I'm sorry but I lied. I had started this chapter from Gale's point of view but suddenly a brilliant idea came to me and I had to change views. I will be doing Gale's view soon though, I promise! This one's kind short compared to my other chapterss, but I hope you enjoy two updates in one day, you're so spoiled! Please keep reviewing my story, I love each and every review I get, it really helps me figure out to approach a situation if I come up blank! Thanks so much to all my reviewers and those who me to their favorite/alert lists, it really makes me feel warm and fuzzy to get the email alerts!
Katniss
It's been thirty days and still nothing from Gale.
Thirty-three days since he left for the Capitol, but thirty-three since any news of him as reached thirteen's command center.
I would know if any news of him came in, I pretty much live in the command center anymore. Peeta and Finnick have tried to get me to get some rest out of the command center but I refuse. I tend to Leta when needed because Peeta hardly ever leaves my side and has been making sure that Leta's well taken care of still in my absence. Every now and then though, Peeta, Finnick or Haymitch will somehow convince me to take Leta back to Peeta's compartment, but I return to command as quickly as possible once Peeta returns to the compartment too.
It's amazing how much Leta's grown in such a short amount of time. She's much plumper, but I've been told she's perfectly healthy and she's grown longer. Her dark hair has started to grow out, curling some. Her eyes become more blue with each passing day but I still won't let myself give into the hope that she does belong to Peeta, my sister and mother have blue eyes and my mom's from the same class and part of town as Peeta so it wouldn't be unusual. She's more alert, her wide eyes always searching around her and she squirms more in my arms, wanting to see all the strange new things around her. She's incredibly sleeping through the night as well, Peeta having to wake her up to bring her to me when it's time for her to be fed.
The thought of Peeta makes me sigh. He's been so understanding and supportive of me since Gale left. I swear he gets as little sleep as I do judging by the dark marks under his eyes, something that worries me and makes me feel terrible. He's such an amazing man and an incredible father, it's not fair what I've been putting him through. He doesn't even know why I'm so panicked about Gale since it's not uncommon to lose contact with a squad for a couple of weeks, especially ones that are going to be trying to get to the heart of the Capitol, but he doesn't push it, or so everyone in command believes…
Three days after Gale arrived in the Capitol, I received a letter from Gale. I had been so ecstatic that I had taken it and ran from the command center to new special spot in the woods surrounding thirteen that he and I had discovered, it was just a small clearing with dandelions and was surrounded by tall trees. I had ripped it open and had sunk straight to my knees when the words started to sink in. I knew the letter still by heart, whenever I was forced back into the compartment that Peeta and I shared, I read it the second I was left alone.
To the ever radiant Mrs. Katnisss Mellark,
Not what you were expecting my dear? Thought your dear 'cousin' was safe now that you've had a baby? I know the truth and many people still suspect it, Leta possibly isn't Peeta's and might be Gale's. I want this war to come to an end and I'm not above playing these dirty games with you.
You rescued Peeta and the other tributes from my mansion, but Gale will not be so easy to find. He's hidden where even your spies have no idea, only my spies in thirteen have an idea as to where he's at. I'd hate to have to kill off such a strong, independent boy or break his spirit, especially when he has a family he has to support….
If you ever want to see Gale again you will do exactly as I tell you. Tell anyone who asks who this letter is from that it is indeed from your precious Gale Hawthorne and that's he's alright, he's going on a special mission. Make them believe you, I know you can mockingjay. Also, you are to really marry Peeta. Leave no doubt in the minds of Panem that you love him and he's Leta's father. Once you have married him, I will release his where abouts to you.
Do it Katniss, we both know there's no point in resisting me.
Tell my lovely new granddaughter that her grandfather sends his love and that we soon will be together.
Cornelius Snow
It had knocked the breath out me. It had taken me a good ten minutes to catch my breath and gather myself up. I had quickly folded the letter up and shoved it in a pocket carelessly before returning. I told everyone who asked what Snow had told me, trying to buy myself a little more time. Now I was certain that Snow had meant what he said and was running surely out of patience. I knew exactly what to do.
" Here's mommy… I told you she'd still be here." I hear Peeta coo behind me. I look down at my watch and see that it's time for Leta to be fed and let out a soft sigh, knowing exactly what I have to do. He greets Fulvia before coming around in front of me, beaming. He loves getting to be with Leta and spend all this time with her.
" How's my special girl today?" I ask in a slightly higher pitch voice, one the doctors have told me is good to use with Leta.
" Good… She discovered her toes today and spent ten minutes giggling at them." He told me as he sunk into a chair in front of me and held out the blanket I used to cover myself when I nursed. The doctors had told me that in thirteen they had a formula I could use for her, but I wanted to keep things as close as I could to what it would be like in twelve had Peeta and I not been called to the Quell.
