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Julius POV

I just sat there in dumbstruck silence, a warm flush soon creeping up my neck as I stare profoundly at the bathroom door, which poor Sayu, has now barricaded herself in, no doubt from my act of foolish affection.

What did I just do?

The scene was such a blur to begin with, I truly don't think I would have even had the capability to realize what I was doing even If I had tried. For I, myself couldn't have even foreseen such a thing happening, and surely not at a more pathetic time than this.

She was just within my grasp, I keenly realize to myself, trying to put together the cause of my actions and why I couldn't even follow through with the simple act of restraining myself. It was just too easy I suppose, she was nearly an inch from my mouth and the temptation proved to much, for I had to go and defile her lips again with my bitter own, selfishly acting on my desires instead of logic.

I wanted to kiss her and I did, that's all there is to it.

"Agh.." I suddenly groan in subtle remorse, my head already beginning to ache from the troubling conclusion.

And then what do I say when she comes and innocently questions me , "Why did you do it?"

Because you make me happy, Sayu.

Because I care, Sayu.

Because I want you to stay, Sayu.

Because I like you, Sayu.

Because I love you, Sayu.

Of all the many things I could have said at such a considerate moment, what do I say?

"I don't know."

Kissing someone is one thing, but to blatantly lie in there face about why you did it is another, proof to me, that I am indeed a horrible person after all. No matter what I may try or do, there is one thing that can not be changed, and that is the sole fact that did indeed kiss Sayu, and that there will never be a way to take that back, nor will there ever be a way to fix it I'm afraid.

Great, just, great.

Why must I have such an uncanny habit of ruining potential relationships?

A shaky breath slowly falls from my lips as I find myself now leaning for support against the bathroom door, my saucy apparel now the least my problems.

Ju-Julius just kissed me ! Julius the recluse of a clockmaker and someone I had just considered more of a nuisance than anything, Just flat out kissed me! I heavily shudder at the memory as my nose suddenly fills with his scent, the mechanical oil and grease apparently lingering on my lips.

I squeak a bit as my face readily flushes from just from the thought and find myself looking into the mirror only to see my reddened complexion as i nervously whimper under the new development that I obviously would have never seen coming. J-Julius just kissed me! My mind acknowledges again making the whole blushing process continue along with the nervous clicking of my heels.

Ju-Julius just kissed me and it sure as hell surprised me more than anything. It was just so fast and so sudden, I mean that was completely uncalled for! Anybody with common sense knows fairly well that you just don't randomly make out with people...unless you're either desperate or just flat our drunk, which lucky for everybody as well as myself, I have never been. And Julius doesn't really seem to strike me as the desperate type, I mean yeah he's desperate and pathetic, but he doesn't seem like the kinda guy that would just choose to kiss just anybody...especially me of all people!

I mean he can't possibly...l-like me can he?

A steady groan quickly releases from my lips in response, my head spinning and beginning to ache with that so called possibility...

"No." I flatly deny myself from further reasoning as I try to both answer and silence the numerous thoughts now swirling about in my head

No Sayu, don't even go there, remember what happened last time you did? So no, there isn't the slightest chance that Julius likes me, he just did that because I was obviously too close and because of his many manly hormones and shit, I mean he's probably never even experienced any kind of romance so of course he's gonna jump at the first thing he sees, which just so happens in this case to be me. See makes perfect sense? Don't conclude things without evidence first, I learned that lesson the hard way, and even when A guy does make romantic gestures at you, they aren't always genuine some people just do it for the enjoyment because there sick little twits. So right now, Julius is starting to earn that title.

I mean let's be honest, I'm like a freakin' casualty when it comes to romance, I've been shot down so many times that I barely even try anymore, seeing no reason to get myself bruised again when my heart has clearly had enough pain. I guess I'm unattractive in some way? no matter what I tried in my old world there was never really anything i could do to even gain a guys attention, I mean romantically speaking. I mean am I that unattractive?

