about his son. He went over and took Abel out of Bella's arm.

"Don't come near my son." Bella couldn't understand why Jax would be this way with her. She does truly love Abel.

As the Sons were getting ready to walk out the door Bella asked Jax what the fuck his problem was. He ignored her and kept walking. Bella followed behind Jax out the door.

"You know what the little prince isn't going to get his way this time, you haven't answered my question. What the fuck is your problem?"

Cherry and Lila both looked at each other. They had been watching everything that was taking place. Cherry whispered to Lila.

"This is better than the Desperate Housewives episode that I watched this week. Do you want to go watch?" Lila nodded her head yes and they took their drinks outside with them.

Jax threw his duffel bag on the ground. "Fine Bella, you wanna get this shit out. Then let's do it. You're my fucken problem. You made me believe the fairy tale and then you shit on me with Emmett." Bella couldn't believe after what Jax had done last night that he would be this way.

"You self-righteous asshole. I came here this morning to talk to you. I know that you fucked some girl and you're pissed that I kissed just Emmett."

Jax dropped his head; he didn't know that Bella knew that. But it didn't matter. He knew in his heart that Bella had done more than just kiss Emmett.

"Sure Bella keep telling me that is all you did; just kissed him. You're right though, I did fuck some girl. I don't even know what her goddamn name was and could care less. Because do you know whose face I saw? I saw yours. I couldn't even fuck you out of my mind. But at least I wasn't fucken around with her when I was with you. There are you happy now?"

The rest of the Sons just stood there watching but not saying a word. Except for Clay, he was thrilled to see the old Jax was coming back around.

Bella walked over and slapped Jax's face. "Fuck you, I don't have to explain anything to you."

"Just be woman enough to tell me Bella. Tell me that you've been fucken him the whole time behind my back."

Bella slapped Jax's face again. Jax let go of her and stepped back. "That's the second fucken time that you've slapped me; I wouldn't try for a third." Jax didn't want to hurt her but, she was pushing his limits.

Bella went to go to the car and Jax was right behind her. But those new boots weren't made for walking. Bella tripped and Jax fell into her from behind. They were rolling around in the mud puddle, fighting with each other. Opie and Juice went over and broke it up.

Tig whispered to Bobby. "That was fucken hot. Do you think that Jax would mind if I asked out Bella now?"

Bobby didn't answer him. But he was thinking what a dumb ass.

Both Jax and Bella were wet and muddy. Bella went to get into the car and Jaxs pushed her up against the car. "I still love you."

Then he gave her one of those long heated passion Jackson kisses.

BELLA POV

When I pulled up to the Cullen's house, they were all outside on the porch. I could tell by the grins and little smirks on their faces that they knew I had been rolling around in the mud with Jax. Peter just couldn't resist.

"Hey Bella, add mud wrestling to the list of things that you need to call me and let me know when you're going to do them."

Emmett came over to me and asked if I was alright. I told him yes but, I needed a shower. He told me to go take a shower because he had a surprise for me. That did bring a smile to my face. Emmett is such a sweet man.

I just threw on a pair of shorts and tank top. When I went outside, Emmett was putting suit cases in the Jeep. Maybe he did decide to run way. He told me to get in because we were going to go have some fun for a while.

We had been driving listening to the Rolling Stones, one of his favorites. When I asked where we were going; all he would tell me was that at least for one day he and I were going to escape the world.

I didn't even know how far we had drove but we pulled up in front of a very fancy hotel. I was dressed in shorts, great. A man came over and opened my door.

"Mr. and Mrs. Cullen I would presume." Emmett smiled but corrected him about our names. I was feeling way under dressed for this place.

"Bella, relax, Alice packed you more clothes than you could wear in a month. If you don't like them then we will go buy you more." I forgot what being around the Cullens was really like. No expense was ever spared.

After we checked in a bell hop was taking us up a private elevator. When I asked where we were going, they told me the Penthouse Suite. To say it was breath taking would not have done it justice. The balcony had a view over the whole city and it was bigger than my bedroom in Forks.

It had everything you could think of; a swimming pool and a hot tub. The kitchen and bar was fully stocked. I think Emmett's favorite room was the media room. The TV was like a screen you would see at the movies; along with plush leather lounge chairs. He even made sure there were two bedrooms. He said that he didn't want me to feel pressured and whatever happened; happened. That he was happy to just to get to spend time with me.

The bell hop was putting our luggage in our rooms. But there were two garment bags that Emmett kept. He told me this was for tomorrow night, that he had something special planned. I couldn't understand why he was doing all of this.

"This is too much, you don't need to do all of this. You make me feel special without spend any money on me."

"That is one of the many things I love most about you Bella. You're happy to just be with me. When I'm with you there is no having to hold back or pretend that I am something that I'm not to please you. You accept me for what and who I am. I did this for us, because I wanted to."

Then he gave me a short sweet little kiss on the lips.

