Against Your Will

By: Kigen and Faraway Dawn

Because of my recent turning of Faraway Dawn into a Narutard; our love for NaruSasu, and the fact that there are few good Sasuke uke fics, I bribed Faraway Dawn into a roleplay. ... And this would be the twisted result. Guess who played who. Whichever reviewer gets it wins a prize. This is our practice rp. We haven't even started the serious one yet.

There were several people saying they did not receive update alerts. For some reason that happens once and a while with my account. This is the third or forth time it's happened. Just check this fic every few days. I try to update every two days or five; depends how busy I am.

Disclaimer: We totally abused the curse seal in this rp. If Naruto was ours, this would be the result. Warning for cranky Sasuke, and meddling adults.

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Naruto growled. "I don't know how the hell you can act like you aren't afraid of anything when death is staring you in the face."

"Because I'm not. Get the fuck out."

"More than happy to." He left the room and slammed the door shut. He stopped on the other side of the door and leaned his back against it. Idiot... Sasuke you're just an idiot sometimes... He hit his head against the door. Idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot... Quit acting like you're fearless. You're not fooling anyone.

Inside the room, Sasuke's hands fisted tightly in the sheets. He resisted the urge to burry his head in his knees and sob. He ignores the soft thumping against the door. A few tears slid down Sasuke's cheeks, which he rubbed angrily away. He wasn't eight anymore. He wasn't going to cry over something like this.

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Tsunade looked up from her desk, sighing. "Lost your temper?"

"He's such an idiot." Naruto sunk to the floor slowly. "Such a goddamned idiot."

"You're surprised?"

"Yeah... Yeah a bit." Naruto laughed sadly. "You'd think he'd quit acting so tough. You think he'd give a damn."

"Naruto." she sighed. "He doesn't know how not to act tough. He doesn't know how to admit he feels weakness."

"Yeah I get that. But he really needs to start learning. There's nothing wrong with admitting that you're afraid."

"He doesn't know that Naruto. He can't just realize, it's okay to show his weakness, and confide in you. You have to be more patient."

"Well it scares me." Naruto shut his eyes and leaned back against the door. "I'm scared." I've never been this worried about the idiot in my life.

"I know." Tsunade sighed. "I know."

"Doesn't he get it?" Naruto wrapped his arms around knees and rested his head against his arms. He mumbled, "Doesn't he get why I'm so afraid of him dying like this?"

Tsunade got on her knees next to Naruto, and pulled him into her arms. "He does, and that's what makes it even more terrifying for him."

"I wish he'd just admit that he's afraid."

Tsunade sighed again. "I know Naruto." her hand trailed soothingly through his hair. "I know. It'll be over soon. Naruto, I know it's hard for you, but you need to be the strong one right now."

Why me... why me?

"Sasuke can't be strong right now, he doesn't know how. I know it's hard, but you have to help him."

"How am I supposed to be the strong one when I'm so afraid?"

"He's just as afraid as you are Naruto."

"I know he is..."

"He doesn't know how to deal with it, and frankly; you're the only one who he'll let help."

"I'm no good at helping. Remember? I just got myself kicked out."

"You just got frustrated and lost your temper. You can fix it."

"If he weren't hurt already I'd knock his lights out."

"Jiraiya was tempted himself." Tsunade sighed. "Go back in there and talk to him, calmly."

"About what?" Naruto asked. "What am I supposed to say?"

"Tell him it's okay to be afraid, that you're sorry for yelling, I dunno. Just try to calm him down before he has an attack."

Naruto took a deep breath. Just try to calm him down. "And if I can't calm him down?"

"He may have another attack. It could be, irreversible this time."

Naruto stared at Tsunade.

"With his emotional capabilities right now, he won't be able to handle another attack from the curse seal. It will cripple him mentally, at the least."

"And at the most what could it do this time?" Naruto asked.

"Worst case scenario, the seal will become too deeply rooted in his system to be reversed. He will die within months."

"How many months? How long does he actually have anyway?"

"If things stay the same, two."

Naruto's eyes widened slightly. "Two! Just two? I was thinking it was more like four or six or, or something more. T-two months?"

"Which is why we're doing this as soon as he's able to handle it without major repercussions, despite that ideally, we'd wait a week or more."

Naruto looked back at the door. "Two months..."

"Yes." Tsunade sighed, standing up. "Go talk to him brat."

Naruto got up slowly and opened the door. He went back into the room and shut the door carefully.

Sasuke had given in to the urges, and had his head buried in his knees. He winced as the door opened.

"Sasuke..."

Sasuke visibly tensed. "What do you want?" his voice was a harsh whisper.

Naruto looked down at his feet. "I'm sorry I snapped at you..."

Sasuke snorted, laughing hollowly. "I deserve it though, don't I? I deserve every little fucking thing."