The thought just makes my gaze lower a bit, suddenly not having the heart to view my hideous face. Gawd, If I was prettier I bet I could be battling situations like this all the time.

Wait.

What, am I seriously getting bummed down about being kissed, and by Julius no less? I mean I can't be attracted to him right?

...

No, Of course not! we have polar opposite personalities that are always clashing. I'm loud and crazy, he's quite, irritable, and reserved, the two don't mix at all. So there's no way...right?

...

Agh! Who am I kidding, I don't even know which way is right anymore! I don't even know how to respond to these situations, let alone face them! A guy just kissed me, how do normal girls respond to this sort of thing? return the favor? Um, hell no, that freak has already sabotaged my precious lips twice now, making my actual first kiss less cute and important...and the worst thing is, I can't even feel flipping anything! Isn't it when you kiss that fireworks are supposed to be set of in side your head, and your body on fire? I felt none of that stuff! To me if was just like a quick peck, there was no emotion connected there whatsoever, so I didn't feel anything...Damn and kissing is supposed to be addicting.

"augh..." another coarse sigh slips from my lips, already beginning to feel a headache coming on from such an ordeal.

I mean how do I even respond to this situation now? To the possibility that Julius maybe likes me? I can't just go back in there and act like everything is all normal again (even though I know the current situation was anything from it...) that just doesn't happen. If anything it'll be as awkward as hell, which is just another thing I'm not good at!

Gawd!

I let out a defeated sigh as I suddenly slide along the door the the comfort of the cold tiled floor, my thoughts more jumbled and screwed up as ever. I hate emotions, I hate anything remotely to do to them! Why do I have to feel, all it ever does is bring me trouble!

with this conclusion a slight tremor travels along my body as I suddenly am aware of my lower lip quivering. Oh Great, Here comes the water works. (which is yet another thing I hate about emotions...) Before long, a silent trial of tears are dripping down my narrow face as I cry in confusion and frustration. What's wrong with me? Tearing up at the simple mention of emotional ties?

"What's wrong with me?" I just hollowly ask to myself, trying as I might to appease the answer out of myself, but to no luck. It seems I don't even know what the hell is wrong with me, I don't think I ever do. I guess I'm just emotionally disturbed, which in my sense is more like hell than anything.

a few audible hiccups echo out of my throat as i let my sobs ride out, choking down all the bitterness and confusion, and don't forget frustration, that comes with a situation like his. My hands furiously wipe away at my burning and surely reddened eyes, trying to partially stop my trial of tears, for crying does you no good at all, at least that is what I believe.

"Hnng." a sudden sniffle leaves my nose as I force the pathetic show of emotion to stop, almost holding my breath, my cheeks puffing out in a pout, to stop the rush of tears that were finally beginning to dry up.

Amen! I almost praise as I steadily lift myself off the floor, giving a good and hard stare at my reflection as I try to tidy myself up to as 'normal' as completely possible.

Alright time to do this! And by this I me an to beat a logical explanation out of that sorry son of a clockmaker. I'm gonna make Julius fully remember why nobody dares to toy with me and my emotions. Nobody makes me and cry and gets away with it.

My mouth falls into a quick dry smile at this as I boldly swing the bathroom door open, venturing out into the unknown.

A sudden slam! makes me nearly topple over in my seat as I quickly jerk my head up, already trying to configure the origin of the un-godly noise. I soon find myself, however, sitting stark still as the presence of a young foreigner nearly barrels through the bathroom door, leaving an embarrassed blush to settle over my face.

I knew she would have to come out sometime but never in a million years did I imagine that she would come out so boldly and with such stark precision. My mouth releases somewhat of a surprised gasp and then falls dumbly silent as I stare over her somewhat battered figure, more or likely caused by my sudden and rash show of affection.

She walks towards me in a stiff silence, the quietest I've ever seen her, a look of pure confusion and torment soon fumbling about in her cool, azure eyes.