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I could have spent hours going through everything that Alice had packed for me. Since we were just going to take a walk around town I went for simple. A short white skirt and royal blue silk off the shoulders blouse. Alice even pinned notes of what to wear together. She had a pair of wedged white sandals to go with it.

I put some curls in my hair and used my fingers to separate them. I even put some make up on and I was feeling a little nervous. Emmett said we were just going walking around for a while and grab something to eat; but was this a date? I haven't been on a real date since Edward.

When we started walking down the side walk, Emmett extended his arm to me. I took it and we walked around talking. We were just enjoying our time together and were laughing like we didn't have a care in the world. That was the one thing Emmett always use to do when I was with Edward, made me laugh.

We came up to a wishing pond. Emmett pulled out some change out his pocket, he told me to make a wish. He went first and had a huge smile on his face. Then I went. He wanted to know what I wished for. But I wouldn't tell him. I wished that I could continue to feel just like I do right now; happy and in peace with myself.

The rest of the night was wonderful. We went and had a big steak. But of course he didn't eat his. I learned things about him tonight I never knew before. We sat for a long time talking and drinking. He seemed so different than the Emmett that was just in Charming. But I guess I was being different too.

We went to a park that was getting ready to have a fireworks display over the lake. Emmett sat down on the ground and told me I could set on his lap so that I wouldn't get grass stains on my white skirt. When I sat down and looked into his eyes they were black.

"Emmett, do you need to go hunt? I'll get off of your lap; it is probably hard for you being close to me right now."

"I don't need to hunt. It is hard being close to you but, not for the reasons you think." When he shifted me on his lap; I felt the reason.

My face must have turned twenty shades of red. He whispered in my ear. "Sorry, I can't help it when I am with you." I don't even know why I was embarrassed, I never was with Jax. Everything with him just fell into place.

The fireworks were great. Then Emmett told me to make sure I was watching. A big red heart burst with E B inside of it.

"That is the most romantic thing that anyone has ever done for me." We exchanged several tender kisses. I still couldn't believe that he was doing all of this just for me.

It was getting late and I was getting tired. We said our good nights and went to our rooms. I was lying in bed thinking I really missed Emmett. I got up and knocked on his adjoining bedroom door.

When he opened it; all he had on was a tight pair of red silk boxers. It matched the red silk night shirt that I was wearing. When I asked if our matching outfits had been coordinated? He told me no. That it was just the first thing that he grabbed.

We stood there in door way just looking at each other. He looked so sexy and hot.

"Bella is everything okay, did you need something?" Shit I was the one that knocked on his door.

"Yeah everything is fine, I just couldn't sleep and was wondering if you wanted to talk or maybe watch TV with me?" I really just wanted to be close to him but, I didn't want to admit it.

"Sure, come on in. But, you will have to promise that you will not take advantage of me? Also young lady can you keep your hands to yourself?" He was laughing and went to lie down on his bed. But actually I couldn't make that promise. I wanted to take advantage of him or rather let him take advantage of me.

We lay together and watched a movie. He never tried anything with me. That was kind of a disappointment and a relief at the same time.

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It was almost time for me to get ready for our special date. I felt like a little giddy high school girl, going out for the first time. Emmett had hired a lady to be at my beckon call. After I enjoyed a bath in a tub that I swear was big enough for three; she brought in the garment bag.

It had a black lace dress in it. It was short without any straps. Alice must have picked it out. There were undergarments that matched the lace; a bodice with matching panties. Alice sent sexy thigh high stockings and black stilettos shoes. Damn her choice in shoe collection is going to kill me yet.

The ladies name was Shaina and she was so sweet to me. She brought me a bowl of strawberries and a glass of campaign. She told me that Mr. Cullen wanted to make sure that I had everything I needed and wanted to make it a special night for me. I think Mr. Cullen had already done that.

She put my hair up and pinned it with clips that had diamonds in it. She left long pieces hanging down around my face and the back of my neck. My makeup looked like it was done by a professional. I really did enjoy doing this for some strange reason. But I will never tell Alice that.

When I was ready to leave the bathroom; she told me that Emmett was waiting out on the balcony for me. She told me to have a great night and gathered her things to leave.

He was staring at the city with his back to me when I walked out on the balcony. When he turned around and I saw him in his tuxedo; something came over me. It was a feeling that I have never had before. My body was tingling and I felt dizzy with love.

Getting off the elevator, I made him promise me that he wouldn't let me fall on my face in these shoes. He laughed but he promised. Walking outside, there was a lavish horse drawn carriage parked outside.

"Your carriage awaits you my lady." I looked at him in awe, he did this for me.

Emmett took my hand and held on to me while I stepped up in the Carriage. We went around the city. I have never been on a ride like this before.

We went to a fancy French restaurant. I was glad that Emmett spoke French because I had no clue. It was the best meal that I think that I have ever had. The carriage was still waiting for us outside. He told me that we had one more stop to make.