" Well she's a bright girl, I knew it wouldn't take her long to really start discovering herself." I giggle as I drape the blanket over my shoulder and start feeding Leta. I rock her gently and chew on my lower lip, momentarily forgetting about Fluvia being in the room as well.
" Katniss is something wrong?" Peeta asks softly and I look up to see him watching me curiously. His blue eyes are sparkling with concern and I don't like it, I want him to be happy. He should always be happy and not worry about me anymore.
" No, actually I have something I want to talk to you about." I tell him with a soft sigh. I'm so used to feeding Leta that it doesn't even bother me anymore and I can keep up a conversation now without gasping from surprise or trailing off in the middle of a conversation because I'm so focused on her.
" Well you can talk to me about anything you want Katniss." He assures me with a small smile, his eyes still fearful.
" Good because this isn't just a light subject and I'm sure that you'll want to really discuss this with me." I say, knowing I'm just struggling to find something to keep from facing his inevitable rejection. What Snow didn't realize in his instructions was that Peeta would never want to marry me, not after what I had done to him. " Peeta, I've really been thinking about it since you've been cured of your hijacking… Peeta I really want us to get married officially. If you still want me to be your wife, I want nothing more than for you and I to have the life we dreamed of in twelve, raising our baby together, me being the baker's wife, I can't think of anything better." My voice is trembling but my eyes keep on his, waiting for the no to escape.
Peeta's eyes go wide and I think his lips threaten to turn into a scowl for a second before he suddenly leans forward to kiss me. The kiss is hard, but passionate and after a few moments of shock, I relax and kiss him back just as passionately. " Katniss, I want nothing more than to marry you! Please tell me you're not joking." He pleads softly as he pulls back, gasping for breath.
I give him a small smile. I know him very well. He never takes sugar in his tea, double knots his shoes, can't sleep unless he has an open window, doesn't thrash in his sleep, only fears losing me in his dreams and his favorite color is orange, like the sunset. That might not seem like major things to someone else, but to me, they're everything. He loved me more than anyone on the planet ever could, his love for me was more important to him than his own life, a fact he's shown over and over again. Snow took him, tortured him and tried to turn him into a monster because he knew I cared so much for him. Didn't that count for anything? My whole body screamed for him and my heart ached to just stop resisting what really was inevitable, why was I trying to push him away so adamantly?
Gale had talked about him and I being fated because we had run into one another in the woods and our fathers had died in the same accident, didn't Peeta and I have a stronger story than that? Our parents once meant for marriage ended up finding love elsewhere. His father had made a point to show my mother and I to him the first day of class and not too long after he had saved my life, given me hope when I didn't have any? He had fought for me in our first games, had done everything to convince me to be the victor of our second games, taken torture from the Capitol and was now pretty much raising my new born daughter while I skulked. Where Gale had turned me away at the news of me being pregnant, Peeta had embraced it and had gotten so excited, making me actually look forward to when our baby was going to be born. Peeta was the one I was really destined for a voice in the back of my head screamed and at the moment, I couldn't ignore it.
" It's not a joke and I'm not just trying to use you Peeta, I mean it." I tell him honestly. Snow might have started to push me towards it, but this was my decision.
" Of course Katniss! Let's do this!" He exclaims, wrapping his arms around me.
I laugh a bit as Leta starts crying, not liking that she had been squished. He laughs too and when I pull Leta out of from under the nursing blanket. She's wailing and Peeta blushed lightly, taking her from me so that I can fix my top. He's apologizing to her and telling her the happy news about her mommy and daddy getting married again, this time officially so we could be a real family.
" Oh my gosh! We should do a propo!" Fluvia exclaims and both Peeta and I look to her with wide eyes, having forgotten about her. She looks teary eyed.
" What do you mean?" Peeta asks curiously, he hasn't even attempted a propo since I lied to him about miscarrying his son.
" We'll televise your whole wedding just like we did for Annie and Finnick only it won't just be recaps, it will be the entire thing! The exchanging of vows, the toasting, the whole nine yards! Live on every TV in Panem! Oh it will be so fantastic! I'll go talk to Coin and Plutarch right now, we can even get it done tonight!" She squeals before hurrying out of the room without another word from Peeta or I.
I look at him with wide eyes but he just shrugs. " It's still early in the day and so you have time to back out." He laughs as he kisses my forehead.
I blush lightly like I always do when he kisses my forehead. " I'm not going to back out Peeta." I tell him before carefully taking Leta back. " I need to tell my mom and Prim so I'll see you around bread boy." I joke before leaving command willingly for the first time since Gale left…