"I shouldn't have snapped at you. Tsu-Tsunade, she told me how much time you have left."

Sasuke pulled away to finally look at Naruto, eyes bloodshot and tears on his cheeks. "So they have that figured out now too?" he asked bitterly.

Naruto stared down at the floor. "I... I think they've known, but they... I don't think they wanted either of us to know if we didn't have to know."

"Say whatever it is you want to say."

Naruto blinked a few times. Are there tears in my eyes? He shut his eyes before speaking. "Sasuke... it was... Tsunade said it was only two months."

Sasuke's hands curled into fists hard enough to make his palms bleed. "Liar."

Naruto bit his lip. "I wish I was lying."

"Yes you are." his hands squeezed tighter. "Stop it." New tears slid down his cheeks.

Naruto quickly wiped his eyes. Going over to the bed, he sat on the edge of it and looked at Sasuke. "I'm not, but I really wish I was Sasuke."

"You are. You have to be." Sasuke wrapped his arms around his stomach, hunching in on himself.

"I wouldn't lie to you about something like this Sasuke." Naruto looked down into his lap. "It's alright you know; if you're afraid. I'm afraid too."

"I'm not afraid." he lied, voice shaking slightly.

"Right, not afraid. Good. I'm glad you aren't afraid." Even though you're terrified... Sasuke, I'm not that stupid.

"I'm not." his body shook slightly.

"You'd tell me if you were right? I swear, I wouldn't tell anyone."

"I'm not. I can't." he took a shuddering breath. "There isn't anything to be afraid of."

"Right, but if there were any reason for you to be afraid, you'd tell me if you were right? Because we're friends."

Sasuke bit his lip. "I'm not. I'm..."

"I know you aren't afraid. I just want you to know that it's alright if you ever are."

"I... I am." he whispered.

Naruto looked at Sasuke. "I know. I am too."

"Why? I'm not... I shouldn't..."

"You've got every right to be scared."

"I shouldn't be. Nothing's going to happen."

"You should be afraid because if the seal isn't reversed, you are going to die Sasuke. In two months."

"No I'm not."

Naruto sighed.

Sasuke was still shaking. Admitting he was afraid did little to make him feel better.

Naruto watched Sasuke. "You've gotta calm down a bit though Sasuke. Try breathing slowly."

Sasuke shook his head. "I'm fine."

"You're not calm though."

Sasuke made the attempt, but wasn't doing very well. His body still shook.

Naruto put his hand on Sasuke's shoulder. "Come on. Breathe in slowly, and out. Try not to think too much right now and just focus on resting."

"I'm not tired." Sasuke tried to calm down, the shaking gradually becoming less.

"I know but if you focus on resting you'll recover much faster."

Sasuke breathing slowly returned to normal. Frustrated, he rubbed the tears off his cheeks before sitting up.

There. That's better. "Once you've recovered you can punch me a few times for all this alright?"

"Already planned on it." Sasuke laid back down.

Naruto smiled slightly. "Yeah, I figured."

"Tomorrow's going to be worse, isn't it?"

Define worse. "It might be."

"You're lying." Sasuke knew it now.

Naruto turned to Sasuke. "I am?"

"It's going to be really bad, isn't it?"

"It might be."

Sasuke sighed. "You shouldn't lie either."

"I'm not really sure how it will be. If I'm lying I swear I'm not doing it on purpose."

Sasuke nodded, yawning softly.

"You think it will be that bad?" Naruto asked.

"Yeah." Sasuke was exhausted, his throat hurt, and his head ached from crying for so long.

"Well hopefully it won't be that bad."

Sasuke nodded again, eyes getting heavy.

Guess he was more tired than he thought.

Yawning one last time, Sasuke was asleep in moments.

Naruto got up quietly and went to the other room. He went over to Tsunade. "Do you have any bandages?"

"What for?" Tsunade asked.

"Sasuke's hands."

Tsunade rose to her feet. "What did he do?"

"Nothing, just kept clenching his fist until it bled."

Tsunade nodded. "Reflex or purposely?" she got out the bandages to treat him.

"Reflex I think. Heh. I made him pretty upset but he calmed down and went to sleep."

"That's good. The last thing we need is to have to worry about self mutilation on top of everything else." Walking into the room, she bandaged the small cuts on Sasuke's hands while he slept. She could have just healed him, but using chakra on the Uchiha was to be avoided for the moment.

"So the cuts weren't too bad right? They didn't look too bad but I figured they should be bandaged."

"They aren't deep. Only a scratch." she reassured him.

Naruto nodded. Good.

"Kakashi and Jiraiya will be here early tomorrow to reverse the seal again." she explained quietly as they left the room.

"He's afraid. I knew he was but, he really is afraid."

"It's not surprising. He probably doesn't know how to acknowledge his fear right now, does he?" Tsunade asked.

"He's never been that good at it. It's always had to be life or death for someone before he'd admit he was afraid."