"Julius?" she abruptly mutters, in somewhat of a cracked voice, as I'm now able to see her, now clearly taking note of both the dark and glossy appearance to her eyes.

...

Did I make her cry?

My eyes gape a the simple but complex thought, as I'm unable to say anything as pure guilt begins to heavily lay itself on me.

"mm?" Is all I'm unable to manage, suddenly aware of the presence of a rather tight knot in my throat, making it even the utmost difficulty to breathe, let alone speak.

"Why?" I then hear her question in alarm, her thin lips trembling, leaving me ajar as to what to say or to do.

I just dryly swallow as she approaches me now, only stopping to place her tightly gripped hands upon my desk, her hard glare never once drifting as she does so.

"Why, what?" I simply muse in curiosity, just as inpatient as she continues to ask such profound questions, I have no idea what she is trying to ask, she's usually so direct, this attitude of hers has thrown me a bit off course.

She then releases a pent up growl as her face heavily flushes, her facade now beginning to crumble, "Why did you do that?!" she bluntly yells at me, as i quickly jump back at her furiousity, but also silently sighing in relief as she becomes her rowdy self again.

Ah, so this is what she's upset about. I soft sigh manages to flee my lips as I hunch back in the abyss of my chair. It figures, I can't just go around and do ludicrous things to people without such a response, especially Sayu, who has an uncanny habit of being rather stubborn and loudly opinative.

"I'm sorry." I sheepishly apologize, as I'm forced to suck up whatever pride or dignity I have left within this situation, although I'm truly the one at fault here.

My eyes quickly scan her for any response, but find none as she angry clicks her teeth together, apparently deeply unsatisfied with my sincere apology.

"Sorry my ass!" she angrily reprehends with a scowl, as she begins to take her frustration out on my desk as she abruptly starts banging her fist upon it.

I just flinch back at her rather dramatic behavior, which really isn't surprising in the least, my own temper beginning to rise at her ridiculous response.

"Well what do you want me to say?" I stiffly confront with a scowl of my own, making hers grown increasingly hostile as she glowers down at me with the utmost rage and malice. as her anger begins to return, leaving us back at square one. Her touch is enough to make me flinch, but even more so in pain as she rightly smacked the hell out of my hand, making me heavily reconsider trying to console her within physical means.

"Don't touch me!" shes angrily hisses, her scowl turning quite sour as she then abruptly turns her back to me and begins to angrily trudge towards the tower door.

The action alone infuriates me but leaves me more concerned than anything, partially because she is still erm, adorned in Gowland's bunny suit.

"W-Where do you think you're going?" I heavily stress in clear concern, my chair soon loudly scraping across the floor as I make a great haste to halt her rash actions. I'm deeply afraid for her safety is she continues to prance around in that disgraceful outfit.

She abruptly stops amid her escape and bitterly lashes out, "Out." she growls in exasperation, quickly turning my way to give me one of the most deeply distressing and vexing glances I've ever seen her with before quickly slamming the door in my face.

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Well, that went over quite smoothly.

Sayu's POV

"That insensitive jerk!" I angrily fume amid my trek down the clock tower's mile high stairs, which does nothing to quell the boiling anger inside me.

I stop, finally, only when I pause to sling open the heavy door, only to be met with quite a dreary sky above me, that honestly is fitting my mood rather well. Again I slam the heavy door with a bitter growl and am soon aware of the fact that it is literally freezing out here!

Gawd! Why the hell is it so cold out here?! I then am quickly brought to the stiff realization that I still have a bunny suit on. Well that's just dandy...

"Aghhh.." I thick groan of dissatisfaction escapes my tight lips as begin I to awkwardly mumble under my breath, No matter how cold I am...I just made an extremely dramatic exit and just can't go back anytime soon. It would just defeat the purpose all together along with the fact that i happen to be bull-headed.

But Damn it's cold! With my limbs soon beginning to feel like their about to fall off, I quickly bundle myself the best way I know how, by crossing my arms, and continue the freezing cold trek to a destination, where-ever that may be.

