I screamed out, God when would I stop? I could feel myself thrashing around like I was being tied down or something, I felt a pain that no longer centered on my ribs, my leg, or even my head. It was a pain that indescribably pulsated through my veins, running its poisonous course.
I felt a hand latch on to mine, forcing my fingers to wrap around there's. I got a weird feeling, something that told me this hand should feel cold to me but it felt…normal.
Next I felt a set of lips placing themselves on my forehead, I felt like I was burning up, like I was running a high fever, or worse on fire.
"Bella calm down" the voice pleaded but I didn't if anything I just screamed out more this time with words
"Make it stop!" I yelled, I felt myself crying but couldn't feel any tears run down my cheeks, they were just tearless sobs.
"It will all be over soon" the voice whispered, this time in my ear. The way the words hit me calmed me down slightly, to the point where I was just breathing heavily. Every part of me hurt and burned and I felt like I was dying, and whoever was speaking too me was just there to watch me suffer.
"What's happening?" I asked my voice a high shrill to the point of breaking.
My throat burned and it felt like I couldn't speak anymore
"It will all be over soon" the voice said again.
I heard footsteps echo off the floor coming closer as they entered whatever room I was in
"How is she?" the voice was calm and dull, like they weren't really interested just forced to come check up on me
"She's fine Rosalie" the voice said through clenched teeth
"She doesn't look like she's enjoying it to much" the voice replied bored
"Did any of us!" the voice snapped as they squeezed my hand.
I was quiet now; the only thing that could be heard was my whimpering. Suddenly, the name Rosalie clicked in my head, it was a delayed reaction but a reaction none the less.
Then it hit my like I had just ran full force into a brick wall, Victoria, Matthew, the hospital, the fighting, the fear.
I shot myself up from where I was lying; sitting up surprising Edward as he sat in a chair next to me
"Bella!" he said jumping up alongside of the bed I was in. I looked over to him and then to Rosalie, a shocked expression frozen on her face.
"I'll go get Carlisle" she mumbled, then swiftly left the room.
"Edward…" I breathed, trying to break through the pain and seeing his face seemed too dormant it for now.
"I'm here" he said with a relieved tone, he leaned in and kissed me again in the same place he had before on my forehead.
"Edward what happened?" I asked hoping this time I would get more than an "It will be over soon"
He hesitated for a second, indecision shone through his eyes, his golden eyes, like he was afraid of what he was about to tell me.
I couldn't wait though and my stubbornness took control, I swung me legs off the bed getting up completely. I noticed right away that we were in Edward's room. I walked over to the only mirror I saw, my legs and hands shaking. Before I even got to it I knew what I was going to see, I knew now what had happened to me it all made sense.
I heard Edward get up and then heard his footsteps as he followed close behind me. I hesitated a few steps before I reached the mirror, stopping completely. I spun around to face Edward and he stared back
"Am I going to like what I see?" my question blindsided him and he fumbled for the words
"I don't know…" was his only reply, and I sighed shaking my head
"I'm afraid to look…" my voice was shaky now just like the rest of my body. He grabbed on to my hand and it felt warm, I looked down at our hands wondering if he was wearing a glove or something but still even with a glove his touch would be ice cold. His hand was normal though, just like mine…wait just like mine.
Our skin seemed to be translucent, like the light was shining right through it making it look paler than the moon itself. I snatched my hand away cradling it against my chest with my other pale white hand. He didn't seem at all surprised at my reaction nor did he try to stop me as I finished my walk to the mirror.
I closed my eyes steadying myself in front of the glass that would give me my answer, I felt Edward place a hand on my shoulder
"I'm right here" he whispered, I squeezed my eyes shut straining my cheekbones. Feeling like I waited to long, I opened them taken aback from what I saw.
I turned around immediately, feeling like I would much rather stare at Edward than myself but there were little things on Edward's face that reflected me now. His eyes, his skin, his perfect features, and all these things I had now too, even if I looked in the mirror only for a second I had seen enough to know what I was.
"How…" I said feeling like this was a dream, my knees started to shake and I leaned in to Edward feeling like I couldn't support myself anymore.
"You were dying…this was the only way we could save you" his voice was quiet and I could tell he was having trouble with this. I lifted my head up from Edward's chest when I heard the door open.
"Bella, Edward" Carlisle greeted us individually, he kept his eyes on me though, taking me all in as I was
"How are you feeling?" he asked not hesitating to walk up to me
"I'm sure you've seen" he said again making me cringe, trust me I saw.
He examined me for a second, like a doctor would do for his patient
"I'm sure you're hungry…" Edward tensed up beside me as I nodded
"Yeah…" I hadn't noticed before but I was starving.
"That's normal of course you know how it works" I felt a little out of place, was I the only one scared as to what I had become, I hated to admit it –since this is what I had wanted ever since meeting Edward- but I wasn't ready, I wasn't ready to say goodbye to my family, to my friends, to my life.
Edward pulled Carlisle aside letting me stand before the mirror again, words that used to sound like low hums now where clear to me, there would be no more secrets.
I took a trembling hand to my cheek feeling my skin, it was rock hard….I wasn't used to it. My eyes were a deep red scaring me just a little and my hair was no longer a heap of mess, it was smooth and wavy like I had just ran a brush right through it. It was like I was staring at a stranger, I didn't think that the transformation could change me this much but it did. If Charlie saw me right now he would have to take a second look to finally realize it was me, Oh Charlie.
I spun myself around noticing Carlisle had already left the room
"I need to see Charlie…I need to say Renee" my voice heightened with fear, I wasn't ready to leave them yet.
"You can't" Edward said sighing; a small sob broke from my lips alarming Edward. In two quick strides he was already wrapping his arms around my waist. I welcomed his hung wrapping my own arms around his neck squeezing him as hard as I could, my chin rested on his shoulders as another sob broke out but there was no tears, I was already starting to forget how it felt like to cry.
"I need to see them" I said again
"I'm sorry it had to happen like this" he pulled me back taking one of my hands and placing it on my cheek, I closed my eyes leaning in to it
"I couldn't lose you Bella, I wouldn't be…" he trailed off too pained to finish, now I was the one comforting him.
I kissed him on the lips softly at first but then the anger and fear rose up in my throat and I kissed him harder. He didn't hesitate like he usually did and I realized there would be no more boundaries, this made me even more excited.
My lips parted and so did his, I felt like I was going to faint as I felt his breath hit mine, cooling me from the inside out and I was probably doing the same. He pulled back though and brushed the hair from my face
"Bella your upset…" he whispered, his breath hitting my cheek now
"No, no I'm not" I protested feeling like a little kid. He smiled my favorite crooked smile
"You are that's why we're not doing this now"
"But!" I said again, he quieted me by placing a finger against my lips
"We have to speak with the others first" and with that, he grabbed me by the hand and led me downstairs.
I'm going to stop here for tonight because I'm getting writers block haha, I don't know if I should carry this story further, I feel like I've reached it's limit but we'll see. Thanks for all your guys comments I love them. Actually your comments are the reason I'm still writing so again Thank you! I really appreciate that you guys are enjoying this so much
-Stephanie