Last chapter left me a bit angsty so I'm updating a bit sooner than anticipated because... I want to get the reader out of the sadness and into the fluff, but can't rush it so... :P

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You sat at the kitchen table with them, holding a warm cup of sunflower tea. "I…" You looked down, emotions still very real and agonizing. "Dreamt that day Jacob died… but instead of Jacob, it was Sans."

"W-what happened that day?" Alphys' eyes swept you inquisitively. You had never really explained to them how it all happened. You didn't mind talking about Jacob, but the accident was different... that was painful.

You chewed your lip, the floodgate of grief ready to come crashing down again as you felt the raw emotions of that day, "The day he died… We were on our way to the OBGYN… to find out what sex our baby was." You whispered quietly.

"Wait, you were pregnant?" Undyne's loud voice made you winced. You nodded feebly.

"A drunk driver jumped his car over the median… Jacob… died shortly after. And…" Your voice choked up. "the accident… detached the placenta…" Tears flowed down your face. "When I woke up in the hospital… they were both gone…" You a loud sob escaped your lips. Alphys rubbed your back.

You took a deep and shaky breath. "Jacob was a donor so they revived him long enough to harvest his organs…" You unceremoniously blew your nose into a tissue Undyne offered. "When I woke up, I was alone. The two people I loved more than anything were gone… and I never got to say goodbye."

You continued to weep, and they sat by you; Alphys rubbing your back and Undyne offering tissues.

"And the thought of losing Sans… I… I can't…" They froze, looked to each other, eyes apprehensive.

"What do you mean?" Undyne queried guardedly.

You had to wait for your crying to subside. "Something happened to me… I can't explain it, but it's like I need Sans. Like I can't live without him… and I hate myself for it."

Alphys smiled nervously, playing with her fingers. "I know t-that you're a p-private p-p-person, but I-I feel l-like I s-should take a l-look a-at your soul."

You stared into your cup, chewing your lip. When Alphys began her soul study project at the firm a lot of people at your work were chomping at the bit to have their soul looked at, curious about what their primary attribute was; you were not one of them.

"T-to make s-sure every t-thing is o-ok?"

Your voice was tiny, and a shadow of a whisper, "ok."

She directed you to sit in front of you, explaining how everything would feel, and no matter what, to not panic. She placed a hand on your chest, instructing you to breathe evenly. A small tugging at your chest, and a light began to glow. You could feel the sensation of your body grow distant, like it was a muffled, but the sounds of the world around you heightened; like the ticking of the clock.

When you looked at Alphys she was black and white, and when you looked down, there was your soul, a dark blue heart.

"I knew it. She's an integrity soul!" Undyne puffed out her chest in pride.

Alphys nodded, "I-I thought s-she would b-be too. Look, her s-secondary t-trait is p-patience." A light blue throbbed inside of the dark blue.

"I thought souls only had one color." You mused quietly.

Alphys shook her head. "Children do, a-adults are m-more c-complex and o-often have more traits t-that function u-under their p-primary trait."

You mouthed an 'oh'.

She leaned closer, her hands cupping your soul when she gasped, her eyes sparkling. She looked back at you, then at your soul, "Undyne, l-look!"

"What," You tried to move forward, but your body was sluggish to respond. Undyne leaned in, her eye narrowing when she gasped and looked at you before looking at Alphys.

"He didn't!?" Undyne's disbelief and shock was easily heard in her tone, then looked to you her sharp grin in place.

"What!" You stammered, your voice full of trepidation. " 'He didn't' what?"

Alphys adjusted her glasses then looked at you, her nervous smile replaced by an eager one. "W-when did y-you n-notice things were d-d-different?"

You closed your eyes, your mind reaching back into your memories. "Sans showed up at the apartment and I blacked out. When I woke up, nurses and doctors were running around. Pain, so much pain. I tried to fight, but they pinned me down, and put an oxygen mask on my face… and everything went dark again.

"But it was darker than dark. It was pitch black, and I was floating around. Then this warm white feeling surrounded me. It was… begging me to stay, to live. I… I wanted to live, I wanted to stay with that comforting feeling because there was so much love in that feeling… so I just threw all of me into it. I wanted to live so badly… and then… I woke up, and after that Sans was there."