I know I can't return back to amusement park...especially looking like this, but do I really have anywhere else I can go?

My face makes quite a sour expression as I examine my options amid my fast pace, now trying to narrow down the only options I have. Go back to Julius and bear with the fact that he practically sexually harassed you me? Or go back to Gowland dressed like this and be turned into a show... Both of them are equally as embarrassing as they are frustrating so I guess neither of them?

Augh, this is crazy! I nearly through my hands up at the thought and finally am brought back to reality as the cold numbness of my skin soon begins to dissipate, making me finally lock onto my current surroundings.

Woah...My eyes gape at the sight as I find myself completely surrounded by shrubbery and a sea of green everywhere I look, oddly enough reminding me of my home as i gaze up to the wide tree tops. How did I end up in the woods? I know wonderland has quite a habit to place your in strange places but this is a bit extreme, I mean how the hell did I end up in a forest from only 10 minutes of walking, and more so, how?

How did I become so lost so quickly? I don't even remember walking even near any forest let alone somewhere other than Julius oddly frigid clock tower, but I could have sworn I was headed towards town...

A panicked gasp flees from me, as an odd chill surrounds me, making me, as you can imagine, highly uncomfortable. I nearly jump out of my skin as a nearby bush rustles causing me to give a short screech of terror as I swiftly look behind me, an odd sense of my sixth sense coming over me.

"H-Hello?" I nervously find myself stuttering to no one in particular, although I can't shake the feeling that I'm being watched.

In a panic, I find myself seeking comfort, in any form at all, and quickly sprint to a large oak tree off the the side of the musty forest route, and release a sigh of release as i suddenly feel quite safe again.

Phew, that was really creepy, Now I just need to get myself the hell outta here and go live in a tent or whatever until I can find another suitable living option, which as you can imagine won't be that easy with all of Wonderland's precarious rules. Ugh, I swear this place makes me feel like such a child.

I just hastily shake my thoughts off, more concerned about the fact now that I have become apparently lost in a dense forest, and am now, literally hugging a tree for safety.

Great.

"Now what am I going to do?" I sourly insist upon myself, a dry sigh fleeing my lips.

I wait a few minutes silence as I concentrate on the sound of the wind, almost as if I expected a rather callous answer from that idiot, Julius, but am brought back to the steady reality that I'm in a flipping forest, probably at least a mile or two from the clocktower along with it's master.

"...Why such the long face?"

Wait, What?

a frightened gasp suddenly flees my mouth as I come to the stiff realization that I just indeed heard a very suave voice ask me a daunting question, leaving me both appalled and petrified at the same time.

Who could that be?

I hastily glance around, soon catching a large shadow hovering over me, and precariously lift my head up, truly frightened by the prospect of the unknown. just as I had expected, my eyes soon meet with a handsome stranger, leaving me almost as speechless as ever.

My eyes widen at the sight of the young man, seeing as his hair is the fairest shade of crimson I've ever seen, along with his oddly placed eye patch that he's adorned on his left eye. Just the sight of him is odd enough, his outfit only enhancing that matter, as I soon notice he has on what appears to be a jesters hat and black and red checkered pants, which only heightens my suspicion about this stranger. Is he from a run away circus or something?

"Who are you?" I now find myself roughly asking, as I steadily distance myself from the odd character, a cold panic beginning to set in.

The man just gives a slight laugh at my gruff response and smiles, his red orbs glaring at me quite curiously.

"My name is Joker."

UH OH Joker's on the scene! Adding Joker to the story was actually one of FloraRose23's many suggestions to me and i actually added it to my story to spice things up a bit!

So what do you think is going to happen? Is sayu entering into the 'April' season of wonderland?

As always feel free to R&R as well as leaving your comments and suggestions :D I hope you all have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! I'm finally done with my finals so I'm hoping to start writing more frequently now that I'm off of school :D