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The walk to the back alley that Valentine directed to is long and painfully quite. And that's a bad thing because I'm left to my own thoughts. I keep replaying the conversations I had with Alec, Simon, Magnus and Jace about them not being able to come. Thankfully, they eventually agreed that I could go alone after a lot of bickering back and forth. I don't blame them wanting to protecting me. Its Valentine we are talking about and after what they saw what happened with him beating up Sebastian and Jace and him coming in my room and threating me, I even want to protect myself. I knew it was going to be hard to convince them not to come. I just said that I didn't want them getting hurt and Jocelyn is coming with me. He wants Jocelyn so he won't hurt me. He's getting what he wants. But I know that wasn't necessarily true. He does what he wants whether I do something for him or not. I just hope that mom will be able to keep him under control. I'm obviously worried about that but what is on my mind right now is how Jace reacted when I said I would go. He offered to go like all the others but after one attempt, he stopped. I don't know what made him like that. He is usually protective. He fought with Valentine for heaven's sake. That was for me. To keep me safe but now he is fine with me seeing him again. Is it because mom is coming with me? Does he think that she can protect me? I don't know why he would think that considering she exited my life for so many years, failing to protect me from the wrath of Valentine. Have I done something wrong? If someone should be mad, it would be me. He called my mom in the first place. I don't know what he said but I can't imagine it was like 'Hey Clary's mom. I'm Jace, it's a pleasure to meet you but don't come here'. I shouldn't be worrying about this though. I should worry what Valentine is going to do and say. I don't even think he would expect that I am going to be there. Is he going to get mad and lash out at me? I'm not safe there. Frankly, I'm not safe anywhere. I should not worry about what will happen to me. What hasn't happened me? I have been through nearly everything. There is nothing Valentine can do that he hasn't already done to me. I need to focus on keeping the people I care about safe. I need focus on keeping him away from me and them. They don't deserve this. Being included into this life. My damned life but they refuse to leave it. I want them too. As bad as this sounds, I'm glad Isabelle left. She is stubborn and if she was in my room when Valentine was there, she would have argued and protected me with no common sense until she was unconscious. At least I'm able to keep someone safe.
We turn into the dark alley, Jocelyn looks down at me and in the darkness I can see her give me a nod. She squeezes my hand and somehow it gives me courage. It reminds me why I am here other than my Jocelyn forcing me. I will be strong to keep them safe. I will do anything to keep Valentine away from them.
"Ready?" I can hear the worry behind her voice and her shaking but I can't deny how strong she is being. She is being dragged back to the one person that drove her away. That takes more courage than me coming. I want to tell her not to act like my mom but she is doing this for me, I think anyway. I need to be a least a little bit nice. I hear the click of boots as Valentine emerges from the shadow. I don't know if I expected that there will be other people with him but no one is. It's him against me and mom.
"Jocelyn" He says in a dreamy voice that holds a harshness behind it. His eyes look at me in the darkness. "And Clary." He spits out my name like it's a disease. I narrow my eyes at him. He is a shadowed figure in the darkness. I guess it was a bad idea to come and meet him at night in a dark alley but I'm trying to not upset him or make him angry.
"Valentine" Jocelyn replies back to him. Her voice is firm unlike her body that is trembling. I can't help but feel bad.
"Why did you bring Clary with you?" He holds a harsh yet calm dilemma on. I know that at this rate, he will burst out in anger very soon.
"I said I would come on one condition. That was to bring Clary and she isn't leaving." I can feel his stare on me. It cuts through me like millions of tiny knives. I can't help but shiver.
"Well I guess she isn't young now. It will be good for her to know" Good for me to know what?
"Valentine. Stop. It won't do any good for her." Jocelyn looks angry at him. What is so important that I can't know?
"This isn't about her! This is about us! She needs to know that her life hasn't been all true." Valentines voice rises. Am I adopted? I have no idea why that is my first thought but it makes sense sort of. I've never fit in before in my family.
"What are you implying? I'm adopted?" At this point I wouldn't be mad if I was adopted. I least I would know that Valentines sick blood doesn't run in my veins.
"No. But your brother was. Well, sort of." He walks so close to me, I can feel his breath on my face.
"Valentine!" I can hear Jocelyn push him. He stumbles back and I wish I could see his face.
"No! You brought her here!" He yells at her and I can hear his footsteps of him coming close to Jocelyn.
"This is about us Valentine, not her!" She screams back. Here she is, arguing back to Valentine and sticking up to me. Before she was scared, pleading and trembling. It's crazy what fear makes us do.
"She will find out eventually. They go to school with her! What makes you think that they might not accidently spill?" He has taken a few steps back.
"What do you mean they are at my school?" I can't help but get a bad feeling. People at my school has a connection with Valentine? That can't be possible. I would know. Wouldn't I?
"Sebas-"Valentine spits quickly but I hear Jocelyn clamp her hand over Valentines mouth, making his words unclear. I could of guess Sebastian easy. What worries me is that he said 'they go to school with her'. He was implying there is more than Sebastian. Who else could be?
"Are you going to keep quite?" My mom hisses. It's silent for a while and I can't see if Valentine nods or not in the dark. But I hear Jocelyn step away.
"Jon was a murderer like me!" Valentine roars and I hear Jocelyn tell him to shut up but I'm not really listening to her.
"No." I whisper. He wouldn't have been. He was nice to me. He partied nearly every night but he isn't a murderer. He got into fights but there is no way he could kill someone.
"Yes he was! And he wanted to kill you!" He shouts at me and before I can realize what I'm doing, I slap him hard in the face.
"He wouldn't kill me."
"Ask Alec then"
I hope you liked that chapter. I thought it was a bit choppy and a bit short. All Well. I wonder what Alec has got to do with this? :)