Alphys swallowed, and looked down to your soul again. "W-what do y-you see?"

You leaned forward, peering at your soul, beckoning it closer. It eagerly floated to you, resting in-between your hands. It was such a dark and pure blue, with gentle flashes of aqua blue under the surface, and when you leaned closer, you could see thin white threads. Beautiful and strong white threads, and the longer you stared at them, the stronger that feeling of love surged.

"What is that?"

Alphys swallowed and looked at Undyne, who returned her look then nodded. "That's a part of Sans soul."

You blinked, then looked up at the girls. "What?" They continued to watch you. "Why would his soul be wrapped around mine?"

They remained silent.

You continued to stare at the threads, completely lost when the words of that nurse echoed in your thought. "He did something to save you. I didn't know monsters had magic to revive humans."

If you weren't sitting your legs would have gave out on you, and your stomach clenched and twisted. "He bonded to me?" Your pitch rose dramatically. You looked at both monsters, your eyes wide, and adrenaline pumping. "He did, didn't he?"

Alphys nodded reluctantly. "Oh god, that's why I feel everything, isn't it?"

"No." Alphys answered quietly.

"No?" You repeated, your brows furrowed.

She released you from the encounter, your soul floated back to your chest, all the sensations of your body returning full force and the throbbing in your side a painful reminder that you needed your next dose of Percocet.

"Y-you f-feel e-everything b-b-because you b-b-bonded as w-well."

"What? No! That's impossible." You dismissed, your hand holding your side.

She looked down nervously, "Y-you did t-though. I-it e-explains e-e-everything."

"But … humans can't bond…"

Alphys started playing with her fingers again. "T-the only b-bonds that have e-ever b-b-been a-attempted w-were when a h-human was well a-and h-healthy, b-but your n-near d-d-death s-state a-allowed y-your soul t-to reciprocate h-his b-bond."

"How does that even make sense?" You were too numb to feel at this point.

Alphys gave you a studious look. "W-when a monster p-p-performs a bond t-they g-give themselves to their p-partner. I-it is s-sharing an e-extension of your p-person… imagine I c-could take the m-most important part of m-myself, and wrap i-it around you, like s-strings; it's a v-very selfless a-act." She paused. "B-because you're m-made of m-m-matter, it w-won't let y-you bond. Even w-with an e-encounter, your m-matter is s-still there, and s-sending signals to y-your soul; the soul, the emotions, a-and the body have t-to perfectly sync. That's w-why humans haven't b-bonded with m-monsters."

"So I was in sync to bond with him?"

She shook her head. "N-no, y-y-your body i-is always sending messages. Your brain i-is f-firing neurons, your h-heart is beating, y-your lungs are b-breathing, your t-thoughts p-p-processing, and your e-emotions. It p-prevents the b-bonding. W-when you d-died, you h-had absolutely n-no physical i-i-interference. Y-your soul c-could proceed w-with the ritual. I-i-if y-you didn't come b-back after he i-initiated the ritual, h-he would have d-d-died."

"What?" Your breath caught.

Undyne nodded, "Honestly, I can't believe he tried that. It's gutsy. Definitely not like the lazy Sans we know."

You sat still, refocusing your gaze on the empty cup of tea in your hands. So… these feelings, they were because you had bonded your soul to Sans… and his behavior was because he did the same. It made so much sense and made no sense at the same time. Your heart felt tight, and your stomach felt like it was tied in knots.

Angry tears welled your eyes, and you blinked them back. You didn't know how to go forward, or even how to feel.

"So… he accidentally bonded to me, or whatever, to save me?"

"No." Undyne's voice was clear and loud. You glanced up. "I mean, yes, he did it to save you, but a monster never initiates unless they mean it. It's something that is done deliberately."

You jaw clenched. "Oh, so he bonded to me because it was convenient? Why would he even do that if he wanted nothing to do with me before?"

"We can't answer that. That's something only he knows."

You fell silent again, so many emotions swirling inside of you. Anger, frustration, fear, elation, confusion, and longing for him to be here… Just to stand next to your side. "Why did he hide this from me? Can't this destroy him? Bonding to a human?"

Alphys nodded.

