Hi guys here's another chapter I think after writing this story I will dedicate to write maybe oneshots or some not Au story of Karneval. Take care people =) thanks for reading.

Memento Mori

I can't believe I was actually able to escape from all. All of this, my past seems like a movie, the fact that I was never to feel was like a dream, I got close to a river, took my hands into the water, took it closer to my lips and sipped it. The refreshing taste of water as I closed my eyes, contentment, is what I felt. It was as if I had never parted on any instant from this world, the sounds of the animals from the forest.

This must mean... The deal with Hirato... is finally broken... A wide smile spread it way on my face, happiness spurred through my whole body, filling me from me finger tips to the top of my head, my heart beated hard on my chest, I felt new, and dirty. But good. It was a nice feeling, I love this world. I said taking a look at my dirty reflection. I must not smell very well and maybe a while ago I was bodiless but I should start thinking about living as a normal person again.

I stand up, so the town. I stsrted walking in the opposite direction of the river in order to be close to the main street that lead to the clossest towwn, actually, I am a bit weary of it becuase some people might remember me and there's also the fact that Hirato has great inflience over that area. There's also Gareth on the next town. I will try to pass by them unnoticed, and then while I continue my way hopefully I will find a town that at least to my eyes hasn't been tainted by them.

I walked through the forest and I didn't had the fears I had before to the darkness or the animals, somehow I thought maybe we all were in harmony, or I had been through so many traumatic events that I actually didn't feel it anymore, the fear and the desperation. I couldn't have the luxury my feeling on that anymore. But now I am free, it's a nice day and suddenly it as if he were dancing there with nature.

There's a waterfall and there in a clear close to it there's him in peace, I couldn't believe my eyes. I am all battered right now, but it's not as if I care much up to now. I make my way towards him. It looks just like Gareki or maybe Gareth's back. "Ga-re-ki" I feel a raspy voice come from within my throat, the birds leave along with the rest of the animals. It even sounded strange for me. He turned and it wasn't Gareki.

Maybe because of the shadows I saw his hair darker, and his frame like his. It was a face that even if it wasn't in the top priorities of my mind, I felt really glad to meet. He looked at me in what seemed a mirage of tenderness, and as I got closer to him I threw myself in his arms, and he hugged me. I laid my head in his lap and as I fell asleep I heard. "At least. Nai." He had been waiting for me somehow it was as if he always I have been convince that I will come back.

It felt good there I can leave my soul to him. I should have done things like this since the beginning. "Karoku" I said. "Shhhh" he answered. "Sleep, there's time for us. I will be here waiting for you, until you wake up." I let myself fall there in him. It was ease, and peace I really missed this. I felt I was waking up and it was still as soft as when I had fallen asleep, it was a lot warmer, and was much softer.

"Karoku!" I sat up scared. He might have left and everything had just been a dream, but I knew this place. I have had my eyes closed here before, and woken in the same bed. I stood up and walked towards the entrance. A cave. I knew this place like the back of my hand. Have I been reedemed? I saw someone sitting close to a palm looking towards the see. "You brought me here" I told him. He turned smiled and said "Yes, you had asked for it."

"I understand" I say. "But the person I thought I would meet here was not you." Karoku's eyes were lost in the sea in front of the island, which certainly seemed endless. "Gareki you mean" he said. "Well he's doing his part somewhere else. There's time. He will come in his time" I couldn't understand this words, but I do trust Karoku so at his time Gareki will come back to me. Sounds fair enough.

"At what time are the activities?" I asked him, I supposed they were going to do all the prayers, meditations, mantrams and so on as always. "At their time. You don't have to do them if you don't feel like it. This will be your home always" he said. I guess he impliyed that even thought if I didn't do the same as the other or worked for the greater good he wasn't going to ask me to leave the place or complain.

I guess I must have hurt him too in order for him to change so much, we are after all one, and I pushed him away from me. It must have been painful. "I am sorry" I told him. "It's fine is what you needed to do, at least now we will be able to go far, sometimes you wait for me, sometimes I wait for you. You're my strength and so when you must rest you rest and when I can I do. So maybe we will not go fast but rest assured that far we will" he said.

I smile at his word. He is a nice person, if he even is a person of course. I feel a warmth, it's his hand over mine, and turn to look at him. He turns and our gazes meet. "I am glad you came back" he says, in a very low voice which I barely grasp the words from, but I paid enough attention just to get them in the moment. They are mine, my hearts beats more rapidly, I can almost see my reflection in his eyes.

Watery sky blue eyes. Eyes like the sky. The real color of the sky is not blue, as the real color of the veins within is not blue, it must be in escense empty, insipid, colorless, odorless, and then temporarily something dirties it and its color is altered, never the less it's a sign that everything will take its course and will be fine. A sign of peacefulness. I want to get closer, but as I think this I can see the expresion on his face changes.

There's pity in his eyes, it's not that I am dirty is just that we are of different natures. He presses my hand, gets closer and gives me a kiss on the cheek. I feel his breath close to my ear. "Welcome home" he whispers. Stands up, and I try to see him but he seems to have taken steps towards the sunlight and I can figure out his expresion anymore. "You said now things will be different." he says and throws something towards me in the air. I look down to my hands and I see a golden ring.

"Well then make them different." He says and leaves.

Well up until now everything has been really philosophical in someway I hope in the future I can write more romantic things. =) thank you for reading. hugs =)