"And it is right now." she sighed, sitting at her desk. "Go home and get some rest."

"So, when could I come by again to see him?"

"It depends on how he reacts to it. Be here tomorrow though, just in case."

"Alright."

"Now go get some rest Naruto. I'll send someone to get you in the morning."

Naruto nodded. "Ok." Hopefully Sasuke will be alright tomorrow.

"Good night Naruto." Tsunade waited until he was gone to let out a tense sigh.

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"You can go see him for a little bit." Tsunade told to Naruto once Kakashi and Jiraiya were done reversing the seal.

"Great." Naruto stood up from where he had been waiting. "And take it easy on him right?"

"He's still sleeping, isn't he?" Tsunade turned to Kakashi and Jiraiya.

"He'll be up shortly, I'm sure." Kakashi answered.

"Be careful with him." Tsunade reminded the boy.

"Yeah, yeah. I know."

Once the door was closed, Tsunade began her questions. "How did it go you two?"

"Seemed fine." Jiraiya answered. "Kid adjusted pretty well to it from what I saw."

Kakashi nodded in agreement. "He'll probably just be emotional again."

"I figured that much. Does it look like we'll be able to fully reverse it?"

Jiraiya nodded. "If he stays stable like this, it shouldn't be a problem at all."

"So does this mean we are just going to sit around and watch them all day?" Kakashi asked.

"Unless there's anything else I should know." Tsunade raised an eyebrow.

"Nothing really. The kid put up a bit of an argument and shot us a few death glares when we went in." Jiraiya shrugged.

"He's in denial that it's going to kill him." Tsunade explained.

"Yes. He told us that he was quite certain this wouldn't kill him, but I think he's starting to believe it." Kakashi said.

Tsunade sat down. "It shouldn't matter for much longer, should it?"

"Hopefully it won't matter."

"Hopefully?"

"The seal is stable for now, but it could still get worse." Kakashi leaned back. "Not only that, there really is no telling what reversing it further will do to Sasuke. But of course it's much better than leaving it as it is."

"The lesser of two evils." Tsunade muttered.

"It's nothing to worry about. If we find a problem I'll find some way to fix it. For now though we need to keep reversing this on schedule so that if he needs an additional few days to recover we can grant it to him." Jiraiya pointed out.

"I see... anything else?"

Jiraiya shook his head.

"Then let's watch." The Hokage pulled out the screen.

"I just can't believe you're really spying on them."

"Haven't you?" Tsunade glanced over at the jounin.

"Does that matter? After all this is strictly to monitor 'Sasuke's condition.'" Jiraiya answered at the same time.

Kakashi sighed, but kept his eye trained on the screen.

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Sasuke laid in bed, not looking quite as bad as last time. He was slowly waking up.

Naruto sat down. "Hey Sasuke."

His eyes fluttered open at the voice. Sasuke looks at the blond with blurred vision. "Naru...?"

"You look better than you did last time."

Sasuke smiled faintly from the comment; too drowsy to speak much.

"So was it as bad as you thought it would be?" Naruto asked.

"Not sure." Last time it had been a few hours before the sleepiness wore off enough for him to hurt.

"Well apart from looking sleepy, you really look a lot better."

"'m tired." Sasuke explained the sleepy look on his face.

"I know."

"Are you still mad at me?" Sasuke asked softly.

"Mad at you?"

"Yesterday we fought, didn't we?"

Naruto nodded. "I'm not mad. I was just frustrated."

"S'rry."

"It's alright Sasuke. Try not to worry about it and rest today alright?"

Sasuke yawned as he nodded in agreement. "Are you staying?"

"If you want I can."

"Please?"

Naruto nodded. "Sure. I'll stay."

Sasuke smiled. "Thank you."

"Heh. No need to thank me."

Sasuke snuggled deeper beneath the covers. "'s nice. You being here."

"Really? Heh. Normally you'd tell me it was irritating."

Sasuke shook his head. "'s nice."

Really, sometimes I have to wonder; who is this and what has he done with Sasuke" Not that I don't like the civility.

Sasuke yawned, his eyes sliding shut.

Naruto sat quietly and watched Sasuke. I wonder who's watching all this today.

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"See?" Tsunade asked Kakashi. "This is important so we can know Sasuke's mental status."

"Right..."

Jiraiya shrugged. "You can't deny that even if we don't get anything useful out if it, it is entertaining."

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Back in the room, Sasuke was half asleep. His hand unconsciously reached for Naruto's.

Naruto smiled a little. He gently took hold of Sasuke's hand.

Sasuke smiled a little wider, eyes closing. "Night..." he murmured.

Naruto shut his eyes for a second and smiled. He whispered quietly, "Night."

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Okay, fluff this time. That was a quick fight... Things will get shaken up soon, promise.

Thanks for reading and please review.

Ja min'na-san!