Your friends sat patiently as you digested everything, your anger steadily growing. "I trusted him to tell me when he was ready but… damn it." you hit your fists against the table, the mugs clattering against the surface, and you flinched. "How could he think that this wasn't something I needed to know? I just so tired of this bullshit…" Finally hot tears broke free and ran down your face and you let out a frustrated growl. "I can't do this, I can't do the secrets." You stood up so abruptly the chair toppled over. "I've been so patient and understanding, and I'm so tired of feeling like his puppet! I can't handle the lies!" You turned swiftly on your heel, storming up the stairs.

You grabbed your cellphone, ripping the charger out of the wall and started searching through your contacts when Alphys plucked the phone from your grasp, Undyne walking in right behind her.

"T-this is a d-delicate t-topic. I'm s-sure he h-had his reasons."

"He can't pull crap like this!" You cried frantically. "I don't think you realize how serious this is. I was ready to cut him off before this all happened, and now he's the monster equivalent of my spouse!"

"That's why this is a delicate topic. He probably hasn't even realized that you reciprocated the bond, because humans usually don't. Ever. In the history of humankind." Undyne calmly replied, leaning against the doorframe.

You gave her a hard stare, then Alphys. "How am I supposed to go forward with this? He won't even tell me what he did, and now," tears were flowing again, "I'm stuck with him, and I can't even… I can't even get him to be honest with me for five minutes." You angrily scrubbed the tears on your cheeks. "I've bound my soul to someone who fucks with me…"

"Oh, nerd." Undyne said softly, stepping forward and hugging you. You sniffled and wrapped your arms around her. Alphys hugged your other side.

"Oh god, I'm bonded to a manwhore…" You laughed between sobs. "Undyne, it's all your fault."

"Hey nerd, don't blame me. You wanted the money."

"Bitch's gotta get paid." You sniffled, and they laughed with you.

Once you got your tears out, you sat on your bed. Undyne pulled up a chair sitting on it backwards, and Alphys sat on your bed with you.

"Since you've bonded, I guess we should give you a heads up on some of the things you'll experience." Undyne grinned sharply, her eye dancing with mischief. You nodded, sitting cross-legged. "Whenever you're close to him, and vice versa, if you feel emotions strongly they will too, and you can't really go more than a few days without him because your soul needs his."

"Great." Your sarcasm was ignored.

"D-do humans h-have h-heat?"

"What? Like body heat?"

She shook her head, "N-no, l-like a period where y-you're prime f-for mating, and your s-sex drive i-is amped up."

"Uhh, no? I mean, we have our cycles, and woman are usually more fertile like a week before their period but we're not inherently more horny during our cycles… or at least I never was."

"U-um, ok."

"Wait, am I going to start having these 'heats'?" You put finger quotes around the word.

She shrugged smiling nervously.

"Oh god." You buried your face in your hands, horrified by the idea of becoming an insatiable nympho… at the same time as Sans. "Oh my god… I'm going to have to… Sans and I…" Your eyes were wide with panic. "It's going to happen, isn't it?"

She and Undyne shared a nervous look and both smiled weakly.

You grabbed a pillow and buried your face in it, screaming. Just when you thought it was bad enough that your soul was entangled by that skeleton… "Why do you monsters have such freaky mating customs." Your muffled whine escaped the throw pillow.

"Don't tell me you never thought about going to the bone zone." Undyne teased, playfully punching you in the arm.

Your head shot up, and you let out a long breath. "I never… Ok, but that was like over a month ago, before Sans got weird, and treated me like a freaking pariah. How the hell am I supposed to approach him now knowing what we are? Like, don't get me wrong, I'm glad I'm alive, but… it's like… because of that… I feel like," You paused thinking of the best way to phrase the words. "I want him and I don't? Should I bring it up with him?"

They looked at each other then at you. "Let him bring it up."

You nodded, your grip tightening on the pillow. Good thing you had a lot patience because, knowing Sans, he might take forever.

They asked you a few more questions, and answered a few until it was time for them to get ready for work. You were still on medical leave, and could go back in another week or so. With so much to process, you pulled out the guitar, mindlessly strumming on it or play riffs.

Eventually they left, and you were alone, with your thoughts.