It was the same park that we had gone to last night. There was a path that was lit up with lights. As we walked down the path there was a gazebo with little white lights everywhere.

Music was coming from somewhere, but I had no idea where. He slow danced with me.

"You have made me feel like a Princess tonight."

"You are my Princess Bella."

Going back into the suite, I was nervous. I wanted to be with Emmett tonight but, I didn't want to have to throw myself at him. He must have felt it to. He asked if I was tired or wanted to stay up for a while. I already knew what I wanted to do.

I went over to the bar and poured two of his favorite drink; scotch over ice. We drank a couple of those. When I got the last refill; I sat down on his lap on the couch. I could feel him getting hard while we were kissing.

"Emmett I am ready for bed; do you want to go with me?"

He picked me up and was carrying me to his bedroom. There were rose petals all over the bed and the floor. He wants this too.

Emmett sat me down on the floor. He was kissing the back of my neck and across my shoulders. I was feeling quivers throughout my body. Slowly he was unzipping my dress. Putting kisses down my back as he went. Every part of my body wanted him.

He was kissing me so tenderly. Slowly taking his tongue; running it in and out of my mouth. He was cooling my fire and I needed him to put it out now.

After he took off his Jacket and shirt; he laid me down on the bed. Feeling his cold lips and tongue on my breasts; was giving me goose bumps of sensation. But when I felt his fingers enter my pussy; I was already wanting to cum. My body and his hand were moving in sync against one another. I reached for him and I was caressing him through his pants. He was moving against my hand too. He needs this as bad as I do.

Emmett caressed my body while he undressed me. Taking my stockings off; kiss the inside of my thighs and calves. When his tongue reached my hot core it was more than I could take.

"Emmett please make love to me."

He is a physically large man and so was his cock. When he pushed into me I was gasping for air, he wasn't even all the way in yet. He lifted up trying not to put his weight on me and he was trying not to move inside me. But when he did, his movements were slow and easy.

"Bella are you ready to feel more of me? I don't want to hurt you." I wanted all of him. I needed to have all of him.

"Stop holding back; you said that you never have to hold back with me."

He lowered himself down on to me and pushed all the way into me. His cock felt like it was splitting me into. When started really trusting into me I was cumming so hard around his cock.

He was moaning too. "Fuck your pussy is so hot and tight."

I was screaming so many things; oh my god, Emmett and don't stop fucking me. When he started thrusting even harder; I felt his cum cooling down the heat that was radiating from inside of me.

"I love you Bella." I knew what the term fire meets ice really meant now.

I was wakening up to kisses being laid on my neck "Good morning beautiful. I thought that maybe we could make love again if you feel up to it." I was feeling more than up to it.

We were on our way back to Charming. I wasn't look forward to facing Edward and Rosalie but, I knew we had to.

JASPERS POV

Peter and I had discussed some strategies. When Alice came outside and told us that Emmett and Bella would be here in about fifteen minutes. Edward would be here in about thirty.

We were ready to intervene between the two. I wasn't sure how Edward was going to handle seeing Emmett and Bella together. But then there was Rosalie, the drama queen herself. We all knew that was going to be some bad shit coming. Thankfully she won't be arriving until tonight. We will handle one problem at a time.

When Emmett and Bella pulled up they seemed happy. I whispered to Emmett that Edward was almost here. He needed to know that and be ready for it.

It was sweet to watch them together. They were holding hands and playing around. I hadn't seen Emmett this happy in a long time.

Bella went inside to see Alice and Emmett was telling us about their getaway. Edward was pulling up and Emmett went all serious.

When Bella came outside and saw Edward; her emotions were all over the place. She was feeling hate, sorrow, self-loathing and bitterness.

Edward came up the steps and stopped in front of her "Bella, I have missed you so much. You look so beautiful." He went to take a hold of her hand.

"Don't touch me. I have thought a lot of exactly what I would say to you if I ever saw you again. You left me feeling like I was a piece of shit that you could just scrape off the bottom of your shoes and would completely forget about. I know that you never really loved me but, you know what, I never really loved you either. I just thought I knew what love was. Love is unconditional and you don't know what that really means. I have almost died because you left me unprotected like I was nothing. You are not good for me or good for me either. You wanted it to be like you never existed; so that is the way it is today. You don't exist in my world anymore, so stay the fuck away me."

Bella went to go back in the house. Edward was fucked up now. I don't think he fully knew what was going on. I don't think he was sure of what emotion he wanted to have because he was all over the place.

"Bella part of the reason that I came back here is to protect you. Victoria was in Forks and she is looking for you. Didn't they tell you?"

Shit I knew Emmett should have told her.

I hope you enjoyed reading me. I know some of you thought that Emmett was never going to get to be with Bella. But in my stories they will never mate in the first chapter. I still believe in romance and the leading up to that. Although I do love Jackson; I see Emmett as the sweet romantic one.

Bella has some big decisions to make in the next chapter. Have a great weekend!

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