The song is by evanescence it's called 'cloud nine. Inuyasha no mine!

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I'm really upset right now because yesterday in school (3-6-07) There was a bunch of black guys standing in a group and as my best friend Jack and I were walking by them to get a soda one of them threw their sandwhich at me (it was nasty and it hurt like hell) and it hit me in the head. They started laughing and called me an ugly white girl. Thats the reason they hit me... Not because I had done something to them but because I am white. Today I didn't go to lunch but Jack did, and taking the route he usally does to get a soda he passed them (unknowingly) and started telling him, "wheres your white bitch" and stuff like that. Jack just flip them off 'cause he knows I wont do anything for 2 reasons: 1. i'm a little to nice 2. If I get in a fight or if I tell they use the line 'because i'm black' and I get in trouble. ... They call me prejudice and I don't understand how I can hate black people when MY BEST FRIEND IS BLACK! (and loves anime) Jeffery is black but they tell them that they 'act white' because they listen to a little or a lot of rock music don't listen to rap and My best friend (female who i will not mention her name because she asked mt to) who like jap music too. I have about 4 or so other black friends and was the only white girl on both the varsity and j.v team for a while and not once was i 'prejudice' against them... even the one's who didn't like me would tell you that. It hurts me to be dicriminated like that. when my mom called the school and said it was discrimnation, the person said "Oh no it's reverse- descrimination because she's white and is being picked on my blacks." which is wrong discrimonation is 'haing' or prejudice against A RACE.

Well i think I have wasted enough time. I was getting better but the stress of that kinda put me back into a state of sickness but nothing to serious . Nothing's critical anymore.

on with the story...

Lacrymosa

chapter 12: really, the right way to go?

If you want to live, let live.
If you want to go, let go.

Kagome sat in the doctors office waiting for him to come out. After Inuyasha left her mother immeadiatly drover to the walk in clinic. Now she sat on one of those stupid table thingys, waiting for the doctor to examine her. Sighing she looked out the window, would Inuyasha ever forgive her for this?

I'm not afraid to dream, to sleep, sleep forever.
I don't need to touch the sky.

She put a hand to her stomache ... Could she really go through with this? Her mother had been one happy soul when she told her she was going to do it. Her mother even told her Inuyasha would come around eventually, he was just being stupid. Kagome opened her closed eyes and let a loan tear drop, there was no way Inuyasha was stupid. If anything all that amttered was Kagome's wellfare. Broken from her thoughts Kagome looked towards the door were the doctor now stood, smiling a bit. She gave a samll smile and nodded when the doctor asked, "I'm asuming you want the information ao an abortion befor going through with your own, correct". He pulled up a stool in front of her took a breath and began the explaination.

I just want to feel that high,
And you refuse to lift me.

" Ms. Higurashi, when dealing with abortion there are many types, in your case it would be Elective abortion. Now to abort a fetus surgically we have to wait and do it within the first twelve wekks of the pregnancy. Menstral exraction, is what i'm going to recromend for you, seeing as how early into the pregnancy you are. The good news is it doesn't require any cervical dilation. The procedure of abortion is preformed by openig the cervix of the uterus and empting it using surgical instruments and suction."

Kagome gave a sour face as the doctor finished explianing. Somehow the picture of a fetus being sucked out of her was not apealling. Sighing she looked at the doctor. "Should you really be telling me all this? Isn't there a doctor thing that there's a certin amount of information you're aloud to give your patient?" To this the doctor chuckled lightly, before answering.

Guess it wasn't real after all.
Guess it wasn't real all along.

"I'm not supposed to, but abortion is a big decision that most regret when it's to late. I inform them so that they will have knowledge of the subject of it, and hopefully make their decision easier to decide. I have gotten into a feud or two with other doctors, particularly the manager. They all claimed I was trying to change their minds, when actually I was being honest. It's better to face the truth unafraid then go in blindly, alone, and somewhat scared." Smiling he nodded his head and excused himself. As the door shut Kagome began think about the doctors words.

If I fall and all is lost,
It's where I belong.

It's better to face the truth unafraid then go in blindly, alone, and somewhat scared."

Was that what she was? She was blindly running into something that was only based on her feelings? Water began to fill her eyes. It was the same, she went ahead and agreed with this abortion without considering or even thinking about Inuyasha's feelings about it. Kagome looked down at her hands, rubbing them uncomfortably. She felt selfish, like all this was about her. Her, her, her, Like Inuyasha didn't matter. She wiped away the tears that had begun to fall and walked out of the doctors office, making her way to the doctors office. Right when she stepped through the doors her mother came up, wearing a big grin that pissed Kagome off to no end.

SMACK!!!

If you want to live, let live.
If you want to go, let go.
I'm never gonna be your sweet, sweet surrender

Not giving a damn about the doctors, nurses and clients around her, Kagome stepped right up to her mother and smacked the smile off her face. Literally.

Gasps could be heard from all around the area. " You bitch," Kagome started. Venom laced on every would that she spoke. " You think I would actually do something so horrible to get rid of an innocent thing that has done nothing wrong to deserve death?" Mrs. Higurashi just stared at her and gritted her teeth before replying. " How else will you get rid of this abomination?" (Slap her again Kagome! Hell I would!)

Guess it wasn't real after all.
Guess it wasn't real all along.

If I fall and all is lost,
No light to lead the way,
Remember that all alone is where I belong.

Kagome flashed her mother an evil type of smile, and said. "Well I guess you'll just have to push me down the stairs mom, this kid isn't going anywhere until it's due." With that she turned on her heal and started to walk away, only stopping once when she heard her mother shout. "Where are you going?" To which she replied, "To Inuyasha." Leaving her mother behind Kagome began her journey home.

In a dream,
Will you give your love to me?
Beg my broken heart to beat,
Save my life, change my mind.

The closer she got to home the more she began to worry….. Would Inuyasha forgive her? Would he listen long enough for her to explain…. That she had kept their child?

What would she do about her mother? Kagome shook her head with hopes these questions would be answered.

If I fall and all is lost.
No light to lead the way.
Remember that all alone is where I belong.

There's chapter 12…….. Sorry if it's kind of a drag …… Man I took my cat breed test and I got a 86. 4 questions wrong out of 30….. geez to I love dogs better EX: INUYASHA! (and a few others)

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