So you weren't crazy. That was good. Unfortunately you were in a situation where your feelings warred with each other. Knowing this brought some peace of mind, but you still had other concerns. Since you were the first human to soul bond, you had no idea what other side effects could exist, and how severe they could be.

The only known trait which differed you from monsters was your ability to love like Sans and hate him (or more accurately, your attachment to him) at the same time…

But… was initiating a soul bond without the persons consent an okay thing? Maybe that was why Sans had never said anything, because what he did was… a super mega taboo.

Shaking your head, you set down your guitar, decided to dress in something warm and comfortable. Maybe a walk around the park across the street would help ease your mind.

Leaves were finally changing color into vibrate yellows, oranges, and bright reds, and it was cool enough for a sweater, but too warm for a jacket. The fresh air lifted your spirits. Exercising was how you normally dealt with stress, but since you were not allowed do anything aside from light walking, this would have to suffice.

You couldn't help but wonder what Sans was up to. You wanted to bring up what was going on, but then, you had no clue how to go about it. Were you mad that he did this to you?

Kind of?

What he did, did save your life, but now you were eternally bound to him, until your last breath. You wanted to live, was this the price? Were you okay with that? You pushed those thoughts to the side, deciding to think about them later. With all the time on your hands, you would have plenty of time to process everything.

You pulled out your phone and decided to send a text. What better way to test the waters then to send a friendly joke.

Me 1:13 pm

Hey, been a minute but I just found the best dinosaur joke.

Sans the Skeleton 1:14 pm

*you and your dinosaur jokes

Me 1:14pm

Well, they are of Jurassic Proportions, but enough of my terrible puns. What do you call a blind dinosaur?

Sans the Skeleton 1:14 pm

*i don't know, what?

Me 1:15 pm

adoyouthinkhesaurus

Sans the Skeleton 1:16pm

*that was terrible… i… i can't even.

Me 1:20 pm

You're telling a fibula! That was the best ever.

Sans 1:21 pm

*you have a tendoncy to get carried away with dinosaur jokes

Me 1:22 pm

Oh… I'll show you carried away… What is a dinosaur's least favorite reindeer?

Sans the Skeleton 1:22pm

*…what?

Me 1:23 pm

Comet!

Sans the Skeleton 1:23pm

*ok… that one was actually pretty good.

You chuckled in victory, then gasped as a cool breeze sent shivers down your spine. You looked up in the distance and saw a mom sitting on a blanket with a baby that was bundled up cozy and warm, taking pictures.

A rueful smile tugged at your lips, and you watched the mother with her baby, for the first time in a long time the thoughts of 'what if' toyed with you.

Me 1:39 pm

Kinda weird being out of the hospital… things feel different.

Sans the Skeleton 1:39pm

*is everything ok?

Me 1:44 pm

Yeah, I guess… just… idk... sorry to bug you.

Sans the Skeleton 1:45 pm

*aw don't tell me you're bonely without me ;)

Your breath caught, and your cheeks flushed as you held your phone to your chest. Maybe texting Sans was a bad idea.

Me 1:51pm

Yep. Your company this past week was Sansational :p

You shoved your phone into your pocket and headed home, embarrassed. Even through text Sans was throwing you off your game, your only condolence was the fact that you now understood why… Damn it Sans.

The rest of your day was spent in solitude, which you were excited for, despite a subtle gnawing at your soul, that you could easily ignore. It was a little strange not having Sans around, but it was nice to have some space to breathe in, and it had been over a week since you were alone, and with your stalker behind bars, you could finally relax and start getting your life back together.

"Hey punk! I'm home." Undyne came through the doors. You turned to look at her, game controller in your hands, playing Tomb Raider.

"Hey! How was work?"

She shrugged, "It was work. Oh, Papyrus is coming over for dinner."

You tilted your head to the side, brows furrowed.

"You sad that you're not going to see your lover boy?" She snickered. Your cheeks felt on fire, and you turned away, mumbling a whatever. She laughed, and headed into the kitchen. You resumed your gameplay. "Sans had to work. I know you won't ask, so I'm telling you." She hollered from the kitchen.

"What's for dinner?" You didn't feel like talking about the skelly so you were trying to divert the conversation.

"Pizza."

You grunted, and went back to your game. Shortly after Alphys came home, and started going through her anime collection, debating on what to watch later on. Not too much later the doorbell rang; Papyrus had arrived.

You closed out the game, and put down your controller to greet Paps with a gentle hug. "HUMAN, MY DEEPEST APOLOGIES, BUT SANS COULD NOT MAKE IT. HE HAD SPENT SO MUCH TIME AT THE HOSPITAL THAT HE HAD TO MAKE UP FOR WORK. HE WILL BE AWAY FOR THE NEXT THREE DAYS."

"Oh," You tried to force a smile, really missing the lazy skeleton's presence. "It's okay, I'm happy you're here."

Papyrus blushed and laughed, "WELL I AM GREAT AFTER ALL, AND I KNOW YOU ENJOY MY PRESENCE FOR IF I WERE YOUR FRIEND I WOULD ENJOY MY PRESENCE TOO!" You giggled.

"Sans is doing well?"

Papyrus paused for a moment, then gave you a very careful glance. "HE SEEMS A LITTLE MORE LAZY THAN USUAL. IT SEEMS WHEN YOU'RE AROUND HE PERKS UP. HE DID SEEM A LITTLE PUT OFF THAT HE COULDN'T COME TONIGHT."

When you heard that you couldn't help but smile. It was nice, to hear that Sans was impacted by you as much as you were him. "How could you tell he was put off?"

Papyrus' eyes bulged out of his skull, "HIS PUNS WERE MORE TERRIBLE THAN USUAL!"

You started laughing. "I'm sure Sans is fine."

Papyrus paused for a moment, thinking about saying something before nodding and laughing. You felt that what he had to say was important, but you didn't press it.

After serving out the pizza you all sat at the couch.

"I u-uh, thought y-you w-w-would like to w-watch Howl's M-moving Castle?" Alphys held up the DVD. You clenched your fist.

"Yaaassss, my favorite Miyazaki movie."

Alphys perked up, "R-really?"

You nodded, "Yeah, I mean, it's a almost tie between that and Princess Mononoke, and of course Spirited Away holds in the top five since it was my first Miyazaki film. Have we not had this discussion?"

She shook her head and eagerly popped in the movie, and you all began watching the movie. You could feel Paps glance at you every so often. At one point you met his glance and smiled brightly. He let out a soft 'Nyeh heh heh'. After the movie Papyrus yawned, and did a fake stretch.

"IT IS TIME FOR ME TO GO HOME. HUMAN! I HAVE A GREAT IDEA, I THINK THAT WE SHOULD DO A SLEEPOVER SOON!"

"What?" Your eyebrows climbed up in surprise. "Uh, I don't know. I mean… wouldn't you need to okay it with Sans?"

"NONSENSE, AND FRISK LOVES SLEEPOVERS, SO I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WOULDN'T ENJOY ONE AT OUR GREAT HOME?"

For the silliest reason, you couldn't help but blush and cave under his really simple argument. It felt like, if you didn't agree too, he would be heartbroken. "Yeah, I would love too. How about this week? I don't have to go into work."

The tall skeleton jumped with glee, and gave you a passionate hug, telling you he would text you the details, running out the door. As soon as the door clicked shut both Alphys and Undyne whipped around to face you, giving you an appalled look.

"W-why would y-you agree t-to that?" Alphys questioned

"Woah, I wonder how Sans is going to handle you sleeping over?" Undyne questioned.

You shrugged apologetically, "Papyrus was giving me that vibe that if I declined it would've been a personal insult." Both girls nodded, knowing that look all too well. "I'm sure it'll be fine… I mean… well…" You blushed, thinking about Sans, and how you wished he was here now.

"Aw, you miss him." Undyne cooed.

You glared at her, and rolled your eyes. "It's only my soul needing him." You grumbled and headed toward your room. Laying down you buried your face into your pillow and screwed your eyes shut. How were you supposed to sleep with this feeling? Missing him… so much…

More tossing and turning only agitated your stitches, and only after taking a Percocet were you able to relax enough to allow sleep to claim you.

Shout outs!

fangirl0012345: if they would talk, everything would be solved, huh? too bad Sans won't!

animedancer14: i'm so happy he loves the human. sadly we only get Sans through a text... :/ maybe next time we'll get more Sans.